This is a special song that I wrote and addressed to my wife to celebrate our Silver Wedding Anniversary. 25 years of marriage is quite a long time! To be honest, my wife is not fully satisfied with this serenade of a gothic vibe, because its lyrics is related solely to the darkest side of our long-term relationship, which obviously went through many different phases (most of them much happier than this song would ever be able to express). But I said: “honey, let’s get it straight, you are married to a Goth and a darkly inclined individual who has been glorifying dark romanticism for 25 years of our journey together. So, buckle up, and enjoy the ride!”

Kamil Walczak - MIDNIGHT SERENADE (Alt.)

This track is a result of my highly valued and close collaboration with Wojciech Makowski, who is still my dearest friend since elementary school. It started with a few lines of text in which Wojciech described his loneliness, sitting for hours in an empty room. This feeling reminded me of my childhood trauma and several drastic scenes that I experienced as a victim of domestic violence from my father, all of which happened behind the closed door of an empty room (although there were unwritten neighborhood agreements and social consent for this type of practices). We somehow put these things together and this sad song came out smoothly as some sort of mash-up. Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak (feat. Wojciech Makowski) - EMPTY ROOM (Alt.)

Em & Double-U - THE DARKEST HOUR

Em & Double-U - A BIRD IN THE VALLEY OF DEATH

Em & Double-U - MEANINGLESS

Em & Double-U - STROLLOGY (Mariusz Lubomski Cover)

The Spirit Of The Forest

Guides

Makowski Solo - GUIDES (Melodic Piano Song)

Recalling Tune

Makowski Solo - RECALLING TUNE (Melodic Piano Song)

"Ashes We Become" is a scathing alternative rock anthem decrying humanity's greed-driven environmental devastation. Through accusatory verses, it lambasts corporate profit-chasing, ego-fueled apathy, and the erasure of ecosystems, building to an explosive, repetitive chorus warning of self-inflicted ruin: "Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become." Intimate bridges offer fleeting hope for awakening, framed by soaring builds and atmospheric intensity, evoking urgent societal critique.Full Lyrics (Vocals Only)We're burning down the temple stone by stone
The profit margin carved in every bone
They tell us "growth" while the rivers run dry
And we don't question, we don't even try
The oceans choke on our ambition
Our children's breath—just another condition
We count the money while the forests fall
And someday there won't be answers for it allCan you feel it slipping through your hands?
Can you see it crumbling where we stand?We're digging deeper into empty ground
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become
Running from the sound of our own damage
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become
(Ashes we become, ashes we become)The boardroom laughs while the planet screams
We're trading futures for impossible dreams
Another species whispers its last goodbye
Another species has to die
But the shares go up—that's what matters
The sound of everything that scatters
We're building towers from the bones of the earth
And we'll never know redemption's worthCan you hear it breaking in the dark?
Can you see we're missing the mark?We're digging deeper into empty ground
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become
Running from the sound of our own damage
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we becomeWe call it progress when we poison the well
We're writing our own catastrophe spell
Ego makes us blind to what we've done
We're melting the ice, we're blocking the sun
The science screams but we refuse to listen
Our apathy is a weapon glistening
We're building empires on the graves of tomorrow
And no amount of money can buy back the sorrowOne last chance to wake up from this dream
One last breath before we follow the stream
Into the darkness, into the deep
Into a silence we can't keep
(Can't keep, can't keep...)Can you feel the weight upon your soul?
Can you see we're losing all control?We're digging deeper into empty ground
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become
Running from the sound of our own damage
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we becomeSo raise your voice or forever hold your peace
The time for silence is finally deceased
We're the architects of our own decline
Drawing the final line
But maybe, just maybe, we can still turn around
Before we all become just ashes on the ground
Before we all become just ashes on the groundWe're digging deeper into empty ground
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we become
Running from the sound of our own damage
Ashes, ashes, we're ashes we becomeAshes we become
Ashes we become
We're ashes... we're ashes...

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Ashes We Become

Fracture the Silence is a high-voltage blend of glitch-touched metalcore, emotional alt-rock and razor-edged rap elements. Built around the central idea of breaking through the noise inside your own head. Across ten tracks, the album drags the listener through wreckage, reflection, self-confrontation and, eventually, a cathartic rise.

Monsters Made Of Echoes

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Em & Double-U is a Polish-American darkwave band, formed online in 2019 by two childhood friends: Wojciech Makowski [a.k.a. Em] (vocals, synthesizers, samplers, programming) and Kamil Walczak [a.k.a. Double-U] (guitars, bass, drums, vocals, programming). In 1992-93, they were co-founders of the Polish coldwave band, A Herd Of The Rushing Vises, which broke up after recording a demo tape “The Bad Place” (1993). Since then, their musical paths have diverged to merge again during the Covid-19 pandemic due to their unwavering friendship and their intact passion for music. Since the very beginning, the band has been associated with the Metronome School of Music and Recording Studio in New York City. So far, they have released 4 full-length studio albums: "A Lethal Dose Of Sadness" (2002), "Beacon Of Hope" (2003), "Phantoms" (2004), and "Stolen Dreams" (2025). Presently, they are working intensively on their 5th album "Silent Suffering" (with original material from 2003). Wojciech Makowski is a prolific creator of piano and ambient music, while Kamil Walczak is an enthusiastic creator of gothic music.