This is a special song that I wrote and addressed to my wife to celebrate our Silver Wedding Anniversary. 25 years of marriage is quite a long time! To be honest, my wife is not fully satisfied with this serenade of a gothic vibe, because its lyrics is related solely to the darkest side of our long-term relationship, which obviously went through many different phases (most of them much happier than this song would ever be able to express). But I said: “honey, let’s get it straight, you are married to a Goth and a darkly inclined individual who has been glorifying dark romanticism for 25 years of our journey together. So, buckle up, and enjoy the ride!”

Kamil Walczak - MIDNIGHT SERENADE

The origin of this particular track can be traced back to 1992, when similar song was rejected by my then-band (A Herd Of The Rushing Vises) in which I played on a borrowed bass guitar (I couldn't afford my own instrument at that time). The lyrics refer to my hometown, the frustration of running around in circles, and a kind of artistic stagnation (or the syndrome of burnout). Enjoy!

Kamil Walczak - WHEN THE FIRE IS OUT ! (Alt.)

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Em & Double-U - UNCERTAIN OF THE DAWN

Em & Double-U - A DARKWAVE RESIDUE

Em & Double-U - THE ONLY THINGS I HAVE (Czerwony Tulipan Cover)

Hanging Graveyard - DAYBREAK RESURRECTION

Hanging Graveyard - CYBERSPATIAL PERMITTIVITY

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I tore the skin
I tore it raw
Red ribbons falling
No applause
The taste of salt
The sting of rage
A twisted grin on a burning stage


I feel it tear
I feel it bite
This fucking itch won’t end tonight


Rip it off
Rip it clean
Let the blood run
Let it scream
Fuck the pain
Fuck the scars
I’ll wear my wounds like shattered stars


The mirror spits
It spits me back
A haunted face
A shattered crack
I claw the edges
I tear the seams
The rawest truth in the darkest dreams


They said
"Stop scratching
Let it heal"
But I love the way the wounds reveal
A chaos carved
A venomous kiss
I rip my lips to feel like this


Rip it off
Rip it clean
Let the blood run
Let it scream
Fuck the pain
Fuck the scars
I’ll wear my wounds like shattered stars

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Rip My Lips

Black Out (Remix)

“Reprogramming” is a modern, self-empowering rock track about breaking free from automatic reactions that were once learned for survival.
It explores how deeply ingrained patterns — emotional reflexes, inner commands, and bodily responses — continue to run long after the danger they were built for has passed.
The song begins with a stark realization:
for years, life has been lived on autopilot.
A wrong tone, a look, a moment of tension — and the system instantly switches to “war mode.”
Not because the present demands it, but because the past still does.
In the verses, old internal scripts come to the surface:
stay quiet, be reasonable, make yourself small.
They once kept him safe.
Now they hold him back.
The chorus marks a decisive shift.

Reprogramming doesn’t mean erasing the past — it means consciously overwriting it.
Line by line, reflex by reflex, the narrator chooses who he wants to be when things get difficult.
The second verse introduces compassion instead of self-judgment.
Triggers are no longer reasons for shame, but signals to pause, observe, and understand.

The focus moves from reacting blindly to responding consciously.
In the bridge, the metaphor deepens:
the body, the mind, even the blood still carry old programs.
They brought him far — but now they block the next step forward.
Changing them requires courage, patience, and a new inner language:
I decide.

By the final chorus, the message is unmistakable:
he is more than the code written into him by others or by circumstance.
He doesn’t deny his history — he integrates it.
And with awareness, he begins to write a new present.

“Reprogramming” is a song about reclaiming agency —
not through force, but through consciousness.
Not perfect.
But awake.

Reprogramming

Em & Double-U is a Polish-American darkwave band, formed online in 2019 by two childhood friends: Wojciech Makowski [a.k.a. Em] (vocals, synthesizers, samplers, programming) and Kamil Walczak [a.k.a. Double-U] (guitars, bass, drums, vocals, programming). In 1992-93, they were co-founders of the Polish coldwave band, A Herd Of The Rushing Vises, which broke up after recording a demo tape “The Bad Place” (1993). Since then, their musical paths have diverged to merge again during the Covid-19 pandemic due to their unwavering friendship and their intact passion for music. Since the very beginning, the band has been associated with the Metronome School of Music and Recording Studio in New York City. So far, they have released 4 full-length studio albums: "A Lethal Dose Of Sadness" (2002), "Beacon Of Hope" (2003), "Phantoms" (2004), and "Stolen Dreams" (2025). Presently, they are working intensively on their 5th album "Silent Suffering" (with original material from 2003). Wojciech Makowski is a prolific creator of piano and ambient music, while Kamil Walczak is an enthusiastic creator of gothic music.

Em & Double-U - UNCERTAIN OF THE DAWN

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