my favorite view ft. rouri404 (johnnyfriend)

prod by xona <3

-lyrics-
oh i
hate when i see my
thoughts collecting signs
of everything i could’ve liked
but i can’t help but realize
I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and i know that’s all on me

love, we can run for days
and leave footsteps our way
your face has been engraved 
my memories this day
i don’t know why
i like 
my hatred in my eyes
maybe cause i
don’t lie
about me wanted to die

so it’s my own self
that i hate so much
that i hate so much oh~
but they don’t know what i look like
i feel scared of what they’ll hide

of, of what they hide

oh i
hate when i see my
thoughts collecting signs
of everything i could’ve liked
but I can’t help but realize
I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and I know that’s all on me

and I’m scared of who I’ll be
if they like on who they meet
i lost touch to me, i need
another week to feel free

so i can hide my face in the moment
i don’t think you understand what I’m holding
and it’s race of thoughts i can’t even focus
when everything feels like it’s 

broken
and i swear it eats me up
and i can’t change who I am 
when i really want that feel to go
go~
and i really know 
who you think i am?
who you think i am...

uh~ who do you think i am ?

who do you think i am ?

I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and i know that’s all on me

identity

spotify

IDRWTAI//kennedyxoxo + Kenny Orlando + noahmadethiss + SINNERSDEDX + killmesumday + sace6

And
You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

Moral of the story everyday I'm on the same shit
I don't wanna talk about a thing it aint gone fix it
Oh no
Tell me what the fuck is going on cause I don't know bro
I keep holding on just by a thread this shit a tight rope
The voices in my head said ima be dead no matter where I go
So that's why I get high it help me balance out my lows
But if you ask me why ima tell you I don't know
I don't know yeah yeah

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

I'm just doing me
Could give a fuck what they think
Paranoid in public
Dropping E in my drink
Yeah I'm rolling now
Rolling round not coming down
I don't fuck with people
Always falling out
I can see your see through
Oh you think I need you
You must be confused
I just need the chemicals
Tweaking in the restroom
I hope that it ends soon
Stacking money staying true
That's like all I can do

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

highs & lows

spoitfy

highs & lows w/ hamilton (p. methboiswag+frevel+roxa)

scars

scars [takuori]

lyrics:
@777evil
even on my worst nights they love me want me hate me baby 
you don’t got to realize your silver tongue and words won’t change me 
even tho i let you down 
i still think it was the best decision 
i need to get my head straight 
cause i been losin it losin it
i don’t think that i’ll ever change 
im not new to this im true to this 
so what if you’re asking me for closure 
you can talk shit all you’ll ever be is a poser 
me and the gang blow the motherfucking place up 
catch me in the club with my brothers and we turning up 
even on my worst nights they love me want me hate me baby 
you don’t got to realize your silver tongue and words won’t change me

@soliooooo
took me 10 months to know you

now everyone that i know is below you

now there’s a hole in my heart ya it’s so true

i wanna make it to the with or without you

and her tears fucked it up again 

inside she’s worse than a friend 

playing games ya, she thinks it’s pretend

ya it’s torture it might never end

i’m a lost cause i’m my only hope

ya i’m the one to call if you’re ever gonna choke

1 call left ima be the last guy you know

gotta throw it back you should learn from last guy ago

i’m the problem feeling like the but of the joke

wouldn’t doubt it that’s everything seems to go

couldn’t save you now everything feels like a stroke 

now you’re guts on the tree and you’re blood on the oak

ya sick of lying feeling like i’m always under oath 

had a fear of boredom now i got a story of my own

always staring at the clock and shit i don’t know what i’ve done 

ya you’re words are like a gun always blow me up and run

@nokerbforever
yeah ive been running away
for u and me its to long i know
now im walking through places
that i never thought id show up for

baby how u doing
i know ure not fine
dont know how to prove it
this shit is not right
tell me where we moving
u said ure alright
but baby i see through it
when i look in ur eyes

tongue tied
i never wanted this to end
girl its alright
something i never shouldve said
im cutting all ties
im in the spotlight
im clearing dark skies
while im chasing bright lights

sippin on this beer
mix it with liquor
im off the pills and i still really miss her
im seeking thrills but the voids getting bigger
im still right here but u cut me out the picture

2 2, 2020
i might be the one 4 u but u wont let me
i i knew, my visions steady
i told u ill make it thru but u forget me

worst nights

worst nights - evilmiku, solio, nokerb

conceal [akasinceridad]

Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 
Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 

Hope you got your lenses I'm tough to read like
Like a poem there's meaning that you just can't see oh
And whether it's meant to be or whether it was left to me ah
Yeah I've gotten this way without forcing keys don't force the bleed no
Would you really resent me if I let go of these maladies in my head
Leaving me lessening my pain in such a way that leaves me dead

Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 
Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 

She placed her hand on my collar bone 
Said I wasn’t even going home alone  
Try to keep it alive even though we were doubtful 
Keep telling lies yeah I’m sure it's a mouth full 
Yeah I’m sure it’s a mouthful 
And I’m sure it feels good to believe 
In each and every thing you say 
But it won’t but it won’t be my way

poor thing (dead spyro)

i wanna be near you

i know i'll never feel again
cuz you think im ignorant 
burnt like a cigarette
i like your temperament baby

i step out my house with the balmain all the way on
3-0 MGs to the dome im boutta be gone
red, red carpet i wanna see us on it
everyday i swear this house is haunted

teeth, teeth!
put money under my pillow
teeth, teeth!
make her eyes roll like 'rillos
teeth, teeth!
im a real big fish you just a minnow
(chomp, the fuck?)
i been countin bands in the tour van rental

(hi, hello)

my boy gon' hit him cuz he don't know better
paid from the show and i go buy a sweater
blow all my money just tryna impress her
(woah)
she typing a blog with capital letters
we got a new trendsetter
kingdom is up and that's just the header

you already know
they're gon buy my merch and then wear all of my clothes
they're always gon tell me that im better on my own
that's a lie
(and then i'll tell them i-)

i wanna be near you

i know i'll never feel again
cuz you think im ignorant 
burnt like a cigarette
i like your temperament baby

i step out my house with the balmain all the way on
3-0 MGs to the dome im boutta be gone
red, red carpet i wanna see us on it
everyday i swear this house is haunted

teeth, teeth!
put money under my pillow
teeth, teeth!
make her eyes roll like 'rillos
teeth, teeth!
im a real big fish you just a minnow
(chomp, the fuck?)
i been countin bands in the tour van rental

Teeth!

(oh oh oh, oh oh oh)
the trees are losing leaves
and i am losing hope
i got nowhere to be
and i'd rather be alone
send me to the heavens
maybe i'll find peace
i don't wanna stay here 
i just wanna leave

trees

prod by me :>

lyrics:

"sorry I haven't talked to you in a while.."
"I mean its only been a- [???]"
"..which I guess in the grand scheme of things isn't that long"
"isn't our life like a blip in the cosmic calendar or something.."

talk to me, i love your voice and it's features. 
love on me, give me everything you offer

down again, not near the top, again
i'm lookin down, again, not one to talk, again
i'm feeling lone, again, no one around, again
i'm killing time, again, still stuck on you, again

and i been..

down for a while now, feeling like im dead now
can't muster the courage to talk to ppl im 'round now
dried eyes from crying out, hoping someone hears how
im dying in my room, singing lonely songs to deaf walls

down for a while now, feeling like im dead now
can't muster the courage to talk to ppl im 'round now
dried eyes from crying out, hoping someone hears how
im dying in my room, singing lonely songs to deaf walls

"makes me hate myself that I've already gotten used to the idea of her not being here"

"in a year, I'll maybe think about her every once in a while. and then she'll become an anecdote"

“a thing to say..”

"..I knew a girl that died"


"with the added bonus.. of- ..she died because of me."


"maybe I should hate myself"

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sorry for being dead lately. 
life isn't good as of now. 

...

tomorrow is another day.

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worst nights - evilmiku, solio, nokerb

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