Main character delusion and protagonist complex

Light Novel Syndrome (Main Character Delusion)

Written, Performed, Recorded & Produced by Barry James Streek.

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MchTVFl4Hjo

I Woke Up Feeling Better Than I Woke Up Feeling Yesterday

THE AGE OF PLASTIC POP

The day that fell

Words and Music by Stefan van Walsum
Gitarren, Bass, Drum programming and Vocals by Stefan van Walsum
Mix and Mastering by SvW at Nandis´s Cavern-Studio, Germany 
Copyright by Stefan van Walsum, 2020

SEI MUTIG! (Der Text) 
Durchgezechte Nacht mit verbogenen Gedanken.
Vernebelte Sicht durch Alkohol und Nikotin.
Aufgetaucht in einer Frühstückskneipe.
Irgendwo im Nirgendwo von Berlin.

Ich fühlte mich einsam und auch mies.
Nicht die geringste Spur von Liebe.
Was läuft hier nur falsch?

Fader Kaffee mit bitterem Geschmack.
Meine Blicke leer aber immer suchend.

Schräg gegenüber saß ein Mädchen.
Heller Teint und schwarzes Haar.
Ihr Blick traf mein Herz.
 
Was ist jetzt nur los?
Ist sie das große Los?
Im Hals `nen fetten Kloß!
Wie schaffe ich das bloß? 

Irritiert schaute ich zu Boden.
Ich wünschte sie käme rüber zu mir!
Kurz darauf blickte ich wieder auf - 
und sie stand ganz nah bei mir.

Und sie sagte:
komm sei mutig!
Zieh mich ganz fest an dich!
Hey, sei nicht so feige!
Glaube an dich und mich!
Verschließe nicht die Augen!
Schaue mich an, ich stehe vor dir.
Sei bitte mutig!
Küsse mich jetzt und hier!

Ich dachte:
komm sei mutig!
Ich zieh` sie ganz fest an mich!
Ey, ich bin nicht feige!
Ich glaube an sie und mich!
Verschließe nicht die Augen!
Schaue mich an, ich stehe vor dir.
Sei bitte mutig!
Küsse mich jetzt und hier! 
Küsse mich jetzt und hier!

Sei mutig!

gitarrer magnus lögdberg trummor&bas Jens - Joel Evaldson
Sång Lisa Johansson

Vila(kom tillbaks) Improvised

Thanks yet again to Amanda for lending her lungs to this. Please listen to her other great tracks on @phoebeelena.

Love
How you been?
In this world
of rattling limbs?

In the morning crawl
you can have it all
But I don't want it
any more

If you're ok then I'm ok
And i don't need no-one
Isolation
we just miss the sun

And we run and we race the heart
and we run
we glow red in the dark
we glow red in the dark

You look like
a wet weekend
this must be 
how it ends

You must be
my only friend
taking up 
oxygen

And we run with the rolling hearts
and we run
we glow red in the dark
we run back to the start

We've long memories
(if you're ok then I'm ok
and we don't need the stars in isolation)
We run and race the heart

Isolation (by Amanda and Paul)

I haven't posted in a while with everything going on, i guess it felt selfish for some reason. That being said I sat down and recorded this thinking  maybe it's a good time to let some of that emotional current rise to the surface. I started this song with a broken compass, but somehow this song is a gentle reminder that brings it back home.

Everything

Blue Diamond Fog

Part of a new batch of songs we are finishing up and using to learn to master better on our Tascam DP24.

As lonely as this night is, it won't be very long
til I can see her brown eyes
and tell her I was wrong
I've been so very sorry		
and not just for the heartless words I said
I hope she's still my baby          
and not just the pretty girl next door

I hope she doesn't keep me hanging on 
Quite as long as I did her
and even though I probably deserve much worse	
I just don't think that I'm that strong

As lonely as this night is, it won't be very long
til I can see her brown eyes
and tell her I was wrong
I've been so very sorry
and not just for the heartless words I said
I hope she's still my baby
and not just the pretty girl next door

I hope she'll take me back again tonight
humble as I am now
and even though I probably deserve much worse 
I hope she'll take back her crown

I hope she doesn't keep me hanging on 
Quite as long as I did her
and even though I probably deserve much worse	
I just don't think that I'm that strong

Lonely as this night

I'm not average in the way I write
I'm not average in my thought
I'm not average in achievements
Though I'm pretty much self taught
Do I sense a bit of jealousy
When others don't have nought
I am not average

I'm not average with rhyming couplets
I'm not average in what I know
I'm not average in my singing voice
And I'm not average down below
Something's swelling more than my head
Which still continues to grow
I am not average

I'm not average as a person
I'm the second coming of Christ
And thinking how I look
I'm not average in my eyes
And I certainly wouldn't be average
If I was betwixt your thighs
I am not average

I'm not average

I'm less than average with muscles
I'd lose each and every fight
I'm less than average at talking
And I have diminishing sight
I'm trying hard not to admit it
But alas I think I might be less than average

I'm average in my lifestyle
And the way I style my hair
And if you did pass by me
It would be like I wasn't there
I need some reassurance
But you probably don't care that I am average

I am average
And I don't want to be average!!

I'm not average at boasting
I can cook the tastiest meal
And if you had my lips upon you
You'd sure like how I feel
But I have a pulsating paranoia
And its making me all ill
I don't want to be average

I don't want to be average!!!

I’m Not Average

Prolific musician, author, photographer and oddity.  With influences ranging from the lofi pop of Guided by Voices, the gothic melodrama of Nick Cave, the glam of Bowie and the nakedness of Iggy Pop - this is Marc Freak.  Former frontman of Freak Circus and Dead Joe.  An experiment in DIY and lofi.  The odd bum note here, the even odder bum note there.  But with art do we care?