you're allowed to take care of yourself ♡

“The bruises on my body I gave to myself”

you’re allowed to take care of yourself

and i start to cry and you think its something you did 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

BUT ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AND I DONT NEED HELP CAUSE THESE BRUISES ON MY BODY I GAVE TO MYSELF YOURE ALLOWED TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

jesus knows that I've seen enough//too tired to cry too weak to even move kills me

a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

Age Of Delilah

Selby Wall - ethel cain

God's Country (demo) - Ethel Cain (solo Version)

Ethel Cain - Football

a portrait of my love on her knees - ethel cain

tube - ethel cain

i dropped this here cause i wanna listen to it

ethel cain - Ad Nauseam (Demo)

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

Played during an Instagram live stream on November 8, 2021. I tried to polish it a bit to make it somewhat listenable and failed spectacularly. Anyway, here it is.

All music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - There's Something Wrong With Me / But He Doesn't Know It Yet (Full - LQ)

lyrics:

Baby love’s not love if it’s one sided
But you say love isn’t deep, just a wave, and we’re gonna ride it

I’m his little white bar queen, causing scenes, watching him get mean over green while i’m dancing on the kitchen table
I like your smile best while there’s blood dripping from it
I’m his little baby, dirty little lady, sweatin into grey sheets
Cause i told him maybe, he’s working on it
We don’t talk about it

He’s got me fucked up
Boy you got me fucked up in a bad way
But i still stay
Cause i like the game Do i have to come and find you
Do you want me to
Do i really have to come and find you
Do you even want me to

Jump cut, and he’s fucked up, and he’s six feet deep in my guts, 6 months, bad blood, and i’m still here for the good stuff, but he never likes to talk about it
Why don’t we ever wanna talk about it

I tell him all the time he’s gonna get himself killed one day
But he never listens to me, baby, you should listen to me

I see now how angels can fall this far
It’s not because of how they are
It’s just who they are
It’s just who we are
It’s just who we are

hitch party - ethel cain

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

ethel cain - make room in hell

ethel cain - lead poisoning

Ethel Cain - The God

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

i love uploading unreleased songs from my favorite people in the world

bruises ♡ ethel cain

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