Prod- Kado


I’m not doing well I’m not feeling like myself 
Haven’t slept for several days feel it wearing on my health
Living in a haze with my shelf life expired 
Made a few attempts but it seems I’m a survivor 
Had my feet to the fire for my entire existence listen life Is a prison unless you live with no limits 
God as my witness I know I’m going to hell
Till the day I die you’ll find that I’m the flyest in the commonwealth 
The fyest that I ever felt,
Got my lyrics tatted 
Give a fuck about a Gucci belt 
This shits automatic 
Been a while since I hurt myself I’m proud to say I turned around a life that was quickly going south 
Now I just sit around and watch the world around me degrade 
As I prepare to be impaired for all the rest of my days 
Sick of running scared with my fears im face to face 
Cause I want to get better but I’m set in my ways


Lately I don’t care if you hate me 
I’m just thinking that maybe you’ll miss me around
I cant wait to be alright 
I just want to live my life
I don’t really need another chance to let you down 

Now I been going through a phase
On the search for better days
Patterns flip into a labyrinth this life is such a maze 
It’s amazing that i got nearly as far as I did
That I avoided Jackson state or getting stuck with a kid 
It’s my flock i ain’t about to let no wolves in my pen 
Man I been there and done that, quick to forget 
Where I’m at and where I been and what I’ve done in the booth 
Now I feel like Paul Peirce I’m the motherfucking truth 
Ain’t no jealousy inside of  me I’m proud of my friends 
Ima live the life I want until the day that it ends 
It tends to be that people leave and maybe that’s for the best 
If you not coming on the ride then we’re not sharing success 
I’m not sharing my press, in my prime this the pinnacle 
Time flyin by still cynical, It’s cyclical 
The way that I’ve been feeling so don’t ask  Where my head is 
I been saying for a minute I been blessed with a death wish

Degrade

When I Needed It

fine.

i can't find the prod :( if anybody knows his name plz lmk

shoutout @melmige

when i step out the rental house i’m feeling fifa w/ my kicks
adolescent, my fits
heard you got a new man, why you staying on my dick
stand on this shit
on sum “u could do much better if u wasn’t such a bish”
..that’s why shizu doesn’t miss

see our contrast stark like it’s ironman
ur heated up like Bluestar; i’m the fucking fireman
it’s funeral season all black on my attire
hit the track in one evening spent a minute in retirement
mr rock how flows Will slap a nosey nigga
chrome could blow a nigga top clean
he dug/doug deep and then, now his dome is dimmer/dimma
fairly odd problem solver make u wish a turner w/ you
but bigger picture jus me, yet six figured
when ur money counter’s black screen w/ no balance
this no challenge
hurl spit, his word salad
it’s songwriting line-of-fire and ice ballads

(be sincere for once i promise it won’t hurt you
post-ironic posturing i promise it’s a clear view
i got on your intention it’s embarrassing you consider yourself sinister
a minute in the mirror got u cracking under pressure)

spent some time in a rut
spent a couple hundred keeping hunger barred out enough
spent a couple dozen months pulling myself out the mud
spent a ton of fucking energy keeping air in my lungs
suffocating off the apathy i’d kill for your complaints
the suffered casualties have left me battled scarred in disarray
hard and weathered by reality my dreams been going gray
desaturated by mentalities developed in the fray
but i’m aware of where i’m fine
me and shizu hit piano licks like elton 89
the sacrifices will be worth it
artificer with my words
twist phonetics to the rhythm i could spit until it burns i can’t stop
what’s the alternative if i do
i’ve exhausted any option beyond entry level food and service
fuck if that’s my future fuck if i don’t make a move
and flip the script and kick off i’m mister tech deck im off
grimey spitting vitriol on non-profit beat rips
sliding with philosophy, horosha does the drum kicks
match the tempo that my heart is beating cuz i live for this
and if you don't, don't fuck with me i promise we are not friends

fire//ice (ft. melmige)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
i got alot going on in my head
i'm sorry i lied
but i swear im doing better lately
started playing guitar & picked up my keyboard
i started going to therapy
now i'm trying to learn music theory
its not much but its a start
its a start for me
this is my dream
and it keeps me from losing sleep
i write song after song
no matter how deep
no matter what any believes
this is me and what my story

i'm not sure about this anymore
i'm tired i wanna give up
i guess i finally got what i asked for
i'm sick and tired
i' dont wanna do this anymore
i'm not sure about this anymore

whats the point of waking up
whats the point of not giving up
whats the point of falling when ur up
like damn, im living my life
i'm sitting online
i'm trying to not cry
everything will last
and im tired of falling apart

6 words echo in my head
i can't let the pain win
demons are knocking
but i cant let them in
i lose my fucking mind
every god damn night
im okay, im alright

i'm not sure about this more
i'm tired i wanna give up
i guess i finally got what i asked for
i'm sick and tired
i' dont wanna do this anymore


anymore (outro)

lyrics

i feel like im the number2 
tossing me aside oh i rly was a toy to u
straight off of the jump i had a read on u
u knw it aint nun new
i had high hopes and i trusted u
look at what that trust will do
oh ive tried to bluff , u been bluffing to
i know it aint nun new

im turning my brain into dust
i cant complain itll toughen me up
i cant complain cuz im ending up numb
i cannot live when ur telling me off
im boutta freak out 
she say she want me now
what abt when i was down
what about when i was out 

i feel like im the number2 
tossing me aside oh i rly was a toy to u
straight off of the jump i had a read on u
u knw it aint nun new
i had high hopes and i trusted u
look at what that trust will do
oh ive tried to bluff , u been bluffing to
i know it aint nun new

numbr2 (flesh + taurs)

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive, 

shitty take, what y say, ik ur joking right,
we gon pull up with them toys, we staying up all night, 
yea u better watch ur back they're lurking with the knife, 
you will see the light, 
the fire will ignite,

eating all these shots, when will I just let go, 
I won’t work w u, a snake since the get go,  
I’ve been feeling blue, I deserve a halo 

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

im a bad guy, put them bodies in a freezer, 
telling lies in my head, I don’t need her,
But they know I do all this just to please her

and I know that I’m fucked up crazy,
2 blades on my hip cuz they hate me ,
and I promise I won’t change as of lately,
2 pills in my cup it’s amazing x2

sit back roll up imma get me high,
why u chattin all that shit, wastin all my time,
20 years up in this life n I don’t feel alive,

get me high [tiresss]

hope u like =)

tell me if it’s mutual 
tell me that I got you,
I’ve been riding round the town 
im searching so I pop 2 
don’t know what is wrong with me 
just tell me you don’t want to,
don’t know what is up with me 
just tell me that I got you 

you would shoot me right now if you were right here right next to me ,
bitch im laying back in off the dope im off the exctasy,
I don’t hang around that many people I got enemies,
they try and drag me down but im so up, and they so envy me

I’ve been feeling like a ghost do u remember me?
and I don’t think so cuz the smoking blur ur memory 
and I’ve been distant from the ones I call my family 
and i dont think so cuz the smokin blur ur memory

how u ride with a enemy,
crawling over like centipede 
this been all of my destiny
I’ve been tryna new recipe 

I’ve been seeing new entities 
I’ve been silent assassins creed 
I will take down my enemies 
all the devils are watching me

got u [tiresss]

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2

blame the pavement (mackk)

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Soon as I finish work ill be there 10 ill make it happen
I cant help but stay up thru this night im off a gram of magic
Every time we fight I gotta tell myself u never mean it
I cant help but sleep as soon I mix my cup and see it bleeding
I cant help but sleep as soon as I do my cup and see it bleed
Its too hot in here im tryna recoup but I count breath
I fucked up the dose and now the drugs alone controlling me
I need u to lift me up and try to put back the soul in me
I got 20 bucks in the pocket of my diesel jeans
Im just tryna do whatever I could to be wanted
I could buy a deeg and relax while u holding me
Never in my life did I think id be a zombie
Marks on my hands I think doomsday upon me
Burns on my back scratch marks on my face
I got bruises on my waist but im still so cocky
Could u Help me with my heart cause I cant tell the bad apart from the good
Anymore
And even if I could would I wanna know which one I am

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

Its racks on my head she wrapped round my head oh no
U got me in a headlock baby
If u couldnt wait how the fuck I stand a chance on my own
Its hard when half the people here hate me
Its good having shoulders around u until its elbows
U tryna take it left I know u tryna take it where I dont wanna go
U keep tryna take it personal and that game plan is starting get old
Im in the basement and im starting grow mold
I been here forever what’s a couple nights more
Ill keep waiting here and until im part of this floor
She reach over to feed and I just watch the blood pour

Hoodie on top of my shirt alone is 7 bands
Blood on top my 32’s and 12 mens
She might be a demon but somehow she heaven sent
Soon as I stop my breathing she reach out and bite my neck

luvbitez (jabarionthebeat x prodcrater x vogomusic)

Prod. Kado go show him love

Lyrics:

I can’t believe I got as far as I have without the help you said you’d give me 
Different life and I might be thanking you for sticking with me but i guess
That it’s all for the best 
Mom was correct 
I’ve Cursed since seventeen but since my birth I’ve been blessed  
Now I have to go and get all these feelings off of my chest
hasn’t made the feeling better but it’s bringing In checks
Every day is still a struggle every night is a test 
I know one day ima blow up it just ain’t happen yet 
Had to stay in my home when all the homies already left they 
Chasing dreams or chasing knowledge just acquiring debt 
And then they only come around when they see you at your best
I’m sorry that I yelled I’m just so fucking upset 

I’m so Tired of feeling like I’m just wasting my breath 
Like I’m screaming at a being that I ain’t ever met 
Like god above abandoned me he knows I’m a threat 
Maybe when I’m judged I’ll find some solace in death 

I know you don’t need me 
Could you please just let me down Easy 
When  you leave what do you do? 
It’s obvious I mean nothing to you 
Couldn’t care less I see right through you 
When I’m alone I think of you 

You know I’m just a person
We get what we deserve and 
I’ll shoulder all this burden 
Now that I’ve been deserted 
Didn’t say I’m perfect 
Didn’t even say I’m worth it
I just thought that maybe you’d give a fuck that I’m clearly hurting 
Working on a different version of who I was
I gave everything I have it seems it’s never enough, in the bluff 
With the homies going out of our minds 
keep it up and someone’s gonna gun me down in my prime 
I can’t believe I got as far as I have without you there you never cared and I knew it I blew it it’s so fucking rare 
To find a genuine love when you in it  
You know that it’s real 
But I’m better off alone I’m gonna die on that hill
Confined in my head
that’s all I want that’s all I need but in the end I always seem to get the better of me 
I can tell that you got somewhere better to be 
In the end I know there’s always someone 
better than me 
cool

Fade

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

anymore (outro)

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