produced by nevrfall
feat @sensei2-211865477

sensei lore #2: sensei wanted a cheeseburger really bad 

my lyrics; 
rain falling like tears on the window
i dont have a place to go 
smoking weed till i choke
woke up after a night of getting stoned
got a grl n 
she got a grip on my throat
but i like it tho
  
its my fucked up way to cope
i rather feel this way than alone
i wish u where there on the day i broke
lately i feel like im looking into my own soul
im taking these drugs until i do feel alone
my friends jus tend to move along
i was always a after thought
some1 they always forgot

rain falling on the window w/ sensei

produced by autrioly

lyrics;

ill ruin my life
ill say fuck u to my friends
im still stuck here in the end

so please gimmie a sec
i dont wanna get up
i dont wanna waste away in this bed
and i havent slept
i been here all week
and everyone i care about has left
this depression is killing me
the anxiety is making me wanna leave
so why do i even wanna stay
each day goes gray
im driving my self insane

clothes in my hamper not in my dresser
i havent left my bed today
maybe i should text her
all i do is wake up n goto work
than i go home i feel all the hurt
i live in this world that i created
now im filled with self hatred
if i had this place
why did i make it this way?
is it to late to change
i think its too late
u can see the fear in my eyes
like 3 days ago i died 
so why do my friends tell me im gonna be fine
when i barely feel alive
i been up all night
laying here staring at the morning light
ppl say my future is bright
than why do i feel like im not gonna make it

so please gimmie a sec
i still dont wanna get up
i dont wanna waste away in this bed
and i havent slept
i been here all week
and everyone i care about has left
this depression is killing me
the anxiety is making me wanna leave
so why do i even wanna stay
each day goes gray
im driving my self insane
i think i need a break

so why do i even wanna stay

first single off my album ghoul in tokyo <3

produced by jolst x brody
mix and mastered by me

lyircs: rly rough lyrics i rerecorded and changed alot lol

ill keep to myself
always living in hell
in the sewer is where ill dwell

i jus wanna be by myself
PLEASE DONT CRY
it jus wasn't the right time
kill me quick itll be over and youll be okay
JUS LET ME BE LIKE THIS FOR THE DAY
jus tell me how you really feel
IF I QUIT RIGHT NOW 
ILL ALWAYS FEEL THE RAGE
I KNOW YOU CANT LOOK ME IN THE FACE
for a breakdown this is pretty tame
maybe i am the one to blame

wait up
uh?
i will not fw you 
i will not hit u up 
ill keep to myself
like u said
u couldn't help anyways?
i guess talking about my mental health gets me payed
while i go back to u to get played
for a breakdown this is pretty tame
maybe i am the one to blame
im so desperate
i keep begging you to stay
but things are never the same

breakdown

blood in the water pt2

produced by cxrter x the sound clown

feat @chasecomeback

lyrics;

(@m4rsyy)
i can see blood in the water
but theres no one to stop her
i can see blood in the water
someones drowning

i can feel the hole in my chest grow bigger now
I can feel these walls come down
when i started falling
i didn't think id hit the ground
and you know words hurt
they do cut me down
all i want is for you to be here now
and im jus on the k tonight
and u jus hit me with a k tonight
and my grandma mad at me and i jus want her to be proud
god i forgot how all this felt

should of kept my emotions off
could of locked them away jus so theyre gone
but i couldn't live that way
everyday started to merge into the same
so

i can see blood in the water
but theres no one to stop her
i can see blood in the water
someones drowning

(@chasecomeback)
i really tried to help
i dragged your body out
the water's cold tonight
your touch was frozen ice
and now you'll figure out
why i am left alone
a window to a home
for which the lights are out

and now ur seeing my frown
but ur coming around
safe in the ground
cause the noise is so loud
i had want to hold you
could you be there?
and now im starting to drown
like you did in the water
never wanted to
now im moving away
thought u would stay
different state but the same day

and i just go around
and now ur leaving me now 
leaving me now
and now u walk around
the path i stay 

(@m4rsyy)
i can feel the hole in my chest grow bigger now
I can feel these walls come down
when i started falling
i didn't think id hit the ground
and you know words hurt
they do cut me down
all i want is for you to be here now
and im jus on the k tonight
and u jus hit me with a k tonight
and my grandma mad at me and i jus want her to be proud
god i forgot how all this felt

i can see blood in the water
but theres no one to stop her
i can see blood in the water
someones drowning

drowning in the pond w/ chasecomeback

guitar by kingtheta
Additional production and engineering done by me

throwaway from Obsessed 

wrote this after missing her birthday and sleeping all day </3

lyrics;
girl its getting late
everythings starting to get strange
im pulling images out my brain

girl its getting late
and i dont wanna talk
its getting late x3

girl its getting late
and i know how this ends
i know my fate and whats at stake
i dont wanna be awake
girl its getting late
im going to bed
im sorry i made you wait
im tired of sitting by myself alone
at home
its january its getting cold
i wanna write my story
i dont want my friends and family to worry
i write these songs about me

girl its getting late
and i dont wanna talk
its getting late x3

getting late

produced by  recycleBin & veilonme
mixed and mastered by me

first time doing 4 layers on each side idk trying sum different

heavily influenced by familypet - payphone & feel the way i feel

lyrics;
do u feel the way I do
cuz I hate that feeling too
do u feel the way we all do
do u wannabe somebody new
are you tired of nobody caring about you
do you feel the way i do
do u feel the way i do

in retrospect i should of known this was gonna happen
but in reality i couldnt of seen the future
so why dont i just focus on the present
lately my thoughts been collecting
and i dont answer my texts
do u feel the way i do
cuz i hate that too
i dont wanna do this without you
this shit rly changed me
ur the monster that made me

do u feel the way I do
cuz I hate that feeling too
do u feel the way we all do
do u wannabe somebody new
are you tired of nobody caring about you
do you feel the way i do
do u feel the way i do

somebody new

produced by tiresss
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics;

im so deep in this shit u cant save rly save me
back on the drugs and i blame myself
because who am i to blame anyone else
all u tried todo is help
i watched all my walls fall down
i washed all my memories drown
nothings real so how am i supposed to fucking feel
im just doing lines of ket til my mind fades
im this close to being 6 feet in this ground
because im all that i hate

i told my family id get clean
now im this close to 6 feet
i told u id get clean
fuck it im laying 6 feet

it was me n u ruling the universe
than time took its course
it was hard to realize it wasn't jus the drugs that where my addiction
my real addiction was you
and with nothing to hold me together i just end up feeling worse
being alone is a curse
than why do i self destruct to feel worse
im trying everything but nothing seems to work
jus lay me in the ground with the worms
atleast than i know theres no one i can hurt
dont get to close to me
because i always leave
dont get to close to me
im not someone u need
ppl ask me who i wanna be
but i barely made it thru the week
this songs starting to get deep
wtf does this mean
i keep begging the lord please
but i end up feelings so weak
so i take this shit 
just so i can fall asleep
god im so weak

back on the drugs and i blame myself
because who am i to blame anyone else
all u tried todo is help
i watched all my walls fall down
i watched all my memories drown
nothings real so how am i supposed to fucking feel
im just doing lines of ket til my mind fades
im this close to being 6 feet in this ground
because im all that i hate

i told my family id get clean
now im this close to 6 feet
i told u id get clean
fuck it im laying 6 feet


6 feet deep

produced by recyclebin x Atrxyu 

yeah we get along 
but for how long
before u hate me
and i return to the place where i belong
its all wrong
and in time i will be forgot
no one will even notice im gone
like im always trying my best
but all they can see is the wrong

look in my brain
do u think i wanna be this way
do u think i wanna feel this way
look in my brain
im trying to drift away
holding onto what i care about but i just keep on floating away
its not like you cared anyway

i know a lot of people
ive met alot of people
nobody has your best intentions in mind
but i believe in you
i thought u where different
prove my twisted mind wrong
before i get lost in this fog



get along

produced by recycle bin x jolst

lyrics;

she only hit me up when its dark out
old friends and family hitting me up from my past
because they know ya boys a star now
running thru bands i lost count like a hour ago now
i-i-i got this weird feeling now
i dug this hole im gonna climb out

all they do is talk talk talk 
all you do is pocket watch
23 in a month
ima keep recording until my heart stop
all they is do is talk talk talk
all you do is pocket watch
23 in a month
ima keep recording until you stop streaming my songs

you know the people that prayed on my down fall are the ones i do it for
i try to prove them wrong
i write like 6 songs a day
but only 2 make it off the chopping block
putting in the work knowing this is all i got
putting in the hours because this is what i want

you jus keep dragging me down
im lost n i dont wanna be found
do i rly know what this songs about
nooooooo
i got this weird feeling now
i dug this hole ima climb out

all they do is talk talk talk 
all you do is pocket watch
23 in a month
ima keep recording until my heart stop
all they is do is talk talk talk
all you do is pocket watch
23 in a month
ima keep recording until you stop streaming my songs

im in this alone
im in this alone
this life

dragging me down

first single for my birthday ep :)

produced yonah the goat
one w/ the boys

feat @web @avxid @sensei2-211865477 

lyrics:

try to figure them out i dare you.

lights on w/ web, AVXID & sensei

cover of hypocondriac
reprod by me
originally performed by brakence

i wasted all my serotonin on you

hypocondriac (i wasted all my serotonin on you)

heavily influenced by dying for certain by 9tails (my favorite 9tails song)

produced by Shade08

lyrics;
yeah, yeah, yeah uh, yeah

im dying for certain
so just close the curtain  
im always worried
i guess im dying for certain
i guess im always hurting
nothing i do is working

im better off numb

im better off fucked up
im better off numb
i know i wasn't the one u loved
but i was convinced i was
and i was to stupid
i thought it was love

but it was nothing more than a short high
i used u like a drug n couldn't get enough
i couldn't even focus on myself
i couldn't even put the bottle back on the shelf
like fuck here i am asking for help
like last night i got drunk
and didn't tell anyone
because i dont wanna disappoint anyone
u know how many times i fucked up
i counted 331
u think thats a fake number but i kept count
because i cared enough
but i didn't care enough to be better
it doesn't matter 
there is nothing here
and i dont wanna make this song to disrespect her
i dont wanna send this to her
because i am still hurt 

aye, yeah
fuck it
im dying for certain
so just close the curtain
im always worried
i guess im dying for certain
i guess im always hurting
nothing i do is working



dying for certain

mixed my midwest emo w/ my hyperpop sound
produced by clarkcavers
mixed and mastered by me + additional production (added some parts at the end)
sample from bojack horseman

lyrics:
(marsmal)
its all in my head
its all in my head
is there anything left
its all in my head
its all in my head

i think about my imperfections
i cant even pay attention
looking at this mirror and i dont wanna look at my reflection
always worried bout the perception
but i let it happen

im always looking down 
cant even make eye contact

i did this to myself
leave me here on the ground
god i dont want any help
i jus wanna go back to my cell
im a monster trapped in my own hell

shes got these claws
i got these flaws
im lost without a cause
just lay me in the ground with the dirt and moss
i said id change at any cost

but now all i think about is my imperfections
i cant even pay attention
looking at this mirror and i dont wanna look at my own reflection
always worried bout the perception 
but i let it happen

am i doomed (i think i am bojack horseman)

recorded in my garage on my at2020
originally performed by familypet
piano from ayzi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHulEKeKBR4

doctor, doctor (onetake)

produced by scottysplash
this is the sc edition 

gonna remove the 9tails hook for spotify thats why its gonna sound different

\\9tails//
your now hearing about the comedown
slept in late put the song out late
always sad asf when i walk around

\\mars//
man im sick of being sad all time
i gotta fuck up my life to write these sad songs
because when i drop the hype shit you all talk shit online
like i know its my art but if i drop something you dont like
how am i supposed to pay for this life
how am i supposed to get it together and feel alright
when all i wanna do is die
fans push me to the ledge
now i know how miles felt towards the end

\\mars//
u are now hearing about the comedown (the comedown)
drinking & smoking every night hoping my organs shutdown
i slept in late put the song out late (3am)
like fuck the hate i jus wanna feel okay (okay, okay, okay)
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i was too baked  (im to high)

\\mars//
time flys by
i try and try
i cry and than i lie
but at the end of the day 
im the one with fucked up mind
my morals never really mattered
especially when my ex left my heart shattered
came home after a week binge 
and everything is scattered
climbing up the ladder

\\9tails//
your now hearing about the comedown
slept in late put the song out late
always sad asf when i walk around

\\web//

\\mars//
u are now hearing about the comedown (the comedown)
drinking & smoking every night hoping my organs shutdown
i slept in late put the song out late (3am)
like fuck the hate i jus wanna feel okay (okay, okay, okay)
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i was too baked  (im to high)

\\9tails & mars//
your now hearing about the comedown (comedown, comedown)
slept in late put the song out late
always sad asf when i walk around (walk)

the comedown w/ web

produced by pekarot
non profit

lyrics;

something about being deadweight

dead weight

produced by xy softshade, I used this beat years ago but decided to reuse it.

lyrics;
said you are all about trust and loyality
than why would you act like a snake to me
i hope you know youll never hear from me again
(youll never hear from me again)
where you really my friend
or where you somebody trying to play pretend
(jus trying to play pretend)
there isn't time to figure it out
i don't need another fake friend

fake friends
fake relationships
tell me u trust me again
tell me u love me again
both of u can fuck of im sick of it

opened up about how i fucking feel
you go and tell her everything
where you really my friend
just for one fucking day can i be okay
you all ruined my birthday
i got these self destructive thoughts
i tried to be open i trusted you
its funny i was the only one defending u
get in line stick the knife in my back
i separated myself from it for now
are you really happy
maybe he was right about u i should of picked the right side 
because u always to seem to be mad at everything

said you are all about trust and loyality
than why would you act like a snake to me
i hope you know youll never hear from me again
(youll never hear from me again)
where you really my friend
or where you somebody trying to play pretend
(jus trying to play pretend)
there isn't time to figure it out
i don't need another fake friend

(ugh fuck i didn't wanna talk about you but fine)

i loved you and u used it against me
keep me on the end of a rope for so long
than told everyone i lied about everything
was it all in my head
was it all pretend
either way i know what i felt 
nobody hurt me like you do
i got secrets i could tell
but i kept them to myself
i just vented about how i felt to them
sorry i cant talk to my friends
u told me u still liked me in texts a month ago
where did that all go?
probably just so u could hit me up when ur broke

fake friends
fake relationships
tell me u trust me again
tell me u love me again
both of u can fuck of im sick of it

said you are all about trust and loyality
than why would you act like a snake to me
i hope you know youll never hear from me again
(youll never hear from me again)
where you really my friend
or where you somebody trying to play pretend
(jus trying to play pretend)
there isn't time to figure it out
i don't need another fake friend

desire

happy 4/20 
non profit
produced by justdan

lyrics;
freestyled lol

weedweedweedWEED

reprod me

a cover of we hug now by sydney rose

lyrics;
You don't see stars here
They're just city lights
I think back to where you live and how you can see the entire sky
It's occasional, sometimes I'll see the moon
And I'll think of you

My mom will convince me and I'll get the courage to ask
We will get coffee in Canton and you'll nervously laugh
When we hug cause we don't hug 
We never use to do that
We don't do that

Sometimes I go to sleep
And I'm still 17
You still live down my street
You're not mad at me
And in that dream
I'll say everything I wanted
I haven't found what I needed
No one's come close to you
And I don't think anyone will

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me

When it happened to me
When it happened to me


we hug now

produced by hollowprpl & tiedforsilver

non profit 

lyrics;
yea yea
mars

i woke up slumped as fuck
i always got a potion in my cup
i always got pounds of weed i can roll up
wanted attention but i cant even show up
writing songs hoping i blow up
killing myself with drugs
and stupid bitches ill never love
but i gotta suck it up n fuck it up

its 7 am and im wating for the morning light
i record these fkedup thoughts into my mic
i get fucked up n i record
feeling myself
i can fuck up everything in 1 night
i dont even gotta try
not gonna lie i jus wanna vibe for the night

rolling my weed
i got a soul i wanna keep
im recording every week
i do this for my team
fuck it up fuck

i woke up slumped as fuck
i always got a potion in my cup
i always got pounds of weed i can roll up
wanted attention but i cant even show up
writing songs hoping i blow up
killing myself with drugs
and stupid bitches ill never love
but i gotta suck it up n fuck it up

doing to much
doing to much
i b doing too much
i prefer this lifestyle i like waking up fucked up
i got 8 grams of weed to roll up
i got like a line of lean to pour up
i got like a gram of ketamine to snort up

i woke up slumped as fuck
i always got a potion in my cup
i always got pounds of weed i can roll up
wanted attention but i cant even show up
writing songs hoping i blow up
killing myself with drugs
and stupid bitches ill never love
but i gotta suck it up n fuck it up x3

slumped

produced by lostcage

been rewatching supernatural :)

lyrics;
i used to be one with in the swamp
than i was drowning in the pond
now im knee deep in cedar lake
at this rate i accepted my fate
all i wanna do is create
but every single person i know is filled with hate

chain wrapped around my body
i dont wanna be lonely
i guess im the monster in somebodys story

i made it to the safe house
please cleanse my skin with holy water
prove to everyone im a monster cut me with silver
but it didn't effect me because im still me deeper in my core
legends of creatures reaping through the night
has been written in the lore
i was hunting u because i thought u where a siren by the way you singing
but at the end of the day i wasn't sure
she stuck a poison dagger in my spine
maybe if i drink her venom ill find the cure
because baby really my intentions were pure
but urs weren't u where a siren by the way you singing
always bring me closer and closer
pull off my skin & flesh
drink my blood, eat my organs i love the torture
you are really just the monster
thats why i put it in this song
i knew it all along
look me in the eyes n tell me im wrong
and ill stop, thats what i thought


i used to be one with in the swamp
than i was drowning in the pond
now im knee deep in cedar lake
at this rate i accepted my fate
all i wanna do is create
but every single person i know is filled with hate
you cant really save me

cedar lake

produced by grayskies

tell me you love me? x 100000

do you love me?

track #1 from my ep say goodbye

produced by miercoles

lyrics;

so you all hate me
but ur the ones that created me


six feet from the ground dont see so deep now
i mean its jus another hole in the ground
my soul will never found
im trapped behind this seal
like whats the deal
do u rly think i had time to heal
i didnt even get time to think

lonely road pt.2

produced by miercoles

recorded in my garage on a at2020 sorry for the shitty quality.

time will tell

first song off my new ep pondscum 2 w/ wraithontheporch

produced by wraithontheporch

feel the pain
feel the pain again
no i will never trust again
i started letting the voices win
i started letting all my demons in
i give up i cant do this again

if i die dont resurrect me
i died for a reason 
u dont wanna interact with me
im disgusting, vile the world is better off without me
i got the worms n spiders keeping me company
like they never loved me  

focus, focus, focus
fuck up everything i care about in my life 
jus so i dont gotta get close to this
cut off everyone
shut off my emotions

disgusting

produced by branwen

co-written by jerbearbruh

say goodbye

produced by miercoles 

lyrics;
i cant handle this pressure
i dont wanna hear anymore im sick of the lectures
everyone telling me im wrong
nothing is worth my time i cant see the big picture
some people cant change and i need to accept that
trying to find a path but i cant read the scripture
is this really the future you pictured
my visions going blurry maybe drugs im taking to kill me quicker
just because im testing them doesnt mean there safer
and i know deep down i cant live this way
ive become estranged from everyone
my brain is sick and deranged 
its getting strange
read between the lines
play her games
goto bed wake up and dread being awake
is the the future i wanted
but its what i got and i cant stop it
im dead in my tracks
everything is dying
how much longer can this last
the planets gonna explode
i got nowhere to go
i got lost
but now im home
i take this shit
n i start to float
u wont pick up the phone
so i take a pill to cope
im killing myself



killing myself

feat; *man @st-a_r-man
produced by redredred
mixed and mastered by nyhtmare (@666mare) n me <3

mylyrics;

slid in her dms
telling her ima be her favorite demon
told that bitch im baked
she said its getting late
but all i wanna do is be awake
got faded on my plane
cuz i hate heights
jus spent 5 racks on my chain
now im waiting on a call from my bank
haters told me "mars stay in your lane"
i mean if u dont evolve or change
everything will sound the same
polluting the beat with my thoughts
i buy whatever i want
this years been crazy
like i finally got fans waiting on the next drop
its looking up cuz i jus hit that ex bitch with a block

i been in the stu inhaling balloons
i been in the booth doing lines until im on the moon
got so faded i can even whip the coupe
and this bitch always in a mood
like im not even ur dude
stop being rude
popping shit like im in the 80s on queludes
im the wolf of wall street
im the realest in the scene

smoking the percs cuz i wanna hyundie w/ *man

produced by wraithontheporch

lyrics;
i cant heal these toxins
u make me feel like im trapped
you got me boxed in
u said im toxic well then ill just rest in my coffin
i take a pill n i go clock in
song after song im locked in
i can see the future brighten
than i take the shit i found in my pocket
thinking to myself i should stop it

life falls apart
all the walls fall down
in this space station
i was happy
now that i inch closer to the ground
i just hope every one was proud
n girl u dont got explain yourself
u honestly just where prolly protecting urself
we should really take care of our mental health
10 days no rest
10 days no text
and i only got like 2 days left
i crashed on this planet
and everyone i loved thought i was dead


i cant heal these toxins
u make me feel like im trapped
you got me boxed in
u said im toxic well then ill just rest in my coffin
i take a pill n i go clock in
song after song im locked in
i can see the future brighten
than i take the shit i found in my pocket
thinking to myself i should stop it


toxins

mixed, master & produced by nyhtmare @666mare

lyrics;
Gave my soul away, now it’s hard to feel alive.
Alone in the silence, I just want to escape,
Broke every bond, left behind the faith.
Demons surround me, they call me his slave,
But I keep on moving, one foot in the grave.

Dark skies, rainy days, I can’t see the light,
The Trust is dead, love don’t feel right.
She lied, I cheated, heart full of spite,
But the drugs numb the pain, make it all go away when i take flight.
Sinking too deep, ain't no way to heal.
I pushed her away, yeah, I made that choice,
Now I’m screaming at the void, but no one hears my voice.

Cold nights alone, heart full of scars,
Every time I close my eyes, I'm behind these bars.
Cheatin’ on love, don't care if I fall,
I'm a prisoner of my mind, please just answer the call.

Devils in my pocket, demons in my veins,
Wasted my life, but I’m numb to the pain.
She looked at me, thought I’d change,
But I broke her heart just to stay the same.
Alone in my thoughts, no one to save,
She ain’t coming back, no, not anymore.
Every drug I take just takes me farther,
Nightmares collide, but I’m still here,
Drowning in sorrow, I’m facing the fear.
No love left, no more trust to steal,

Gave my soul away, now it’s hard to feel alive.
Alone in the silence, I just want to escape,
Broke every bond, left behind the faith.
Demons surround me, they call me his slave,
But I keep on moving, one foot in the grave.

grave

pondscum2

produced by wraithontheporch

lyrics;
i got lost in the forest
its so cold now
trying to figure out the words for this chorus
leaves fall down and its not even fall
texts ding on my phone, i switch it to dnd 
now i hear it ring but im not picking up your call
im getting tired of this shit
hear i am again listening to lil xtra make it thru fall
grandma can hear me crying down the hall
im getting tired of this



lost in the forest

made this for fun but i am also not Canadian but close enough LOL i was told by the starman to post this

produced by  brody & homesick

freestyled

inspired by this song its been stuck in my head https://soundcloud.com/gaspareplsssbro/i-am-freddie-dreed-w-lil

freddie dead freestyle

22 | songwriter, producer, engineer and vocalist

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

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