6 feet deep

produced by iof.

lyrics:

i knew u would lie
now the drugs going through my brain
how the fuck did i end up here
with the another line on my mirror
white powder falling from my nose
yk how this shit goes

rock star life
we living like we on tour
and wake up passed out on the floor
if u dont like this life style 
theres the door
i knew she wouldnt be loyal she was a stupid
i gave u all my love
all i wanted is the same
nothing more
 
each day 
i decay
each day
i stray way
from who i wanna be
im trapped in my mind
i lie all the time
and i know 
you dont know me anymore
you dont owe me the time of the day
i will say it again
i knew you would lie
ou

i knew u would lie
now the drugs going through my brain
how the fuck did i end up here
with the another line on my mirror
white powder falling from my nose
yk how this shit goes

its 2022
i hope to see it  through to the end
i dont have much friends
i can count them all on one hand
dont tell me im a loser

 
each day 
i decay
each day
i stray way
from who i wanna be
im trapped in my mind
i lie all the time
and i know 
you dont know me anymore
you dont owe me the time of the day
i will say it again
i knew you would lied

decay (iof)

prod ryini,


theis song is almost 2 years old 

(lyrics shoutout chase for transcribing.) 
*intro*
i still need you
i still think about you
i still need you
i still cant see you
times are getting tough, fuck
i still need you
i still see you
i still love you (why?)

i still need you (i still need you)
i still love you (i still love you)
i cant stop thinking about you
its almost been a year
and every day i still shed tears about you
all my dreams are about you
baby please come back, it was me
it was always me, i always treated you like shit
i always did the dumb shit that you hated
im lying in the dirt, pretending like it doesn't hurt
i have no energy left to exert
im still grieving but im moving on slowly
im still thinking about you being gone
i dont have any more energy left
im lying in the dirt
i still need you
i still miss you
i still love you
i need you (fuck)
i cant even focus, maybe i could have given you flowers
open my heart up like a lotus, rip my heart out while nobody notices
im still grieving, its getting harder every day
im sorry, i dont know why i cant get the words out
i dont know why we couldnt talk it through,
im sorry im still grieving, the thoughts are about you
i love you to death my dear, but youll never be coming back
thats my biggest fear
im sorry, fuck im sorry
im sorry, i could have done better
i'm sorry (x4)
it was always me (x5)

i still need u (ryini)

original version of cold
orignal 2021 recorded on my at2020 and using stock plugins
prod. iof <3
feat. @sendflowrs
mixed & mastered by me & sendflowrs

lyrics:

wake up 
i dont wanna wake up
make up
i dont wanna make up
fake love
im sick of fake love
im tired
ive had enough 

im high all by myself now
i cant think out loud now
all the voices echo loud now
i never meant to lie
but i gotta say good bye now 

im sorry
im sorry
sorry
im sorry
sorry
im sorry
im sorry
i cant hold myself together
im sorry
woah
the world feels so cold
the world feels so cold
cloudy skys
and morning rain
all i do is complain
i dont feel good anymore
every day is the same
my mind is falling apart
and the days fading to gray
woah
the world feels so cold
the world feels so cold
the world feels so cold
cloudy skys 
and morning rain
i dont know what ima do today
so im watching my world fade away
look me in the eyes and tell me my soul doesn't look faded
my hearts still jaded
the world feels so cold

sendflowrs:

(so cold)
you dont know what youre missing 
everytime i close my eyes hes the one that youre kissing
and i just wanna feel something 
i dont need to see your hand i already know ur bluffing 
n im so fuckin stupid
i thought it was love, i guess i was deluded, 
and im so sorry youre moving,
its been 3 fucking years,
and im healing the bruisinge

cold w/sendflowrs [original 2019 (BONUS)] (iof)

First single of my ep "Incase you didn't know" releasing 1/1/24

credits:
w/ @chasecomeback
produced by @pekarot_161
mix by me & chase
mastered by me

lyrics:

(chase)
i cannot change
those thousand things
just strangle me


(mars)

Don't start shit with me save it for another day
ur name hurts me 
than when i see ur face it takes over my brain
ur all i can think about
i wish u stayed
i wish i could of told u i changed
i still do everything for attention
im still the same

w/ u i was different
i know its too late
im covered in these cuts from my blade
im covered in these wounds on my heart
baby it is too late so take my name out ur phone
go home to him and forget about me
i always did things better on my own

i'm just probably in my head like the usual
im prolly passed out in my bed thinking about u
all because ur face is beautiful
nothing i did or said is excusable
n u only stayed around cuz im useable
yeah it wasnt love
my friends all tell me im delusinal
but ion care cuz i need u

Don't start shit with me save it for another day
ur name hurts me 
than when i see ur face it takes over my brain
ur all i can think about
i wish u stayed
i wish i could of told u i changed

im still the same (im still the same)
 
(chase)
still the same.
beautiful pain
she lead me on
shes stabbing me
and done me wrong
i cannot change
those thousand things
just strangle me
intwined in thoughts
youve done me wrong
this time ill stop
but thats where ive done wrong

(mars)
u made me never wanna love again
u made me wanna do better again
now im drinking again
u made me never wanna love again
oh oh 

Don't start shit with me save it for another day
ur name hurts me 
than when i see ur face it takes over my brain
ur all i can think about
i wish u stayed

(chase)
i cannot change
those thousand things
just strangle me

beautiful [w/ chasecomeback] (pekarot)

credits:
produced by @pekarot_161
w/ @chasecomeback
mix by me & chase
mastered by me

lyrics:

i never get sleep when i try to close my eyes
i never got the time of day over any other guy
i feel the distance coming 
and im not really good at goodbyes
never eat, never sleep, always awake but i dream
im getting tired of making up lies
u can see how tired i am jus look me in the eyes
i jus wanna be with u tonight
but u dont care and all u wanna do is be right

ur just a east coast summer heartbreak
ur just a west coast sober heartache
and another mistake
ur just a girl in my dreams
how much more can I take
ur jus the girl i think about
how long can I wait

(chase)
that night she left me
my fucking heart bleeds
young dumb emotions
one pill to focus
ur the one to be taking my life
all these dreams where im spendin my night
killin me what a way to be alive
heart aching from someone i liked
trust breaking wouldnt seem to be enough
looking down what a way to feel above me.

east coast summer heartbreak [w/ chasecomeback] (pekarot)

credits:
produced by @pekarot_161 x @jolst
w/ @chasecomeback
mix by me & chase
mastered by me

lyrics:

(mars)
i need a breathe of fresh air
u dont got a care in the world
all u can do is stare
ion even care anymore 
life isnt fair 
like u even care

sitting on my porch smoking blunts
im so sick of life
sitting here looking at my gun
but i wont pull the trigger
the ghosts linger in here
id be lying if i said i had nothing to lose
and id give it all away jus for a second with u
your eyes shine bright like the moon
maybe i tried moving on to soon
all my days fill with gloon
im off the ground
ur not happy now
but u dont know what todo now
dont make a sound
answer my call and listen
give me 5 seconds of ur attention

chase:
5 seconds of attention babe
5 seconds
5 hm
5 seconds of attention
now ive walked away
cant save the day
why would i stay 
if youre hating me
its quite a lot to bare
this isnt fair
i was unaware
i was fucking numb
till you came around
see ur grinning smile
feeling crazy now
ive never felt so alone in this place

(mars)
i need a breathe of fresh air
u dont got a care in the world
all u can do is stare
ion even care anymore 
life isnt fair 
like u even care

(chase)
you never even cared about me babe
whats the point if u never planned to stay

fresh air [w/ chasecomeback] (pekarot x jolst)

produced by boyfifty.
mix and mastered by me

i just finished rewatching season 4 of the 100 and im in my feelings if yk yk

lyrics:

they say the mission to mars is destined to fail now
we got 3 days to the count down
i want my story to be told
maybe this message will be found
im writing it with the last bit of ink in my pen
its getting hard the breathe
im going to take my last breath
im afraid i dont have much oxygen left

looking back at all the choices i made
wish i had a chance to say the words i never could say
thinking about the happy memories
wishing i was with you on earth
but its to late
the red sun burns my skin
im hoping u moved on quick
forget me baby i dont want u to trip
i have one bullet left
hoping i make the choice to end it quick
holding onto my last day hoping to be saved
but i know theyll never make it
they already started digging my grave
just know i died doing what i loved
maybe my memory will be enough

they say the mission to mars is destined to fail now
we got 3 days to the count down
i want my story to be told
maybe this message will be found
im writing it with the last bit of ink in my pen
its getting hard the breathe
im going to take my last breath
im afraid i dont have much oxygen left

mission to mars (boyfifty)

credits:
produced by @pekarot_161 
w/ @chasecomeback
mix by me & chase
mastered by me

lyrics:

(chase)
i left this place the last time
its so clear to me
i came to this in the worst way
can feel you me?
it doesnt mean anything first in the morning
i can not forget what you had want with me
wanted to be there for you as i always
i didnt do that to you in the first place
say you been loving me yet it hurts babe
ive been treated here in the worst ways
you had enough of me so youve gone away
you couldnt say it to my face so you left me


(mars)
i left this place 
its so clear to me
can feel you me?

baby u can take the pain away
but u disappear 
and each day i decay while ur gone
i sinned i frayed now im ripping this bong
i fell apart and wished u stayed, now im writing this song
i choose this path so ill lay in my grave
until im finally gone


(chase & mars)

i left this place the last time
its so clear to me
i came to this in the worst way
can feel you me?

last time [w/ chasecomeback] (pekarot)

credits:
produced by @pekarot_161
w/ @chasecomeback
mix by me & chase
mastered by me

lyrics:

(mars)
incase u didnt know
i was easy to replace yk
u said u wanted a break
needed space to grow
now look at us
the only thing that did grow
was the hole between us
ik im young dumb and stupid
im only 21
u jus turned 22
when im not around u, i always feel like im falling to my doom
u make me feel okay, ur voice is angelic it can heal every wound
maybe ill be there for u
even when it gets tough

incase u didnt know
i love u like i used 2
incase u didnt know
youll always be my home 
incause u didnt know
im all alone
why wont u answer the phone

incase u didnt know
u where my home
now the world feels so cold
why wont u answer the phone
theres nothing left at home

(chase)
i fucking tried so hard
wanted to see you smile
drunk nights a waste of time
i tried to make you mine

they ask what she did to me
what a word to bleed
but i wont ask you
i stare at our history
as i try one time to text you
you kill the best of me
another blunt of weed
another sleepless night
a single reason to escape the mind
to find the reason why
you had always cried
that fucking person to spend your life
cause she would bring you up
and give you peace of mind
but she left
and destroyed your soul
begun to dig the hole
lay in your grave all cold
replacing all that i had known
im fucking dying alone

now youre hoping for one night
she wanna hear your voice
and she wanted you there again
but you seperate the noise

(mars)
time did take a toll on us
thats why my arms covered in these cuts
and my hearts covered in rust
u couldnt handle my love
i was never enough
and i could never trust
now all i wanna do is say im sorry

incase u didnt know [w/ chasecomeback] (pekarot)

remade this on 12/17/2023 so im releasing the og version as a random single. 

not gonna be public not happy wit this mix / sound

STAND OUT BECAUSE I DONT FIT IN

produced: @noahmadethiss x @jolst <3
lyrics + vox + engineering by me.

lyrics:

where did we go wrong
got this feeling in my head that youll come back
u burned all ur bridges
now your memories are fading to black
its time to move on
im writing this stupid song to get you out my head
i told you i got no love for you anymore.

stand out because i dont fit in 
everyone around me uses my words against me like a weapon
and my days grow thin
and im astonished how you stayed with him
and its getting sickening
all the messages you sent me of you fucking him
u are the worst
and this is a fucking curse


im sick of you telling me i want you
I DONT EVEN FUCKING THINK ABOUT YOU
wasting my time
bullets hit my chest
i should of dodged them this time
im not good my body is mangled
but i walked away fine

stand out because i dont fit in 
everyone around me uses my words against me like a weapon
and my days grow thin
and im astonished how you stayed with him
and its getting sickening
all the messages you sent me of you fucking him
u are the worst
and this is a fucking curse
stand out because i dont fit in 
everyone around me uses my words against me like a weapon
and my days grow thin
and im astonished how you stayed with him

cursed (noahmadethiss x jolst)

produced by siemspark x wubz
mix and mastered by me 

lyrics:
dont act out
dont act tough
u only think about yourself
maybe u rly do need help
u did this to yourself
ur pissing me off
back off
get out of my face

who you gonna trust now
crazy mf doing way to much
worry about someone else
cuz ion give a fuck
these fuck boys b thinking way to much
u end up changing ur mind
im too busy locked in
 im on my grind
worry bout ur self
while roll up my weed
inside this grabba leaf
hmu like what do u need
i had some friends
they dont rly care about me
they got surrounded by the greed
i could careless about the money
when everyone i care about eats
cuz its been a whole damn week

too much (siemspark x wubz)

produced by. autrioly
mix and mastered by me

lyrics:

its bouta be 2024 and
im up all night again
i jus wanna lay in my bed all day
feel like shit again
i didnt take my medicine today
now my head feeds the dread
i wanna feel something will you make me feel okay?

u say u dont want him than u say something different
u change ur mind all the time
i think ima be the one quitting
trying to numb the pain
fuck my vape is not hitting
i hate this shit 
buy a pack of cigs because my vape is dead

i dont even wanna get up
but maybe i should
my feet are glued to this bed
i feel like im stuck in the mud
i trusted u
than u where the one to pull the fucking rug
now u wanna talk to me
bitch im busy doing drugs
im busy ignoring everyone i couldnt give a fuck

jus turned 2024
and im up all night again
still jus wanna lay in my bed all day
i always feel like garbage 
its the same shit again
dont wanna take my medicine today
i wanna feel something will you make me feel okay? 

my days r growing thin when i know ur with him
everything is coming down and its getting late

new year (autrioly)

feat. @hkfiftyone2 been listening to hk since early hs this is a bucketlist feature.

produced by - autrioly  

lyrics:

(me)
will you stay with me
girl will save me from my self
will u take me
will u pray for me
are you all i need
because girl i gotta come clean
your all i need
but u had to leave

ur like a drug
im like a fiend
im lost on this road looking for a meaning
i go manic and start micro managing
its been 8 months
seasons are changing
but people arent changing 
and i am acting out why the fuck arent i behaving
and i know you hate me 
but i miss u lately
but i know you hate me
but i know you hate me
and u replaced me
now im drinking and parting until my hands go shaky
thas how its been lately

(hk)

girl just tell me why you left
i know the answer and it makes sense
i really cannot blame you
but then why i got this hate then

in my heart, nevermind
its not hate, its just pain
and the understanding
that we just had to split one day

but i hope youre doing good
i say it in every single song
and every time i kneel down
you're in my prayers straight up to God
because the truth is that i care
but i aint got no fucking zen
im just living how im living
probably wont see you again

(me)
will you stay with me
girl will save me from my self
will u take me
will u pray for me
are you all i need
because girl i gotta come clean
your all i need

(hk)
but u had to leave
you had to leave
you had to be, half my soul will heave
every time i breathe, everything i sing
i cant get no peace, i cant play no keys
i cant write no shit, i cant get no sleep

stay [feat. HKFiftyOne]

originally performed by rks
completely non profit

additional drums at the end by me trying to mimic the drop in the og song
rest of the beat by king theta

mix and mastered by me

its called freefall [mars version]

prod branwen x Ozzy MadeThat
mix n mastered by me
art by beaky sunday

lyrics;

baby mutilate me
rip me limb from limb
till i feel like im a ghoul again
supposed to be working on my health 
i be doing the exact opposite 24/7 
like im in the studio poppin shit
prolly should be hitting the gym
talking all this shit but girl ur still tryna hit
n ur new man a fan but i dont fuck with him

i know my future is looking grim
so mars why dont u get a grip
this is like one bad trip

woke up to branches tapping on my window
this potion got me seeing double

she said be humble
fine girl i guess i wont fuck u
yk im jus a drug to u anyway
how could i ever love you anyway
when we link i wont even hug u 
when we with our friends i always dub u
last time we linked
i was too busy looking up at the moon
i was too busy looking for a way to escape this room
i dont wanna be alone with you
shoot my shot but i was over the line
go back to the studio since i got payed from all those plays 
bought a brand new mic 
so now im trying to switch up my vibe
in this room i got backwoods than i got gin mixed with the lemonade
i get sloshed enough so i can hear the bass line
girl whats ur problem
like a week ago my hands where following ur waist line
now all your trying to do is waste time
baby jus make up ur mind
like is it that hard to decide

baby mutilate me
rip me limb from limb
till i feel like im a ghoul again
supposed to be working on my health 
i be doing the exact opposite 24/7 
like im in the studio poppin shit
prolly should be hitting the gym
talking all this garbage 
but girl ur still tryna hit

i feel like im a ghoul again

produced by lostcage
sample from the notebook

lyrics;

i wanna tell u how i feel
i cant gather the words to use now
its okay girl, its rly not a big deal
friends tell me to move on
like stop telling me how to feel
its hard when im alone in this room
and im trying to sober up
but all i can think about is the drugs

i cant stand the lies that come from your tongue
do u think about me when u r alone? 
girl u broke me n left deep cuts
i been here all week screaming i dont give a fuck
i wanna hate u but im still here
u pushed me away so i went back to her
u know picking that dude hurt
but we still sit here n flirt
i know the game we play and i know ill end up hurt
but i rather feel something than nothing
its funny i wrote protect her to cope 
im so scared to show u that song 
i know i wont even tho its one of my biggest songs 
scared to tell u how i feel
im open all the time but when it comes to u i shutdown
most of the time i cant even make eye contact im too busy looking all around

i wanna tell u how i feel
i cant gather the words to use now
its okay girl, its rly not a big deal
friends tell me to move on
like stop telling me how to feel
its hard when im alone in this room
and im trying to sober up
but all i can think about is the drugs

hurt

first single off my album ghoul in tokyo <3

produced by jolst x brody
mix and mastered by me

lyircs: rly rough lyrics i rerecorded and changed alot lol

ill keep to myself
always living in hell
in the sewer is where ill dwell

i jus wanna be by myself
PLEASE DONT CRY
it jus wasn't the right time
kill me quick itll be over and youll be okay
JUS LET ME BE LIKE THIS FOR THE DAY
jus tell me how you really feel
IF I QUIT RIGHT NOW 
ILL ALWAYS FEEL THE RAGE
I KNOW YOU CANT LOOK ME IN THE FACE
for a breakdown this is pretty tame
maybe i am the one to blame

wait up
uh?
i will not fw you 
i will not hit u up 
ill keep to myself
like u said
u couldn't help anyways?
i guess talking about my mental health gets me payed
while i go back to u to get played
for a breakdown this is pretty tame
maybe i am the one to blame
im so desperate
i keep begging you to stay
but things are never the same

breakdown

produced by branwen
mix n mastered by me
art by beaky sunday

lyrics;
(its only been a few years
and so much has changed
i need a break
but so much is at stake)

used to wanna be a pro gamer
used to have aim like shroud on cloud9 
ion wanna talk hit my line later
im mixing these drugs i guess i still ended up on cloud9
spend my life online i have no life
friends dropped me n ion wanna say goodbye

alright (ALRIGHT)
lets not get to emotional
alright, alright, alright 
im not doing okay 

keep stabbing me there im gonna break
sold my soul it isn't even there anymore 
theres nothing for you to take
u switched up n left me to fall
now im falling at a fast rate
used to wait all night for ur call
even till it got really late
  
now im sitting here doing nothing and im getting payed
i jus spent a rack on my safety
i jus been doing shit different lately
wont let them get to me
no no (I WONT LET THEM GET TO ME)
if u wanna talk ion got time
if u want a feature u gotta match my energy than pay me

(9tails lyric)
you are now hearing about the comedown 
slept in late, i put the song out late 
always high as fuck when I walk around
took a nap cause I been too baked 

i think i need a break
but everything is at stake
this has taken me months
while ppl around me switch up
blew up a few months ago
now im running out of luck
songs can barely get 100 plays
but i got my monthlies up
fuck i shouldn't look at the numbers but thats all i care about
thats all I FUCKING CARE ABOUT
now we are in the comedown
im this close to the pond
i think IMA DROWN
youll always find me in this bottle of crown

wanted to be a pro gamer
used to have game sense like im shroud on cloud9
ion wanna talk dont hit my line
im mixing these drugs i guess i still ended up on cloud9
spent my life online 
all the time
its time to sign out and go OFFLINE

sparking my blunt trying to vibe
put the drugs down i dont want another line
all that did was numb my mind
it didn't really help just avoided my problems

wanted to be a pro gamer
used to have game sense like im shroud on cloud9
im mixing these drugs now
i still ended up on cloud9 right?

cloud9

produced by branwen
additional production by me

lyrics;

lie to me
hate me
use me
mutilate me
yk the drugs will sedate me
so use me until i cant feel a thing

felt way better when it was summer
now its fall
i cant keep it together
i barely made it thru summer how am i gonna survive winter
so get out my head
leave me here in this room
u left so now
IMA PLAY YOUR FAVORITE SONG
GIRL DONT BE SAD JUS SING ALONG
DONT FORGET ABOUT US

ppl grow apart
n i hate growing up
u told me i was never enough
and that really fucked me up
it all ends in fall
when i gave u my all

fall_intro

sample from looperman
reprod/mix/mastered by me
originally performed by sewerperson
non profit

lyrics;
sift thru the hallways
out to the drive way
shes kissing my forehead
and shaping my cold face
a break in the pine trees
im back at my old place
the cottage behind me
reminds me of old days

lights start to hum
im going to sleep now
what have you done
the size of those teeth now
i cant see the sun
baby im stuck in the dark
i tried to move
but im stuck in this tar

baby im stuck in the car
i cannot not see thru this fog
im coughing up blood in my scarf
i cannot breathe thru the smog
even all alone in the dark
we cannot forget who we are
outlines of her face come to my vision
on this windy summer evening
at the birth of the spark

sift thru my memories
erasing my old ways
killing my ego
could unlock this doorway
a break in the dead leaves
im back in the cold space
the cottage behind me
reminds me of old days

sift thru the hallways
out to the drive way
shes kissing my forehead
and shaping my cold face
a break in the pine trees
im back at my old place
the cottage behind me
reminds me of old days

sewerperson - cottage country (onetake)

produced by clarkcavers
mixed and mastered by me in my professional studio

this shouldnt be released but it is, this was supposed to be a song about the Gettysburg address but i got emo and made it into a hyperpop sad song LOL.

check out beaky sunday's new song on spotify :))))
shoutout patt for the intro :)))

lyrics; *me and beakos vocals are throughout the whole song idk where they start and end* 

beako:
This is my life, my fight, my dreams in the night,
Desire in my soul, with a heart made of gold,
Nothings lost, only lessons, in the stories that we told.
Feel the beat in your chest,
House party popping, man, we blessed, never stressed.
From the past to the future, I’m turning the page,

mars:
this is what i made my life 
im grabbing everything i can in sight
because if i dont hold on
everything will be gone
grandma said i wish u only smoked pot
i prolly should slow down
im starting to get brain fog
off the ket n it does nothing but numbs my brain
while everything i care about slowly goes down the drain
smoked too many dabs i got so many stains 
hopefully i can get my shit together
before its too late

brainfog w/ beaky sunday

recorded in my living room sorry for the reverb and bg noises LOL

piano from ayzi
vox, mix and master by me
originally performed by nothing nowhere

lyrics;

Your lips were cherry red
You smelled like cigarettes
And you're my best friend
You were my best friend
And I taste liquor on your mouth again
You told me that the last time was the end
So, I'll keep waiting
I'm always waiting

Hiding bottles in the closet
I wish that you could stop this
And I know you love me and you mean it
But you keep swallowin' your demons

The hardest part was walking away
But I keep looking back almost every day
I just miss you
I wish I could fix you and us
And I can't take it anymore
These panic attacks
And I keep shaking
I'm always shaking

Hiding bottles in the closet
I wish that you could stop this
And I know you love me and you mean it
But you keep swallowin' your demons


Hiding bottles in the closet
I wish that you could stop this
And I know you love me and you mean it
But you keep swallowin' your demons

Your lips were cherry red
You smelled like cigarettes
And you're my best friend
You were my best friend

cherry red (one take)

produced by branwen x rai4real  <3
mixed and mastered by me
featuring the amazing Beaky Sunday <3

lyrics; me and her vocals thrown in random parts of this song 

𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘺:
and fight
talk about all the things your afraid of 
make sure yourself small 
make yourself not scary to me anymore x2
i will not fear 
i feared enough

mars x 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘺:
lay me in the grave u dug
than when i come back from hell u say youll still be there?
cuz im like a drug huh? (𝘓𝘐𝘒𝘌 𝘈 𝘋𝘙𝘜𝘎)
where u saying that when u and him met up (𝘔𝘌𝘛 𝘜𝘗)
keep giving me every excuse in the book
i take a pill trying to slip off (𝘛𝘈𝘒𝘌 𝘈 𝘗𝘐𝘓𝘓 𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘚𝘓𝘐𝘗 𝘖𝘍𝘍)
this shit will kill me soon
if not ill take another to see it thru (𝘚𝘌𝘌 𝘐𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘙𝘜)
this is how i fall apart in this room (𝘍𝘈𝘓𝘓 𝘈𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛 𝘐𝘕 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚 𝘙𝘖𝘖𝘔)

afraid w/ Beaky Sunday

guitar by jolst
mixed and mastered by me

help pt.2

lyrics;

i need 2 get my head straight
i been staying up real late
is this whats in store for me
is this my fate
everytime im awake

i dont even wanna do anything (do anything)
i do this to myself (myself)
i write songs and beg for help (beg for help)
but i cant figure it out
who i really am
what is this all about (what is this)
this is my life
this is my story
i make it what i want right
i dont even fucking know

how tf do u go from playing Minecraft all day todoing drugs all night
the pills ease my minds
the henny helps me match the vibe only for the night

i dont drink anymore
i wrote that bit 6 months ago
i quit to get my health in check
now all i wanna do is pickup the bottle

this is my life
i make it what i want
i dont know what path i wanna take
i jus know i wanna move forward 
but all i can think about is the past
if i keep going this way im gonna crash
cmon Dakota get it together
take off the fucking mask
idk how much longer this is gonna last (gonna last)

oh oh oh

last

heres one in the 9tails style ;0

produced by killedmyself

completely non profit


how the fuck did i meet someone so divine?

divine

made a song with the goat @sensei2-211865477

produced by kaydo

lyrics;
idek what i wrote i was on the burqocet 30
sensei was jus horny for ya grandma

grow up w/ sensei

produced by pekarot

sample from no strings attached.

lyrics;
im scared of how this will go,
i am getting scared of the cold,
and i know you have a heart of gold,
but i need to know,
is this really how you feel,

its getting late,
and im tired,
is this jus a game,
or is this how you really feel,
can you tell me,
im the shell of the person you used to know,
do you believe me, im not like you,
im different,
i know i say it alot,

but i rly like you, x3

im scared of how this will go,
i am getting scared of the cold,
and i know you have a heart of gold,
but i need to know,
is this really how you feel,

i rly like you

one of my favorite songs of all time heard it live and cried. been working on this one for awhile 

yk the lyrics if u dont than damn :)

jelly roll - save me (cover)

aaaaaaaa
i know i messed up some lines I recorded this in onetake and thought it sounded gas enjoy <3
originally performed by hoodie allen



hoodie allen - twolips (onetake)

produced by tiresss

lyrics;
i know exactly what this is
i jus wanna get out of this 
is there hope
i wish i knew this
is there a choice
i guess im clueless

run it up, run it up, run it up
fuck around you know i dont get slumped off 1 cup
you know it takes like 3 to feel like im almost slipped off
like bitch i dont wanna talk i jus wanna fuck
fuck that i dont even wanna fuck u can top me
if thatll keep u off me
click, click, click
everyone trying to get a picture of me
hate people hate the paparazzi

i got way to much baggage
u think this is some way to get revenge
but im jus trying to keep the advantage
ike im holding it together
but i swear its hard to manage
after a shot u take its like damage
maybe u did end up wit the advantage
im in the palm of ur hand
couple pills to start
jus to fall back into ur plan
pretend to be ur man
than u start to act strange
we keep playing this game
over and over again
will it ever end
jus cuz i dont know my own value
like u know all my songs bout u now
u know i still talk about u when u aren't around
even when im alone ur voice still echoes loud

girl i jus woke up
im jus tryna roll up
6 grams in the blunt n ima face it
now im way to faded
all these chicks want me but
i cant fuck with a bitch thats way to basic
trying to make a song
all i want is a payment
writing this in my basement
yeah i think ill make it
yeah yeah u can try n take it

run it up

produced by tiresss
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics;

im so deep in this shit u cant save rly save me
back on the drugs and i blame myself
because who am i to blame anyone else
all u tried todo is help
i watched all my walls fall down
i washed all my memories drown
nothings real so how am i supposed to fucking feel
im just doing lines of ket til my mind fades
im this close to being 6 feet in this ground
because im all that i hate

i told my family id get clean
now im this close to 6 feet
i told u id get clean
fuck it im laying 6 feet

it was me n u ruling the universe
than time took its course
it was hard to realize it wasn't jus the drugs that where my addiction
my real addiction was you
and with nothing to hold me together i just end up feeling worse
being alone is a curse
than why do i self destruct to feel worse
im trying everything but nothing seems to work
jus lay me in the ground with the worms
atleast than i know theres no one i can hurt
dont get to close to me
because i always leave
dont get to close to me
im not someone u need
ppl ask me who i wanna be
but i barely made it thru the week
this songs starting to get deep
wtf does this mean
i keep begging the lord please
but i end up feelings so weak
so i take this shit 
just so i can fall asleep
god im so weak

back on the drugs and i blame myself
because who am i to blame anyone else
all u tried todo is help
i watched all my walls fall down
i watched all my memories drown
nothings real so how am i supposed to fucking feel
im just doing lines of ket til my mind fades
im this close to being 6 feet in this ground
because im all that i hate

i told my family id get clean
now im this close to 6 feet
i told u id get clean
fuck it im laying 6 feet


produced by tiresss
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics;
ig i was the best option like
in the function got a bad bitch all up on my shit
she fw me and i got coke residue all up on her tits
but ion dont wanna see here again
so i dont invite her to crib
like bitch would i really wanna invite u in
after all the drugs and shit we did

fuck no

haven't linked up wit anyone in a few weeks
been lonely the past few months
but i did catch up on some sleep
it sucks when i moved out of my small town into a slightly bigger one
i jus stopped trying nobody hit me up

get out of my head
like what the fuck
am i doing tonight
like what the fuck
am i doing with my life
like why the fuck do u got the knife
like why the fuck do u think im alright
u where there when i was dying
u where there when my goals where in sight

than u watched me fall
i hate u
u can stand so tall
i still hate you now
say my musics gonna fail
but motherfucker i gave this my all
i been on my grind for years
im like 5 years deep and put in this blood sweat and tears
made my first 1000 spent it on my studio gear
put a song up and take down because i have this fear
i hate my voice, it jus feels like noise
put it back up and it starts to blow up
most days i rather be isolated
i avoid crowds at all cost
i talk to my dr jus to get sedated and medicated
jus a stupid fucking kid thats jaded
any chance at joy is eliminated when i first wake up
jus hit 150k plays im bouta take off
dont ever wanna perform at a show
hate myself so much i barely even wanna leave my home
its starting to cold out
and im starting to lose hold now
it sucks when i moved out of my small town
and i dont know what todo now

dont u wanna feel nice?
every single day
but why does it never feel right?

get out of my head
like what the fuck
am i doing tonight
like what the fuck
am i doing with my life
like why the fuck do u got the knife
like why the fuck do u think im alright
u where there when i was dying
u where there when my goals where in sight

out my head

first single for my birthday ep :)

produced yonah the goat
one w/ the boys

feat @web @avxid @sensei2-211865477 

lyrics:

try to figure them out i dare you.

lights on w/ web, AVXID & sensei

cover of hypocondriac
reprod by me
originally performed by brakence

i wasted all my serotonin on you

hypocondriac (i wasted all my serotonin on you)

recorded in my garage on my at2020
originally performed by familypet
piano from ayzi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHulEKeKBR4

doctor, doctor (onetake)

22 | songwriter, producer, engineer and vocalist

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

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mars (@marsmal)

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