here I am losing myself again :(

out on all plats soon

losing myself again

when my dreamscape and my reality starts blurring what is really real anymore?

consider this ghoul in tokyo pt 2

i put a lot of work into this project and i hope you enjoy
also shoutout the amazing producer sorrow bringer
extra sound design and effects by me

this is my art and what i wanna make

- mars

ps this was heavily influenced by sewer

hellscape

i'm going thru it man
non profit 
shoutout out @hollowprpl

album with @sorrow_bringer next month

sinister desires

reprod me

a cover of we hug now by sydney rose

lyrics;
You don't see stars here
They're just city lights
I think back to where you live and how you can see the entire sky
It's occasional, sometimes I'll see the moon
And I'll think of you

My mom will convince me and I'll get the courage to ask
We will get coffee in Canton and you'll nervously laugh
When we hug cause we don't hug 
We never use to do that
We don't do that

Sometimes I go to sleep
And I'm still 17
You still live down my street
You're not mad at me
And in that dream
I'll say everything I wanted
I haven't found what I needed
No one's come close to you
And I don't think anyone will

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me

I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me

When it happened to me
When it happened to me


we hug now

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him
take a flight
cuz im jus trying to get high
im jus trying to get by
take a flight
pick up the mic
im feeling alright
yeah

girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him

i mean ur the reason i been getting all fucked up again

look at me using u as a excuse again
because i dont wanna take the blame for it again
look at me losing myself again
im cutting myself out in the open

i cannot not disappear
so you got and ha

losing myself again (disappear)

produced by cxrter x retz

throwaway off losing myself again

consider this addiction pt.3

4 months ago i lost my brother to the percs
i think about him everyday and it hurts
but i still do the same shit
i cant help it if my heart hurts
and taking these fucking pills is all that works
i need to get sober or ill end up just like him
i called him my bestfriend
than cut him off cuz of the drugs
but im doing the exact same stuff
cut everyone off so i dont have to feel the love
my grandma cant even recognize her grandson

get out my head

produced by lostcage

lyrics;
i got blunt ash on my coat
i got dabs all over my clothes
all i do is fucking smoke
im coughing all night u can hear me choke
i record this song than come up with a emote
than i spend all day in bed watching supernatural
baby wipe ur nose because u look like u got a cold
u fuck with my head n turned my heart to stone
and i feel like theres a rope tied around my throat
im jus too fucked up im too stoned


crashout
crashout
thats all i fucking do
i cant control my anger
its been like 4 months since i been sober
its starting to get warmer
but i still feel colder
im always looking over my shoulder
friends tell me i should ignore her
but i wanna hear her voice
ik i keep making these choices
i like it when she uses me as her toy
because i get some sort of fucking joy
throw me to the side for ur new boy
i mean someones gotta be the villain in your story
it dont matter how many times i say sorry
i did it and im sorry


crashout

rare mars 8 layer vocals jerbear said to drop this so i did yay

produced by @hollowprpl :))
non profit

lyrics;
idfk i wrote them on my phone

never2late

trying sum dif wit this enjoy <3 first single off my album "losing myself again"

produced by Marzada
shoutout jer for the picture

lyrics;

yea
I’m just floating...
In the haze...
Yeah,
Fading out, fading out, fading out...


Floating through the air, but I can’t escape this fate.
Chasing all the memories i see in the night sky,
But I’m stuck in the echo of a faded high.
I’m lost in the smoke, tryna find my reflection.
Thought I’d find peace, but I’m caught up in the noise,
All the voices in my head, they don’t really give me a choice.


I’m drifting slow, yeah, just let me go,
Fading through the static, but I’m barley keeping control.
I’m drifting slow, yeah, just let me go,
im not going home anymore, so just let me go
Fading out, yeah, I’m barely here,
Chasing the sound but I can’t make out the static.
Fading out, I’m losing grip, im hearing things i dont wanna hear

I’ve been searching, for a way to feel whole,
But the pieces don’t fit, and I’m losing control.
I’m tryna find peace, but it’s never in my reach.
smoke in my lungs, i always fill up my chest,

I’m drifting off slow, yeah, just let me go,
Fading through the static, but I’m barley keeping control.
I’m drifting away slow, yeah, just let me go,
im not going home anymore, so just let me go

keeping ctrl

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i got years of blood on my hands and I’ll never wash it off
I’m chasing all the drugs, liquor & pain, tryna find a place where I belong
trapped in the shadows, i try to survive, n we don’t care about what cost
I wear a heavy crown, but I wear it like a boss

I’ve been lost, I’ve been down low, its been feeling real empty on my throne
i did say i was never gonna come home, but i don't even know where ill go
i was 18 when I wrote the world is cold & guess what  its still cold
ive been feeling real low, real low, low low low
im trying to fill this whole the only way i ever know

I wear the weight like it's stitched in my skin,
i hold on and beg everyone to forgive 
but all i fucking do is sin
everyday i wanna quit
i tell myself everyday this is it
im trapped, im trapped, im trapped 

we were all supposed to get along
but for how long
playing chants and singing a warriors song
blood shed all over the battle field
and i dont even know what weapon i wield
god told me to go forward 
but im trapped by my past
using my shield to parry 
sword vs sword combat jus to be treated fairly


crown

enemy

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i been smoking till my eyes go red
i been wasting everyday in this bed
been wishing everyday i was dead
how the fuck do i try when there is nothing left
jus switched my meds
but i dont think theyll fucked up head
but ill try because im always trying my best

i know im a mess
n i know i got these regrets
so why the fuck do i wanna be dead
ive had friends i lost and friends i pushed away
day to day
night to night
im not feeling alright
week to week
month to month
im lost in my head 
i see the seasons changing like its twilight
been a year and i still dont feel any different
been 2 years i been stagnant


mess

produced by cxrter & braga

lyrics;
i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i do this to myself
and i repeat the process
i try to looking my brain
it jus repeats non sense 
im booting up fl 
im writing another song
jus for it to sound the same
they all sound the same
when are the lyrics gonna change

put some autotune
add some reverb and compression
record some lyrics about having no compassion or empathy
its hard when the world brought u this far when they brought u here from bullying and other tactics
im not trying to sit here and say my life is tragic
but like it gets hard sometimes
u cant even imagine 
i didnt think i would be doing this music stuff 5 years later
ig i can imagine

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

i dont wanna be alone
but i choose too
i dont wanna be alone
but those doors closed too
i liked the life i had 
but it was over too soon

i wanna take a portal to another world 
gave most of my time to a new girl
that was jus god throwing me another hurtle
friends dropped me, family wont talk to me
people wont talk to me im ha lf demon but im still mortal
am I dead am I alive either way my bodys laying on the floor tho

ig im the only person i can count on
i dont even look at my flaws anymore
i jus wanna be someone u can be proud of
im jus stuck in place
and the river cant stay stagnant forever

another world

personal favorite song ive made in awhile

produced by. sorrow bringer x luffysome 

lyrics;

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less
and those beautiful eyes i got lost in

she wrote a song for me the first time when she fell for me
tried to warn me, but I still fell under her spell
that was her siren's call, and I loved that song
wasted all of fall, now those days are gone
jus for u to block me 
wishing for something, anything at all
i jus wanna be friends
i jus want u in my life
i wanna make peace
i cant stand to have things be this way

do you ever feel the same
is there a way to ever feel okay
because everything in my brain is breaking down 
im not 
im not worth saving

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less
and those beautiful eyes i got lost in

play my life like a game and i know its a gamble
i wish i knew the stakes, i know i fucked up
i know i have these mistakes, that haunt me
but wait, do u finally understand, 
that this isnt the man i am

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less

flawless

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
im taking my lighter and im burning every bridge
i roll up this weed n i take another hit
i pick up this pill bottle and toss 1 down my throat
i keep saying i wanna quit
but its the only thing that makes life easy
if i quit than i feel like id hate it
a life so grey and dull
drugs r the only thing that helps it
ion think i can ever quit

burned bridges

produced by hollowprpl
non profit

lyrics;

burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him
binding him in his cage
so he wont come out
so the world wont feel his rage
everyday is the same
and im not okay

when will my songs stop sounding the same
and i start putting pen to the page and show everyone what i made
and people will listen to my songs and ill get the plays

burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him

ima fade out
ima fade out into the background
i thought u where gone
but ur back now
every song is sad now
but im not gonna let that shit slide im not gonna back down
not gonna give a fuck about u now
u where my bestfriend but u played with my head and played pretend
destroy myself
i dont ever ask for help
it must be nice to have friends that care
i do this by myself
im trapped in purgatory with no way out 
this world was made for me right?
and i dont need any help
stop telling me what i wanna hear

i can burns on my skin
cuts on my heart
im being destroyed from the outside in
running from the monster
ima start hiding so ima slow down my breathing
it gets tiring im tired of running from my demons
for my own sadistic reasons
thought we where close but why did u believe him

burns

produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i dont wanna fight the feelings but im falling apart
let people i called my friends get close 
just for all of them to use me for my big heart
said it 45 times i always try my best
but for fuck sake i always miss my mark

so im at the function ripping the cart
sparking a dart because fuck a vape
i liked it better when i was gonna drown in the lake
i liked this life better when i used to stay up late
playing games like fortnite and minecraft
now i havent seen my family in a fort knight
and I got diamonds like im in the mineshaft
sweat soaked sheets, i have these bad dreams
in a room full of smoke, scrappapers on the floor hallway filled with smoke, smoking on cookie, smoking on propane
just to try to numb my pain, it works but for how long. 

dont wanna fight

wrote this on my birthday and didnt get a chance to record it

produced by ryan kelly

lyrics;
i should just leave now
but i put my guard down
now look at these walls i put up fall down
i should just goto sleep now

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt

i got my feelings hurt
so i'm gonna break down again
its all because shes leaving again
i let her and she played with my head again
now  im dying again
oh fuck i said again like 5 times
i'm repeating it 
because its easier than thinking about whats happening
its my birthday and i dont wanna fight
i took these shrooms to feel alright
yall fucked wit my head n killed my mind
and now im not feeling alright
2025 is the year i die
can u change my mind before i take my life
its 11pm at night
and im sitting here crying in the mic

girl im just grime & scum
so girl its another day im climbing out the sewers
and fuck everyone, did you really think id do that to her?
fucking with my head now im breaking down
i know i'm not the one girl i'm jus taking my turn
i told u i wasnt interested but than i was the one that started to flirt
play this game again, its stupid but i guess im falling for her
playing this game really does make my head hurt



11pm

produced by secre x wraith
feat @web

lyrics;

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

like every one hates my voice & everything i make is shit
switch up my tone like it matters to anybody
like how cool can multiple voices really be
how the fuck have i been doing this for 5 years 
spent all this time, wasted all the blood and tears
wasted so much time for what. im still a nobody
want people to love me 
but i'm jus a boy from the country
im not counting bands or getting this money

i'm just a nobody
wanted to be somebody
but im still a nobody
want them all to love me
but i'm just a nobody

i been trying to switch up my lyrics
i tried to switch up my mix
i got my friend to teach me how to master
like it even matters

nobody w/ web

produced by rainydays

lyrics;
hello hi im mr antisocial
and i dont wanna talk to you
i was jus being cordial 
take everything i write n toss it down the garbage disposal
even tho my bars radiate with my fans like they straight out of Chernobyl
i dont wanna die today 
so im praying theres tomorrow

life sucks when your running on times thats borrowed
yeah aye
smoking all the time
i gotta take care of my voice
cuz my voice is monetized
i jus got payed 30 for a verse
thats a lot for someone my size


look its mr antisocial and hes back
and hes breaking protocol 
its okay tho because i love how it feels
bitch i locked myself in this box
now that i wanna escape but i forgot how i did the locks



antisocial

hellscape (intro)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its cold, i cant feel my hands
killing another man
that wasnt apart of the plan
but fuck here i am
washing the blood of my hands
i took the last thing that made me human
now im fading back into being a demon
babygirl gimmie a reason to stay
if not ima jus drift away
ion even wanna be awake

oh my god 
smoking all night long
i wont ever stop
its the only thing im good at
the only thing i want

atleast fight back x 5

fffightback (interlude)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its been 45 days since i got fucked up
its been 59 days since i got drunk
doing this for my health and i hate it
jus like jelly said sobriety sucks
i like the feeling of being fucked up
it helps with know ill never be enough

i wake up and wish i could jus go back to sleep
even when i record 50 songs a week
i still feel like im just a sheep
everyone says its not that deep

beingsoberfkingsucks

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
4am on this porch i sit here and smoke
until everything i love turn to ash
off this ket but it doesnt nothing but numb my past pain
take my soul and heart and toss it out into the rain
watch me bleed, babe im on my knees
sending you messsage after message knowing you wont read
listen to my pleads, listen to me

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

the truth is hard to swallow
been awhile since i was down this low
ive never felt this hollow
i'm trying to get fucked up so i'm trying to hit it from my bong
i used to have potential but everyone tells me im lost
i don't know what todo or where i belong
fear the worst because you know im cursed
and fuck this shit ill say it again it fucking hurts
cancel all my plans
drop everything just so i could get fucked up and play games
everything i do to numb the pain
it wont help me escape
it makes everything fade away
take everything take my soul
just let me waste away
these new meds are supposed to work
but fuck

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

hollow

feat @cam_b22
prod cxrter x tahtx 

lyrics;

its hard to think when ur sinking in this tar
i hate myself so much but i 
swear this music shit gonna make me a star
i should of picked up my guitar more
should of been better from the start
but its not to late to get there
play this music from my heart
i built this, i played my part
i write until i fall apart
each song i write is about the same girl that never gave me her heart
it was all in my head from the start

but-but-but

why do u hit me up when ur lonely
play with my head, i'm already in your hand
i'm not rich, im not smart, and most of all im not him
I'm the exact opposite
but i think you like that
im just like one of your opiates

i try my hardest to not trip over this bitch
but that mood ended quick
wake up sad and sink into my bed
than i finally crawl out
we all end up lonely in the end
i can count the people i call my friends on one hand
always told me i was better than i am 
girl ill never be that man
so stay away

caramel;
it ain't hard to tell i was never rlly needed here
blacked out curtains so i never see the sun in here
so fuck it dear i guess i'll my breathing here
i love here the spirits made a home in me

at least they fucking notice me
and they don't take offense to the broken me
the way u do is way too fucking openly
oh its choking me

i know our time is wearing thin
we both know ur lies are breaking down
i can see it now oh it's sinking in
its rlly sinking in

it ain't hard to tell i was never rlly needed here
the more i fucking fell in that river i been bleeding in
exerting fear i hate it here
i really fucking hate it here

better than i am w/ Caramel

produced by kaydo

lyrics;
run away from me, or ill have to block u myself
tomorrows judgement day and ill be living in my own hell
im bugged by something but you cant tell
and u think i like the way this felt
if i wasnt such a co-
if i wasnt such a coward id end it all
but i dont believe in that so im sitting here saying fuck it we ball

you call me pathetic
wishing youd change
but thats me trying to be copathetic
tell me all your problems like im supposed to be sympathetic
i barely know how to be empathetic 
only thing that helps 
is this weed its my fucking medcine
and i just wanna talk to my friends
now im sucked in
now im locked in
and look im blocked again
u always wanna win
but i wont quit
so u wont give in 
is this a way either of us should live
your happy with him
im here barely wanting to live
like bitch you already win
do i gotta say it again
you already fucking won
you fucking win
just let me live

i used to mix the lsd with the weed
trying to see past this week
woke up 1day and i felt free
dropped out at 16
fell apart at 19
now i dont want anyone i care about to leave
you gotta trust me
this isnt me i swear its not me
if i cut myself i still bleed

run away from me, or ill have to block u myself
tomorrows judgement day and ill be living in my own hell
im bugged by something but you cant tell
and u think i like the way this felt
if i wasnt such a co-
if i wasnt such a coward id end it all
but i dont believe in that so im sitting here saying fuck it we ball

coward

produced by the wonderful @iamaneerdowell

lyrics;
i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

gods always putting me thru tests
and all my friends are pushing me to the ledge
im still waiting for a text from my ex
my dr switched my meds
i think theyre working
its hard to fix something when ur always hurting
and nothings ever fucking working

is this shit always in my fuckedup head
i get tired of waking up and wanting to be dead
idk how much energy i got left
so leave me alone

if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
i dont wanna talk to you, you always got a plan
you use me for attention than go back to your man
ik i was apart of the plan
its okay you win

i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

try my best

produced by zepelin dark 

lyrics;
feel like light the way i keep the  death note on my side
if u keep fucking around youll catch your name inside
and your girl like my hand around her throat all night
real shit your diamonds and gold mean nothing 
if you cant even win a fight

my soul has been slowly been tortured
that should of been nurtured
but it wasn't and people are too focused on dumb shit
like kanye and his cousin
like bro no one actually cares
he does something for attention every 6 months
an either way its all dumb


death note

feat @st-a_r-man
produced by zepelin dark

*man - dead w/ marsmal

produced by @hollowprpl

lyrics;
my armors damaged
im a warrior trying to get the advantage
im bleeding out and i need a bandage
you got the advantage
and i cant manage
so its time to vanish

silence fills my head with doubt
its hard being a king of hell without my crown
im lost in this place 
all these thoughts that no one knows about
i am scared for myself
i wish u could tell
im a fallen angel
i dont even know why i fell
i cant even feel my fucking grace now

but theres still a heartbeat going pound pound pound
and im evil now 
im going down down down
don't make a sound
because if u try to swim your gonna drown (drown, drown, drown)
lost in my head but i dont wanna be found

i used to try my best
now i never reached my full potential
everything up until now was experimental
dont look into my past, i sealed it away cuz its confidential
i feel like im close to being quintessential
fuck around and find out
im not special, i jus write with this paper and pencil
and i got a story to tell
lucifers trapped in his cell
in the depths of purgatory
i created this hell
im waiting to hear anything please jus ring the bell
Don't get to close to the cage youll melt
like you cant help no one can
open my eyes n the world goes black
u want my soul fuck it you can have it back

my armors damaged
im a warrior trying to get the advantage
im bleeding out and i need a bandage
you got the advantage
and i cant manage
so its time to vanish

damaged armor

produced by hollowprpl

lyrics;
i wanna get some sleep now
i got a soul i wanna keep now
then why would i make a deal now
i was lost now n im still not found

mhm

im a burden of my own doing
say my heart always hurting
pop something but its not working
im burning, its hot in hell
god said i was his favorite angel 
but than i fell
call me lucifer im in my own domain
all my sorrows dwell
and if my past could talk, imagine the secrets it could tell
its fine ill work it out
youll hear from me, maybe a couple years from now

stars in the night sky i can see thru the roof
im the epitome of darkness
if i didn't want this
than why did i bare the mark than?
confused by my own choices
i know it made me more of a target
i dont even got a soul anymore
funny thing is, now i wanna bargain
can we jus slowdown
this is the worse come down
alone in the dark
the voices are getting loud
im starting to scream now
trapped in purgatory with no way out


produced by hollowprpl

lyrics;
how you gonna tell me to chill when ur fucked up on drugs
how you gonna tell me you love me when it was all lust
i was just a drug and someone u could never love
i burned so many bridges for your attention

i give up
i dont give a fuck
dodged a bullet i guess i do got luck
and i heard from you your new man cant even make u cum
and u dont even know if he gives a fuck
i don't give a fuck i jus keep up because its fun
now look at you doing drugs and drinking until your numb

tell me ur really in this shit wit ur heart
because ik i went dark
i feel like i played my part
n now i missed my mark
its my fault 
i jus wanted to be a star
but now im covered in scars
off ts ig i am on mars
ig momma raised a rockstar
snap the picture with the nikon
baby girl im a fashion icon

i wanna go a different route
i cant escape i think my heart n soul r bound
im wasting my time, im wasting my life
either way this isn't right all the voices my head the voices are getting loud
im just a knight of hell n ur the queen 
im scared of this but no one will believe me oh well
once again i do this to myself
and i cant fucking ask for help






soulbound

produced by @hollowprpl

lyrics;
snow falls on the ground
its so cold, break me down until im nothing but a compound
are you satisfied now?
are you proud?
throw me in the lake so i wont be found

metal attached to my bones im machine
i dont wanna leave
even monsters are scared of me
because u dont wanna see
who the fuck woke me up from that bad dream
the first thing i see, why would u do this
its explained in the book you didn't read
its on the page about me

just leave me here to drown in the lake
i dont wanna wait
i'm lost in the cantrip of fate
i'm lost i dont know what to make
this is a dungeon you cant escape
this is a realm i didn't make
its filled with greed and hate
its all the same

snow falls on the ground
its so cold, break me down until im nothing but a compound
are you satisfied now?
are you proud?
throw me in the lake so i wont be found

i can't write a melody
everythings become tempting
wounds are healing
but nothings mending
im sick of pretending
im sick of no one helping
i cant do this on my own
but here i am again
doing it on my own
whats a king without his throne
whys the rope tied to tight
i can barely breathe 
i guess its my time to leave

satisfied now?



prod zyller & mode$to

something diff

lyrics;
everybody laughing when the fat man walk in
but everybody i see a joker by the way they laughing
when i die bury with my chain & some blunts in my coffin
10 years of bullying and mocking
now i got some money in my pocket
and writing these songs im locked in
and im tired of yall pocket watching

keep the blade on my side like a keyblade
and i got this money going in circles like a Beyblade
nobody taught me this im the one that made me
these chains bound me but ill break them
you cant contain me
barely even break me

i never forget them days
i didnt ever say a word
kept my head down, tried to not get close
tried not to get hurt, im the person no one knows


house of mirrors

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s/oxygen-breather-prod-kryptik
originally performed by 9tails


9tails - oxygen breather cover

late freestyle

produced by @sorrow_bringer

lyrics;

\\
i try to get by,
than i get high
i feel like i wanna die
why would i wanna be alive

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
  
yk im a fiend for this stuff
im trying to be a betterman
ik we are better off as friends
i honestly hate how things are 
but i pretend, 
give me 5 minutes before i descend into madness
you dont really know the dread and sadness

remember  how i told u i suck with attachments
but how i managed to get attached than
but once again i digress
filling myself up with stress
for what your with him
but im always the 2nd best
and i let it happen
why do i do this

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
yk im a fiend for this stuff

i try to get by,
than i get high
i feel like i wanna die
if im not alright
why would i lie to you for tonight

would u jus change u dont like him
everytime we talk my life gets brighten
and everytime i hear the things he does
it makes me wanna fight him
im alone again, im gonna die alone again
phone calls help me get by
but

she got me locked down
i try to get by,
than i get high

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
yk im a fiend for this stuff
//

sin again

single #1 off hellscape releasing 7/10

sewer used this beat and I never ended up making a song but found it on my pc so i made this today enjoy

produced by sorrowbringer 

album w/ hollowprpl on the 25th

& 

album w/ sorrow next month

lyrics;
ion wanna talk to this bitch im trying to roll this blunt
im not tryna talk wit this powerup in my cup
u say u hate me when im fucked up
but bitch this is who i am
im a different person everyone hates when im not on the drugs
if i fall asleep dont wake me up
plug hit my phone trying to dose me up
but im already fucked up

if i roll this blunt i dont think i can get anymore high
but i do it because if i dont ill lose my fucking mind
missed a text from my grandma i lost track of time
rather not talk about how i feel, im fine

u blocked me n u know damn well that i dont care
keep telling me im not being fair
than why the fuck are u still here
i'm not going outside im way to  fucked up  
im not going anywhere i dont give a fuck 
bitch are you dumb
its so cold out
my hands are going numb
ur so so selfish
bitch u never meant this
i was all up in her mouth like a denist

my hearts broken 
so i crush another pill
and do another line even tho you know it kills
keep going just to feel alive
keep your feelings inside
your not gonna die

roll this blunt

single #2 off hellscape releasing 7/10

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;

i know what happens
i know the aftermath
but im getting tired of fighting it
just let my body lay lifeless

im getting tired of fighting it
i feel everything in this room start to spin
like mars get a grip
is this it??
grab the beretta and unload the clip
way too many people around 
im so sick of this

isolate myself to lock the beast in
everything is out in the open
and im so over it
im falling back again
im drinking again
im smoking all the time
just so i dont gotta feel a thing
maybe i should bite the bullet
its all her fault
i never wanted to be your savior 
some how u became my biggest hater
tell everyone u hate me than your on the phone with me a hour later
ive been having nightmares
this isn't me talking baby
its jus the medicine in my bloodstream
im not angry
i do this to let off steam
im already afraid of everything
what do four words even mean
im sick of living
all my texts green
i haven't been this alone
but no one is hitting up my phone
im destroying myself until im no one
i dont wanna be alone

i say that as my lungs fill up with smoke
this is how i cope
somedays i feel the rope tied around my throat
and somedays i feel like im in my zone
last night in the whip listening to sewerperson im cold
than it switches to 9tails - miles
i haven't felt okay in awhile
when i get drunk again ill say sorry to my family and my friends
than ill disappear again
will anyone check on me at my lowest point
i dont think so, so why should i care
everyone acts annoyed but i asked for help

im getting tired of fighting it
i feel everything in this room start to spin
like mars get a grip
is this it??
grab the beretta and unload the clip
way too many people around 
im so sick of this

clip!

originally performed by 9tails

non profit

prod virginiareaper

9tails - comatose (mars version)

recorded on my 2015 mac book in my living room at 5 am

originally performed by austin snell
instrumental ripped from original song

This is lines at 11 percent battery
I was born to a long one
Had a thing for stepping cross one
If you catch me past most 12:00 a.m.'s
You'll find me swerving off some lines, lines
Yeah, work's got me strung out
Coming home to a ghost town
Yeah, I can't sleep, it's killing me
I keep telling myself it ain't 'cause of these white lines, lines

But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me that meets the eye
If you read between the lines
Yeah, I guess we finally burned out
She's in someone else's truck now
All those 'never agains' and 'where you beens'
Turned into me running out of lines, lines
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between
The lines on the bathroom counter
All the ones from the drunk texts after
Every time I try to rewrite my lines
I get stuck here in this chapter
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between the-

austin snell - lines (onetake)

produced by yeahthismoh x deephartt x feastythaproducer

rip quan

lyrics;
u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

texting u at 3am telling u i miss you
you say we cant do this anymore
but i told you i needed you
we both know i cant love in the situation im in
i hate doing this to you
but im lonely so i pick up the phone and call
i gotta let you down easy
its almost fall and i cant give u my all
how can i know what i want
if i barely know how much longer i got

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

one day i might come back
better than before
but dont count on that
im counting my cards and if i hit i know ill bust
ill do it because im wasted, 
im emotionally drained
im calling because i wanna meet
lets go on a vacation
lets go lets escape this
its all a thought i cant do this
one day ill come back i swear
one day itll be easier 
i cant let you go thru this with me
so please just block me
and dont answer me
dont pick up the phone when your lonely
i wanna be your somebody
but we cant do this
no we cant do this

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

use somebody

produced by hollowprpl

lyrics;
i know you hate me now
baby i got a purple heart
im all alone now
its just me and this guitar
i know you hate me now
fuck this place
im just gonna lay here facedown
please trap me
and make sure i cant get out

we link up n she told me not to tell nobody
like i would tell anybody
laying low has been my life
keeping it lowkey cuz u got the knife
hope u give me a chance more than one time.
i know i lied for the 2nd time
but its hard to not tell a lie 
when u lived this life
u keep alot inside 
u dont trust anyone
look me in the eyes
do u think i wanna feel like this
i dont give a fuck drain my life
for the 10th time

i been going thru alot lately
nothing has made sense to me
but i hope i figure it out

tell me i didn't fuck up my life
turn off the lights
you already have the knife
im not alright
im better off in the afterlife

i know you hate me now
baby i got a purple heart
im all alone now
its just me and this guitar
i know you hate me now
fuck this place
im just gonna lay here facedown
please trap me
and make sure i cant get out


hate me now

produced by. wraithontheporch x ne'erdowell

lyrics; lost somewhere on my pc lol

walking home in the snow

produced by sorrow bringer

1st single off the ep w/ sorrow bringer on the 30th

new to me (freestyle)

22 | vox/songwriter & engineer 

i make what i want my music isnt for everyone

email - m@scars.online

marsmal

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