here I am losing myself again :(

out on all plats soon

losing myself again

when my dreamscape and my reality starts blurring what is really real anymore?

consider this ghoul in tokyo pt 2

i put a lot of work into this project and i hope you enjoy
also shoutout the amazing producer sorrow bringer
extra sound design and effects by me

this is my art and what i wanna make

- mars

ps this was heavily influenced by sewer

hellscape

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him
take a flight
cuz im jus trying to get high
im jus trying to get by
take a flight
pick up the mic
im feeling alright
yeah

girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him

i mean ur the reason i been getting all fucked up again

look at me using u as a excuse again
because i dont wanna take the blame for it again
look at me losing myself again
im cutting myself out in the open

i cannot not disappear
so you got and ha

losing myself again (disappear)

produced by lostcage

lyrics;
i got blunt ash on my coat
i got dabs all over my clothes
all i do is fucking smoke
im coughing all night u can hear me choke
i record this song than come up with a emote
than i spend all day in bed watching supernatural
baby wipe ur nose because u look like u got a cold
u fuck with my head n turned my heart to stone
and i feel like theres a rope tied around my throat
im jus too fucked up im too stoned


crashout
crashout
thats all i fucking do
i cant control my anger
its been like 4 months since i been sober
its starting to get warmer
but i still feel colder
im always looking over my shoulder
friends tell me i should ignore her
but i wanna hear her voice
ik i keep making these choices
i like it when she uses me as her toy
because i get some sort of fucking joy
throw me to the side for ur new boy
i mean someones gotta be the villain in your story
it dont matter how many times i say sorry
i did it and im sorry


crashout

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i got years of blood on my hands and I’ll never wash it off
I’m chasing all the drugs, liquor & pain, tryna find a place where I belong
trapped in the shadows, i try to survive, n we don’t care about what cost
I wear a heavy crown, but I wear it like a boss

I’ve been lost, I’ve been down low, its been feeling real empty on my throne
i did say i was never gonna come home, but i don't even know where ill go
i was 18 when I wrote the world is cold & guess what  its still cold
ive been feeling real low, real low, low low low
im trying to fill this whole the only way i ever know

I wear the weight like it's stitched in my skin,
i hold on and beg everyone to forgive 
but all i fucking do is sin
everyday i wanna quit
i tell myself everyday this is it
im trapped, im trapped, im trapped 

we were all supposed to get along
but for how long
playing chants and singing a warriors song
blood shed all over the battle field
and i dont even know what weapon i wield
god told me to go forward 
but im trapped by my past
using my shield to parry 
sword vs sword combat jus to be treated fairly


crown

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i been smoking till my eyes go red
i been wasting everyday in this bed
been wishing everyday i was dead
how the fuck do i try when there is nothing left
jus switched my meds
but i dont think theyll fucked up head
but ill try because im always trying my best

i know im a mess
n i know i got these regrets
so why the fuck do i wanna be dead
ive had friends i lost and friends i pushed away
day to day
night to night
im not feeling alright
week to week
month to month
im lost in my head 
i see the seasons changing like its twilight
been a year and i still dont feel any different
been 2 years i been stagnant


mess

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
im taking my lighter and im burning every bridge
i roll up this weed n i take another hit
i pick up this pill bottle and toss 1 down my throat
i keep saying i wanna quit
but its the only thing that makes life easy
if i quit than i feel like id hate it
a life so grey and dull
drugs r the only thing that helps it
ion think i can ever quit

burned bridges

hellscape (intro)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its cold, i cant feel my hands
killing another man
that wasnt apart of the plan
but fuck here i am
washing the blood of my hands
i took the last thing that made me human
now im fading back into being a demon
babygirl gimmie a reason to stay
if not ima jus drift away
ion even wanna be awake

oh my god 
smoking all night long
i wont ever stop
its the only thing im good at
the only thing i want

atleast fight back x 5

fffightback (interlude)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its been 45 days since i got fucked up
its been 59 days since i got drunk
doing this for my health and i hate it
jus like jelly said sobriety sucks
i like the feeling of being fucked up
it helps with know ill never be enough

i wake up and wish i could jus go back to sleep
even when i record 50 songs a week
i still feel like im just a sheep
everyone says its not that deep

beingsoberfkingsucks

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
4am on this porch i sit here and smoke
until everything i love turn to ash
off this ket but it doesnt nothing but numb my past pain
take my soul and heart and toss it out into the rain
watch me bleed, babe im on my knees
sending you messsage after message knowing you wont read
listen to my pleads, listen to me

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

the truth is hard to swallow
been awhile since i was down this low
ive never felt this hollow
i'm trying to get fucked up so i'm trying to hit it from my bong
i used to have potential but everyone tells me im lost
i don't know what todo or where i belong
fear the worst because you know im cursed
and fuck this shit ill say it again it fucking hurts
cancel all my plans
drop everything just so i could get fucked up and play games
everything i do to numb the pain
it wont help me escape
it makes everything fade away
take everything take my soul
just let me waste away
these new meds are supposed to work
but fuck

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

hollow

produced by dash x fonkyfake x luffysome
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics;
what do you want from me.
what do you really want from me

cracks glow thru the ceiling but
how she gonna say she a angel
like wheres your halo
all over me last year
this year where your feelings go??
she told me she dont know

atleast i know my place
ay ay
okay you text me 
okay you call me
but u can wait



these walls cant hold me
these chains cant hold me

halo

prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
we drift away into nothing
we turn to dust
and my halo started to rust
so i stored it away with my angel wings
maybes its time to shed some dust
and fly away
im not the same 
as yesterday
time goes by
and my life flies by
and i cant die
years go by
i lived this life all wrong

dust on my angel wings (interlude)

a little spooky song since i rewatched TVD & TO so i felt like making a werewolf song enjoy 

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
we travel in a pack
we hunger for blood and hearts
half wolf half man howling at the moon and stars
haunted by something in the dark
i wear this mark
because its all i got

i know im stuck in this mud
i know i look better with his guts and blood
as i sip on my rum i dont even get drunk
but i can still there blood on my tongue
i hear gun shots
i guess im on the run 
i had a chance that no one had
but who would of thought id turn bad
ive been having nightmares of there screams when i sleep at night
it all changed with one bite
it all changed one night
when the moon shined so bright
and i didn't feel alright
thats the sametime i took his life
i cant look at anyone in the eyes
theyre too bright 
i hear your heart beat a mile away
i taste human meat and im not okay
why does it feel like somebodys after me
i just wanna leave


we travel in a pack
we hunger for blood and hearts
half wolf half man howling at the moon and stars
haunted by something in the dark
i wear this mark
because its all i got

mark of the pack

sample from the notebook
produced by. boyfifty

lyrics;
the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

i gave my heart and soul to a girl
gave her my whole fucking world
and all she wants todo is hurt me
break me, use me, hate me, its all the same
you can never hate me more than i already do
when will you get a clue
i dont wanna be alive
but i do it for you
because im nothing without you
im empty and i never see things thru
you where holding me together
fucked as it sounds you really where glue 
and im nothing without you

the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

shallow (without you)

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
i don't feel bad
about how i act
i dont feel sad
about the things i do
dont be mad 
because this is how i wanted to be

im finally me

somedays i feel free
and other days i feel weak
i barely get any sleep
and i hardly ever eat
everyone says im down to earth
but all that i feel is hurt
im trying to get this done
im putting in the work
but all i do is hurt
all i do is hurt
friends dropped me for my own ego
are you sure i needed you

i wish wishing for death
i was wishing for something to help
i tried taking my meds again
tried looking in again

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated
all the bullshit in my life had to been orchestrated 
you think ur lifes fucked look at mine let me demonstrate it
each day it gets worse
and i cant explain it and its complicated
im so unmotivated and im so hated
and i fucking i hate it


see this thru

late freestyle

single #1 off hellscape releasing 7/10

sewer used this beat and I never ended up making a song but found it on my pc so i made this today enjoy

produced by sorrowbringer 

album w/ hollowprpl on the 25th

& 

album w/ sorrow next month

lyrics;
ion wanna talk to this bitch im trying to roll this blunt
im not tryna talk wit this powerup in my cup
u say u hate me when im fucked up
but bitch this is who i am
im a different person everyone hates when im not on the drugs
if i fall asleep dont wake me up
plug hit my phone trying to dose me up
but im already fucked up

if i roll this blunt i dont think i can get anymore high
but i do it because if i dont ill lose my fucking mind
missed a text from my grandma i lost track of time
rather not talk about how i feel, im fine

u blocked me n u know damn well that i dont care
keep telling me im not being fair
than why the fuck are u still here
i'm not going outside im way to  fucked up  
im not going anywhere i dont give a fuck 
bitch are you dumb
its so cold out
my hands are going numb
ur so so selfish
bitch u never meant this
i was all up in her mouth like a denist

my hearts broken 
so i crush another pill
and do another line even tho you know it kills
keep going just to feel alive
keep your feelings inside
your not gonna die

roll this blunt

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;

girl dont touch the chain its real
i got it when i signed my deal
back than i didn't know the devil was real
now that shit weighs on my mind
the secrets i could tell you

kinda scary when ur heartbeat matches the tempo
talking shit to me
u dont know a thing about my fucked up mental
i been this way since i was a child
you should of read the memo
i been steady focused on my own now

my dad was a psycho
and my momma was bipolar
never had any chance since i was in the stroller
playing life like a game
but they didn't even toss me a controller
if u wanna look into my past
you gotta unlock the folder
only person i care about is my grandma
yk she raised a solider
fuck man
its summer but somehow i became colder
yk how many days i wished i was dead
yk how many days i felt like i had nothing left
you ever point a gun at your head
pull the trigger and it jam
but u still wanna be dead
whats needed to be said
i rather be dead

girl dont touch the chain its real
i got it when i signed my deal
back than i didn't know the devil was real
now that shit weighs on my mind
the secrets i could tell you

kinda scary when ur heartbeat matches the tempo
u dont know a thing about my fucked up mental
i been this way since i was a child
you should of read the memo
i been steady focused on my own now

i started this shit to vent
i didn't start it to repent
gave this music 100%
wanted todo something different
but im in the decline
bitch i made this stuff happen when i was trapped up in my head
my mom and my dad both fucked in the head
so thats why im the way i am




the way i am

produced by dercept

lyrics;
u keep trying to pull me closer
than why do u want me to hurt more
my hearts broken
with the words unspoken
i cant breathe
its hard to when im broken

i was on my knees
u dont give a fuck
u sit there and watch me bleed
if u hate me, u dont have to say it
why are so fucking mean


fkin leave

originally performed by 9tails

non profit

prod virginiareaper

9tails - comatose (mars version)

trending topic pt2

produced by justdan

lyrics;
i got no drugs or liquior in my cup
thats the stuff you dont wanna hear
i do got some smoke in the air
im so baked rn i dont even care
girl hittingmy line she wants me to pull her hair
but i cant even hear my snare
like i give a fuck im impaired

im so over this
i made like 3 different versions of this track
but nothing stuck
recording this song and talking about my past
i jus packed a 5 grams in this blunt

im recording all week
trying to find a feeling
this is my life, im clocked in
this is my dream, im locked in
im trying to be the trending topic
one day i want them to make a psa

its getting dark
so i guess ill start
i got lost in the nice things
but all im trying todo is not overthink'
im losing it im on the brink
and all i wanna do is drink
fuck i dont wanna think
fuck i wanna sleep
fuck i dont wanna get deep
im sinking its almost covered my knees
theres no way i can get free
it haunts my dreams
im getting high again
there goes another week
wasted on a binge
i dont got the money for this
than why the fuck do i do it
i know i need to quit
but fuck i dont wanna 

i got no drugs or liquior in my cup
thats the stuff you dont wanna hear
i do got some smoke in the air
im so baked rn i dont even care
girl hittingmy line she wants me to pull her hair
but i cant even hear my snare
like i give a fuck im impaired

ion even care

recorded on my 2015 mac book in my living room at 5 am

originally performed by austin snell
instrumental ripped from original song

This is lines at 11 percent battery
I was born to a long one
Had a thing for stepping cross one
If you catch me past most 12:00 a.m.'s
You'll find me swerving off some lines, lines
Yeah, work's got me strung out
Coming home to a ghost town
Yeah, I can't sleep, it's killing me
I keep telling myself it ain't 'cause of these white lines, lines

But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me that meets the eye
If you read between the lines
Yeah, I guess we finally burned out
She's in someone else's truck now
All those 'never agains' and 'where you beens'
Turned into me running out of lines, lines
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between
The lines on the bathroom counter
All the ones from the drunk texts after
Every time I try to rewrite my lines
I get stuck here in this chapter
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between the-

austin snell - lines (onetake)

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics:
burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

working my hardest
writing these songs trying to live lavish
but this was just a survival tactic
its all i wanted, i made it happen
and it wasn't magic, it was hardwork & dedication
i put in the hours since i started
im not even a artist
but im still working my hardest
watching everything i care about turn to dust
and than i start to rust
look at my cuts, theres a lot of blood
and im trying to be okay
but i know no one gives a fuck
lost all my friends again
i guess im out of luck
i got the words but they wont come out
theyre on the tip of my tongue
if u where my friend why would have a smoking gun


im codependent to my all my friends
fake friends switch up now im defenseless 
none the less off the record, but i digress
i know i made this mess, but idk if i can clean it
so im smoking another cigarette 
jus trying to impress
because i dont nothing left 
let me go
i got no where left to go
no im not coming home

burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

self destructive and codependant

produced by sorrow bringer x clozz

lyrics;
you know im a bit psychotic
but im only like this when im off the narcotics
kush got me coughing coughing
gin got me slurring while im talking
can i get 1 moment
cuz im too busy trying to be a trending topic
me n the bros in this call locked in

rain falling by my window sill
im trapped in this hell
i dont wanna go out
because this is how i always felt
i dont socialize 
i created this cell
i take shrooms until my brain melt
feel a lot of guilt
but i made this my life
cant trust a soul
my chains all gold 
im 23 but i act old
talking shit like u know me
if u know me than why didn't i fold
u broke the code
now everyone knows

somebody save me

produced by sorrow bringer

inspired by sewer

lyrics;
im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain
how many prescription pills will it take
to finally go insane

im on drugs right now
while i record this
im on drugs right now
like im on some tour shit
living life like i got some motion
but im jus passing another blunt in the rotation
crazy smart but somehow i missed the calculation
you think hurting everyone was what i wanted todo
i didn't even have those intentions
new and old friends in my mentions
but im just ignoring them
im busy during this recording session
im making songs day in and day out
bouta record like 20 songs
and im not capping about that amount
im a good guy, atleast as good as a guy gets
she thinks i wanna see her naked
but i jus wanna think about our future
like do we vibe, do u lie, do i keep it all inside
i over think everything
and the drugs dont help

im on the drugs right now

im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain
how many prescription pills will it take
to finally go insane

how many lies does it take for me to break
how many people switch up before i start to act fake
and you all start to hate
like you all count every single mistake

i cant figure this out
its driving me insane
im searching for better days
but its getting late
hope i can escape
but this is fate
tear it down
i hate everything i make
breakdown
i hate every emotion i fake

im on drugs right now
im looking for a way to escape
so i dont even care what i take
it numbs the pain 
but also is slowly destroying my brain


prescription pills

produced by yeahthismoh x deephartt x feastythaproducer

rip quan

lyrics;
u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

texting u at 3am telling u i miss you
you say we cant do this anymore
but i told you i needed you
we both know i cant love in the situation im in
i hate doing this to you
but im lonely so i pick up the phone and call
i gotta let you down easy
its almost fall and i cant give u my all
how can i know what i want
if i barely know how much longer i got

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

one day i might come back
better than before
but dont count on that
im counting my cards and if i hit i know ill bust
ill do it because im wasted, 
im emotionally drained
im calling because i wanna meet
lets go on a vacation
lets go lets escape this
its all a thought i cant do this
one day ill come back i swear
one day itll be easier 
i cant let you go thru this with me
so please just block me
and dont answer me
dont pick up the phone when your lonely
i wanna be your somebody
but we cant do this
no we cant do this

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

use somebody

produced by dash & sorrow bringer 

clip pt2

lyrics;

put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip

im better off dead
what you felt about me is dead
theres nothing left 
how much more has to be said
im getting tired of this game of pretend
im just so tired just let it all end
i swear i was trying my best
  
no drug can fix me girl
im way too fucked up
i knew i was never enough
i knew i wasn't the one
i was just taking my turn
this could never work
talk to me like im human
i hope you meant something to me
but those days over its time to set me free
just go just leave
but before you go

did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
blood on everything
there goes all my memories

im on this shit cuz i popped it
bitch i didnt want this
im numbing my pain
because all you can spew is non sense
you cant even stay on topic
you made it about you
when it was about me too
idk how u can love one minute than forget it
i thought we forged it
i know i did some fucked shit
but im not him that wasnt me
i was on drugs when i lost it
but its not a excuse i got a problem
i had everything i wanted
than i lost it
before u walk out

please put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those fucking words 
that you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
there goes all my memories


pull the trigger

produced by. wraithontheporch x ne'erdowell

non profit

lyrics; lost somewhere on my pc lol

walking home in the snow

co prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;

i put that shit down
but i watched a lot of people i care about 
start to slowly drown
some where to far gone now 
theres a reason there not around
it hurts alot but i wanna make them proud
im trying to make my ends meet
i cant ask for help now
im alone in this
im just another face in the crowd

your not alone you know that right
i dont wanna start another fight
here goes another night worrying
it does get tiring
but i want you to know your not alone
just pick up the phone before its too late
if u keep this up your gonna die at this rate
i know you dont care but i dont feel the same
i give a fuck just reach out already

my music getting a little attention
but we where supposed todo this from the beginning 
now its just me in this shit 
im sick of your bullshit
if u where my friend
you would use me
you wouldn't try to get what you can out of me
even when i had nothing i still tried to help

yk i put that shit down
but i watched a lot of people i care about 
start to slowly drown
some where to far gone now 
theres a reason there not around
it hurts alot but i wanna make them proud
im trying to make my ends meet
i cant ask for help now
im alone in this
ik im just another face in the crowd


not alone

scrap off hellscape

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
bitch im a scumbag
we all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag

im a outcast
smoking so much i have panic attacks
got way to high now im recording this track
i dont even know what im saying
ill switch up the flow and still fuck it up
most of my friends always popping shi or sipping on liquor in there cup
i dont even like feel like getting fucked up
i abused that shit and i was dumb
but ill still roll a blunt
ill eatsome shrooms jus to go on a trip for the night
im 23 and i haven't done anything with my life
im chasing girls that never loved me
im smoking until its late at night
im always picking fights
im never feeling alright
but i say it all the time
i think i need a new vibe
fuck doing a line
fuck sleeping in like im not even alive
fuck everything i got get my life together
im trying to be on my grind
it gets hard most of the time
but atleat i try
because when i feel like making a song its always raining

im a scumbag
they all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag



scumbag

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
who could of guess it would of ended like this
destroy me, break me until quit
who could of guessed id let it end like this 
oh oh oh she had me whipped
than i caught u fucking wit him 
now im sippin again
who could of guessed i let the demons win

im not here to talk
im here to get out
this is my breaking point
and u dont care at all
all the things i say has no point
so i give up and walk away

i dont wanna talk today
i dont wanna play your game
when all u do is blame
its not the same
i like it when it rains
and u hate it when im in pain
you sliced deep u hit the veins
i cant look u in the face
because im not feeling great


end like this

produced by sorrow bringer

influenced by 9tails 

lyrics; something about stopping the pain in my head or sum

thoughts (interlude)

produced by ne'erdowell x cl6udy
non profit

hourglass

produced yoluwi

lyrics;
girl your on my mind
but these days i cant find the time
i rather stay here in my mind 
than try to match your vibe

i swear i was gonna leave that shit behind
but whats it to you if im on my grind
just let me live my life

'

on my mind

produced by hills

lyrics;
run it back, get a pack 
break it down, try n sell a bag
catch a flightl, n i still got jet lag
girl yk im on my grind trying to get this bag

girl so fine, ion even care
out of my league girl i cant help but stare
we link n im jus tryna get fucked up
yk its i got the lemonade n gin in my cup
i said i wasn't gonna drink, but tonight idgaf
its jus to have some fun
amg or a blacked out benz
it doesn't matter 
for fuck sake i could whip a cybertruck
girl turn the music up
im jus tryna tell u im not the same guy that u knew once
i might be on drugs 
but it doesn't mean i cant love
i got these cuts that u cant see

run it up run it up run it up
my dumbass is way to slump
who gives a fuck

run it back, get a pack 
break it down, try n sell a bag
catch a flightl, n i still got jet lag
girl yk im on my grind trying to get this bag

jetlag

arranged by me

lyrics;
its been 7 months 
i still see you in my nightmares
i know why you never fight fair
its easier than getting attached
like i know you never cared
i rather be depressed
than walking on egg shells scared

im still broken & you hate it
i lost myself & u hate it
u hurt me & i still take it
every emotion im getting tired of faking 

why am i still drifting away
i dont know but ill ask the same question
i do the shit i do for attention
i know you have him
but im still sitting here again
waiting for a ounce of hope i wont get
u hurt me and i wont forgot
but i let it happen
so whats the difference

u broke my heart and i let it happen
im fine now
im lying but ig ill fake it
i dont know how much longer i can make it
each day i try my best
but im losing my ambition theres barely any left
i feel like im going manic
and my feelings are just tragic

i still see you in my nightmares
i know why you never fight fair
its easier than getting attached
like i know you never cared

im still broken & you hate it
i lost myself & u hate it
u hurt me & i still take it
every emotion im getting tired of faking

7months

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
im talking to my self again
voices from people in my past make me feel like im haunted
and i can feel the air in this room get thin
something in my head is telling me to live
but i dont even know how todo that
everything i do makes me wanna quit

me and her where more than friends
thought i could wash away my sins
i lost so many friends
when will this shitty life fucking end
next time someone cuts
make sure you leave it open
so it can get infected
i rather die from someone i called friend

i cant do it myself
im so weak now
i'm getting high tonight
im waiting for the comedown
i wont stick around
im gonna fade into the background
i selfdestruct and scream out loud
i know it wont help
but its better than checking my bank account
im broke now
i got a hole now
its way to easy to fold now
its easy to take that route
its a bad day
thats why i dont go out
smoke going down my throat now
ket going up my nose now
i dont wanna fucking drown


im talking to my self again
voices from people in my past make me feel like im haunted
and i can feel the air in this room get thin
something in my head is telling me to live
but i dont even know how todo that
everything i do makes me wanna quit
  

talking to myself again

taking a little break for awhile to get my head straight. i have 3 songs queued up but other than that im taking a break 

prod boyfity x pizzle
non profit

shout jadsevns cat bat

lost along the way

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
im always so stressed (im stressed)
im staying up all night getting stoned
who would of thought the world was so cold
i got nowhere safe anymore (anymore, anymore)
this isn't my home n you dont wanna talk
ill just leave you alone (leave you, leave you alone)

im always feeling down
patch up the wound before i bleed out
im already on the ground (the ground)
i cant help myself, i cant do better
im already in hell but its so so cold
i jus need to go, i need to roam (roam, roam)
i have nowhere else to go
but this isn't my home
i forgot my coat (my coat)
and its getting cold (so cold)
my hands are numb and my fingers are turning blue
whats happen to us this isn't me, this isn't us (not us)
 
im lost in what i had, now i always feel sad
its hard to stay sober (sober, sober)
2025 and im 23 years older
i feel the steam when i smolder (smolder, its hot)
i jus wanna hold her but that wont happen (it wont)

im always so stressed (im stressed)
im staying up all night getting stoned
who would of thought the world was so cold
i got nowhere safe anymore (anymore, anymore)

stressed

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feat MisFiiT @4135876
prod @s0ftskelet0ns

lyrics;
mars:
sitting here waiting for the fire to start
the flames will destroy everything
theres nothing left here 
i cant even see the stars
u wanna talk again but its all a game
youll just take the dagger and shove it back in my heart
you love tearing me apart

misfiit:
tear me apart into tiny little pieces
tried to fix things then got hit with that green text 

shawty got me burning yeah 
third degree scars on me misfiit and marsy 

suicide been all up in my mind ohh
my vision aint right all i saw was your beauty
something like out a movie 
misfiit really need improvements
i been high in the backseat of this car that i bought you 

yuh get right back in it
aint worried bout a bitch just mind my business
got my phone on dnd
bumpin mp3s
icarus around me 
that feature i did it

your love top shelf who tf you kiddin 
your something like clubhouse bitch you dangeorus 
you need to dissapear ill wish it
throw you outside in the wilderness

oh my oh my god 
what you want now
you never speak clear always fuckin scream loud 

mars:
sitting here waiting for the fire to start
the flames will destroy everything
theres nothing left here 
i cant even see the stars
u wanna talk again but its all a game
youll just take the dagger and shove it back in my heart
you love tearing me apart
sitting here waiting for the fire to start
the flames will destroy everything
theres nothing left here 
i cant even see the stars
u wanna talk again but its all a game
youll just take the dagger and shove it back in my heart
you love tearing me apart

tear me apart w/ misifiit

non profit
prod rabi

i just want my monthly reload

rainbet (waiting on my reload)

23 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
@rod / @web fan account

email - m@scars.online

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