here I am losing myself again :(

out on all plats soon

losing myself again

when my dreamscape and my reality starts blurring what is really real anymore?

consider this ghoul in tokyo pt 2

i put a lot of work into this project and i hope you enjoy
also shoutout the amazing producer sorrow bringer
extra sound design and effects by me

this is my art and what i wanna make

- mars

ps this was heavily influenced by sewer

hellscape

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him
take a flight
cuz im jus trying to get high
im jus trying to get by
take a flight
pick up the mic
im feeling alright
yeah

girl when u call me ion wanna pick up
hearing ur voice got me feeling some type of way
if u where me would u not have ur guard up?
if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
u always trying to use the things i say as a weapon
look me in the eyes n tell me u dont love him

i mean ur the reason i been getting all fucked up again

look at me using u as a excuse again
because i dont wanna take the blame for it again
look at me losing myself again
im cutting myself out in the open

i cannot not disappear
so you got and ha

losing myself again (disappear)

produced by lostcage

lyrics;
i got blunt ash on my coat
i got dabs all over my clothes
all i do is fucking smoke
im coughing all night u can hear me choke
i record this song than come up with a emote
than i spend all day in bed watching supernatural
baby wipe ur nose because u look like u got a cold
u fuck with my head n turned my heart to stone
and i feel like theres a rope tied around my throat
im jus too fucked up im too stoned


crashout
crashout
thats all i fucking do
i cant control my anger
its been like 4 months since i been sober
its starting to get warmer
but i still feel colder
im always looking over my shoulder
friends tell me i should ignore her
but i wanna hear her voice
ik i keep making these choices
i like it when she uses me as her toy
because i get some sort of fucking joy
throw me to the side for ur new boy
i mean someones gotta be the villain in your story
it dont matter how many times i say sorry
i did it and im sorry


crashout

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i got years of blood on my hands and I’ll never wash it off
I’m chasing all the drugs, liquor & pain, tryna find a place where I belong
trapped in the shadows, i try to survive, n we don’t care about what cost
I wear a heavy crown, but I wear it like a boss

I’ve been lost, I’ve been down low, its been feeling real empty on my throne
i did say i was never gonna come home, but i don't even know where ill go
i was 18 when I wrote the world is cold & guess what  its still cold
ive been feeling real low, real low, low low low
im trying to fill this whole the only way i ever know

I wear the weight like it's stitched in my skin,
i hold on and beg everyone to forgive 
but all i fucking do is sin
everyday i wanna quit
i tell myself everyday this is it
im trapped, im trapped, im trapped 

we were all supposed to get along
but for how long
playing chants and singing a warriors song
blood shed all over the battle field
and i dont even know what weapon i wield
god told me to go forward 
but im trapped by my past
using my shield to parry 
sword vs sword combat jus to be treated fairly


crown

enemy

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i been smoking till my eyes go red
i been wasting everyday in this bed
been wishing everyday i was dead
how the fuck do i try when there is nothing left
jus switched my meds
but i dont think theyll fucked up head
but ill try because im always trying my best

i know im a mess
n i know i got these regrets
so why the fuck do i wanna be dead
ive had friends i lost and friends i pushed away
day to day
night to night
im not feeling alright
week to week
month to month
im lost in my head 
i see the seasons changing like its twilight
been a year and i still dont feel any different
been 2 years i been stagnant


mess

personal favorite song ive made in awhile

produced by. sorrow bringer x luffysome 

lyrics;

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less
and those beautiful eyes i got lost in

she wrote a song for me the first time when she fell for me
tried to warn me, but I still fell under her spell
that was her siren's call, and I loved that song
wasted all of fall, now those days are gone
jus for u to block me 
wishing for something, anything at all
i jus wanna be friends
i jus want u in my life
i wanna make peace
i cant stand to have things be this way

do you ever feel the same
is there a way to ever feel okay
because everything in my brain is breaking down 
im not 
im not worth saving

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less
and those beautiful eyes i got lost in

play my life like a game and i know its a gamble
i wish i knew the stakes, i know i fucked up
i know i have these mistakes, that haunt me
but wait, do u finally understand, 
that this isnt the man i am

shes still on my mind n shes flawless 
she got me obesessed with seeing her topless
but i rather listen to you talk more or less

flawless

produced by autrioly

lyrics;
im taking my lighter and im burning every bridge
i roll up this weed n i take another hit
i pick up this pill bottle and toss 1 down my throat
i keep saying i wanna quit
but its the only thing that makes life easy
if i quit than i feel like id hate it
a life so grey and dull
drugs r the only thing that helps it
ion think i can ever quit

burned bridges

hellscape (intro)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its cold, i cant feel my hands
killing another man
that wasnt apart of the plan
but fuck here i am
washing the blood of my hands
i took the last thing that made me human
now im fading back into being a demon
babygirl gimmie a reason to stay
if not ima jus drift away
ion even wanna be awake

oh my god 
smoking all night long
i wont ever stop
its the only thing im good at
the only thing i want

atleast fight back x 5

fffightback (interlude)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
its been 45 days since i got fucked up
its been 59 days since i got drunk
doing this for my health and i hate it
jus like jelly said sobriety sucks
i like the feeling of being fucked up
it helps with know ill never be enough

i wake up and wish i could jus go back to sleep
even when i record 50 songs a week
i still feel like im just a sheep
everyone says its not that deep

beingsoberfkingsucks

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
4am on this porch i sit here and smoke
until everything i love turn to ash
off this ket but it doesnt nothing but numb my past pain
take my soul and heart and toss it out into the rain
watch me bleed, babe im on my knees
sending you messsage after message knowing you wont read
listen to my pleads, listen to me

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

the truth is hard to swallow
been awhile since i was down this low
ive never felt this hollow
i'm trying to get fucked up so i'm trying to hit it from my bong
i used to have potential but everyone tells me im lost
i don't know what todo or where i belong
fear the worst because you know im cursed
and fuck this shit ill say it again it fucking hurts
cancel all my plans
drop everything just so i could get fucked up and play games
everything i do to numb the pain
it wont help me escape
it makes everything fade away
take everything take my soul
just let me waste away
these new meds are supposed to work
but fuck

i cant look anyone in the face
im ashamed of who i am
i'm not the man i wanna be
and i dont wanna force you to love me
but without you in my life it feels empty
and every single thing feels tempting
i jus wanna be existing

hollow

produced by dash x fonkyfake x luffysome
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics;
what do you want from me.
what do you really want from me

cracks glow thru the ceiling but
how she gonna say she a angel
like wheres your halo
all over me last year
this year where your feelings go??
she told me she dont know

atleast i know my place
ay ay
okay you text me 
okay you call me
but u can wait



these walls cant hold me
these chains cant hold me

halo

produced by kaydo

lyrics;
run away from me, or ill have to block u myself
tomorrows judgement day and ill be living in my own hell
im bugged by something but you cant tell
and u think i like the way this felt
if i wasnt such a co-
if i wasnt such a coward id end it all
but i dont believe in that so im sitting here saying fuck it we ball

you call me pathetic
wishing youd change
but thats me trying to be copathetic
tell me all your problems like im supposed to be sympathetic
i barely know how to be empathetic 
only thing that helps 
is this weed its my fucking medcine
and i just wanna talk to my friends
now im sucked in
now im locked in
and look im blocked again
u always wanna win
but i wont quit
so u wont give in 
is this a way either of us should live
your happy with him
im here barely wanting to live
like bitch you already win
do i gotta say it again
you already fucking won
you fucking win
just let me live

i used to mix the lsd with the weed
trying to see past this week
woke up 1day and i felt free
dropped out at 16
fell apart at 19
now i dont want anyone i care about to leave
you gotta trust me
this isnt me i swear its not me
if i cut myself i still bleed

run away from me, or ill have to block u myself
tomorrows judgement day and ill be living in my own hell
im bugged by something but you cant tell
and u think i like the way this felt
if i wasnt such a co-
if i wasnt such a coward id end it all
but i dont believe in that so im sitting here saying fuck it we ball

coward

produced by the wonderful @iamaneerdowell

lyrics;
i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

gods always putting me thru tests
and all my friends are pushing me to the ledge
im still waiting for a text from my ex
my dr switched my meds
i think theyre working
its hard to fix something when ur always hurting
and nothings ever fucking working

is this shit always in my fuckedup head
i get tired of waking up and wanting to be dead
idk how much energy i got left
so leave me alone

if i do not answer the phone dont call me again
i dont wanna talk to you, you always got a plan
you use me for attention than go back to your man
ik i was apart of the plan
its okay you win

i say i try my best
but i
never try my best x2

try my best

prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
we drift away into nothing
we turn to dust
and my halo started to rust
so i stored it away with my angel wings
maybes its time to shed some dust
and fly away
im not the same 
as yesterday
time goes by
and my life flies by
and i cant die
years go by
i lived this life all wrong

dust on my angel wings (interlude)

sample from the notebook
produced by. boyfifty

lyrics;
the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

i gave my heart and soul to a girl
gave her my whole fucking world
and all she wants todo is hurt me
break me, use me, hate me, its all the same
you can never hate me more than i already do
when will you get a clue
i dont wanna be alive
but i do it for you
because im nothing without you
im empty and i never see things thru
you where holding me together
fucked as it sounds you really where glue 
and im nothing without you

the hardest truth to swallow 
is that there isn't always tomorrow
and you know it deep down
that your running on time thats borrowed
i know that sounds morbid
but I've always been running on time thats borrowed
and ive never felt this hollow
maybe a grave never looked so shallow

shallow (without you)

produced by hollowprpl

lyrics;
how you gonna tell me to chill when ur fucked up on drugs
how you gonna tell me you love me when it was all lust
i was just a drug and someone u could never love
i burned so many bridges for your attention

i give up
i dont give a fuck
dodged a bullet i guess i do got luck
and i heard from you your new man cant even make u cum
and u dont even know if he gives a fuck
i don't give a fuck i jus keep up because its fun
now look at you doing drugs and drinking until your numb

tell me ur really in this shit wit ur heart
because ik i went dark
i feel like i played my part
n now i missed my mark
its my fault 
i jus wanted to be a star
but now im covered in scars
off ts ig i am on mars
ig momma raised a rockstar
snap the picture with the nikon
baby girl im a fashion icon

i wanna go a different route
i cant escape i think my heart n soul r bound
im wasting my time, im wasting my life
either way this isn't right all the voices my head the voices are getting loud
im just a knight of hell n ur the queen 
im scared of this but no one will believe me oh well
once again i do this to myself
and i cant fucking ask for help






soulbound



prod zyller & mode$to

something diff

lyrics;
everybody laughing when the fat man walk in
but everybody i see a joker by the way they laughing
when i die bury with my chain & some blunts in my coffin
10 years of bullying and mocking
now i got some money in my pocket
and writing these songs im locked in
and im tired of yall pocket watching

keep the blade on my side like a keyblade
and i got this money going in circles like a Beyblade
nobody taught me this im the one that made me
these chains bound me but ill break them
you cant contain me
barely even break me

i never forget them days
i didnt ever say a word
kept my head down, tried to not get close
tried not to get hurt, im the person no one knows


house of mirrors

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
i don't feel bad
about how i act
i dont feel sad
about the things i do
dont be mad 
because this is how i wanted to be

im finally me

somedays i feel free
and other days i feel weak
i barely get any sleep
and i hardly ever eat
everyone says im down to earth
but all that i feel is hurt
im trying to get this done
im putting in the work
but all i do is hurt
all i do is hurt
friends dropped me for my own ego
are you sure i needed you

i wish wishing for death
i was wishing for something to help
i tried taking my meds again
tried looking in again

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated
all the bullshit in my life had to been orchestrated 
you think ur lifes fucked look at mine let me demonstrate it
each day it gets worse
and i cant explain it and its complicated
im so unmotivated and im so hated
and i fucking i hate it


see this thru

late freestyle

produced by kingtheta

lyrics;
spit on me
hit me
build me up
and destroy me
tell me you love me
than fking leave me

telling me im the one to blame
but you wouldn't even hop on the plane x 2

take everything
and i was already empty
hit me up after blocking me
i dont wanna play your game


tell me im the one to blame

produced by @sorrow_bringer

lyrics;

\\
i try to get by,
than i get high
i feel like i wanna die
why would i wanna be alive

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
  
yk im a fiend for this stuff
im trying to be a betterman
ik we are better off as friends
i honestly hate how things are 
but i pretend, 
give me 5 minutes before i descend into madness
you dont really know the dread and sadness

remember  how i told u i suck with attachments
but how i managed to get attached than
but once again i digress
filling myself up with stress
for what your with him
but im always the 2nd best
and i let it happen
why do i do this

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
yk im a fiend for this stuff

i try to get by,
than i get high
i feel like i wanna die
if im not alright
why would i lie to you for tonight

would u jus change u dont like him
everytime we talk my life gets brighten
and everytime i hear the things he does
it makes me wanna fight him
im alone again, im gonna die alone again
phone calls help me get by
but

she got me locked down
i try to get by,
than i get high

everytime we sin, than we sin again n i dont wanna
i stay up all night until i see the morning sun
maybe its time to look within
look at what ive become
either way this is no way to live
but baby your like my drug
yk im a fiend for this stuff
//

sin again

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
im lost n i hate it,
i said i was gonna make it
but until than im fake it
hurt me, ill take it
use me, ill let it happen
give me ur trust n ill break it

i spend too much time on this music
n i dont do anything else
destroying everything i touch
my hands are covered in my own blood
im wasting my fucking life
and all the time i got
please just wanna leave Vermont
please i just wanna be gone
i gave this all i got
but im done
destroy my mental health to make songs
destroy my lungs with this bong
destroying my physical health locked in this room for too long
i cant focus
i cant show my emotions
and im sorry
yk my reality and concept of time is flawed
if u leave me n try to come back im gone
hate on me and my music im gone
either way im going for a walk

i dont wanna talk
feelings flood thru my veins
i drown in the pain
its all the same
these pills are calling my name
i had a spark a flame

now i just have a pile of ash on my desk
thats all thats left
and i thought i had something to say
but thats better of being unsaid
fuck it i lied
i said ur different in everyway
i wasted everyday
i put my all in and i was just something u can use to play
than got bored and throw away
thats not fair to me
im sick thinking about it
how could u hate and tell everyone ur afraid
when i did nothing in that way
but u hit me up again isn't that lovely??

im lost n i hate it,
i said i was gonna make it
but until than im fake it
hurt me, ill take it
use me, ill let it happen
give me ur trust n ill break it

i fkn hate it

single #1 off hellscape releasing 7/10

sewer used this beat and I never ended up making a song but found it on my pc so i made this today enjoy

produced by sorrowbringer 

album w/ hollowprpl on the 25th

& 

album w/ sorrow next month

lyrics;
ion wanna talk to this bitch im trying to roll this blunt
im not tryna talk wit this powerup in my cup
u say u hate me when im fucked up
but bitch this is who i am
im a different person everyone hates when im not on the drugs
if i fall asleep dont wake me up
plug hit my phone trying to dose me up
but im already fucked up

if i roll this blunt i dont think i can get anymore high
but i do it because if i dont ill lose my fucking mind
missed a text from my grandma i lost track of time
rather not talk about how i feel, im fine

u blocked me n u know damn well that i dont care
keep telling me im not being fair
than why the fuck are u still here
i'm not going outside im way to  fucked up  
im not going anywhere i dont give a fuck 
bitch are you dumb
its so cold out
my hands are going numb
ur so so selfish
bitch u never meant this
i was all up in her mouth like a denist

my hearts broken 
so i crush another pill
and do another line even tho you know it kills
keep going just to feel alive
keep your feelings inside
your not gonna die

roll this blunt

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;

girl dont touch the chain its real
i got it when i signed my deal
back than i didn't know the devil was real
now that shit weighs on my mind
the secrets i could tell you

kinda scary when ur heartbeat matches the tempo
talking shit to me
u dont know a thing about my fucked up mental
i been this way since i was a child
you should of read the memo
i been steady focused on my own now

my dad was a psycho
and my momma was bipolar
never had any chance since i was in the stroller
playing life like a game
but they didn't even toss me a controller
if u wanna look into my past
you gotta unlock the folder
only person i care about is my grandma
yk she raised a solider
fuck man
its summer but somehow i became colder
yk how many days i wished i was dead
yk how many days i felt like i had nothing left
you ever point a gun at your head
pull the trigger and it jam
but u still wanna be dead
whats needed to be said
i rather be dead

girl dont touch the chain its real
i got it when i signed my deal
back than i didn't know the devil was real
now that shit weighs on my mind
the secrets i could tell you

kinda scary when ur heartbeat matches the tempo
u dont know a thing about my fucked up mental
i been this way since i was a child
you should of read the memo
i been steady focused on my own now

i started this shit to vent
i didn't start it to repent
gave this music 100%
wanted todo something different
but im in the decline
bitch i made this stuff happen when i was trapped up in my head
my mom and my dad both fucked in the head
so thats why im the way i am




the way i am

produced by dercept

lyrics;
u keep trying to pull me closer
than why do u want me to hurt more
my hearts broken
with the words unspoken
i cant breathe
its hard to when im broken

i was on my knees
u dont give a fuck
u sit there and watch me bleed
if u hate me, u dont have to say it
why are so fucking mean


fkin leave

single #2 off hellscape releasing 7/10

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;

i know what happens
i know the aftermath
but im getting tired of fighting it
just let my body lay lifeless

im getting tired of fighting it
i feel everything in this room start to spin
like mars get a grip
is this it??
grab the beretta and unload the clip
way too many people around 
im so sick of this

isolate myself to lock the beast in
everything is out in the open
and im so over it
im falling back again
im drinking again
im smoking all the time
just so i dont gotta feel a thing
maybe i should bite the bullet
its all her fault
i never wanted to be your savior 
some how u became my biggest hater
tell everyone u hate me than your on the phone with me a hour later
ive been having nightmares
this isn't me talking baby
its jus the medicine in my bloodstream
im not angry
i do this to let off steam
im already afraid of everything
what do four words even mean
im sick of living
all my texts green
i haven't been this alone
but no one is hitting up my phone
im destroying myself until im no one
i dont wanna be alone

i say that as my lungs fill up with smoke
this is how i cope
somedays i feel the rope tied around my throat
and somedays i feel like im in my zone
last night in the whip listening to sewerperson im cold
than it switches to 9tails - miles
i haven't felt okay in awhile
when i get drunk again ill say sorry to my family and my friends
than ill disappear again
will anyone check on me at my lowest point
i dont think so, so why should i care
everyone acts annoyed but i asked for help

im getting tired of fighting it
i feel everything in this room start to spin
like mars get a grip
is this it??
grab the beretta and unload the clip
way too many people around 
im so sick of this

clip!

originally performed by 9tails

non profit

prod virginiareaper

9tails - comatose (mars version)

recorded on my 2015 mac book in my living room at 5 am

originally performed by austin snell
instrumental ripped from original song

This is lines at 11 percent battery
I was born to a long one
Had a thing for stepping cross one
If you catch me past most 12:00 a.m.'s
You'll find me swerving off some lines, lines
Yeah, work's got me strung out
Coming home to a ghost town
Yeah, I can't sleep, it's killing me
I keep telling myself it ain't 'cause of these white lines, lines

But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me that meets the eye
If you read between the lines
Yeah, I guess we finally burned out
She's in someone else's truck now
All those 'never agains' and 'where you beens'
Turned into me running out of lines, lines
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between
The lines on the bathroom counter
All the ones from the drunk texts after
Every time I try to rewrite my lines
I get stuck here in this chapter
But I swear I'm trying to get out of this hell
Every time I look for love, I end up hurting myself
From the outside looking in, I'm just fucked up again
If you cared enough, you'd see
There's more to me than meets the eye
If you read between the-

austin snell - lines (onetake)

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics:
burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

working my hardest
writing these songs trying to live lavish
but this was just a survival tactic
its all i wanted, i made it happen
and it wasn't magic, it was hardwork & dedication
i put in the hours since i started
im not even a artist
but im still working my hardest
watching everything i care about turn to dust
and than i start to rust
look at my cuts, theres a lot of blood
and im trying to be okay
but i know no one gives a fuck
lost all my friends again
i guess im out of luck
i got the words but they wont come out
theyre on the tip of my tongue
if u where my friend why would have a smoking gun


im codependent to my all my friends
fake friends switch up now im defenseless 
none the less off the record, but i digress
i know i made this mess, but idk if i can clean it
so im smoking another cigarette 
jus trying to impress
because i dont nothing left 
let me go
i got no where left to go
no im not coming home

burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

self destructive and codependant

produced by sorrow bringer x clozz

lyrics;
you know im a bit psychotic
but im only like this when im off the narcotics
kush got me coughing coughing
gin got me slurring while im talking
can i get 1 moment
cuz im too busy trying to be a trending topic
me n the bros in this call locked in

rain falling by my window sill
im trapped in this hell
i dont wanna go out
because this is how i always felt
i dont socialize 
i created this cell
i take shrooms until my brain melt
feel a lot of guilt
but i made this my life
cant trust a soul
my chains all gold 
im 23 but i act old
talking shit like u know me
if u know me than why didn't i fold
u broke the code
now everyone knows

prescription pills

produced by yeahthismoh x deephartt x feastythaproducer

rip quan

lyrics;
u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

texting u at 3am telling u i miss you
you say we cant do this anymore
but i told you i needed you
we both know i cant love in the situation im in
i hate doing this to you
but im lonely so i pick up the phone and call
i gotta let you down easy
its almost fall and i cant give u my all
how can i know what i want
if i barely know how much longer i got

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

one day i might come back
better than before
but dont count on that
im counting my cards and if i hit i know ill bust
ill do it because im wasted, 
im emotionally drained
im calling because i wanna meet
lets go on a vacation
lets go lets escape this
its all a thought i cant do this
one day ill come back i swear
one day itll be easier 
i cant let you go thru this with me
so please just block me
and dont answer me
dont pick up the phone when your lonely
i wanna be your somebody
but we cant do this
no we cant do this

u deserve better n we both know it
i love you but i never show it
i left the door open
and now you wanna close it

use somebody

prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
loving me is like a crime
we play this game time after time
i tell you im fine
but you hurt me
i tell you im fine
but im barely alive
i keep it all inside

i made it out of hell once
and ill make it out again
i know its getting rough
i counted the cuts
but its okay i just gotta focus
shut off all my emotions
count to ten
and ill be dead
theres nothing left 
where we ever even friends
or did you just wanna wake up in my bed
i know what i said
but now i dont know what i meant
when i die im not gonna goto heaven

i made it out of hell once
and ill make it out again
i know its getting rough

loving me is like a crime
we play this game time after time
i tell you im fine
but you hurt me
i tell you im fine
but im barely alive
i keep it all inside

crime/inside

produced by. wraithontheporch x ne'erdowell

non profit

lyrics; lost somewhere on my pc lol

walking home in the snow

co prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;

i put that shit down
but i watched a lot of people i care about 
start to slowly drown
some where to far gone now 
theres a reason there not around
it hurts alot but i wanna make them proud
im trying to make my ends meet
i cant ask for help now
im alone in this
im just another face in the crowd

your not alone you know that right
i dont wanna start another fight
here goes another night worrying
it does get tiring
but i want you to know your not alone
just pick up the phone before its too late
if u keep this up your gonna die at this rate
i know you dont care but i dont feel the same
i give a fuck just reach out already

my music getting a little attention
but we where supposed todo this from the beginning 
now its just me in this shit 
im sick of your bullshit
if u where my friend
you would use me
you wouldn't try to get what you can out of me
even when i had nothing i still tried to help

yk i put that shit down
but i watched a lot of people i care about 
start to slowly drown
some where to far gone now 
theres a reason there not around
it hurts alot but i wanna make them proud
im trying to make my ends meet
i cant ask for help now
im alone in this
ik im just another face in the crowd


not alone

co prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
i want to change but i dont know how
u dont know about the fucked up thoughts in my brain
you know what i go thru now
living every day with this doubt
i got blood leaking from my mouth
let you in my life
just for u to let me down
its whatever ur jus like everyone else

blood in the sink
bitch i can barely think
when ur sad u drink
when im sad i roll this
than i spark it
i got a few grams in my pocket
burning blunts in the whip 
cooking up something 
hoping i make another hit
filled with self doubt
but itll all change when i just get a little clout
tried to be a friend
but no one cares and i dont now what thats all about


over this (outro)

scrap off hellscape

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
bitch im a scumbag
we all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag

im a outcast
smoking so much i have panic attacks
got way to high now im recording this track
i dont even know what im saying
ill switch up the flow and still fuck it up
most of my friends always popping shi or sipping on liquor in there cup
i dont even like feel like getting fucked up
i abused that shit and i was dumb
but ill still roll a blunt
ill eatsome shrooms jus to go on a trip for the night
im 23 and i haven't done anything with my life
im chasing girls that never loved me
im smoking until its late at night
im always picking fights
im never feeling alright
but i say it all the time
i think i need a new vibe
fuck doing a line
fuck sleeping in like im not even alive
fuck everything i got get my life together
im trying to be on my grind
it gets hard most of the time
but atleat i try
because when i feel like making a song its always raining

im a scumbag
they all know it
writing these songs its driving me mad
its supposed to help with feeling sad
but all i ever do is feel bad
so i am always the bad guy
all my friends call me a scumbag



scumbag

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
who could of guess it would of ended like this
destroy me, break me until quit
who could of guessed id let it end like this 
oh oh oh she had me whipped
than i caught u fucking wit him 
now im sippin again
who could of guessed i let the demons win

im not here to talk
im here to get out
this is my breaking point
and u dont care at all
all the things i say has no point
so i give up and walk away

i dont wanna talk today
i dont wanna play your game
when all u do is blame
its not the same
i like it when it rains
and u hate it when im in pain
you sliced deep u hit the veins
i cant look u in the face
because im not feeling great


end like this

produced by sorrow bringer

influenced by 9tails 

lyrics; something about stopping the pain in my head or sum

thoughts (interlude)

produced by ne'erdowell x cl6udy
non profit

hourglass

pits of hell w/ *man

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;

i been going thru alot lately thank you all for everything


i been busy fading into the trees
why should i stay, when i know everyone leaves
hope you figure it all out when u find the key
i would help but im too lazy
im laying in a pile of the fallen leaves
you said you loved me but its been so long
i dont even know what that means


shes keeps texting me asking "Can i see you, i really need you"
i replied dont you have a new dude
wouldn't that be rude
hearing your voice puts me in a mood
for fuck sake its been 6 months of me falling apart in this room
im at terms with with the past
i rather figure out my own path
than sit here and listen to all the bullshit you spat


trees

mars mumble rap arc

i forgot the prod
non profit
feat @st-a_r-man

lonely* w/ *man

taking a little break for awhile to get my head straight. i have 3 songs queued up but other than that im taking a break 

prod boyfity x pizzle
non profit

shout jadsevns cat bat

lost along the way

22 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
@rod / @web fan account

email - m@scars.online

marsmal

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