impatience Ft. sendflowrs

produced by scottysplash

lyrics;
i been smoking till my eyes go red
i been wasting everyday in this bed
been wishing everyday i was dead
how the fuck do i try when there is nothing left
jus switched my meds
but i dont think theyll fucked up head
but ill try because im always trying my best

i know im a mess
n i know i got these regrets
so why the fuck do i wanna be dead
ive had friends i lost and friends i pushed away
day to day
night to night
im not feeling alright
week to week
month to month
im lost in my head 
i see the seasons changing like its twilight
been a year and i still dont feel any different
been 2 years i been stagnant


mess

i know that you care 
i know your right here 
but i cannot stop the demon in my ear 
“it’s like she can’t stand you”
that’s what they say 
can’t be abandoned 
with my own brain  
stuck in my mind 
i feel all my pain 
drive all night 
i can’t see through the rain 
swerve and i steer 
i love you my dear 
i hope you hear this 
while i’m still here 

it’s not like it’s your fault at all 
feel like i have lost my soul 
wish it could be different 
wish you could be with me 

your scared, i know 
never hurt your soul 
watch me loose control
just hold me tighter 
cause i don’t know 

i know that you care 
i know your right here 
but i cannot stop the demon in my ear 
“it’s like she can’t stand you”
that’s what they say 
can’t be abandoned 
with my own brain  
stuck in my mind 
i feel all my pain 
drive all night 
i can’t see through the rain 
swerve and i steer 
i love you my dear 
i hope you hear this 
while i’m still here 

it’s like i’m in love with those brown eyes 
they brought my soul back to new heights 
everything’s bad when it’s alright 
but everything fades when your here 
won’t you come back with me tonight 
i stop all the drugs when your by my side 
it’s like your my cure to a bad time 
so won’t you stay a little while

demon [in my ear] (prod. micheal harrison)

prod (wuhan x yuerixoxo)

feat @dontwakeslasher

get down

i didn't take it back and know i feel bad 
let me go home and i cant do that 
i fucked it up omg
idk whats going on 
send me back one day 
omg im afraid 
dont let me go back no more 
wanna chop me up in pieces and leave me in the ditch 
omfg im mess bro
only she can save me
only she can save me

only she can save me by my bad side ik
sorry im so complicated looking for my doom
tell me where i found you again 
i dont take baby not my time 

got looking back like is it my time 
idk yet but am i going to die 
don't know what to do for my last try 
god give me one to many time to think it over 

omg im a fuck up idk coming but yeah I'm fuh bust bruh 
one too many time think it over it my head 
sometimes i wounder wish i was dead 

i fucked it up omg
idk whats going on 
send me back one day 
omg im afraid 
dont let me go back no more 
wanna chop me up in pieces and leave me in the ditch 
omfg im mess bro
only she can save me
only she can save me

only she

notes +
this is a song i wrote around 2 years ago ! i posted it when i made it, but the mix was horrible and there was an obnoxious tag over the whole song, so i've re-recorded and remastered the song to post. this has held up to be one of my favorite songs i have ever made, and i hope you like the remastered version :3

lyrics +

VERSE 1
day in, day out
to the moon, i shout
can't go a day without
all of these memories

BRIDGE 1
all of these memories (all of these memories)
the endless melodies
i can't escape the fantasy
of you here next to me

CHORUS 1
what did she do to deserve all the love songs
i cant but to sit here and sing this until dawn
when everything that forms in my life goes terribly wrong
what is there to do for my own happy ending
i just want to know what i can do for you
i know that we could be together through and through
but you put her over me there's nothing i can do to
change your mind and rewrite history

VERSE 2
delusions infect my brain, i don't know what to do
i'm sitting in my bedroom, and i'm singing about you again
i never thought this connection could've been renewed
i can't begin to tell you what i've been through

BRIDGE 2
all of these memories
the endless melodies
i can't escape the fantasy
of you here next to me

CHORUS 2
what did she do to deserve all the love songs
i cant but to sit here and sing this until dawn
when everything that forms in my life goes terribly wrong
what is there to do for my own happy ending
i just want to know what i can do for you
i know that we could be together through and through
but you put her over me there's nothing i can do to
change your mind and rewrite history



rewrite history (prod. WOLFGANG PANDER)

burn to the ground

[fiction]
got me messed up in the face 
feeling like i just got laced 
it wasn’t purp it wasn’t white 
this shit is fate 
i don’t wanna see you talking to me bout what’s fake 
talking all that’s shit but i don’t no bullet spray 
pussy shoot your shot bitch 
pull your gun back and cock it 
before your girl does 
she knows how to lock it 
heard you with my old bitch 
yall can be as toxic 
she don’t like no other chick 
so you better watch it 
and she will come for you 
sitting out your crib just watching 

aye enough of that 
i’ll get off your back now
hop onto your girls cause i know she make it clap now 
in a different world when i’m hitting from the back now 
sipping purp mixing pills maybe it’s from that? nah 

[misfit]
i just fucked a bitch last tuesday 
pop a perc that’s a snooze day 
whippin in the foreign down the street causin road rage
deadwood backstage countin money goin dummy codeine in my tummy

me a fiction gon make this shit reality 
talk shit get hit fatality
i do this shit so i can be fuckin proud of me
i’m on go go mode runnin out my box roddy 

me and fiction in this bitch like what’s up 
pussy boy got guts you ain’t got none
ima misfiit but im lit like a pro boo
run up on me wrong move i’ll go fuckin goku
ficfiit this is ficfiit

[fiction]
got me messed up in the face 
feeling like i just got laced 
it wasn’t purp it wasn’t white 
this shit is fate 
i don’t wanna see you talking to me bout what’s fake 
talking all that’s shit but i don’t no bullet spray 
pussy shoot your shot bitch 
pull your gun back and cock it 
before your girl does 
she knows how to lock it 
heard you with my old bitch 
yall can be as toxic 
she don’t like no other chick 
so you better watch it 
and she will come for you 
sitting out your crib just watching 

i know they watching 
i know they watching 
so keep on watching 
keep on watching

toxic (ft. misfiit) (prod. nightiger)

cant breathe

lyrics:

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up to start again

Based on his blood sports
I cannot defend
He just picks the brick back up as he stands
Ive been getting out more
Hell be sure to state
But Fuck if I could tell his rage paved thru his wake
When Every single second counts double on this day
Plan ahead for proper use to minimize ur waste
I cant even feel the copper splatter on my face
Id be none the wiser without profile of this taste
In his bruised hand he holds my back teeth
before the dirts layed he stashes more flesh
On this Wednesday im pushing daises
But On this Thursday im pushing roses 

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up and goes again

Wait and Watch as his mask drops and his face shows
Its just like a mirror of looking at my own
I swear to god its like the last night I was out alone
Just Listen to my insight and stay the fuck at home
Its Big guns on the green line and a tired soul
U could get marked just like anyone u know
Leave his face on him side ways with a black hole
He just blew his brains out the back his fucking skull
Flayed on the stop sign sits his beating heart
Its like the human body get help break and fall apart
So Back into his hiding hole inside the long dark
He Rests until the year is done and halloween starts

Hlwn25 (eric godlow)

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love

[VERSE / WeepingWolf]
Call it Tough Love 
Call it Tough Love
She asked for the white
like girl take a bump
Fucked off the drugs
yeah I'm fucked off the drugs
Worst day of my life but
I don't give a fuck ah yeah

[BRIDGE]
Todays the worst day but it will be alright (x4)

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it don't go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah I'm a curse
and I need you now but I'm too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and I'm living out a bag tryna make a bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

[VERSE / Anton Golden @antongxldn]
All these dark thoughts tryna mess with me
So I put them on a beat with a melody
Recently I've been looking for the remedy
Cooking up every day found the recipe

Eventually you'll leave but the drugs won't
Baby I'ma get high till my lungs blow
I've been looking at the sky now I'm so close
Tryna find my way call me Nemo... Nemo

Bitch I've been smoking
my heart is broken
Shes off that coke and
numbing emotions

[HOOK]
I hope these drugs gone work
and it dont go worse
matt black nails ooh yeah im a curse
and i need you now but im too fucked up
suppressing all my thoughts yeah i call it tough love
and im living out a bag tryna make bag
backwoods fill it with the loud out the pack
Girl take this pill I know you will
Druggie Romance the type of love to kill

Druggie Romance Ft. Anton Golden (Prod By. CRCL)

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