cover of "one listen before you sleep" by @hiraethsry
cover + reprod done by me <33
made one a while back but wanted to redo it cuz the last one sucked

one listen before you sleep (hiraeth)

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

produced by dash & sorrow bringer 

clip pt2

lyrics;

put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip

im better off dead
what you felt about me is dead
theres nothing left 
how much more has to be said
im getting tired of this game of pretend
im just so tired just let it all end
i swear i was trying my best
  
no drug can fix me girl
im way too fucked up
i knew i was never enough
i knew i wasn't the one
i was just taking my turn
this could never work
talk to me like im human
i hope you meant something to me
but those days over its time to set me free
just go just leave
but before you go

did u mean any of those words you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
blood on everything
there goes all my memories

im on this shit cuz i popped it
bitch i didnt want this
im numbing my pain
because all you can spew is non sense
you cant even stay on topic
you made it about you
when it was about me too
idk how u can love one minute than forget it
i thought we forged it
i know i did some fucked shit
but im not him that wasnt me
i was on drugs when i lost it
but its not a excuse i got a problem
i had everything i wanted
than i lost it
before u walk out

please put the gun to my head
pull the trigger
did u mean any of those fucking words 
that you said
how the fuck did we end up here
put the gun to my head
unload the clip
there goes all my memories


pull the trigger

i tried (all we left unsaid)

lyrics:

it's been quite a while since i've ever felt like this
i can't say i like you but i know you peaked my intrest
answer my wishes
god is my witness
for everything i do
break my bones down on the concrete floor
to show what i'm willing to do to get some more
i don't want nothing too strong
i just wanna get to know you
know you
know you
know you
so please don't push me away
cuz i fear that you've altered my brain
but i cant do nothing about it now
so i guess imma have to convince you how
yeah i could do this all for you in an instant
i would sacrifice my blood to leave an imprint
on your soul on your mind so you don't forget me
yeah i would do it all for you just from the beginning
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been a while
it's been quite a while since i've ever felt like this
i can't say i like you but i know you peaked my intrest
answer my wishes
god is my witness
for everything i do

it's been a while

lyrics:

hair is getting long
i wanna ask you should i cut it off
i want you to like what you see
when you look at me love
i would never change myself for someone
i know who i am
being next to you right now
i wish i was a better man

all these feelings deep inside my chest
they are confusing me
i know that i like you but you don't
so i try not to speak
stars are looking pretty tonight
but you're a different breed
you got me turning off the light
just so that you can sleep
wind is blowing through my hair
i wonder if you notice
i wish you would stop and stare
so that i know you're focused
it's hard for me to know if you care for me the same
your family knows how i feel i guess i'm the one to blame
i pray to god that he forgives me for all of my sins
day to day i've been praying
that's she's doing okay and
wipe the make up off that's all on my face
i'm feeling so out of place
i'm feeling like a disgrace

i wish i was a better man

picture perfect

lyrics:

why you break me down so easily
like what the hell you get from making me bleed
now i stand still on the driveway
hoping that you'll possibly come my way
one foot in and one foot out
i see you like to talk can't shut your mouth
i guess i'll grab my things and head on out
i'm stuck within my bedroom designing sounds
don't talk about me behind my back or spread these lies
your cruelty is what will lead you to your demise
i loved you all and thought i could never switch those sides
but you showed me how and now i'll die

cutting ties [Unreleased Audio]

Prod. Lanee
Lyrics:
Uneasy, my stomach's turning around
It's eating itself from the inside out
Tell me, tell me why aren't you proud?
I'm shaking, but you're not gonna calm me down

(am I mistaken?)

Because I thought that it was promised at birth
(I never thought)
My mother's love is something I'd have to earn
(I guess I'm wrong)

So am I wrong for wanting you to acknowledge me?
I guess it's my fault for hating the curse that you laid onto me

oh whys it feel like that I'm always at fault?
I can't stand it I'm alone you're never breaking my fall
I look down to check my phone to see you still haven't called
when will i see you?

I won't make through fall
I hate that I need you
(no matter how hard I try)
( I won't be hearing what I'm waiting for so)

Tell me, tell me why aren't you proud?
I'm shaking, but you're not gonna calm me down

(am I mistaken?)

Because I thought that it was promised at birth
(I never thought)
My mother's love is something I'd have to earn
(I guess I'm wrong)

So am I wrong for wanting you to acknowledge me?
I guess it's my fault for hating the curse that you laid onto me

Why aren't you proud?

backseat

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pull the trigger

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