produced by @rainyd4ys
written by marsmal
extra production & writing credits -  *man, jerbear & lion 

this album has been one of the hardest things for me to make. ive scrapped it close to 12 times and i cant seem to get the vibe right. so instead of trying to make a cohesive project im gonna make something i enjoy listening to.

as of 6/25 the name is purple because that is my favorite color but i might change it in the future.

purple (rainydays)

prod @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
we drift away into nothing
we turn to dust
and my halo started to rust
so i stored it away with my angel wings
maybes its time to shed some dust
and fly away
im not the same 
as yesterday
time goes by
and my life flies by
and i cant die
years go by
i lived this life all wrong

dust on my angel wings (interlude)

produced by rainydays

lyrics;
watching as the rain falls down
throw a coin in the wishingwell
and i dont wanna be here now
watching as the rain falls down
i dont wanna be here now

we love rainydays
it means you dont have todo anything
i cant stay home and sleep in
i dont gotta focus on anything

sitting at my window
watching as the rain fallsdown
throw a coin in the wishingwell
and i dont wanna be here now
watching as the rain falls down
i dont wanna be here now

rainydays (intro)

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
i don't feel bad
about how i act
i dont feel sad
about the things i do
dont be mad 
because this is how i wanted to be

im finally me

somedays i feel free
and other days i feel weak
i barely get any sleep
and i hardly ever eat
everyone says im down to earth
but all that i feel is hurt
im trying to get this done
im putting in the work
but all i do is hurt
all i do is hurt
friends dropped me for my own ego
are you sure i needed you

i wish wishing for death
i was wishing for something to help
i tried taking my meds again
tried looking in again

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated
all the bullshit in my life had to been orchestrated 
you think ur lifes fucked look at mine let me demonstrate it
each day it gets worse
and i cant explain it and its complicated
im so unmotivated and im so hated
and i fucking i hate it


see this thru

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics;
im lost n i hate it,
i said i was gonna make it
but until than im fake it
hurt me, ill take it
use me, ill let it happen
give me ur trust n ill break it

i spend too much time on this music
n i dont do anything else
destroying everything i touch
my hands are covered in my own blood
im wasting my fucking life
and all the time i got
please just wanna leave Vermont
please i just wanna be gone
i gave this all i got
but im done
destroy my mental health to make songs
destroy my lungs with this bong
destroying my physical health locked in this room for too long
i cant focus
i cant show my emotions
and im sorry
yk my reality and concept of time is flawed
if u leave me n try to come back im gone
hate on me and my music im gone
either way im going for a walk

i dont wanna talk
feelings flood thru my veins
i drown in the pain
its all the same
these pills are calling my name
i had a spark a flame

now i just have a pile of ash on my desk
thats all thats left
and i thought i had something to say
but thats better of being unsaid
fuck it i lied
i said ur different in everyway
i wasted everyday
i put my all in and i was just something u can use to play
than got bored and throw away
thats not fair to me
im sick thinking about it
how could u hate and tell everyone ur afraid
when i did nothing in that way
but u hit me up again isn't that lovely??

im lost n i hate it,
i said i was gonna make it
but until than im fake it
hurt me, ill take it
use me, ill let it happen
give me ur trust n ill break it

i fkn hate it

produced by @rainyd4ys

lyrics:
burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

working my hardest
writing these songs trying to live lavish
but this was just a survival tactic
its all i wanted, i made it happen
and it wasn't magic, it was hardwork & dedication
i put in the hours since i started
im not even a artist
but im still working my hardest
watching everything i care about turn to dust
and than i start to rust
look at my cuts, theres a lot of blood
and im trying to be okay
but i know no one gives a fuck
lost all my friends again
i guess im out of luck
i got the words but they wont come out
theyre on the tip of my tongue
if u where my friend why would have a smoking gun


im codependent to my all my friends
fake friends switch up now im defenseless 
none the less off the record, but i digress
i know i made this mess, but idk if i can clean it
so im smoking another cigarette 
jus trying to impress
because i dont nothing left 
let me go
i got no where left to go
no im not coming home

burn the bridges with this pack of matches
smoke the pack down till its ashes
s-s-self destructive, motherfucker stay out my mentions
i act out for a-a-attention, hoping for a reaction

self destructive and codependant

23 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
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email - m@scars.online