at least i know you'll move on (eric godlow)

last song for blue, next month red.

when u look in my eyes do you feel the same i do with you
yeah i heard what they talking bout can you tell me is it true
oh im holding on bae til my fingers blue
i dont think youll ever move the way that i move
i keep it all the way one hundred
even when your wrong baby i love it
i feel carti money rub  my stomach
i paid my mom debt i paid my debt
i tell em cut the check and then i run it
i been real quiet know im up to something
i dont even like going out in public i can stay inside til im like 100
ever since 15 get what i wanted
how she tryna ghost me like im haunted
i get the bread baby then i burn it all
we could toast it up right now
i pick ya up baby when ya down
im the town baby are you round
back in my bag baby when you play this can you tell me how it sounds

hmm
hmmm
hmmmm

some times i miss the way it was
but i wouldnt change a thing if i could
just like a beater baby got flaws on me 
but im good under the hood
still fucking up anything good
talk to god like shoulda coulda would
i was tryna tell you how i feel last night i dont think you understood
ugh but fuck it whats new ehh
mic on time to speak on my mind
night time i dont think that im fine
like is it the right time or am i crossing the line
baby tell me are you really all mine
look in my eyes so i tell if you lying
got a head made of steal and a heart of a lion ha

when u look in my eyes do you feel the same i do with you
yeah i heard what they talking bout can you tell me is it true
oh im holding on bae til my fingers blue
i dont think youll ever move the way that i move
i keep it all the way one hundred
even when your wrong baby i love it
i feel carti money rub  my stomach
i paid my mom debt i paid my debt
i tell em cut the check and then i run it
i been real quiet know im up to something
i dont even like going out in public i can stay inside til im like 100
ever since 15 get what i wanted
how she tryna ghost me like im haunted
i get the bread baby then i burn it all
we could toast it up right now
i pick ya up baby when ya down
im the town baby are you round
back in my bag baby when you play this can you tell me how it sounds

money rub [p. patchface+warheart+ivory]

lyrics

you say its from smoking but i think tears grown plants inside of my lungs
kinda like the tree that i parked my skateboard at when i was young
right before the highway that id run across
cuz cars drove fast and i couldnt push it fast enough
i been thinking bout the past lately
im just bored from all the nothing thats been taking up my time lately

i dream about you a lot
im here for you when youre not there for yourself
i know my way around here baby i, made it out of hell
i made it out of hell
in purgatory
bones stripped till weak
you own a piece of me
flowers in your hair
i wish that i was there for you
when i should be
i dont wanna be here
i drove home drunk in the front seat
i cant let you lose that faith you have in me
and then i get to stressing and you say "baby just breathe"

i dream about you a lot
im here for you when youre not there for yourself
i know my way around here baby i, made it out of hell
i made it out of hell
in purgatory
bones stripped till weak
you own a piece of me
flowers in your hair
i wish that i was there for you
when i should be
i dont wanna be here
i drove home drunk in the front seat
i cant let you lose that faith you have in me
and then i get to stressing and you say "baby just breathe"

purgatory 2 (dexter yu x juanchi)

lyrics

its 
out of my head 
out of my hands
you threw a wrench oh
its out of my plans
ur taking ur time
in turn wasting mine
i thought i knew but
im going in blind

get out my head
get off my mind
it fell apart 
in front of my eyes
what is the point
in going again
laid on the floor
and bleeding to death

i hate sitting round between dark walls 
i hate sitting here with these dark thoughts
this had never gone how i want
im just holding out for when the pain stops

will i still be here when the rain stops
i still hear ur voice in the rain drops
i cant help but think about the days lost
whats even the point of a love lost

its 
out of my head 
out of my hands
you threw a wrench oh
its out of my plans
ur taking ur time
in turn wasting mine
i thought i knew but
im going in blind

get out my head
get off my mind
it fell apart 
in front of my eyes
what is the point
in going again
laid on the floor
and bleeding to death

the rain stopped (tiedforsilver + ryankelly)

produced by sorrow bringer

influenced by 9tails 

lyrics; something about stopping the pain in my head or sum

thoughts (interlude)

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

don't go
please stay
I'll trade my days for what you have left
I'll give you every breath

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

everybody's calling me but I don't want to talk today
sun is out, rays are shining but I still expect some rain
I lost you to all of the problems inside of your head
I wish I saw the signs before you had left

this door's got a big lock
I don't know where the keys at
there's just a white clock
spinning fast, but it won't go passed
9:32 
it just stops and then rewinds right back
it just stops and then rewinds right back

9:32

i'll scream
your name
so loud
it echos away

i can't breathe
oh ur not right here with me
oh such a shame
shame

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

i want this
im watching
like tell me
how do you want love?
im nauseuos
i lost it
right before us
cant help it
im obsessed
with the way you touch
i need you
i cant help 
but feel im not enough


its all okay
maybe that was a lie
you wont ever know
i wont see your face
i do this for nothing
i wake up 
just to find out
its all the same

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

oh what a mess that i have made [muzcean]

Vails (https://soundcloud.com/alex-thomas-fox)

dead broke:
This Summer Was Rotten,
You played the part, I hope you feeling it Often.
Nights under Stars, but they were False we were Toxic..

Drug infused often..
nobody else I would want,
to Chase the Sun for a Coffin,

tell me if I'm right for you,
do what you gotta do my love,
I keep on running from you,

I would crash before I trust,

every time I talk to you it's like there's something else to do..
I can't keep running from you (x2)


Vails:
I can’t keep running away

It’s way too hard for me to stay

Every step I take just leads me back to pain

I’m the one to blame

Heart on my sleeve but it’s wearing thin

Same old story where I can’t win

Tried to hold on but I lost my grip

Im falling apart I’m falling

I keep pretending I’m fine but I’m not okay

Drowning in these words I never say

Lost in the silence I made my home

Fighting these demons but I fight alone

This Summer was Rotten (ft. Vails)

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

Clock (Prod. By armel blue)

prod. me

Lyrics:
I've been wondering if you'll call,
And i never really thought at all,
That i would become ur burden,
But all ur love is what I'm searching for,
And all of u is what i adore,
I'll pass out on my bedroom floor,
And i wish that i didn't wake up anymore,
(x4)

i miss u

23 | vox / songwriter & engineer 
i make what i want my music isnt for everyone
@rod / @web fan account

email - m@scars.online

thoughts (interlude)

marsmal