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let's pretend

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[crona]
I feel like a hangman, I'm paralyzed
I fall apart when you say that you're alright
Something's wrong, I could tell, you aint gotta lie
Do me wrong but I hate to see you cry

[halfhearted]
I thought it was real,
took off my bandage cuz it never healed
mama, I’m sorry I'm tryna feel
lately, I'm numb and there’s no appeal
I block the sunlight out of my room it makes me
so annoyed
started watching how you move and I got
paranoid
locked in a house that’s haunted it drives me crazy
bones all up in my closet, she couldn’t save me
pop another addy just to get me through a day shift
I don’t like to talk about that shit, it makes me anxious

[crona]
I feel like a hangman, I'm paralyzed
I fall apart when you say that you're alright
Something's wrong, I could tell, you aint gotta lie
Do me wrong but I hate to see you cry

paralyzed ft. halfhearted (prod. lostcage)

(rall3)

Lay a kiss on my pale white skin
Let your soul intertwine with mine 
Let your body sink let your mind go blank
Lay it on me what youre thinking about

I'll be here
On the porch waiting for you
Were we met 
In the summer under cloudy skies

Bright green eyes 
Piercing mine
my only regret
is having to say goodbye

(notahero)

wait
darling its getting late
we should settle down
nothing has stayed the same in this quiet town
maybe ill get lucky and ill be gone by the morning
im entering deep space now and i swear when i say
ill be waiting in the cosmos
to wrap my arms only around you
and we can nap on afternoons, like we want to
youre my saving grace
my cold grey eyes
and you bring them back to life
when you hold me, i hold you
my stomach is burning
you love me, i love you too
bae i love you too
i dont want anymore of this life if its not with you
and of that im sure
let the candle burn
i dont know much about real love but for you ill learn

goodbye - feat. notahero

(I used to have big dreams. y'know?)
(But they said I was too intense)
This ain’t my scene at all
These shoes were never made for me 
People smile but in reality (Just another face behind a screen)
It's not as beautiful as it seems (It all caved in, now I crave my peace)

Maybe it’s not that deep, but it feels that way when you’re hurt
I'm wearing it since two fourteen, watch every step like in rehearse
And time moves on, but I’m stuck in reverse
While they all moved on, I don't feel like I'm heard
(I tried to get a job once)
I don't want my art compared, I'm rotting on my bed
I feel so sad again (whatever), and I love you 'til the end
Nobody can compare, I love you more than ever
(Art isn't always pretty bro)

Filthy thoughts under this polished face
I recall some days that I felt so fake
The only truth is that I feel intimidate
When they all talk loud, I just go isolate
Try to play it cool, but I suffocate
Words in my head that I can’t translate
Then you would cross my mind and I can't escape
I wanna scream until I start to break
Or hide my truth just to feel “okay”
I don't really feel okay
After I left all my friends
But there's noway I go back
Cos it would fuck me up again

filthy

Produced by Lxst Boy & Late Night Tones

-lyrics-

I stare at the walls and think about what they have seen
I missed all your calls, purposely, now leave me be
How are you so quick to apologize? (I'm sorry)
I felt so sick when it came to light
Now the memory falls, drifting down like autumn leaves

You've torn my heart
You've torn my heart

I stare at the clock, ticking down to melodies
The burned out wood, wounded from your kerosene
How are you so quick to burn me down?
You were my world till you locked me out
I picked up your call, now watch me bleed, you need to see

You've torn my heart
You've torn my heart
Say it's all my fault and take it back so you can breathe
You've torn my heart

Driftwood

prod dash 

sample from whiplash
lyrics ⬇️
theres not a future thought in my head oh well
well i could tell you what i want next 
but you would yell
yell at me for my best
for secrets that i had kept
then wonder why i aint slept
oh well
think this is something i cant repeat
keep stoopin low
you gonna find me out in a ditch
i dont want you to know
i dont think i dont think i can be seen like this
id rather you go tell everyone im just in an abyss
stuck out in the snow
way too cold so i couldnt flinch oo

think my lil brodie jus hit em a clip
360 y y hit on yo miss
and he doin damage so that you cant stitch
all of the stuff that you wish he aint did
act like my wifi aint runnin so i could just possibly find me some rest
act like this wachu been wantin
honestly please come be my guest

white paint on my whip
all of my vices green
i dont want you to trip
but i dont wanna you to cling
like what do u mean

well its pretty easy if you would just listen just for a minute 
i could tell u how i really have been 
like walkin to finland
thats how the distance feels between us when you get tempted
if i had wishlist you wont get it
ill throw that lil promise over the hedge

hits like a comet covered in ship
if we woulda saw it it would be sick
hints like a comment you wont forget
but we had a problem thats what we missed
covered in star dust under the mist
woulda been harder not to be hit

barley had started when you had dipped
hate you departed think we had skipped
my head been clouded hate to admit
i hope these feelings diminish they cant replenish
you act like a skit but this now a show
like where did u go
if i had a blick then i woulda blown
like you didnt know

and i cant explain how im feelin alone
every night i feel like theres not a phone
no where to reach
nowhere to be
part of me feel like im left out to bleed

finland (dash)

Thank you for listening ❤️


-Taylor 
Taylor you’re a bixch cause you watched her walk away and you say shxt

face it , I had to let her go and now I hate it 

cause now I’m bending, and I’m breaking, 

And I can’t dodge another feeling fuxk the matrix 

I’m so alone when I’m alone I feel evasive , erase it , every memory I gotta save it 

chains all on my wrist that girl kept putting me in cages , she’s the reason I get drunk asf and they tell me to face it 

 why do I keep  questioning myself I know I wasn’t wrong , why can’t I let go of you I talk about you every song

 it’s cause depression, gets mixed with a passive aggressive message

 i still smell your sweater it won’t move from where u left it

 why, idk why , I keep running back when I’m the only one that tried , and girl I woulda died for you, you shoulda kept me up in your mind , but I gotta get over it

Hook


-skele 
i can’t face it 
baby i can’t take this 
i don’t wanna be alone 
i fucking hate it
turn me up 
i pop this x and feel amazing 
u didn’t try to hold me down 
when i was breaking 
Oooh screaming out 
i really loved you
i just had to write it down 
like it’s a haiku
even though you never cared 
i had to try to
even though you’re never there 
i had to try to

oh i tried 
i tried to let go 
i just thought id write it down and let you know 🖤💔

Face it w/ skele (P. Cxrter, jolst)

produced by sorrow bringer

influenced by 9tails 

lyrics; something about stopping the pain in my head or sum

thoughts (interlude)

-lyrics-
i cant wait to see you go
the winter snow
you have no glow
to take my awe away
from her
im for you
too much decisions
theres some things i cannott do
like getting you back
there was so many pleasures from you
i cant figure it out
im stuck in doubt
im stalking your page
i cant get out
i cant get away from you

i cant wait to see you go
the winter snow
to take my awe away
from her
im for you
too much decisions
theres some things i cant do
like getting you back
there was so many pleasures from you
i cant figure it out
im stuck in doubt

im up late at night
the summers so nice
your smile is so nice
the kiss of salvation
its a celebration
for us to figure out
i cant figure it out
im stuck in doubt

thoughts (interlude)

marsmal