We can be friends

field medic - i think about you all the time

future me here why tf was i moaning like that

its in the air

a medley/mashup/cover of 
matilda - PUP
and also matilda - harry styles

matilda/matilda (kate tackles pup x harry styles)

if i had the motivation i wouldve re recorded these vocals but whateva
this one is just a reminder to myself and maybe u

the bridge is atrocious but its ok we will get through it


this one isnt to garner a grand reaction
im here to give you a hug
just trust, some things are larger than handy sadness
i hear you try then give up

listen to the syncopation of your breathin
don’t escape cause you can’t make it make believing

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel around, you’re moving
i see you, and i promise

get up, join me in walking along the sidewalk
sunshine and time are a cure
your love was more important than you ever thought
it’s time you love a little more

listen you don’t need the famous that you’re thinkin
you’re escaping from the places you believe in

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, i promise

and it might seem contradicting
but there’s stability in your movement
when you’ve got no motivation
just remember it’s ok to sleep in

some steps seem invisible
but they’re in your peripheral
i promise
i promise

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, you’re moving
even if you don’t think it
i see you, i promise
there’s stability
in small steps

small steps demo

talking rain

I’m standing naked, in front of a crowd 
throwing a tantrum, screaming out 
and the sun doesn’t rise like it used to 
i ignore you, because I have to

I look into everything, when i look in his eyes
it’s you staring at me, my courage dies
and I can not love like I used to
no matter how far I am it comes back to you

Joe, I hope you’re alone, I hope you are hungry 
I hope you are broke 
i hope everyone that you love leaves you
i hate the mean person you turned me into

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Pick up the pieces, crumble under the weight
and everyone asks me, why I would stay 
but I sat in the dark to appease you
you promised you’d chance and I believed you

now I’m sick to my stomach, and high off the hope
I stood there crying while you stared at the floor 
you said I’d do great things, I think I freeze up 
and now i’ll do anything to prove i’m enough

I’m afraid if he touched me, i’d make him drown
crack open my skull, and I’ll pour in your mouth 
i’m sorry I can’t get to know you
if he saw me I think I would run too

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Joe, please let me go
i have been hungry, i’ve lost all hope
i never did anything to you 
if it makes me clean then I’ll forgive you

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Joe’s Waltz DEMO

Written by me 
Preformed by me and Frankie

we dont need to die right now

fairytales

Fresh off the release of "Don't Blink" (https://soundcloud.com/stefanlanfer/sets/dontblink) , the modern folk Christmas musical featuring the minor characters, the unexamined moments, and the secrets hiding in plain view of the subtext... until I get a better idea, I'm going to keep trucking. The story continues with the song of John the Baptist, grappling with purpose and calling, being a faithful son, baptizing THE son, and what it all means. 

"My son"

VERSE

Growing up my folks would say,
 "John there's gonna comma day, 
when God will make it plain to you
Exactly what you need to do. My son. My son."
Then that day came.
I'll never been the same.

CHORUS

I heard a voice as clear as day:
"John," it said, "prepare the way.
Open up their eyes to see
my son and all they mean to me,
my son, my son."

VERSE

Out here in the wilderness,
It's me they come to see, I guess.
Good Lord! What some folks ask - 
I can't help but bring to task.
My son. My son.

CHORUS

I heard a voice as clear as day:
"John," it said, "prepare the way.
Open up their eyes to see
my son and all they mean to me,
my son, my son."

BRIDGE

When he came - my cousin too - 
he had to tell me what to do.
Then a voice from the sky so clear,
Everybody there could hear: "My Son. My Son. My Son."

CHORUS

That voice I knew, as clear as day:
"John," it said, "prepare the way.
Open up their eyes to see
my son and all they mean to me,
my son, my son."



My son (work tape)

„Verständnis, das weh tut“ ist ein leiser, direkter Song über Worte,
die eigentlich Nähe ausdrücken sollen –
sich aber wie Vorwürfe anfühlen.

Der Song beschreibt diesen feinen, schmerzhaften Moment,
in dem man merkt, dass etwas nicht böse gemeint ist,
aber trotzdem trifft.

Dass hinter manchen Sätzen alte Verletzungen sprechen,
die lauter sind als das Herz.
Ohne Anklage, ohne Schuldzuweisung,
erzählt der Track von dem Wunsch nach echter, ehrlicher Kommunikation –
nicht korrekt, nicht angepasst, sondern wahr.

„Verständnis, das weh tut“ ist der Einstieg in das Album
Kein weiterer Kriegsschauplatz
und legt die Grundlage für alles, was folgt:

Verstehen wollen –
und sich trotzdem selbst schützen.

small steps demo

Max Bass