this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

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live instruments recorded by me also

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

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truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

STREAMING: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/leyton1/spiral

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and if you sink
it’s all my fault
every time i blink
you make the time stall, woah
my dreams go in a spiral
can’t find a way out
the path’s been washed away now
it’s been months since we’ve talked
and i’m right outside ur front door
calculating all the time that i gotta make up for
you close the blinds while the sun pours
remind me what im testing my luck for

i had a dream
bout u and me
i told u
you asked what it means
like u can barely hear my screams in the night
as i’m banging on the window
need some advice tired of crying to my pillow
5th avenue, im getting off
fuck google maps always getting lost
where did i go wrong
i sweat off my blush
now there’s a hole in my bag
i can’t turn back, i spent my last 20 to get here

and if you sink
it’s all my fault
every time i blink
you make the time stall, woah
my dreams go in a spiral
can’t find a way out
the path’s been washed away now
it’s been months since we’ve talked
and i’m right outside ur front door
calculating all the time that i gotta make up for
you close the blinds while the sun pours
remind me what im testing my luck for

earlier tonight, the first time that u tried
u went to open me the door
but then u shut it in my eyes
i don’t know what im waiting for
guess i thought you’d throw your wine on the floor
now i’m writhing in torment
keep pouring
know ur head hurts, just ignore it
i’ll forfeit 
forget my problems draining four fifths
will we be short lived
thought u said i was important 
recorded u talking different shifting formants
got lost, it took a cost
gotta log off
u had it wrong gotta unlearn everything u thought
don’t talk, don’t wanna remind me of what i forgot
so don’t bring him up that boy is gone
and u can say his name i wont turn around
already numb, there’s not much u can do to hurt me now
there’s no way u could tell just how i’d turn out
ur first doubt you had i thought u would drown

and if you sink
it’s all my fault
every time i blink
you make the time stall, woah
my dreams go in a spiral
can’t find a way out
the path’s been washed away now
it’s been months since we’ve talked
and i’m right outside ur front door
calculating all the time that i gotta make up for
you close the blinds while the sun pours
remind me what im testing my luck for
[repeat]

spiral

back full of blades w/ oilcolor (MKYFM)

bad news bad news bad news 
bad news bad news bad news
bad news bad news bad news
bad news bad news bad news
bad news bad news bad news

//

i'm psychic,
prophetic,
i know the future,
a thousand outcomes,
and not a single one
of any note.
so it's a warning,
i'm in mourning
of my life
not lived,
cos all I see
is bad news
is bad news

take my thoughts please
put em all down
i don't wanna go out
with a mind so full,
it's a push and pull
i'm stuck between
decisions that i never made
or else delayed,
from fear of failing,
something that I never tried,
so stay inside
board up every window
and leave life behind

i'm psychic,
prophetic,
i know the future,
a thousand outcomes,
and not a single one
of any note.
so it's a warning,
i'm in mourning
of my life
not lived,
cos all I see
is bad news
is bad news

i'm like this
pathetic
i'm falling over
from every
possibility
i'll fake this
normalcy,
talk like i'm
free of panic
internally

i'm psychic,
prophetic,
i know the future,
a thousand outcomes,
and not a single one
of any note.
so it's a warning,
i'm in mourning
of my life
not lived,
cos all I see
is bad news
is bad news

clairvoyance

You say you love me
But I'm not sure, is it real?
Or just a passing blur?

For even when you‘re here
Your mind’s not clear, and I can’t help
But feel a sense of fear

Do you look at me and think of her?
You say you love me, but is it true?
Like the movie the Notebook, a love deferred
My heart in pieces, what should I do?

The news came, you love her still
The woman from your past, the one you’ll fulfill
Did you hold me near, but imagine her in my place?
My heart shattered, a love misplaced

Do you look at me and think of her?
You say you love me, but is it true?
Like the movie the Notebook, a love deferred
My heart in pieces, what should I do?

Do you look at me and think of her?
You say you love me, but is it true?
Like the movie the Notebook, a love deferred
My heart in pieces, what should I do?

Love Deferred

beejoo - Love Deferred

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saint laurent boots (ft. koi)

LYRICS

baby don't you worry, the sun will come out,
cause it's for you, yeah you know it's true,
so baby come on out, and look for the sound,
i've made for you, cause i look for you, 

so in everything you do,
hold my heart inside you,

i'm falling everytime,
i die when i see your smile,
i'm head over heels all the time,   
with you i wanna make it alright,  

come on and let it shine on you,
feel the sunshine on you, 
so in everything you do,
know my love is all true, 

none of us knew,
that i'll be here with you,
no none of us knew,
that i'll be dancing with you 'til we're old.

Sunny (Mastered)

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reach for a glass
the first of november (it hurts me to say)
caught in a gap
it hurts to remember (that nothing has changed)

what can i ask
that you won’t assume is in artifice
what can i have
what can i have

there she goes swaying low and caving on me
meanwhile i’m taken over
craving something

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

shattered my hand
while dialing the number
it cost you your land
from sunrise to sunder (i’ll break it off)

so take it all, your skates, your cards
we’re way too far, the pavement’s gone
my frames that broke, your laces choke
my ankles roll, i’m out of control

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
pissed off i’ve been really pissed off lately
ground teeth
found an outlet but the cord won’t reach
i’m burdened with proof

shattered my hand

PIXELATED KISSES

--Credits--
Written and Performed by No Vacation
Recorded by Sean Paulson at Different Fur Studios
Synth recorded by Nat Lee
Mix and Mastered by Stefan Macarewich
Artwork by Justin Ma

~~lyrics~~

Why don’t you take off your red shoes
So we can end our night well spent

Why don’t you say what’s on your mind
I won’t run away

I won’t turn away
won't turn away

When morning comes our way
I’ll be here to stay

Staring at a distance
This warmth is hard to find
Sitting in the silence
I gave my best, I tried

Simply a distraction 
I didn’t hope to find 
Sitting by my side 
I hope you’re here to stay

clairvoyance

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