Your songs are always so powerful. keep up the amazing lyrics and work

@evergxrden sleep to it but never on it😴

Lovely lyrics, not feelin the flow though. Pretty solid. 

this is the worst time of my life :/

lyrics

—————————

wake up n i wonder will i die today
when i think about all the drugs i take
i can’t help it when i’m sober i don’t feel okay
i don’t know if ima make it 
if i have it ima take it like fuck

i needa start soberin up
but my feelings make me sick as fuck
i needa be numb
i hate what ive become
& sometimes i think that im better off
under the dirt
6ft sleep
lie me in a hearse
..
yea i know im the worst

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)

wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane
i really need change

i need a life with a substace
i needa put down the substance
i needa quit with the fuck shit
ima stand tall soon jus truss it

i try to keep my head up
but the thoughts that reside
are too heavy to hold

—————————

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)
wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane

a cry 4 help [prod. wellfed & caustyk]

this is an ode to pain
produced by the lovely @jolst and @splashgvng
featuring the dude @ejcarrmusic
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
(decks)
taking time for myself never ends well,
its rather dull all alone, how can i tell
that things aren’t ever just going to fix
its my fault and im convinced

im in misery
no in between
im suffering in my bed
and its taken me
so long to see
all the parts of me that are dead
they dont notice that we’re gone
but we’ve been here all along
and they’ll try to see
so desperately
where they have gone so wrong

(evan carr)
how did we get here and where do we go
cuz i've been staring at pavement wondering whats below
my skin can it handle all of this
or will i bend and break from all this lack of bliss
take me back to where it started
when life was good left no place uncharted
i look to you, my dearly departed
but knowing you i'll be broken hearted

(decks)
don’t tell me that i’ve wasted my time
i’ve spent too damn long tryna fix my life
i know we been driftin further but the faults not mine
i won’t let this go, everything’s not fine with us

im in misery
no in between
im suffering in my bed
and its taken me
so long to see
all the parts of me that are dead
they dont notice that we’re gone
but we’ve been here all along
and they’ll try to see
so desperately
where they have gone so wrong

what they don't know (ft. evan carr) [p. jolst x splashgvng]

spotify!

what they don't know (ft. evan carr) [jolst x splashgvng]

lyrics:

[intro]
you broke me and i had to leave
you said that that’s how it had to be
your care was just absent for me
inflicted the scars that still bleed

[chorus]
you broke me and i had to leave
you said that that’s how it had to be
your care was just absent for me
inflicted the scars that still bleed
long dark blinding i cannot see
voices inside my head they scream
let me die cause i cannot keep
fighting this pain it hurts please just set me free

[verse]
girl your words they’re just cold like the winter snow
i tried to love you, you hate me i know you do
i keep on trying all my friends say just let it go
she don’t deserve you, you’re better than she’ll ever know
i waste my time to try convince you it hurts me
so many years of suffering this pain it’s agony
i close my eyes and see your face this shit is killing me
just throw me out and i’ll become a distant memory

don’t tell me you’re gone
i waited too long
you’re the reason that i write all these songs
stay here in the dark cause that’s where you belong

[bridge]
it’s where you belong
i hope that one day all these voices just gon be calmed
i hope that one day all these thoughts they just gon be gone
the sacrifice is just correcting all their fucking wrongs
you had your chance but then you blew it just to be wrong
i had to stay away yeah i just had to be strong
this hurt surrounds me like the clouds inside a fucking storm
my brain is damaged and my nerves all fucking worn

[chorus]
you broke me and i had to leave
you said that that’s how it had to be
your care was just absent for me
inflicted the scars that still bleed
long dark blinding i cannot see
voices inside my head they scream
let me die cause i cannot keep
fighting this pain it hurts please just set me free

stream!

let me die (prod. mors)

hows it feel..?
v v v
oh my god..
hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know your grandmas dead?

hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know ur grandmas dead?

hows it feel when ur six feet deep
no one to call but ur known in the streets
said ur not in love but boy i know ur lying
yeah u use to have ten grand, on grand, on grand
but now ur trying.
trying
trying
trying
trying...

(funny little da da da break)

oh my god..
hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know your grandmas dead?

hows it feel to be pronounced as dead?
hows it feel to be shot in the head?
hows it feel to be ten grand in debt?
hows it feel to know ur grandmas dead?

hows it feel when ur six feet deep
no one to call but ur known in the streets
said ur not in love but boy i know ur lying
yeah u use to have ten grand, on grand, on grand
but now ur trying.
trying
trying
trying
trying...

... <3

pronounced as dead (splashgvng x irby)

come home, please [prod. idealism]

@yoimn3ver
@northshoremusic
@caspywaspy
@emptychest
@kuriositylol

(teddyboi)

demons after me I'm in a crisis all white gucci suit, yeah

I've been feeling righteous can't breathe, feel like I got bronchitis

I ruin everything that i touch like my name is Midas

yeah spread, spread like a virus, yeah demons chasing after me it's a crisis,

yeah, all white gucci suit,

I feel righteous tired of fist fightin demons, think I'm bout to shoot them

wanna know the truth?

baby I'm a little ruthless ill stab you in the back make you feel like Julius

(TNS)

Holding onto everything

Words in my head

Can’t catch a break

Slow it down and speed it up

Places to go don’t give a damn

Worry about myself and don’t give in

bullet in my brain just to feel the pain

Worry about the things I can’t control

I’m gonna fill my body with bullet holes tonight

(casperrr)

3am throwing up all the shit I ate

now I'm on the bathroom and my body ache

I think I smoked more than I could take

I don't fuck with anyone, everybody's fake

trade me, replace me I know u fucking hate me

the way u try to make me feel the way u try to break me

go away and leave u make me feel sick with all the shit u say with all the things u do

(emptychest)

im fine till i cope

try to breath air but i choke

pretty purple lights glow inside my room tonight im always hot like cryoscope

wrote a note in envelope sent it out to the seas

on a boat and hope it makes it there yet

i live there nothing could ever be fine but i wont ever care im wishing for the best

and im staring life right in the eyes saying, "test me." saying "test me."

(kuriosity)

should’ve known that she was a hoe

said i blow me a k

gotta get me some more gotta louie bet on the floor said i walk in the room

and her belt on the floor im too busy stackin my dough

i cant worry bout u i cant stress onna hoe

i feel like ive been here before feel like i’ve been here before

and ive been searchin through my own past tryna figure out who the fuck i am

and i’ve been getting in my own bag

i cant focus on u gotta focus on bands

good deeds cant cover up my bads

i did what i did i am who i am

the shit u said hurt so bad but u wouldn’t get it u wont understand

Crisis w/ casperrr, teddyboi, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

Featuring @sydcxx
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
The past few weeks been terrible
But you make it all seem bearable
How did I ever make it this far on my own
Before we met I had nearly lost all hope
I can’t see myself without you
But I can always be myself around you
So what say you we have a honeymoon
This is something that I could get used to

(sydcxx & Carlby)
So what say you we let down our guards
So what say you we open our hearts
To the possibility that maybe love's not all so bad

(sydcxx)
When the days are cold the nights are colder
So lay your heard upon my shoulder
I think I needed you here to set me free
There's no telling how things would be for me

Listen on Spotify!

Honeymoon w/ sydcxx (Prod. Pekarot)

I WANT YOU BAD W/ SENDFLOWRS PROD. WISSSERY & SORROW BRINGER

Recorded/Engineered/Produced in my bedroom.

Available everywhere March 1st x

~ Down

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

(sendflowrs)

and it’s 1,2 when i step round here,
yeah she looking out her window as i fade into the dead night,
and ur still cute when you cut your hair;
yeah she the type of girl that’ll leave you in the headlights,
u better back up when fly right through, 
doin 80 on the freeway you can catch me runnin red lights,
then she act up and she wanna call you,
pretend to fall asleep, leave me crying in my bed like

that’s yunny on the beat man i’m running with this shit
i know too many ppl in the scene that call it quits
when the plays drop a little, what the fuck did you expect?
you don’t care about the music you just care about the cents 

run red lights, on the weekend 
baby call me up every day she steady scheming 
tryna get my head right,
so i read em,
but i don’t reply,
i won’t cave, no disagreements 
anymore

and your accrilcs, got you fuckin grinning
i wish that i could have the same effect because i’m missing
the days where we would sit around and listen in the kitchen 
to the birds above, who the fuck am i kidding?

she said what’s your task force? 141 
hole in your chest but i’ve never held a gun
bring em all down on my own don’t run,
you don’t care about the music you just care about the funds 

like 141, we ain’t on it,
kill your best friend wrap him up in a carpet,
shoutout to the plug i been moving all this product
shoutout jcm i been stayin with my shotgun 

that spas 12 send you straight to hell
kill your whole squad then i turn it on myself
i got rot in my heart, bitch i’m not well,
but i got all these shots in the dot, don’t tell


(nmih)

ain’t gonna lie, i think i hate me
ain’t gonna lie, i think i’m struggling with myself lately,
so take me back to the sunny days that i miss,
i’ll never forget the feeling from our first kiss,
and you’re still cute when you cut your hair,
in your red dress,
you got my mind doing treflips,
141 gonna be in your playlist,
me and grayfox made cod rap famous

(sendflowrs)

and it’s 1,2 when i step round here,
yeah she looking out her window as i fade into the dead night,
and ur still cute when you cut your hair;
yeah she the type of girl that’ll leave you in the headlights,
u better back up when fly right through, 
doin 80 on the freeway you can catch me runnin red lights,
then she act up and she wanna call you,
pretend to fall asleep, leave me crying in my bed like

come home, please [prod. idealism]

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