THE BIBLE (abandoned)

produced recorded and mixed entirely by me! im really proud of this one and think this is the style i'm gonna go with for the forseeable future. the ultra lo-fi high pitched drum machine rock shit was fun and I might revisit it soon but I'm moving on from it for now. doesn't really reflect where I am mentally. been a long time since i made a rock song just because i really wanted to get this right. enjoy !

this song's chord progression and lyrics are really important to me. I wrote the first verse and chorus in may and this song has been the first thing I play when I pick up a guitar since then too. cannot stress how much this release means to me

lyricz:
i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared 
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont kno why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
nigga everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarayed
and i cannot feel okay
li ke 
i do not have no power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed a stupid troon
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

jisatsu girl (自殺)

YOU MAKE ME KYAAAAAAH AH AHH <3333

lyrics :
You always run thru my brain yo pretty face
Live inside my head
Smoldered as fuck in my place make me insane wishing that you was here
Girlsquished up shawty she hella far from where I stay
I feel kinda embarassed
But I know in my heart that its gonna be okay
Cuz I know that she worth it

girl you so beautiful I i really love you
You always make me smil
Don’t want to hurt you
im so fucked up now I rlly love you
Want u girllll I really lov you

Dadadadadadadda
Dadadadadadadada
You make me kyaaaaahaaahaaaaah
you make me kyaaahaaaaaaaaaahahahah
Dadadadadadadda
Dadadadadadadada
I rlly love you
Kyaaaaaaaaaaa
You make me kyaaaaaaaaaaa

Inside my room im in love fried up as fuck I don’t know just what to do
Smoking alot of this za play melty blood all while thinking of you hitting yo phone when I’m done asking what’s up babygirl how r u doin
Blushing hard when you respond i feel so dumb filled up w all of these feelings
Girl you make me feel so safe
Wanna see u every dayyy
U know we can run awayyy
Ur everything that I claim
Is so cool inside my brain now
Want to be with u get fucked up
Fall asleep holding my face close
You can have me when u say sooo

Girl you so beautiful I i really love you
You rlly make me smil
Don’t want to  hurt you
im so fucked up now I rlly love you
Want u girllll I really love you


Dadadadadadadda
Dadadadadadadada
I really love you
Dadadadadadada
You make me kyaaaaaaaaaaa

oohohhh
oohohaahhh
smokin that za
girl you all i want
ill never stop
thinking about you
play type lumina
while we on these drugs
you fuckin me up
you cracked i cant hit u

girl you so beautiful I i really love you
You rlly make me smil
Don’t want to hurt you
im so fucked up now I rlly love you
Want u girllll I really lov you

Dadadadadadadda (I THINK I LOVE YOU! !! ! ! ! !)
Dadadadadadadada ( YOU MAKE ME GOOOO INNNSANNNN---)
I really love you
Dadadadadadada
You make me kyaaaaaaaaaaa
Dadadadadadadda
Dadadadadadadada
I really love you
Kyaaaaaaaaaaa
You make me kyaaaaaaaaaaa
i really
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i rlly love u (prod. melodyx_o)

new emo rock song :3   i'm gonna be posting a lot more in the coming weeks i think. my music is almost exactly where i want it sonically now..  i need u guys to hear it .  excited 2 release this one 2 yall!!

lyricz
I FEEL LIKE IM SINKINGGGGGg
againn...
ahhh gainnn
im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way

put way too much stock in my life i cannot kill myself now
and my glock got a beam when my niggas pop out
dont give a fuck bout what yall niggas thinkin theres opps out
im smoking that ganja im smoking that shit
And i dont give a fuck bout what yall niggas think im just going
i got the strap n these bullets stay flowing
these niggas is goofy these niggas is bogus
im fucking her friend n im fuckin her homie :0
these niggas is feds they actin real glowie
playing both sides like they ain't trolling
by the time i'm 25 i'ma be balling
stackin these hundreds if i can just focus
feeling so fly, like i'm from boeing !

I CANNOT KEEP THINKINGGGGG
These thinggggsss
oh these thaaangssss
i'm always
feeling so self destructive
smoking to just feel something
SOMETHING
IM STILL STUCK INM Y PAIN AGAINNNNNN

im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way
im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way

[solo]

[switchup]
dont fuck w all yall niggas yall niggas fuckin lame as hell
im heavy straight losing my mind and no one can even tell
im high off my ass i cant stop now what the fuck else
is a bitch even really here for.. if not this
one thing i know is im fucking shit up
im pouring a four straight up into the mug
bad bitch n nobody can stop
got za in my bag n we rollin it up
these niggas like wtf going on
im not rly smart n i thought she was soft
ahhh ohh oohhwooahowo

y do i feel this way

this is my favorite song i've ever made so far i think lol. recorded n produced by me :3 album coming out august 2022 !!! i've rly found my sound :p

lyrics
im never sober anymore
im way too high i need to focus
im feeling dumb as fuck right now
why am i filled with so much
pain, pain, now
im so fucked up i cannot
stand it, stand it,
noww
im smoking woods inside of my room
why am i here like what did i do
got shit on canvas and its overdue
im such a faggot i look like a troon
im using these patches so i can look cute
cute
plz soon
look in the mirror and be anyone but you
and you know my nigga we

[chorus]
gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on hating mysellff elf elf
ohh ohhhh ohh oohhh
and i knoooooooooooooooooooooooo
ohhhhhhhhh
i cant keep on going without 
helpp help help
im rly fucking up right now :\

i rly need u babygirl <3
i cannot lie i fucking love you
come grab my hair and pull me close
girl you so bad i want you on me
on me nowwwwwwww
come fuckn kiss me
lets get sloppy, sloppy
kyaaaaaaaaaaaa! come pin me down
i rly need u i want u im feeling crazy inside my head
im just thinking about you and you gotta be so far away
cant believe that i found you since i got you it's been brighter days
you make me kyaaaaa ah ahh ( i rlly love you)
so can we gooooooooooooooooooo

i cant keep on hating myselffff elf elf
ohhhhhhhhhh ohhh oh ohhhhh
 and i knooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on going without
hellllpp elp elp
im rly fucking up right nowwwwwwwww nowww

without help

smoking that za get so high i might fall
white tranny bitch she can make me her dog
might spend a band on a vivienne collar
i took a dab n its hitting appallin
force break his ass my defense has no flaws
n go take her hand shoot that e in her paws
these niggas on skates yeah they see that im balling
slash at that nigga miles chamley watson

i cannot lie theres pain in my soul
i keep on trying im so fucking dumb
and i know bout life, the way that it goes
im fuckin crying, messed up on the floor
and i know that i'm a slave of my own
my own fucking mind please dont call my phone
it's always knives that's fucking me up
either my mind, or all of these cuts

i feel so fucking aimless
everything's so irritating
twin glocks shoot like the aces
including to my brain shit
i wanna feel okay but
im always feeling hatred
just kill me make it painless
these niggas double agents
im really feeling
astonished at the fucking fact
that i am not croaking
xotic rolled up with the twax
yeah nigga we smoking
shawty you so fucking bad
can you come and choke me
i think that youre crazy rad
wna throat yo protein baby
u been so pretty lately, i cant take it
i dont know if you can ever really save me
but let's make it
worth an effort can i kiss your lips
see if theyre sweet or savory
dont know shit bout this but im just tryna love you every day
u my shooting star, lots of things uve done have really made me
give a super smile, youre so silly wanna feel your girlsquish for a little while
i know i'm not perfect. but i know u cant resist my style
i know that it's working. we just lost inside of different aisles
ohh ohh
you make me crazy in my soul i need you
close like for for ever tethered
straight to my heart baby i know i can
never let shit tear us apart but i know that

i cannot lie theres pain in my soul
i keep on trying im so fucking dumb
and i know bout life, the way that it goes
im fuckin crying, messed up on the floor
and i know that i'm a slave of my own
my own fucking mind please dont call my phone
it's always knives that's fucking me up
either my mind, or all of these cuts

smoking that za get so high i might fall
white tranny bitch she can make me her dog
might spend a band on a vivian collar
i took a dab n its hitting appallin
force break his ass my defense has no flaws
n go take her hand shoot that e in her arm
these niggas on skates yeah they see that im balling
slash at that nigga miles chamley watson
these niggas is goofy i know that they watching
pouring the four in the 12 pack of barqs n
i lov her so much i cannot break her heart and
im high in the coupe that u have to push start in
got gas in my room n no niggas have farted
im high out my mind yea a nigga departed
2 plats dxm and it got me lethargic
still trashing yo man on his music regardless
that shot was a brick u look so retarded
look at my whip it's a starship
xbox 360 n that shit is modded!
and u know i smoke og exotic
only wnt her even tho i have options
indica got me exhausted
ima pass out on the couch cuz im off it
im a good doggy u know i be barkin

ohh oh oh oh

i feel so damn anxious
everything is falling
baby like when you calling
i just want you on me
grab my hand and we'll be balling
cuz i cant fucking take it,
only filled with all this longing
lonely hoping that our promise
isnt empty as my skull
baby do you want me
living life outside yo arms got me like a zombie
sometimes i feel like a joke that's never ever funny
u like all i ever wanted u cant take that from me
baby ifeel like your doggy pls do u want me
living life outside yo arms got me like a zombie
sometimes i feel like a joke that's never ever funny
u like all i ever wanted u cant take that from me

vivienne collar

https://soundcloud.com/ohshititzpammilolee

so farr (ft. pammii_lole)

2muchwork

everything is lame nigga i can't fucking take it now
waking up at 2 pm cuz i fucked my sleep schedule 
im only seeing pain dont know if im gone ever gonna make it out
im aching ouch placed in doubt this college shit aint working out
2 blunts in my mouth like this white girl dick
talk shit and my nigga  s gone fight real quick
2 shots thru a nigga fuck fighting him
still feel isolated like iverson
im tired of this im tired  as shit
im tryna get my time baby
my dec sions raising questions
mama think i'm lost crazy
saddest thing is i dont think that i can prove her wrong lately
drowning in this sea of self destruction on my own placing
visions in the smoke of a nigga who's much better
take a picture for it's gone, every time i see the mirror
it's a nigga i don't love, why a nigga even here
i feel like everything is dumb when you are not sitting near
and kissing me inside your arms
wit my tits inside yo palms 
my imagination crazy when im sitting all alone  
baby

only shame

i got niggas thats on go for me

white tgirl bitch she on the phone wit me

brandnew (prod. j dilla)

shawty why you like me
im like nothing special
i cant take you lightly
hard for me to let go
demons always fighting
why they always take hold
wish that u could bite me
fuck me while im strangled
tell me that u like me, smoke ice cream play nintendo
niggas think im lying but myteam got xtendos
bitches wanna fuck me but ima keep the same hoe <3

ice cream n nintendo #imgonnfuckgindiee

Robaki + Miura

xo willow - drug approved!!

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xo willow - all the small things (blink 182 nightcore cover)

xo willow - maoist girls

XOwillow - scene song

i do this for my Niggas and my Bitches
she/her ♀ HRT 7/28/2022 xd
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melodyx_o ^_^ (@mymelodyx_o)

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