rockk songz 🎸👩🏽

THE BIBLE (abandoned)

produced recorded and mixed entirely by me! im really proud of this one and think this is the style i'm gonna go with for the forseeable future. the ultra lo-fi high pitched drum machine rock shit was fun and I might revisit it soon but I'm moving on from it for now. doesn't really reflect where I am mentally. been a long time since i made a rock song just because i really wanted to get this right. enjoy !

this song's chord progression and lyrics are really important to me. I wrote the first verse and chorus in may and this song has been the first thing I play when I pick up a guitar since then too. cannot stress how much this release means to me

lyricz:
i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared 
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont kno why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
nigga everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarayed
and i cannot feel okay
li ke 
i do not have no power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed a stupid troon
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

jisatsu girl (自殺)

@thaibodydump
thai body dump cover! produced nd recorded by me
https://soundcloud.com/thaibodydump/stare

i restructured this one a little. i added maj7 and maj9s to the chord progression and added an extra verse @ the end to fit my style more. i really love how this one turned out!

lyrics:
take a dare
pull my hair out
in your room 
on saturday
it's time to stick
i'm gonna lose my mind
from all of this
a whole of shit

oooooh oooohhhhhhh
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ooooooohhh 
aaaaaaa oooohhh oohh
oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh

try my luck
yeah i really suck
you hit your drag
i kiss your neck
and holy god
i love the way you stare
you stare

oooooh oooohhhhhhh
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ooooooohhh 
aaaaaaa oooohhh oohh
oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh

in your bed
hanging with you
you hit the pen
i see your face
and holy god
i love the way you stare
you stareeee

oooooh oooohhhhhhh
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ooooooohhh 
aaaaaaa oooohhh oohh
oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh

stare

produced and recorded by mee !!
collab with https://soundcloud.com/ca-hed-cobraz !! ! !! im so excited 2 release this to you all i hope u guyz enjoy ^_^

album soon >:3  i'm going 2 be dropping more rock stuff again as well. i  feel like i built a lot of skills making othr shit for a while n i'm glad i did.  this shit has not even  begun i love u all

#angelgirlrockstar!! (ft. hi-c)

new emo rock song :3   i'm gonna be posting a lot more in the coming weeks i think. my music is almost exactly where i want it sonically now..  i need u guys to hear it .  excited 2 release this one 2 yall!!

lyricz
I FEEL LIKE IM SINKINGGGGGg
againn...
ahhh gainnn
im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way

put way too much stock in my life i cannot kill myself now
and my glock got a beam when my niggas pop out
dont give a fuck bout what yall niggas thinkin theres opps out
im smoking that ganja im smoking that shit
And i dont give a fuck bout what yall niggas think im just going
i got the strap n these bullets stay flowing
these niggas is goofy these niggas is bogus
im fucking her friend n im fuckin her homie :0
these niggas is feds they actin real glowie
playing both sides like they ain't trolling
by the time i'm 25 i'ma be balling
stackin these hundreds if i can just focus
feeling so fly, like i'm from boeing !

I CANNOT KEEP THINKINGGGGG
These thinggggsss
oh these thaaangssss
i'm always
feeling so self destructive
smoking to just feel something
SOMETHING
IM STILL STUCK INM Y PAIN AGAINNNNNN

im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way
im always smokin gelat
this shit fuck up my head
im always watchin 4 opps
they wanna see me dead
im rolling trees it's za
so high can't feel my legs
im thinkin fuck the world..
why do i feel this way

[solo]

[switchup]
dont fuck w all yall niggas yall niggas fuckin lame as hell
im heavy straight losing my mind and no one can even tell
im high off my ass i cant stop now what the fuck else
is a bitch even really here for.. if not this
one thing i know is im fucking shit up
im pouring a four straight up into the mug
bad bitch n nobody can stop
got za in my bag n we rollin it up
these niggas like wtf going on
im not rly smart n i thought she was soft
ahhh ohh oohhwooahowo

y do i feel this way

this is my favorite song i've ever made so far i think lol. recorded n produced by me :3 album coming out august 2022 !!! i've rly found my sound :p

lyrics
im never sober anymore
im way too high i need to focus
im feeling dumb as fuck right now
why am i filled with so much
pain, pain, now
im so fucked up i cannot
stand it, stand it,
noww
im smoking woods inside of my room
why am i here like what did i do
got shit on canvas and its overdue
im such a faggot i look like a troon
im using these patches so i can look cute
cute
plz soon
look in the mirror and be anyone but you
and you know my nigga we

[chorus]
gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on hating mysellff elf elf
ohh ohhhh ohh oohhh
and i knoooooooooooooooooooooooo
ohhhhhhhhh
i cant keep on going without 
helpp help help
im rly fucking up right now :\

i rly need u babygirl <3
i cannot lie i fucking love you
come grab my hair and pull me close
girl you so bad i want you on me
on me nowwwwwwww
come fuckn kiss me
lets get sloppy, sloppy
kyaaaaaaaaaaaa! come pin me down
i rly need u i want u im feeling crazy inside my head
im just thinking about you and you gotta be so far away
cant believe that i found you since i got you it's been brighter days
you make me kyaaaaa ah ahh ( i rlly love you)
so can we gooooooooooooooooooo

i cant keep on hating myselffff elf elf
ohhhhhhhhhh ohhh oh ohhhhh
 and i knooooooooooooooooo
i cant keep on going without
hellllpp elp elp
im rly fucking up right nowwwwwwwww nowww

without help

xo willow - drug approved!!

xo willow - girls gtfo

xo willow - beta orbiter!

xo willow - all the small things (blink 182 nightcore cover)

xo willow - maoist girls

♀ 7/28/2022
k9angelgirlz till i decay!
i luv epic bacon hoez
i luv u ember !!!!!!! wagh
VILEVORTEX4L

y do i feel this way

melodyx_o ^_^ (@mymelodyx_o)