i love my gf as per usual
cover by https://www.instagram.com/everyymomentt/

how i rly feel (bmud)

Credits://
@lizablaise
@prodelxnce
@pandi
@umru
@bodygaard

Notes://
a hostage to work...
a hostage to friends...
a hostage to you...

Lyrics://
peace of mind
fall alone
only i can see
maybe i
don’t want you to know me

hey like what’s the matter
you’re the storm i never weathered
yeah you wronged me
i’m sorry don’t say that you want me

it’s no wonder i can’t let go
tied up tryna rope me in
i wish someone let me know that
i’d be alone again
i’ve been complacent in my own hostage situation
it’s no wonder i can’t let go
tied up tryna rope me in

peace of mind
fall alone
only i can see
maybe i
don’t want you to know me

hey like what’s the matter
you’re the storm i never weathered
yeah you wronged me
i’m sorry don’t say that you want me

lugging deadweight, 
dont wanna wrestle- burn the hole in my face
if its a caveat for crisis- i dont know when it ends
wrong way,
i've had enough but i'm still holding the gate
should i still give what it takes

nothin i can do for getting under your skin
settle down on loose ends, whatever
weeks under the weather got me
burned out for nothing
just say you want something 
do or don't need somebody

bodyGaard & liza blaise - Hostage (prod. elxnce pandi & umru)

ft @tarozan <3
prod by @negativecreeper, @darlyydiamond & @ripwarheart

tell me its alright ive been waiting all night
for your call
cause im so sick of talking
to the wall
tell you im sad ik u dont care
at all, yeaaaa
tell me u got problems u know i can solve them
if u want me to
ill show u how much i care
do it all for you
and ik that its not fair
everytime i look at u
i js get stuck on ur stare
can u just stay with me for a moment
i want it to be forever yea thats what i was hoping
u make my world so bright
u make my heart open
and i feel like trash but when im with u im coping
tell me its alright ive been waiting all night
for your call
cause im so sick of talking
to the wall
tell you im sad ik u dont care
at all, yeaaaa

@tarozan
i know u dont care 気にしない
一人になりたくないdont feel like it
bby when i feel alone
i know u and me can go
we can go away from here
we can go away from here

i dont want 2 go
leave this place alone
i cant feel at home
when im .....
i dont want no more
i dont wanna see u go
行きたくないよ
まだ早いよ

また君と一緒に行く
hold my hand
go on
take my hand
and go away

your call w/ tarozan #dynasty

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

prod @1luvpurp & @friendly

https://open.spotify.com/track/3saB6JiQAhTlPmISzHoJ96?si=a0be6f4b2f454be5

Lyrics :

trynna keep my head down
i just wanna keep my eyes closed
my life like a shit show
I'll see you at the front row

baby i just want you here
chalice filled with bloody tears
just drink it up girl don't be scared
you're not going anywhere

promise that you care about it
i hope you know i care about it
i don't wanna say goodbye to you
you're not just anybody
baby put your love on me
i can feel my flesh rotting
tomorrow I'll be dead prolly
she'll be laying with my dead body

i don't wanna wake up 
i don't wanna wake-
for you i don't wanna wait
there's blood splattered on my face
let me bite through you
tell me how you feel
cuz I'm feeling you
if you go i don't want to wait
for you I'll do anything

Spotify

Die with me (friendly & luvpurp)

additional production by h3artch3rades

there wasn't too much to say
only thing that i could say
it's been a long time coming for me
god took one look and said you ain't where you supposed to be
another lost soul to keep the devil's men company
he stripped the halo and the wings from me yeah
trumpets and angels that were weeping over me
feeling the fires and the burning beneath (inside)
i heard the words that said you're right where you're supposed to be

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't figure it out

trapped four walls and i'm closed in in silence
covered in clothes that hide signs of violence
nowhere to run to
nowhere to hide in
trapped in four corners of my mind don't tell nobody

what it was i experienced on the deep end
am i wrong for trying to find what i'm seeking
trying to hear the words i never heard before
trying to find out if i was even good for

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't

god took one look and said (prod.soma & dose)

produced by me

lyrics:
i've loved you since we met
feelings i never would've thought entering my head
i walk alone and pretend you're holding my hand
oh i'd drop the world for a chance to hold it again

i've missed you since you've gone
oh if its not with you, where do i belong?
i close my eyes and i try pretending that i'm strong
you said that i was brave, i don't want to prove you wrong

but i'm afraid of everything
and you're my everything, so i'm scared of you
(x3)

i've loved you since we met
feelings i never would've thought entering my head
i walk alone and pretend you're holding my hand
oh i'd drop the world for a chance to hold it again

cause i'm afraid of everything
cause i'm afraid of everything
cause i'm afraid of everything
cause i'm afraid of everything

brave/afraid

@prodvrtex

Bc i love u and want u here

Sry 4 the wait will be more consistent i promise :)
luv u

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last 4evr (vrtex)

prod. @trustt @lynion

@cruseyyyy @lynion

@cruseyyyy
tell that boy sit down
they shoulda known I don't back down
I cannot switch I don't know how
if u wanna talk u get tracked down
yeah u get flagged down
I heard yo song that shit so foul
I'm with my gang we on go now
(tryna fuck with us u get mowed down)


I swear they don't know how to act
they don't know how to act
I don't where I'm at
I don't where I'm at
x2

@lynion
i swear 2 god that i was lying when i said that
but deep down i knew i wouldnt regret that
dont say my name again
i dont like the way u said that
if i had to give all i have to get u back , i wouldnt
im w my crew we gon slide
tryna fuck wit us u couldnt
i aint gon take ur life
if i wanted to i wouldve
im w my crew we gon slide
tryna fuck wit us u couldnt

@cruseyyyy
tell that boy sit down
they shoulda known I don't back down
I cannot switch I don't know how
if u wanna talk u get tracked down
yeah u get flagged down
I heard yo song that shit so foul
I'm with my gang we on go now
(tryna fuck with us u get mowed down)

I swear they don't know how to act
know how to act
I don't where I'm at
I don't where I'm at
x2

where im at - crusey & lynion

Produced By Me & @rpsu
w/ @hiseph :]
♬♪⁽⁽◝( • ⌣ • )◜⁾⁾♪♫
i Love You
lyrics;

i feel like a Dead man walking
tell me that You'll love me when I'm rotting
Yk me 2 well when I'm silent ...
they Turned their backs On me but ur not them

it Hurts so bad but Stings so Good
i Bleed 4 u, Wish u Understood
i Turn my arms to Flesh, kisses Burn my neck
i Could be Ur doll to make u think I'm the best

u Say u need Smbdy
ur Not js Anybody
idk Wut it means to u..
But when u say U<3Me
i Could feel my world stop
when u look up 2 me
i think i Could Hold on
Cuz ur worth it to mee

@hiseph
can’t stop
won’t stop til it’s working 
im so alone 
could u show me where my heart is?
adderall, crush it up til it’s nothing
ima dollboy 
but im such a waste of time
she don’t wanna make things right
backseat in the club
you watch me cry
realizeee
we’re soul-tied
i’d do anything to make it right


Hold my hand
i'll Hold urs
Do i Love u ?
say Of course!
And I know that smth changed in u
I Look @ u, Ur bored T-T

u could rip my hair or break my legs
it'll all be fine if i end up dead
u can call me ur problem
Do U regret it?
tell me when its all gone
i need medicine x.x

Doll (╥ˬ╥) w/ seph (uxie & irusu) *out now on all plats*

prod @negativecreeper & @blxty

[lyrics]
i know i messed up, say farewell
i hate to say it, goodbye
could you tell me what’s up?
lately i don’t feel none
adjust all my stress
i’ve got this hole in my chest
invite you to my mess
exactly my type

baby i know i fucked up
this time i will do it right
this time i won’t pick a fight
this time you set me up so bad
like baby what happened?
i’m just trynna keep my head up
hoping that i’ll see you right around

(victxrw)

baby this is useless
just dont be upset
when its u tht made a mess
nd when its your wrongs in the end
i dont wanna stay as friends
dont look back nd grab my hand
ur the one who understands me

im lost i dont know this feeling
im staring up at the ceiling
all the words did u really mean them?
6ft deep in the ground
nd all this noise too loud
u turned my smile to a frown
but i still want u around me

u and i both know
we just dont get along
but the spark dont seem so low

brave/afraid

mental