everything

dj mortifying corpse - ٩(˘◡˘)۶   winterbreak 2022 mix

prod. @yumenikki @fleafriends

i dont wanna fix any problems
i dont have the power to solve them
stick it in the back of my headspace
everytime i get up i fall down

fall down, we dont really text we dont call now
call now, i dont really ball but i spazz out
spazz out, hell yea shawty got her ass out
ass out, all the pain i felt is in the past now

past now, paypal imma fuckin cash out
cash out, im so fuckin geeked up i passed out,
pass out, imma throw my heart in the trash now
trash out, only feel alive when im blacked out

blacked out windows imma hit the gas now
gassed up crabs in a bucket but i crawled out
crawl down, soft steps when i move at all now
all down, everything i know tear it all down

lonely, i feel like the only one here right now
breath so slowly im one with the ground
only feel present in walls made of sound
finders keepers i kept what i found

i just do what i know how to do

trash prod. dollmaker & fleafriends

it's friday the thirteenth 
i'm going out with my horror queen 
We go to the movies 
and shes not scared while shes holdinh me

you're everything that I pictured 
you're everything that i want in a girl
theres not a day i dont miss her
cos she only shows up on one day 

hail the horror queen 
the one who loves to scream
hail the horror queen
the one who loves me
hail the horror queen 
the one who loves to scream
hail the horror queen
the one who loves me

Horror Queen

Im Like Yea (1) Prod xyJae

prod @yumenikki

this song is from summer 2024 during a very difficult period in my life. i am doing much better now. thank you for listening!

lyrics:

i cant stay awake
perc got me delayed
racing cars down interstate
money in my paypal
i dont wanna wait
u make me feel safe
i can never leave this place
nothing left to say now

u dont really get me
like u never met me
want you to forget me
why would you not let me
i just wanna let go
numb my head wit benzos
i thought we were friends tho
u thought wed be friends no

i stare at the wall now
i forget my thoughts now
i do what i want now
i just wanna fall down
i just wanna lay down
want you at my place now
in the bed im facedown
want u in my face now

nod off in the greyhound
in another place now
i dont wanna go back
i hate to be home now
girl i want you here now
didnt wanna leave you
i just wanna see you
i just wanna feel u

i just dont fuck with this
i smoke gas in the crib
she dont like how i live
ill put u on the list
jus popped it out the blister
i dont want to be fixed
u were my favorite kiss
so why do i feel different

i stay up i dont know my limits
crushing pills up i wan feel it instant
yuh, way too fucked up i cant listen
put the black tar on foil, lighter, flick it

it had me fucked up but i miss it
i was living with you it was prison
you were doing it with me, decision
i didnt wan be in love so i fixed it

come get me prod. freger

produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

///
you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Just take what you want
And tear me apart
Just say what you want
And tear me apart
Just take what you want
And tear me apart
Just say what you want
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart

I'm sick of running
Running away from nothing
I feel disgusting
You don't like me I'm ugly
Just leave, nobody's judging
I hate what I'm becoming
This isn't love, but it's something
I don't think that its good enough

I'm praying for relief I'm looking up
I try and try again, I fuck it up
I'm running through the maze, I'm looking but I'm stuck
If you help me, then just help me
Is it love?

Just take what you want
And tear me apart
Just say what you want
And tear me apart
Just take what you want
And tear me apart
Just say what you want
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart
Part, part
And tear me apart

for a kiss

die 2

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

Nobody's there to follow me home
I'm tired of lessons, don't want any more
And you should've lead me, don't know where to go
It's hopeless I know, know
Don't know what to say
I'm still stuck on hello
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
With a ghost, ghost

Still stuck on your love but I'ma stick it out
It's a lot of thoughts in my head I can't figure out
Still alive, I'm just feeling really sick right now
It's a lot of bad things I don't wanna think about
It's a lot of words in my head just tryna get them out
Don't know who to trust, go outside and I feel surrounded
I can't breathe without it
I can't dream without it
Your heart I don't know if I can be without it

Nobody's there to follow me home
I'm tired of lessons don't want any more
And you should've lead me, don't know where to go
I'll let it affect me, but act like it won't
Don't know what to say
I'm still stuck on hello
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost

Nobody's there to follow me home
I'm tired of lessons, don't want any more
And you should've lead me, don't know where to go
It's hopeless I know, know
Don't know what to say
I'm still stuck on hello
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
I wanna be scared, I'm in love with a ghost
With a ghost, ghost

with a ghost

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

Last night my mom said your name and I cried when she hung up the phone
Last time I wanted to stay on your mind but we both had to go
The last time I thought of something beautiful was so long ago
Last night I pictured your face and I started to cry like before

I'll act like you love me the way that I love you
The way that you loved me the way that I was
So act like I love you the way that you love me
The way that I loved it the way that it was
Let's both just pretend that your name isn't special
Your face isn't special, this place isn't special to me
I couldn't forget so it's always an option to fix what we started
And bring back my heart's missing piece

And even if things never change
I couldn't dream a better place
I felt it when you went away
So never disappear
And both of us are delicate
Our togetherness is separate
Just promise you'll remember it
Before I fall asleep
And if I said I'd change it
Then that would be a lie
'Cause I would rather live this
Than any other life
I've never felt the distance
I've never felt the time
Cause they don't mean a thing to me
I'm still allowed to cry

I'll act like you love me the way that I love you
The way that you loved me the way that I was
So act like I love you the way that you love me
The way that I loved it the way that it was
Let's both just pretend that your name isn't special
Your face isn't special, this place isn't special to me
I couldn't forget so it's always an option to fix what we started
And bring back my heart's missing piece

december

lovely melody~

lyrics:

Are you there?
I’m still calling
Keep on talking 
Don’t go silent 
I’m all out of sorrys 
I tried my best 
To keep you safe 
I made a worse mess
What will it take? (x2)

auxina:

Sharing my heart is such a burden 
I’m asking  what’s  the purpose 
You shatter it into a million pieces 
Then call me worthless
Standing in this old apartment building 
Gotta re-trace my steps 
Where did we go wrong 
How much can I give until I give up yet?
Every hallway is a light year 
Why can’t I  see my path clear
Stars hiding behind these dark tears 
won’t live in my fears
Well aquatinted w a rusty razor blade
Cut my throat and save the day 
Sick of silence in the room for goodness sake  

frendi:

Nothing feel the same, so I empty out my brain
Glocky, it go bang, somethings never change (like my love baby for you)
Read between them lines, baby, I can't waste no time baby
Who's wrong, and who's right, baby? Don't really wanna cry, baby
Yes, I really tried baby, you're not for me, but I'm not good for you
Swerve around in that coupe, could you hold me, down, down, down? (Down, baby are you down, down, down down? Down, down)

Are you there?
I’m still calling
Keep on talking 
Don’t go silent 
I’m all out of sorrys 
I tried my best 
To keep you safe 
I made a worse mess
What will it take? (x2)

the space between spaces + yungfrendi (WARHEART)

@mental @ki7a

https://open.spotify.com/track/6TE46DaYhIxFGiQrTaNTV5?si=f681a0638c874b1f

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mental - bad actor [cwta + kita]

i think i love you
i think that i want you
i wanna be with you
i dont see a issue
yeah i miss your face i miss you
i miss you
i fall down to my knees
seeing visions all up in my head of you and me
this what we could be
i just need a chance
i just need some bands
substance in my fanta
paint him red like santa
endless void i can't stop falling
life a gamble all in
i need you more than my meds
wake up and i'm feeling dead
blacked out seeing red
and its all cus of you
tell me what do i do
all cus of you im fucked in my brain
go through this pain and you don't feel the same
i wanna change but you know i'm insane
(but you know) i'm insane
(but you know) i'm insane
(i'm tired) wanna change but i'm locked in this place
can you look me in my face and tell me imma be the one
girl you're not the one for me i know the shit you done
bae i think we done
why you acting dumb
playing with your thumbs
they bite my swag like it's gum
i think you should bite a gun
yeah felt this way for months
eat a bullet it's like lunch
when i look down i just wanna jump
feel it in my lungs
i just wanna jump
i just wanna (jump, jump)
i just wanna jump

insane (exo)

how i feel X i can die

PROD BY @MENTAL
ART BY @BLXTY

IS THERE EVEN ANY POINT
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA KNOW
GIRL I’M SORRY I KNOW THAT I DISAPPOINT YOU
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA GO 
GO AWAY I’M FEELING THIS PAIN ALL DAY
I’M POPPING WAY TOO MUCH TAGS DROPPING TOO MUCH BAGS IT’S NOT OK
MAKE ME FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY
SHE KNOW BLX, NOT MY REAL NAME
DONT NEED CHEATS I GOT REAL AIM
GOT REAL FRIENDS GOT REAL FAME
I MIGHT HURT MYSELF IF I’M NOT CAREFUL
SHE DID ME SO BAD IT’S FINE CAUSE I GOT MENTAL 
MAKE A LIVING CRYING OVER INSTRUMENTALS 
I CAN SHARE MY HEART, BUT BABY PLEASE BE GENTLE 
IDK WHY I WOULD LIE TO YOU
IF IM REAL I’D PROBABLY DIE FOR YOU
SPEND THESE NIGHTS ALWAYS FIGHTING YOU
WHATS THE POINT TELL ME WHATS THE POINT
WHATCHA WANNA UH-
WATCHA WANNA DO
WATCHA WANNA BE
BE WITH ME
BUY YOU JIMMY CHOO BUY YOU DOUBLE C
UGH
BAE HOP UP IN MY V
HOP UP IN MY RIDE LOOK AT THE STARS
SHE SAID IM A STAR WHERE DO I EVEN START OMG

I NEED YOUR LOVE BABY
I SELF DESTRUCT LATELY
KISSES AND TOUCH MADE ME FEEL LIKE IM STUCK LATELY
THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
I NEED A 180
CUT AFTER CUT MADE ME FEEL OUT OF LUCK LATELY

CAN YOU HOLD ME CLOSER THAN YOU DID?
I SAW STARS IN MY EYES AND I MADE A WISH
IT WAS BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, AND IT FELT LIKE BLISS
AND THERES NO OTHER FEELING THATS QUITE LIKE THIS

IM SO BROKEN, FIX ME, MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN
I NEED SOMETHING MORE THAN MEDICINE
I NEED YOUR LOVE SO SWEET AND ELEGANT
PRAYED 3 TIMES AND CLOSED MY EYES AGAIN
(X2)

die 2

mental

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