There is no top shelf solution for this
There is no alternative Let’s call it what it is 
There is no fight left in me I cannot commit
I left a thousand years ago

I’m tired of the cruddy songs I can’t even sing along to my own shit I wrote before 
I can fit a thousand lies in between a couple rhymes and try to make you cry to 4 dumb chords 
The poetry is killin me I’m clingin to a middle C I’m copying everything I wrote
Let’s call it what it is again I’m careless to the fucking end 
Until I let go

And maybe in a couple years I won’t plug my fuckin ears every time Logic plays my track
If only in another life I could calm a wildfire-calculated angle of attack
So much for a five year plan stick it to the fuckin man I can’t remember damn amnesiac 
Drivin while I’m fuckin blind I’m losin my fuckin mind journeyin round a cul-de-sac

There is no top shelf solution for this
There is no alternative Let’s call it what it is 
There is no fight left in me I cannot commit
I left a thousand years ago

The poetry is killin me I’m clingin to a middle C I copy everything
Let’s call it what it is again I’m careless to the fuckin end -

(written 2025)

recycled hell

autopsy in real time

I don’t even recognize myself
What have I done what have I done
Always telling all these lies to myself
What have I done what have I done
I haven’t run away but there’s this distance
Bittersweet persistence 
I’m confused but I listen
I can’t confide in myself
What have I done what have I done

The beauty of your eyes I behold in my mind
What have you done what have you done 
Imprisoned there’s a barricade it serenades my mind
What have you done what have you done
I just can’t reach out and touch you
I just can’t reach out and touch you
Biting my hand before it reaches you
Biting my hand I’m biting my

I rummage through my memories like walls punched
Light comes in effortlessly like lines punched
But there is no laughter in the slaughter of grace
What have I done what have I done
Consequences in the trenches and we call it fate
What have I done what have I done

(written 2025)

what have I done

lemme

I would have been on the sidelines
Which you know bc I was once
I was there when nobody else was cheering your name
And the crowd we became friends
I would know it always ends
Now there’s nobody calling for me

You worked me up
You let me down
You ruined every single day of the summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of the summer
Now 7 months later I got no one to blame

And now we’ve got 1000 missed calls
And we’re crashing into walls
And all of them keep me away

You worked me up
You let me down and
You ruined every single day of my summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of my summer
Now 7 months later I got no one to blame

You worked me up
You let me down and
You ruined every single day of my summer
And you weren’t even there to blame 
You stood me up
You pushed me down
You ruined every single day of my summer
You weren’t even there to blame
I got no one to blame

(written 2022)
(recorded again 2025)

you ruined every single day of my summer

you ruined every single day of my summer (2025 version)

All of your heinous crimes
All planned out before it’s time to growl
You fish in shallow water
My Beast, your teeth are hallow

There’s no making it out
There’s no making it out alive
There’s no making it out
There’s no making it out of love

Baby, you had me at Hell

Normal boys break their toys
But no, no, no you put me on your shelf
Normal boys break their toys
But no, no, no you put me on your shelf

All of your heinous crimes
All planned out before it’s time to growl
You fish in waters shallow
My Beast, your teeth are hallow

Baby, you had me at Hell

(written 2025)

baby, you had me at hell

you synthesize conversations
my feet in the best positions
I can pace the Talladega in my M3 
you don’t question that
I’m conquering the bench 
you won’t let me consult the masses
But I’m answering the questions
so get your hand off the gear
I think I’ll take it from here

I can slow down to 30
You’re flirting with 23
Fuck you
I know my stuff too
universal energy 
isn’t as easy as it seems
I use Chat GPT
but Babe That Doesn’t Mean You Know More Than Me

this isn’t hard to grasp
keep your hands on the wheel’s all I can ask
do you think you can shoot the gap
not in your car babe you're lagging
you can’t pace the Talladega
right behind you I became a
better teammate I gave ya
all the best lines but you still can’t explain a
concept I could google the name of
your ego cannot sustain the 
state of your shit survey of 
our debate you no longer face
Because my degree can stay the 
Course you didn’t study
I can’t help it babe if you don’t agree
But our sun isn't dying 
No need to mark the calendar
It’s not a need babe but

I’m the solver
I’m the solver it’s me
I’m the solver it’s me

I can slow down to 30
You’re still flirting with 23
Fuck you
I know my stuff too
I can use Chat GPT
Doesn’t mean you know more than me
Doesn’t mean you know more than me
Doesn’t mean you know more than me

(written 2025)

chat gpt

my tears ricochet (cover)

bill me


Picking up the ticket shows there’s money to be made
I swap the chaser with the chased
you can’t manipulate what isn’t trying to impress you
I signed in chalk on courtroom walls 
where Nature argues her own laws
I’m the bookie for your invisible ballets
Pay me in sameness, I’ll mint you a stay
give me axioms, neat and tight 
I’ll mail you back a sealed “not quite”-

In symphonies I pay
Never mind real genius delay
I’m caught in rivers that never change
Mountains to deltas
Lyrically “well duh”
Sense is delivered in bills these days 
So bill me anyway 

 In a room that determined my caste 
You said you’d give me the moon and the stars just had I asked 
but I couldn’t speak Legalese 
In a room that determined my release 
you said I'm wrong, and you gave me no peace 
I couldn’t comply with your police

In symphonies I prayed
Never mind real genius these days
I’m caught in rivers that never change
Mountains to deltas
Lyrically with a “well duh”
Sense is delivered in bills each way
So bill me anyway 

You can’t manipulate what isn’t trying to impress you
Pay me in sameness, I’ll mint you a stay


(written 10/14/25)

Take It From Me

bill me

moats

and as the rain first christens my house
things look up as the sky pours down
streaks on the windows like tears on my cheeks 
when I fought for so long to get here for some peace
and the clouds they shelter the sun
from the darkness that I was once from
rivers in gutters and lakes in the garden
wee little moats on a Saturday morning

puddles from my door to my car
skipping them like stones thrown from the shore
and the castle behind me no drawbridge in sight
wee little moats on a Saturday night

written (10/20/25)

moats

i sing and i song and i write
1 woman show
here to ruin your day™️

DEMO EP'S 4 U:


"Take It From Me"
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"recycled hell"
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“even the birds are gone”
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"this album is not called fearless"
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“vulnerable”
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“sing shit into an unplugged mic”
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"11:11"
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“ask me how I know”
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"i deserved better"
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“invisible monsters”
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“from the inside”
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“you know it was fun”
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"stories"
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"moves"
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"fluorescent green"
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"demo"
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"unnamed"
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“2021”
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“icarus”
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"mountains"
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"midnight snack"
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"back on my bullshit"
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"next up"
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“fire”
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“songs to build cars to”
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"EMPIRE"
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just a few demo EPs to bump
by:
janyewest productions;

okbye

moats

mercury