[fall 2024]

prod @yumenikki

i could never do wrong
didnt think id really fuck up
i would never get lost
lay awake till the suns up
i was falling out of love
didnt really mean to hurt you
but you took so much
watched my wings slowly turn black

i will never get my soul back
now im walking down the wrong path
i lost friends i wont get back
i lost friends i wont get back
i wish i could just forget you
i wish i could take it all back
now im ruined cuz i let you
all my fault, yea i know that

i just get left on read
make me feel lesser than
fake life i play pretend
fake thoughts inside my head
i like to cut myself
try to get lost again
i dont need any help
rock bottom is in my bed

rock bottom is nodding off
so hard i lose my breath
unconscious almost dead
wake up and see your face
youll look so terrified
ill feel so dead inside
pinpoint dots in my eyes
but ill still want to be high

pinpoint eyes prod. dollmaker

angelicxmei-wall prod dollmaker

s/o heroz brah that's the goat

i can feel myself decay i feel like anubis 
everyday is a repeating cycle i can't do this
i'm feeling betrayed they've been acting like they're judas
life has been wayyyy harder since the drugs don't have me clueless

it's difficult to stay sober
i see the sunlight want it to be over
wanna kiss you again and call it closure
i'm not lucky all i see are 3 leaf clovers

tramua from my lovers i can smell the perfume
i'm been hiding my real face like a costume
the smell of sulfur it's been around its reaking
wish i could b quiet i hate when i'm speaking

and i know you hate it too
i'm hardheaded i can't follow through 
i'm still hoping for something new
cuz these cycles are tried and true 

i'm so weak i think i might be anemic 
in the light of truth i think i'm pathetic
i have all these dreams i hate that i'm romantic 
crybaby i know i'm dramatic

so i'll let the waterworks fall
truth be told i've been ready for the curtain call
it's so hard not to end it all
i'm haunted by some memories i can't recall

bury it down don't wanna feel it
bury it down don't feel shit 
i know i'm a mess to fuckin deal with 
i would give up parts of me just to heal this

bury it down don't wanna feel this
i expect the worst in the stillness
i know it's a lot just to see this
i would give up parts of me just to heal this

bury it d0wn⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ (heroz)

prod @lilac

lyrics:

in the fog i can’t see where i’m going
i’ll follow you baby even if it’s pouring
told em “catch up” we flew off in foreigns
a lucky life but i think that it’s boring
i don’t need money when i’m rotting in my bed
i burnt all my bridges just to get a little rest
wake up everyday just to go right back to bed
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
everyday i do nothing 
so i go back to sleep to end the suffering 
frozen in time my bodys frosted
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

guided by the blind
broken clocks won’t tell the time
out of sight it’s out of mind
all the times you crossed the line

love me love me
i know this is wonderland but things are getting ugly
bloody bloody
this is do or die baby i hope you can trust me
trust me i wanna get off it
severed arms i can’t stop it
sit in my room and watch the clock tick
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
walking on stilts as we blossom
why did you make me your monster?
rotting heart in a coffin
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

exhausted (lilac)

WHAT YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP WHAT YOU WANNA SEE WHEN YOU WAKE UP WHAT YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP WHAT YOU WANNA SEE WHEN YOU WAKE UP GO GO YOU IS WHAT I WANNA DO THRONGLETS BAE IM SPLIT IN TWO PUT US IN A PICTURE BOOTH GOING CRAZY THIS NOT YOU GOING CRAZY THIS NOT ME YOU THE ONLY GIRL I SEE I JUST WANNA HAVE A PEEP I JUST WANNA HAVE A CHANCE HEARD THEY WANNA TALK ON ME IM POPPING TAGS A SHOPPING SPREE THESE HOES SOME BIRDS THEY FLOCK ON ME SHE TALKING CRAZY CLOCKING ME AND AFTER SHOW THEY STALKING ME IM WITH MY ANTS MY COLONY SHE ASKED FOR MY ASTROLOGY WOAH SHE TAKE MY COAT OFF ITS LIT BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC  SHE TAKE MY COAT OFF I GET LIT JUST LIKE A BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC BIC THIS SHAWTY BAD SHE TOLD ME SHE WANNA TAKE A FLICK WOAH SHE SAID I GET UNDER HER SKIN JUST LIKE A TICK WOAH SHE WANT ME TO FEEL HER- CHICK WOAH NAH HE GONNA GET THAT KICK BRO WHAT YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP WHAT YOU WANNA SEE WHEN YOU WAKE UP WHAT YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP WHAT YOU WANNA SEE WHEN YOU WAKE UP GO GO

grow up (phoenix)

https://soundcloud.com/2xp https://soundcloud.com/s1ninja

I stay with my kin till I feel fine
warfare in my head I’m on the front line 
I’ve been tryna find Zion it’s a state of mind
I’m just tryna do it before the day that a flatline 



life is way too cyclic I feel confined 
I know that I’m flawed I can tell by my own design
praying to the heavens I’ve been hoping that the stars align 
wandering alone I miss all my soul ties 

I’ve been reborn so much think I hate the demiurge
I’ve been tryna wake up I think I’m on the verge 
mask it all like makeup I’ve been trying to fight the urge 
living in the ashes I hope that can emerge 

yuh I know that I’m foolish 
I keep waging war for when I felt useless 
keeping my eyes open it feels grueling 
can’t tell if it’s anger or sadness I’m fuming

i act like a real bitch, i look so unassuming
thrive off all my feelings, the negatives consume me
developing these negatives inevitably ruins me
put masks on all my faces, could make a whole damn movie
sure thing, don’t think happiness should come to those so 
undeserving, fully loaded brain i shoot my words like i was
murking, butterfly jacket, i check the pockets for the 
curses, i aint find shit my soul still out there scraping,
searching, find you, put you in the dirt
lurking, wait for the chance to kill me first
burning myself, fight myself until i’m hurt
urging myself, get some help, before im earth

flatline ft. twoxp (s1ninja)

happy 19th

pichu - is it my heart or my head (qweshkka naggens greyrock)

the demiurge he goin haunt me
i want shit to get better but i got lost pleas
eyebags underneath my lids i look swampy 
tramua sings like thunder i've been in the wrong sea

im gross underneath the sky of lies
drugs been reaping half the ppl that i tend to idolize
peep into my cornea you can see a dead man's eyes
looking at stars i've been plauged by the mornings stupid rise

the womb of all just cried she split the light
need relief i've been caught in the veil of the night
offered apples but i'm too scared to take the bite
callings up inside my ear drums scared of echoed heights

cursed as a labeled heretic
born in the fire baptized in the static
know i'm bitchy i've real dramatic
people pleasing i hate that i'm too empathic

guess that's jus the thorns i wear
i'm so used to all the glares
trapped in divine despair
in the world the truth is rare
i'm a mess please beware
you said you would stick by me but u were never fucking there 
(fuck)

the demiurge he goin haunt me
i want shit to get better but i got lost pleas
eyebags underneath my lids i look swampy 
tramua sings like thunder i've been in the wrong sea

im gross underneath the sky of lies
drugs been reaping half the ppl that i tend to idolize
peep into my cornea you can see a dead man's eyes
looking at stars i've been plauged by the mornings stupid rise

swampy (mercyyy)

Emotikon *AyeooItsTxde*

nosetalgiaremix

im the best shawty feel like molly sex
took me out i took her home and gave her neck
21 i was poppin skater decks
fuck the rest i go to sleep and wake up dead

i cant ever go home and show my face again
feel it in my stomach when i know its boutta end
always make it back so ion care how much i spend
real spazzholics we're the only ones left

i feel so alone
need you, call my phone
breathin hella slow
i got weed for low
girl pull up to my show
withdrawling im so cold
hate when you go home
ill turn into a ghost

ill turn into the goat
west feel just like home
shawty love me so
kiss me thru the phone

memory so gone its shit ill never even know
last year really fucked me up yea i know