I Could Have Been Happy But I Could Never Achieve It

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18 🏳️‍⚧️ she/her

im a stupid junkie girl but i wish i could grow wings that arent fleeting... </3

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bc i cant succeed myself

"STARBOI." EP, OUT NOW
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[Contact]
benjaloken0@gmail.com

friends:temphiot, sijigo, thekima, infeely, nychevo, u ok?, flowmo, zetfour, cyanboy, aiser, revived dead, DeeorPheus, Daniel Dubz. thanks you all. 🖤🖤🖤/the music label for my frequent releases is MARIA POPEL AUDIO/

made by interlocking
name is pronounced as: knit (nit)
the 8 is a k with the ends knit together

Trey Verkuilen. 27. Dubstep/Tearout producer on FL 24
Mental Health Advocate 🥀🔄🌹 ✝️
It's your fav masked vigilante, ‘𝓔𝓼𝓹𝓱𝔂𝔁𝓲𝓪, 😷 
Links: https://linktr.ee/esphyxia
PATREON: https://patreon.com/esphyxia
My tracks are usually downloadable
Music is the eye to the soul
[MALADJUSTED] 👽🌎 ✝️
•John 8:23-24• NOTW

The world is so loud and harsh. 
These are the trials I must face 

The reason I write big, scary music about Death is because it scares me the most... hence why I picked up the name “Esphyxia” from Asphyxia (to be deprived of oxygen; suffocate)
I almost drowned and Asphyxiated in a pool as a kid, 
so living to see the blessings life gives after is why I make music... to give back. 
Without music… I suffocate
Until my last dying breath, I will share my love for the world and music 😷❤️

•’The story of Esphyxia is that he is someone who lives in a world that he is too familiar with.. but not a part of… making him maladjusted… unable to cope with the norms of society. He has set himself apart from the rest… in the hopes to free himself from the confines that everyone else shackles and slaves themselves to… wearing a gas mask as to not breathe in their poisonous gas… which permeates the very land. 
He is a nomad.. a lone wolf… in this desolate wasteland we call Earth. He does not partake as the world partakes. 
But yet… he has a kindled fire in him to help spread love in the world… despite the darkness and death 
He will stop at nothing to bring peace and balance to the non-pragmatic ether he lives in… forging himself to be someone who can inspire and overcome
He has faced many deaths… but he knows one who is greater than Death, itself ✝️,•

I am self-taught for the last 10 years since 2014
I’m losing my hearing.. so I’m sorry if my music doesn’t sound the best or harsh 😅

I also am a musician who played violin for 14 years in orchestra and plays piano, guitar, etc by ear 👀 
I’m also a lyricist, amongst other things
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 😷

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I Could Have Been Happy But I Could Never Achieve It

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