In recollection of the beautiful memories of us, if they were ever real.

Last night, 
as I was half-asleep, 
You slipped into the bed beside me. 
I watched you as you pierced my skin slowly with a pen knife, 
Though it was my body you were hurting,     
It was your pain I felt weighed upon me.


Your smile radiated softly in the dim light— 	
It’s been so long since I’ve seen you smile, 							So soft and sincere, 	   		
The most beautiful being I’ve ever known.
 		Only I know.  

My vision blurred; 	
	I would give all of me to you.  		
		“Do you know what love is?” you asked. 
“I’m not sure,” I whispered, drifting into unconsciousness.
  								
					       Is this what love is? 
		There are things I have yet to understand, 			
Embedded deep inside me,  		 
Consuming me,
Eating me alive,  			
Things I think I can only uncover  		
under the warmth of your midnight prayers.

Track IDs:
1. Ayako Mori - Ghost In The Shell (Remix)
2. Lana Del Rey - My Bedroom Is A Sacred Place Now There Are Children At The Foot Of My Bed
3. Movod - Angels Glow (Premiere) [Magdalenas Apathy]
4. trillosta - Endless Desire
5. Rorganic - I Take Possession Of You [Rorganic]
6. Rempit G0dDde$$- OPULENCE
7. EDBOY - What You Gonna Do
8. Evita Manji - 44th Cloud Lavender
9.  Rempit G0dDde$$ - A Hunger For Hope
10. Oklou - Loaded
11. Keoki dancing with stranger
12. BIOME - Posession
13. Unknown Artist - Trauma 初始厄运
14. Tzusing - Shame (Slikback Remix)
15. Know V.A. - Purity
16. BANKS - Contaminated
17. Hyph11e - Speak To Me 呓语 (feat. Sharon Stewart)
18. Kiirm - Skulpt
19. Nelly Furtado - You Could Mean Everything To Me
20 Rempit G0dDde$$ - Devoted To Your Pain
21. Rihanna - where have you been
22.Unknown Artist - Dreamcutter
23.Blazy Green - Harvest Moon (feat. Kevin Brauer) [Extended]
24. HDMIRROR - Not Gonna Get Us 2
25. Joe Goddard - Music Is The Answer (Hot Since 82 Remix)
26. Hart Grilae - Pixies Garden
27. Acid Pauli - Nana
28. Mobile Girl - Forever (Dirty K edit)
29. Dido - Here with me

under your influence.

fallen angel. 
@purepurepurepurerecords
bookings: barbarapleaser@gmail.com

🛩️𝐔𝐏𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆🗓️𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐒🌏
15.11.25 🇹🇭 GHOST: Wish We Were Here, Club Parasite, Bangkok Art & Culture Center (Hybrid)

𝒫𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒮𝒽𝑜𝓌𝓈:
PEACH's Fire Walk With Me Tour (Live Band)
01.11.25 🇮🇩 Rock In Celebes, Makassar
29.10.25 🇮🇩 Bali
27.10.25 🇮🇩 Depok
26.10.25 🇮🇩 Tegal City Hardcore
25.10.25 🇮🇩 Kuningan
24.10.25 🇮🇩 Lokananta, Solo
19.10.25 🇮🇩 Purwokerto Hardfest
18.10.25 🇮🇩 Salatiga
17.10.25 🇮🇩 Me And The Kids #3, Batang
16.10.25 🇮🇩 Despair Show #7, Magelang
12.10.25 🇮🇩 Fight For Respect, Cikarang
11.10.25 🇮🇩 Youth Reaction Rossi Fatmawati, Jakarta
10.10.25 🇮🇩 Devastating Pulchritide Vol. 1, Bogor
05.10.25 🇮🇩 The Strict Sunday Raung Bebas, Semarang
04.10.25 🇮🇩 Brang Breng Brong Vol. 8 @dugtrax, Yogyakarta
03.10.25 🇮🇩 Synchronize Festival, Jakarta

18.08.25 🇮🇩 PURE! x Pia Collada, Batik Boy Radio, Bali

09.08.25 🇮🇩 Voices After Cak! Repertoire, Djakarta International Theater Platfrom, Jakarta (Performance)

01.08.25 🇮🇩 PURE! Barbara Pleaser’s EP Release, Club Corazon, Bali

28.06.25 🇮🇩 Voices After Cak! Repertoire, Masa Masa, Bali (Performance)
01.06.25 🇮🇩 Voices After Cak! Repertoire, Ubud Food Festival (Performance)

07.05.25 🇮🇩 Balispirit Festival
23.04.25 🇮🇩 Normiecorp X cutiesm @headstream, Bali
28.02.25 🇮🇩 PURE! x GOA, Bali
28.02.25 🇮🇩 SOZD, Bali
07.02.25 🇮🇩 Popoff Kitchen X TRANSIT, Bali 

One Last Dance 2024: Going Home
21.12.24 🇮🇩 KuntiMart's Kunti Klub, Bali (Live)
14.12.24 🇮🇩 DEAD PER MINUTE: NECROTEMPO's B.O.S., Bandung 

HeHeHe Tour
13.09.24 🇻🇳 GÁI NHẢY Anniversary, Saigon
27-28.08.24 🇳🇱 Thừc Tình (Awaken) @animisticbeliefs + Jeisson Drenth & FIBER x The Rest Is Noise, Amsterdam (Movement Coach Residency)
17.08.24 🇩🇪 Kretek Klang x THF Radio x Torhaus Kochkollektiv, Berlin
16.08.24 🇩🇪 AN(8)X Festival x 90 Mil, Berlin 
13.08.24 🇩🇪 Kwia, Berlin
10.08.24 🇮🇩 Barbara Pleaser’s Birthday x SNS Denpasar, Bali

Mini South East Asia Tour
22.06.24 🇭🇰 MÖTH AGENCY, Hong Kong
22.06.24 🇭🇰 FM BELOWGROUND, Hong Kong
15.06.24 🇮🇩 QLC Pride, Bali
30.05.24 🇮🇩 RAZEDBI, Bali
19.05.24 🇮🇩 Otherness Archives & QAMERAD, Bali 
29.04.24 🇵🇭 Manila Community Radio x Apotheka
28.04.24 🇵🇭 b4b @obesedogma777 @22773746 @nuhpeace Fortune W.W.D. S/S24 Collection Launch, Manila
26.04.24 🇵🇭 Normiecorp x KAPUT CLUB⭐KAPUT, Manila 
26.04.24 🇻🇳 :Dismal x Arcan, Saigon
25.04.24 🇻🇳 V2X Radio, Ho Chi Minh City
01.04.24 🇮🇩 norrm radio, Bandung
30.03.24 🇮🇩 PARA Studio, Bandung
16.03.24 🇮🇩 RAZEDBI, Bali (Live) - Presents @djg2g & Friends 
15.03.24 🇮🇩 Ryde Or Die Radio Launch, Bali
15.03.24 🇮🇩 b2b @funtime003 Ryde Or Die Radio, Bali

17.02.24 🇮🇩 RAZEDBI, Bali
26.01.24 🇮🇩 SPEED x RAZEDBI, Bali

30.12.23 🇻🇳 Arcan, Saigon
16.12.23 🇮🇩 b2b @tikkoii GÁI NHẢY, Bali
02.12.23 🇮🇩 Chaos Non Musica Experimental/Noise Festival, Bali
25.11.23 🇮🇩 Little Zine of Bali, Bali
25.11.23 🇮🇩 b2b @tikkoii QUEERS SHOT BACK! A Book Launch Cahyati Press, Bali
27.10.23 🇮🇩 1312EAKCORE, Bali
23.10.23 🇮🇩 RAZEDBI, Bali
24.08.23 🇮🇩 Reactor x Kunti Klub, Bali
30.06.23 🇮🇩 Bali Dub Club, Bali
02.06.23 🇮🇩 False Alay, Bali
12.05.23 🇮🇩 Bali Dub Club, Bali
14.04.23 🇮🇩 Bali Junglette x Bali DnB x Oraclesound Lab, Bali
01.04.23 🇮🇩 RAZEDBI, Bali
16.03.23 🇮🇩 Oradanta, Bali
26.01.23 🇮🇩 Reactor x Kunti Klub, Bali

BANANACH's Deutschland Tour (Live Band)
07.06.22 🇩🇪 Decolonoize x Loge, Berlin
04.06.22 🇩🇪 Autonomes Kulturzentrum Festival, Frankfurt
03.06.22 🇩🇪 Fauchkrampf x Anarres, Ulm
02.06.22 🇩🇪 Fauchkrampf x Olga Stattpark, Munich
01.06.22 🇩🇪 Fauchkrampf x Recycling Museum, Leipzig
31.05.22 🇩🇪 Fauchkrampf x LKA Commune Living Space, Hannover-Linden
28.05.22 🇩🇪 Decolonoize Festival x Zunkunft Am Ostkreuz, Berlin

21.04.22 🇮🇩 Reactor, Bali

Fraksi Epos: Gotong Lorong Festival
19.03.22 🇮🇩 Putu Septa x Nata Swara, Bali (Live)
05.03.22 🇮🇩 XXXTRAMONIUM, Bali
26.02.22 🇮🇩 San Drums x Joe Rosenberg, Bali (Live)

Capturing and exploring what the subconscious couldn't express in my decaying vessel.

˚₊‧꒰ა ✩ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚  ︎ ︎

under your influence.

Metamoksha