In recollection of the beautiful memories of us, if they were ever real.

Last night, 
as I was half-asleep, 
You slipped into the bed beside me. 
I watched you as you pierced my skin slowly with a pen knife, 
Though it was my body you were hurting,     
It was your pain I felt weighed upon me.


Your smile radiated softly in the dim light— 	
It’s been so long since I’ve seen you smile, 							So soft and sincere, 	   		
The most beautiful being I’ve ever known.
 		Only I know.  

My vision blurred; 	
	I would give all of me to you.  		
		“Do you know what love is?” you asked. 
“I’m not sure,” I whispered, drifting into unconsciousness.
  								
					       Is this what love is? 
		There are things I have yet to understand, 			
Embedded deep inside me,  		 
Consuming me,
Eating me alive,  			
Things I think I can only uncover  		
under the warmth of your midnight prayers.

Track IDs:
1. Ayako Mori - Ghost In The Shell (Remix)
2. Lana Del Rey - My Bedroom Is A Sacred Place Now There Are Children At The Foot Of My Bed
3. Movod - Angels Glow (Premiere) [Magdalenas Apathy]
4. trillosta - Endless Desire
5. Rorganic - I Take Possession Of You [Rorganic]
6. Rempit G0dDde$$- OPULENCE
7. EDBOY - What You Gonna Do
8. Evita Manji - 44th Cloud Lavender
9.  Rempit G0dDde$$ - A Hunger For Hope
10. Oklou - Loaded
11. Keoki dancing with stranger
12. BIOME - Posession
13. Unknown Artist - Trauma 初始厄运
14. Tzusing - Shame (Slikback Remix)
15. Know V.A. - Purity
16. BANKS - Contaminated
17. Hyph11e - Speak To Me 呓语 (feat. Sharon Stewart)
18. Kiirm - Skulpt
19. Nelly Furtado - You Could Mean Everything To Me
20 Rempit G0dDde$$ - Devoted To Your Pain
21. Rihanna - where have you been
22.Unknown Artist - Dreamcutter
23.Blazy Green - Harvest Moon (feat. Kevin Brauer) [Extended]
24. HDMIRROR - Not Gonna Get Us 2
25. Joe Goddard - Music Is The Answer (Hot Since 82 Remix)
26. Hart Grilae - Pixies Garden
27. Acid Pauli - Nana
28. Mobile Girl - Forever (Dirty K edit)
29. Dido - Here with me

under your influence.

Capturing and exploring what the subconscious couldn't express in my decaying vessel.

under your influence.

Metamoksha