i disappoint ever1

kidding (ft. tjweaver)

You're a home wrecker, I'm a house deconstructor. We are not the same.

At the time, it's just another good day

IT SOUNDS GOOD NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT LOOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that part of M4SONIC virus (redux)

(insp. by oneohtrix point never)

from dreams of stillbirth

a love of justified self destruction

w/ https://soundcloud.com/financialdisasters

lofishit.wav

I tried to kill myself one year ago today. I downed the first pill at 10:30 or so and planned ot taking 35 or so, but only made it to 14. Im not really doing better now but i have more stuff shakling me to my life, i guess. I dont know

I can tell my mom is mad at me
Tho im not sure if i did anything wrong
I dont care abt my family
I can tell that i will never belong

They think my music is useless
They have a point but i dont think i care anymore
I can tell they think my music is useless
Im wasting my life here arent i?

I must be ruining their marriage
And something abt my brother too
Who knows who knows who knows
Ill be fucked to matter what i do

Ive just been so angry lately and i dont know what the cause is
Im tired of having parents who insist im in the closet
If i rip my skin right off will there be someone to see?
I hate my body hate my voice i hate every part of me

They think my music is useless
They have a point but i dont think i care anymore
I can tell they think my music is useless
Im wasting my life here arent i?

Im gonna flunk out of my class but i dont care bout it anymore
Gonna flunk out of my class but i dont care bout it anymore
Strike me down with a lighting bolt
i dont think i can take any more

Canti from Flcl - Track 9

may 20th 2020

When life reminds how beautiful and perfect everything is

4EVER ETERNAL

zonedout - WEBCORE AURA (prod. phntmzn bR)

state to state

i'm aster. i'm a black american experimental electronic producer of...sorts.

this is my audio diary / aural component to the "astroblur" project, established 2012.