damage acknowledgement

this has been sitting on a hard drive for four years i think

it's stupid and i'm going to pretend i dont care about any of it and you'll see right through it

horizon zero dawn

let down (i cant do anything right mix)

Plz Don't Tell Me Why I Feel How I Feel Thx ☺

@lilskil
LYRICS //

*lil skil*

Girl u know u make my cold heart warm wit a touch 

One kiss then we fuckin

 I just can't get enough 

Put it on me that's the best part baby the trust 

Trust me 

I got nuthin for u other than love 

I remember eatin pussy on the back of the bus

I remember gettin nookie till the sun came up 

All the places that u took me no one came wit us 

Same hoes overlook me now they on my ;]

ulykea

nuts [ft. lil skil] (prod. willie g)

Gustav Ahr's Album

we think too much (prod. nedarb)

i just held a candle to my fingers
smell it on my clothes because flesh lingers
u know ill ditch a body in the laundry
hiding in my covers because it haunts me

i just wanna hide out for survival
I'm trying to forget where the knife goes
at least i see a cowboy in the morning
riding to my grave when its pouring
putting flowers out by my gravestone
pouring out a can of four loko
i wanna feel the wind from the fall blow
dig me up and spread my ashes on yr bronco 

a bunch of songs about dead bodies
cover image by Noah Wingren ( @noah-wingren )

ditch a body in the laundry (feat. Dylan Brady)

cant14keep15runnin16away17

proud of u son

prod. taylor


bad kids tearin up the night
barely breathin' for our lives
(don't you look at me turn the damn lights off)
off on and awkward our words off-color
hella scary dreams but we keep it undercover

i will not give up
i'll tear this whole bitch up
i swear to you that we'll be

we'll be just fine 
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
keep it in your heart and 
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
we'll be just fine
tear this bitch apart 
i won't leave you behind
won't leave you behind
don't leave my life
even when they say that 
the kids aren't alright 
the kids are alright
hell ya we're alright

(kids in america)
rejects and regrets
I don't have the heart to cry 
(hell naw I don't need it)
(kids in america)
rejects and regrets
I don't have the heart to cry 
(hell naw I don't need it)

Lookin' out a dirty old window
down below our friends always seem to go
backwards right out the endzone
zoned out to bed off the benzos

shit's mental
how you feel nothin in your skin in this hellhole
(buried alive)
up to your neck in anthills till your head rolls
(i don't wanna die)
my brain lies its tenfold as sinful
(hope you don't mind)
i will drive this foreign through a wall it's a rental
(hope you don't mind)
best friends to ex-friends I will try my best again
best friends to ex-friends I will try my best again

5-12-2007 Spring talent show Homestead High School

The End is near. 

Listen now to brand new single from upcoming album "THE END", out 3/22. 

Stream the track and pre-order the deluxe album package which includes the 2LP gatefold vinyl in exclusive slime green colorway, pink wig, custom sunglasses, t-shirt, double sided poster, custom rolling papers, and digital download of the album at the time of release. Ships on album release day. 

STREAM:
https://fofmusic.lnk.to/TheEnd

DELUXE VINYL PRE-ORDER: 
https://shlohmo.bandcamp.com/album/the-end

<3

The End

THE END

First Released December 6, 2015 (December 2015)
Produced by Landfill (@xlandfill)

Shuv These Colors Up Your Anus

I Wanted To Die

Blood Moon Underworld

BLISS OUT NOW

https://drainpuppet.bandcamp.com/album/bliss

https://open.spotify.com/album/0JiHPRFrhRF9ypnLgrfNSJ?si=GIserlpmQcSnI-WDEC6dfg

this is it! this is the big one. i've been working on this on and off since 2013. i was 16 when i started this album. i was a completely different person but in many ways, especially artistically, i was the same. worse at some things and better at others but. still just an emo dweeb writing synth solos over major chords. 

i began promoting this album under the vague title "my magnum opus" in 2015 or 2016 and a lot of my following has rotated out since then but im sure a lot of people will be familiar with some of these tracks. they feel a lot different to listen to when theyre all in a row, it is very much greater than the sum of its parts. the story bliss tells is a long one but every piece was necessary i think. im trying not to get too emotional writing this but. this record means a lot to me. it will be a long time before a record means as much to me as this one. 

by pre-ordering you get the three singles as well as the opening track. a little taster EP almost, and then a download link will be in your inbox the moment it comes out. nifty. CDs and cassettes will be coming soon also, so be on the lookout! i worked really hard on the designs and theyre going to be super pretty. 

i want to thank anyone who's ever bought or streamed or told their friends about my music. i want to thank everyone who ever believed in me. i want to thank everyone who ever believed in this album. i hope you enjoy it as much as i do. be kind to each other. love you. thanks

BLISS

BUY/STREAM

Sleep Well // Vivian's Lullaby

up late

can't think
.
from dreams of stillbirth

i've been dead before

from the ep "seraph"
out april 29th
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/blackwinterwells/seraph

weakness

1580183590825

Reality/Dreams (feat. ALIEN DAYS) - 4:13
prod. Blacklight
lyrics/vox. PK Shellboy and ALIEN DAYS
mix/master. PK Shellboy

[Verse 1: ALIEN DAYS]
I'll stick this foreign object in my thigh
And pretend I'm not scared
And pretend I'm not hyperventilating
And I'll stick this foreign object in my thigh
I can't do this for too long
I can't do this for too long
I just wanna be who I am internally  
I remember parking lots, late nights with my friends at parks
Having machinations but no way to make them fucking work
Every day tracing out album art inside my math journal
Cause I couldn't focus on anything else in the god damn world
When I'm losing sleep, losing money, losing friends and feeling shitty
All I end up doing is get lost in my own head
I can't connect with this reality
I feel like I'm stuck in my dreams no matter what is thought or said

[Verse 2: PK Shellboy]
Turn reality into dreams, dreams into reality
Looking off into the starry seas, to look for what my mind perceives
Putting faith into what eyes can see, reaching out for other galaxies
Nothing's really ever made complete, the universe is bursting at the seams
Maybe someday our paths will meet, in a semblance of normality
We'll never know what's coming next reveals, all that's forward still remains unseen
Let's escape from this calamity, as soon as we begin to sleep
Turn reality into dreams, dreams into reality

[Outro: PK Shellboy, ALIEN DAYS]
Reality (Dreams) [I'm so lost, I'm so lost, I'm so lost, where you can't find me]

[Outro 2: PK Shellboy - Robert Frost - Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening]
The woods are lovely, dark and deep
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep

Aethernet

Reality/Dreams (feat. ALIEN DAYS)

dont pinch me ..

mastered by @liquidaden

this will be one of the songs for the album (no album name yet) thank you all for a lovely year, i have learned a lot about myself and about music and i think my musical knowledge has progressed greatly. love u all <33
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its just a dream, yeah
but its the greatest thing ive ever seen
and when i die i hope its this serene
and i hope its not a mystery

dont pinch me
cause i dont think i wanna wake up
its something i could never make up
and its something that im not afraid of

i'll hold off just for now
we'll see how i am in a few months
you pulled me to the ground
i'll see you again in a few months.....
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just a dream

STREAMING

just shut me out, act like i don't exist
i never meant for it to be like this
these moments passing, i'll never catch it
so i'll stay here
just shut me out, act like i don't exist
i never meant for it to be like this
these moments passing, i'll never catch it
so i'll stay here

just shut me out, act like i don't exist
i never meant for it to be like this
these moments passing, i'll never catch it
so i'll stay here
just shut me out, act like i don't exist
i never meant for it to be like this
these moments passing, i'll never catch it
so i'll stay here

can we move on (or pretend this never happened)

convulsions in my lungs
i'm just another fortunate one
so take your places
i'm a running joke
you know your place
taking back all that you wrote
convulsions in my lungs
i'm just another fortunate one
give up my skin for you
give up my skin for you
give up my skin for you
give up my skin for you

Fortunate One

i'm aster. i'm a black american experimental electronic producer of...sorts.

this is my audio diary / aural component to the "astroblur" project, established 2012.