ft. @emotegi prod yandere! :) final track of 2023
art by @pinpon_sakana on twitter <3

decay ft. emotegi「yandere」

thaw

6 of 9
~
the train, I made it just for you
one year later, I still don't think that I can do it

turn the light out in the hall
it's been 3 weeks but I'm not sure if I can catch my breath
I think that it's been long enough
only waiting for the woods to stab me in the chest
but how do I walk thru the world without shame
but how do I walk thru the world without shame

I think I hate you
you don't expect me to let go of you
you wanted too much
guess I never wanted anything from you

if you really loved me, you'd want me dead
you wouldn't miss me, you thought I said
I love you too much to do all that
but I'm not the person you think I am
don't think I want a sudden death
but i'd never show you who I am
if you really knew me, put it to rest
if you really knew me, you'd want me dead

Sudden death

8 of 9
~
the pasture's only down the block
it was so many miles away
used to be stuck at the fencepost
we couldn't get our hands away
I think that I saw something else
I couldn't get my eyes off it
but I think it's over for us now
cause soon I will be nothing more

it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me
it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me

I lost something, and I'm never finding it
am I supposed to move on? out of the woods that were beside me
and I don't think I could see you under the clouds that started moving
and the grass got all brown, I know that you'd just think it's stupid
and I don't think I could feel you, watching snow turn into water
all that I could do was watch, or maybe look for what I lost
but I know that was always useless, or maybe it was punishment
cause I never even heard you, until I fell into the lawn

I thought you were real for my entire life
but the things that I love are the ones I can't spite
cause they're gone before I know that I just can't live without them
is it too late to ask if I loved you at all?
ever since I was there I can't see anything
and you ask where I am, but all I hear is the scream
or the piece of my life that's stuck between my teeth
after 16 whole years, I finally can't breathe

sudbury (the pasture song)

used this as set filler for far too long, decided to upload it

nightmare]}sequence 027 - 24b

written and performed by @blissom and @chriad
guitar by @blissom and @d4niboi
drop drums and bass by @chriad
mixed by @blissom and @chriad
mastered by @ryptage
photography by aznlemon

go ahead
get comfortable
youre safe now
youre safe here
i promise
whatll it take
to get your mask off
to get you to show your face
i know you want to
and itll end the same
putrid and moldy
the decomposing meat
all you can smell for days
so take the makeup off
you cant fool me
i wanna see that pretty
rotting face of yours

(like it always does
ties torn apart
thrown into the mud
and it'll end the same)

can you stomach
a glance in the mirror
or have the bugs
made their way to your eyes
fade to black
no remorse
no regrets
no respect
is it done
is there more
left to do
left to end
left to kill

i fucking told you
i knew it would end like this
another page i shouldve left untouched
another reason to trust my gut
is nothing sacred
is nothing built to last
ive seen your faces
now i want nothing more than to leave them all in the past

what did you think youd get away with?
like did you really think that i wouldnt figure you out?
lay your cards down on the table
and try to act like i dont know that theres still some in your mouth
what did you think youd get away with?
you know its not easy to hide with the mess you leave
a reputation reduced to ashes
another cracked and broken memory

glass facade +chriad +daniboi

https://ffm.to/alwayswere

cover art by noah geene https://temberl.in/ 

i think i see it in the distance 
___________________________________
always were, like you always were
its the rote screen door on your front porch 
where you fell asleep on the tile floor
but you've unstrung all your britching now

bite my tongue 'till it falls right off
its the tailgate on that fane barbwire 
trace the windshield as we drove for miles 
spurn the sauder on the backing line
and i swear i saw you standing at the edge 

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

always were

on my way to newcastle
you were never just a girl
youd never hurt a soul
youre the one that heals the world

newcastle

Single 1 of 4
written, performed, produced & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(It’s about… adventure!)

There’s a frog in my throat
And I think that she croaked
I get a little bit anxious
When I think about goals

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

Where I am is fine, ‘til I step outside
This town isn’t mine, and I hate the damn state
Rich retirees, and their entitled pleas
It’s a tourist trap, and I’m stuck with the bait
And rent is so high, that I can’t even pay it
My job pays shit, but I can’t say I hate it
I know I’m much better off than most of my friends
But this place might be my end

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Oh, a dozen churches in a row
I can’t even count how much I’ve driven this road
I always end up at the same place, same place
I always end up at the, I always end up at the
Mom and Pop, comic store, arcade, the smoothie place
Coffee shop, grocery store, gardens, and my workplace
Creek Christian, Woodland, First Faith Baptist
Everybody moving here’s a motherfucking fascist

At least that’s what it feels like
To not have a car here, not even a permit
At least I can still fly
Even if only for just a little bit

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Cars 2006

Pond Scum (Group Project)

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

Cars 2006

Micah Callari

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