i put this EP together in less than a month. keep that in mind when you listen it can get a bit Silly! :)

written, produced, mixed & mastered by me, Micah Callari !

lyrics

I’m a big big fan of distortion
Don’t need the whole truth, just a tiny portion
I got the POTS and PANS but not the ones for cooking
But I’ll still reach the top, you’ll be surprised ‘cause you weren’t looking like

In my head, I’m the coolest person ever
I had a girl ask me out and I told her “see you never”
You call me egotistical but that just makes my phone ring
And like it or not, I’m still the star of the function, like

Does it matter in the end at all
Block it out i can’t withstand it all
Slippery slope cuz i’m amphibious
I heard a rumor that you all think that I’m hideous

Play my tunes on the aux and crash the car
And I’ll punch you in the face if you pick up the guitar
Only show up to the party to be called a superstar
In a few months I’ll be 18, how did i get this far
No way, you think I didn’t put the work in
One day, you’ll watch your whole world crash and burn
‘Cause I’m clever like a fox and you’re literally just a blister
Shoutout furries they’re so cool, I could never be my sister (Micah Callari)

In my head, I’m the coolest person ever
I had a girl ask me out and I told her “see you never”
You call me egotistical but that just makes my phone ring
And like it or not, I’m still the star of the function, like

Does it matter in the end at all
Block it out i can’t withstand it all
Slippery slope cuz i’m amphibious
I heard a rumor that you all think that I’m hideous

Brand new day but still the same routine
Different voices sound the same to me
My ego will be my undoing
I’m out of gas, so the engine keeps on sputtering

(Oh look)
(It’s morning)

in my head, i'm the coolest person ever

his name was actually acore i just changed it for the song to something that's actually in the dictionary
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5L4paQ6Y99E4QCAkGKIpaB?si=SJrRe-3DQXuXEJgFeIvV-A
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LYRICS
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(Ahhhh)
(It’s beautiful)
(It finally happened)
(After months of waiting)

My best friend was a stick, I named him acorn
Took him in the car with me on the way home
He liked paparazzi, would fit right in at WeHo
Memories in scrapbook pages and they say so much
Say so much (ay-ay-ay-ay)

(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so much)

You snuck a melody inside my head, I can’t escape it
You got me standing on the sandy shore and seeing faces
Maybe the heat got to my head, unable to take it
A time forgotten, can’t recall but try to recreate it
If I trust fall
Will you catch me so my back won’t break
From the whiplash of attack on pavement, the Florida sun
Don’t wanna cook up like an egg, all sunny side up

Rectify, rectify, later in the right occasion
Gratify, gratify, with the end goal of persuasion
Magnify, magnify a problem of our generation
All my peers have failed me

My best friend was a stick, I named him acorn
Took him in the car with me on the way home
He liked paparazzi, would fit right in at WeHo
Memories in scrapbook pages and they say so much
Say so much (ay-ay-ay-ay)

(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so much)

(I-I-I, I-I-I) I don’t know where you went
I miss you every single day that people test my patience
If I crumble like a fortress made by (four-year-olds)
At least you’ll be there as my sense of reality bends and folds
Who needs more people that can think like me
Who wear clothing (work at jobs) and sit and watch TV
Bring back playing and going outside to see
The sights around you with the only friend that you’ll ever need

Rectify, rectify, later in the right occasion
Gratify, gratify, with the end goal of persuasion
Magnify, magnify a problem of our generation
All my peers have failed me

My best friend was a stick, I named him acorn
Took him in the car with me on the way home
He liked paparazzi, would fit right in at WeHo
Memories in scrapbook pages and they say so much
Say so much (ay-ay-ay-ay)

(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so)
(Say so, say so much, mu-mu-so much, say so much)

(Get off the floor)
(No)
(Okay)

acorn

listen: https://open.spotify.com/track/4HosDDXiXvJtTEa8FeEFD6?si=ecf0a49cfe414c28
+ + +
I WILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER
Micah Callari
{released 7/7/2023}
^^^^^^^^^^^
+track [7/11]+
-written, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari-
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=lyrics=
~~~~~~~~~~~

[Verse 1]
You have so much to say
For a virgin to this fame
That you just got yesterday, yesterday
And to my shock and dismay
You appear to be led astray
On a hunt to catch your prey, catch your prey

It’s a choose your own adventure
And you’ve set yourself up for the worst ending

[Chorus]
So now you’ve run your mouth
And expect to run south
Reputation still scot free
But nothing lasts forever, don’t you see
You don’t deserve the clout
You got for screaming and shouting
So many thoughts about nothing
Too bad you’re blind to see what you’re becoming

[Verse 2]
B-B-B-Blah blah blah until your mouth falls off
S-S-S-Sob sob sob until the curtains drop
It’s all an act and I’m too
Tired to deal with it (deal with it, deal with it)
We tell you the problem and you choose to disregard it
Backtrack and pretend that you deserve another pardon
My soul is hardened, yours isn’t guarded
Watch your step as you stroll through the garden

You think you want to be the center
Of attention without pretending
You matter more than any of the rest of us

[Chorus]
So now you’ve run your mouth
And expect to run south
Reputation still scot free
But nothing lasts forever, don’t you see
You don’t deserve the clout
You got for screaming and shouting
So many thoughts about nothing
Too bad you’re blind to see what you’re becoming

[Bridge]
But if the now hurts this bad
Then I could just go to the past
And find myself a cure for the heartache
Mourning the you who wouldn’t partake with the mass

Fame got to your head
What a tragedy in the making
Evil inside you is waking up
And it’s been there all along
Whatever you do, don’t lose yourself
Whatever you do, don’t choose yourself
If a branching path appears
Don’t be strayed by your peers, please

[Chorus]
So now you’ve run your mouth
And expect to run south
Reputation still scot free
But nothing lasts forever, don’t you see
You don’t deserve the clout
You got for screaming and shouting
So many thoughts about nothing
Too bad you’re blind to see what you’re becoming

&&&&&&&&&&&
||REMEMBER WHAT YOU LOST BUT DON'T FORGET THAT YOU LOST IT||

BLABBERMOUTH - who never learned to shut up and listen to a different voice for once.

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/07zxjlSQ1YYRdQQDpctGCI?si=56df78ded7054eb1
+ + +
I WILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER
Micah Callari
{released 6/23/2023}
^^^^^^^^^^^
+track [4/11]+
/-> [featuring @vai5000] <-\
-written, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari-
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=lyrics=
~~~~~~~~~~~

[Chorus: Micah Callari]
Doctor
Told me I can’t run anymore
So I (speed) walk away from the lunch table
Where all of the creeps talk, something ‘bout your posture
Makes it kinda awkward, but I keep my head held high no matter what

[Verse 1: Micah Callari]
Made them think how I feel is a lie
Not worth changing their ways, wonder why
I said that the stage made me feel dizzy
I guess they assumed I was pretty excited
To sing my silly songs for the choir
I put up a fight and they still require
Me to stand tall for the masses
I’m sure that they’ll miss me as I’m blacking out

[Chorus: Micah Callari]
Doctor
Told me I can’t run anymore
So I (speed) walk away from the lunch table
Where all of the creeps talk, something ‘bout your posture
Makes it kinda awkward, but I keep my head held high no matter what

[Verse 2: vai5000]
Doctor
Doc-doc-doc, doc doc doc doctor
Doc-doc-doc, doc doc doc doctor
I think there's something wrong with me (I can't-)
I watch as the days they turn into my nightmares
Try to stand but you still drag me down
Calling for my name but I need escape from
My voice, my words, it all hurts, it's the worst

[Bridge: Micah Callari]
And every day that goes by without any diagnosis
Cancerous mitosis happens in my brain
In the place where I hide to be safe
And I worry and I realize all my symptoms might be simple lies
So I ground myself with a screen
And I tell myself I am seen
By friends who have faith and believe
In what I’ve known to be true (ever since the)

[Chorus: Micah Callari]
Doc-
Told me I can’t run anymore
So I (Sonic) walk away from the lunch table
Where all of the creeps talk, something ‘bout your posture
Makes it kinda awkward, but I keep my head held high no matter what

&&&&&&&&&&&
||REMEMBER WHAT YOU LOST BUT DON'T FORGET THAT YOU LOST IT||

DOCTOR’S NOTE [ft. vai5000] - that keeps me sane as others claim i am not.

I WILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER
Micah Callari
{released 7/21/2023}
^^^^^^^^^^^
+track [1/11]+
-written, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari-
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=lyrics=
~~~~~~~~~~~

[Verse 1]
I think I’m gonna cry
But maybe this time
It’ll be joyful tears
That stream down my face tonight
I’ll come up with a lie
Do anything to try
And make myself feel alright
‘Cause everything should be fine

[Verse 2]
I’ve already heard every single critique you could say to me
Voices in my head endlessly berate me
With every single word you think just might break me
Don’t spell it out, I know how to read that you hate me
I’m ready to graduate and leave you all behind to rot
In your self-centered boiling cauldron pot
That burned me, and left a scar
But some scars heal after all

[Pre-Chorus]
‘Cause I’ve found security
Wonderful, wonderful security
A hand to tightly grab on
A piece of me to pass on
I haven’t even touched her skin yet
But I know it’s as pretty as her face
As she stares through the computer screen
I know this is real
I will get my act together

[Chorus]
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together

[Bridge]
We finally set the date
I wish that I felt ready
To ask if she’d be mine
To throw out my self-hate
And take in her embrace
To ground and keep me steady
So while I still have time
I will get my act together

[Chorus]
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together

I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together
I will get my act together

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||REMEMBER WHAT YOU LOST BUT DON'T FORGET THAT YOU LOST IT||

I WILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER - or else i will find myself back at the start again.

originally created for All Nighter Vol. 8 by FORM / entirely self-produced, written, & performed by meeee
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/34yENsJEHJ1lQfXX013Hrx?si=f7744226819b420d
stems: https://stemmy.versary.town/a/micahcallari/soulless/
LYRICS
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Can’t stop the laughing fit
It’s just so damn funny
How you thought that you were gathering
When all you’d done is spend all your money

You’re soulless
You’re soulless
How can people stand behind you

Depressingly desperate to sign with a label
‘Cause you only listen to the top hundred
Obsessed with eras, genres, and the periodic table
You’re scientifically planted and funded

You’re soulless
You’re soulless
But why do the fuck do I still love you

And I know it’s all for the better (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
To give us a little more space than before (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
And it would’ve been for the best if we had simply never met (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
Now they’re gonna find my heart on the floor (You’re not in it for the art)

Lifeless
Timeless
My guess
Fight this

Fame and glamor, nerdy ass manners
Suck up your gut and look refined for your managers
Pallettable, perfect, and pretty for the fancams
You see something huge in your future, but I can’t
Fuck with the vision, greet you with derision
Make nuclear fission to what could’ve been
You subscribe to a religion of billboard commissions
Before the time comes for you to finally atone for your sins

You’re soulless
You’re soulless
You’re soulless

And I know it’s all for the better (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
To give us a little more space than before (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
And it would’ve been for the best if we had simply never met (You’re not in it for the art, you’re not in it for the art)
Now they’re gonna find my heart on the floor (You’re not in it for the art)

Lifeless (Lifeless)
Timeless (Timeless)
My guess (My guess)
Fight this (Fight this)

soulless

gasping for air | Track 1/6
produced by @irselr w additional prod by me
written, performed, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Verse 1]
Hush, I don’t care anymore
You wrung me out like a towel and I don’t care for it
No more of all your lies to keep me trapped
In your fucking spider web until all the strings have snapped

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Verse 2]
You would rather forget it ever happened
But I’ll never abandon all the thoughts I had (in the moment)
My first impressions changed, now we don’t see eye to eye
Now we’re just seeing ghosts (and you’re just ghosting me)

[Bridge]
Leave me for dead, I wouldn’t mind to
Never see you again, I’m fine to simply
Die alone in my bed, and let the scavengers
Avenge me post my death

[Chorus]
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust
Sick of your complacency and 7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

[Outro]
7 dollar beverages
7 times you said it wouldn’t matter if I said it twice
You’d still never fucking listen no matter how strong my leverage
You’d never cherish what we have until it bites the dust

7 dollar beverages {prod. irselr}

gasping for air | Track 6/6
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

made in one day on August 29, 2023
https://open.spotify.com/track/1Vk9KVO4JwH9aYozcd2AhG?si=bc8a3297868349e2

[Verse 1]
Chamomile tea, I don’t think it’s really helping
But I’ll still sip, if it means that I’ll be better
For tonight, when I sleep ten thousand years
And wake fatigued, like usual

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I wish, in times like these, that I had a temperature
For my temperamental body, but I don’t
I never do, it’s always 98.6
Maybe people would listen, if it was in Celsius, I guess

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Bridge]
Non-verbal at the function, there’s something in my bones
I doubt there’s a contagion, but I should still go home
Trying to make myself take these pills
But something’s stopping me, it’s otherworldly, these hands are not my own
They’re stained with blood from something sinister (For sure)
Couldn’t be me, couldn’t be me, it can’t be me, I’ve barely moved the past few days
I’ve prayed to God that I’ll administer (The cure)
It couldn’t be, it couldn’t be, is this what comes from never changing my ways

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Outro]
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, sick again (Even after my body’s gone)
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, I’m sick again (Even after my body’s gone)

sick again

gasping for air | Track 5/6
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Verse 1]
She was the very first to love you like that
A shame you didn’t give it back
She lived a fairytale and you played your part
Until you fucking broke her heart (two, three, just hit it)

[Chorus]
You’re gonna wish that you had never met
That boy when he makes a promise he’ll forget
Don’t know which summer will be hottest, still a prophet and a goddess
‘Cause I know when this relationship will end
A premonition of your future in my head (two, three, fuck)

[Verse 2]
This time it wouldn’t be a three day event
They’d make your time feel well spent
All of this talk of making long distance work
As they refuse to ever touch your shirt

[Chorus]
You’re gonna wish that you had never met
That boy when he makes a promise he’ll forget
Don’t know which summer will be hottest, still a prophet and a goddess
‘Cause I know when this relationship will end
A premonition of your future in my head

[Bridge]
I watched it all from afar
In the backseat of his car
I tried to warn you but you
Said I shouldn’t worry this hard
Now look at where we both are
You’re still a virgin but scarred
From all the poison that this
Bastard of a man gave your heart

Now it’s the new year and you’ve
Fallen for a lady again
The details twisted and transformed
As you’re love-struck in the head
I still see signs of the end
In little things that she said
But now the old you is dead
(So go ahead)

[Chorus]
You’re gonna wish that you had never met
That boy when he makes a promise he’ll forget
Don’t know which summer will be hottest, still a prophet and a goddess
‘Cause I know when this relationship will end
A premonition of your future in my head

premonition

gasping for air | Track 3/6
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Chorus]
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch

[Verse 1]
I was led on, I was deceived
You’re controlling, why’d I ever believe
That you had my best interest in mind
When you were so resistant to change
You loved to make me think
You gave a fuck if I was doing well in the slightest
You saw me at my kindest, and it changed my whole mindset
When you showed me just how far I can sink

[Chorus]
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch

[Verse 2]
Reminded yet again that I don’t know fucking anything ever
(If there’s a God, I cannot see him)
If I lived out in the sea, I’d suffocate from the pressure
(Too clueless to carpe diem)
The day is seizing me, it doesn’t have to
Be this way, with me served on your plate
‘Cause I can guarantee, you will not like when the
Taste of depression, hits from when I’m at my freshest

[Chorus]
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch
Could you just let me go, can’t take this shit anymore
I watched your whole mood switch, hook line and sinker bitch
My corpse is on the floor, no air for breath support
Gutted me like a fish, hook line and sinker bitch

hook line and sinker

gasping for air | Track 2/6
featuring writing & vocals by @ArasMoon & co-produced with @irselr
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

[Verse 1: Micah Callari]
It took two years for me to realize what it really was
Each heinous crime you did and brushed aside as just tough love
I’m healthier and happier without all of your shit
‘Cause when i looked in retrospect, you really were a dick
Like fuck man, you told me it was just a harmless joke
As you locked me up inside your chains to see if I would choke
And who else can try to say we’re friends and play disparager
In this game where I get bullied just to build my character

[Chorus: Micah Callari]
I should have seen the signs
Why did I waste my time
Believing you were what you claimed to be
Oh my goodness gracious
I truly have no clue what to make of this
We’re fully symbiotic now
I’m worried you’re psychotic now
For both our goods

[Post-Chorus: Micah Callari]
Fuck me up, fuck me up, drill a hole in me
Make my spirit feel as empty as my body
I’ll do anything to learn adult autonomy
When I wake up, I’ll be dead from the lobotomy
Fuck me up, fuck me up, drill a hole in me
Make my spirit feel as empty as my body
I’ll do anything to learn adult autonomy
When I wake up, I’ll be dead from the lobotomy

[Verse 2: Micah Callari]
I think you remind me of this man nobody liked
He said to someone dear to me that God said “he was always right”
He took the kids away and broke their piggy banks
And when she finally reached him he said “where’s my fucking thanks”

[Verse 3: Aras Moon]
What am I to you, I’m just an object 
And all these times I try to improve, but show no progress 
Because it's the same old song, it don't get through to you
You know how to break my heart with insecurities 
You can throw me away and I’m still gon’ find my way back to you
‘Cause my home is your ridicule and your words are my vacuum
I’ll absorb all the hatred and I’mma soak in your laughter
‘Cause my poor ego is shot, you pay attention right after

[Bridge: Micah Callari]
(Fuck me up, fuck me up, drill a hole in me) I should have seen the signs
(Make my spirit feel as empty as my body) Why did I waste my time
(I’ll do anything to learn adult autonomy) Believing
You were what you claimed to be (When I wake up, I’ll be dead from the lobotomy)
Oh my goodness gracious (Fuck me up, fuck me up, drill a hole in me)
I truly have no clue what to make of this (Make my spirit feel as empty as my body)
We’re fully symbiotic now (I’ll do anything to learn adult autonomy)
I’m worried you’re psychotic now (When I wake up, I’ll be-)
For both our goods

i bet every warning label has an awesome backstory [ft. Aras Moon] {co-prod. irselr}

goodbye 2023
prod & mix by me, master by @ryptage

LYRICS:

(I’m self-aware now)

Keep it easy, keep it simple
Don’t fuck up the key, fight your convoluted impulse
Numbers in the green, if you do it right they triple
But you’ll never be the stone to make the water ripple

Oh my god, why’d I look at the analytics again
Now I’ve killed my self-esteem and left its blood all on my hands
Hide away in my music scared that no one understands
I’m as soulless as a pop star can get

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how
x2

(I-I-I-I) I could look up rabies and consider reading scripture
Stuffing up emotions like I hibernate in winter
Seasonal depression turned to annual prescription
One click away, Google search “bipolar symptoms”

Am I better than a ghost without a man to haunt
Cuz I’m really feeling useless like a Smash Bros taunt
Crashing in the wall on my train of thought
Now I’m drifting round in outer space and I can’t say I feel distraught

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how
x2

And I know things are exactly the same as before
But at least it’s a correctable mistake
And I know it’s not enough to awake in a cold sweat on the floor
Cuz dreams are the worst when you’re awake

I pulled another all-nighter (I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now)
This one no different from the rest (Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year)
Cuz every time I think I’ve figured it out, and I’m put to the test  (How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out)
I end up back in my bed again (I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how)

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

Selfaware

Single 1 of 4
written, performed, produced & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(It’s about… adventure!)

There’s a frog in my throat
And I think that she croaked
I get a little bit anxious
When I think about goals

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

Where I am is fine, ‘til I step outside
This town isn’t mine, and I hate the damn state
Rich retirees, and their entitled pleas
It’s a tourist trap, and I’m stuck with the bait
And rent is so high, that I can’t even pay it
My job pays shit, but I can’t say I hate it
I know I’m much better off than most of my friends
But this place might be my end

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Oh, a dozen churches in a row
I can’t even count how much I’ve driven this road
I always end up at the same place, same place
I always end up at the, I always end up at the
Mom and Pop, comic store, arcade, the smoothie place
Coffee shop, grocery store, gardens, and my workplace
Creek Christian, Woodland, First Faith Baptist
Everybody moving here’s a motherfucking fascist

At least that’s what it feels like
To not have a car here, not even a permit
At least I can still fly
Even if only for just a little bit

Cuz I was made for the city
New York in the nighttime, felt so itty bitty
Walking down the street, do the people think I’m pretty
Came here to remember what I’m even living for
Cuz there’s something more out there for me

(I was made for the city)
(Cuz I was made for the city)

Cars 2006

Single 2 of 4
featuring vocals & writing by @mintymints7
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage
cover art by clawsomebeats

LYRICS:
(There’s a feeling in my gut)

Big whoop, you’re a terrible person
Tell me a secret that I already knew
And I’ll act all surprised
As if I never had guessed something was terribly wrong with you
I think I feel energies, I still can’t explain them
No one's ever listened to me, I don’t think I blame them
That’s just been my thing for as long as I remember
Cuz I know a pretender and will not entertain them

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Emperor with some brand new Zumiez
All my friends think you're hot shit
But you're just a trash fire on your way to conspire
A rotten plan cuz there's an ass you want to hit
I can't believe that I put up with you (Put up with you)
I don't want to take a puff, if that's alright with you (Alright with you)
Why did I never trust myself about you
Thanks for the memories, but we're through

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Nobody cares and I guess it’s okay
Nobody listens ‘til it’s too damn late
Nobody gets how the past has shaped me
Into the cautious pessimist I am today
Keep a secret for a friend’s sake
Hold it in too long, and I think I might go (Insane)
I need to warn my friends that my gut was right
And they might very well find the new kid’s a fucking fake

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick (I feel sick)
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift (Piece of shit)

There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift
There’s a feeling in my gut that you give me
And it makes me feel sick
Both my heart and my brain know you’re shitty
It’s a curse and gift

Gut Feeling [ft. mintymints]

originally by Alaska Sargent (https://soundcloud.com/alaskasargent/newyork)
made in a few hours across two sessions on March 1 and March 14, 2024

New York (cover)

Single 3 of 4
featuring vocals & writing by @mythvalley
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
My angel numbers follow me around
And the sound of old hymnals ring when I spot them out and about
But I won’t think about it now
Despite how loud the calls of the faith are, I refuse to hear them out

And I really do try my best
To talk about it with respect
But damn, I’m not in your debt
And I stand by everything I said
Cuz this here’s as good as it’ll get
I won’t run but I’ll keep my distance
I guess I’ll tolerate your shit
And keep my mouth shut ’til I’m dead

‘Til I'm dead
After all is said and done
I’m searching why should I go on
I've never thought of seeing it this way
The clouds are parting
Is it real life
I’m just a girl who’s just a little bit broken
Is it worth just a little more hurting
I’ve seen you here before
I’m spending all my time with these numbers
I need some more
Of the signs
Need you to tell me why
I see it this way
I'll never get a break
My angels, they keep me in check

My angel numbers keep me in check
Cuz I never want to close that door and call myself a goddamn atheist
Agnostic’s good enough, I guess
When I can’t bring myself to go back into religion quite yet

And I really do try my best
To talk about it with respect
But damn, I’m not in your debt
And I stand by everything I said
Cuz this here’s as good as it’ll get
I won’t run but I’ll keep my distance
I guess I’ll tolerate your shit
And keep my mouth shut ’til I’m dead

I remember the day I prayed
My church wouldn’t end up shutting its worn down doors
I remember the day my faith
Was hurt far beyond the point of no return
I remember their words, I remember their faces
As they mocked me way out back by the trees
I remember the flowers, the flowers
The only symbol guiding from that moment on that I would ever see

My angel numbers don’t mean jackshit
If I listen to conspiracies about them, it still won’t make any sense
I’ll act as if they’re just a bit
That I did to give some clarity about why I’ve seen them everywhere I’ve been

And I really do try my best
To talk about it with respect
But damn, I’m not in your debt
And I stand by everything I said
Cuz this here’s as good as it’ll get
I won’t run but I’ll keep my distance
I guess I’ll tolerate your shit
And keep my mouth shut ’til I’m dead

Angel Numbers

Angel Numbers (feat. myth valley)

CONTENT WARNING: The following track may be triggering for victims of grooming.
-
originally Created for Camp Boneyard, mainly on April 9, 2024

Johnny johnny johnny (Micah Callari remix)

Single 4 of 4
featuring vocals & writing by @jauntsen
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(Aw, shit)
(Snare, snare, snare, snare, snare, snare, snare, snare)
(Snare, snare, snare, snare, snare, snare)
(Action)

I just deleted the past
Sixty thousand views down the drain
I saw myself in the mirror and it wasn’t me (It wasn’t me, wasn’t me)
Class clown, I was an actress with a mask
The stress of wearing it was too much to maintain (Maintain)
I saw a girl in the mirror and it might’ve been me (Oh god, oh god, oh god)

Times are changing, strength is waning
I cannot allow this to go on
Who’s remaining, who’s still waiting
It’s cheesy to say, but I’ve moved on
I let my character rest in peace
I am the queen of my destiny
Something in me that is festering
Cuz who even said that the show must go on

(Me)

When I was younger, I thought I’d be famous
I didn’t how that shit worked
We were just kids, like who could blame us
Gut punch, that shit hurt
New me, new friends, new hair, new face
Call me by a name I had tried to erase
I’ll put the past me in its place
Cuz it’s a fucking disgrace

Peel my mind out so I can just destroy it 
Annoy the fuck out of me, I know you enjoy it
Is this supposed to have a meaning (Don’t go back)
I ride the high off of deleting (Don’t go back)
I would rather blow it all up than deconstruct it
I would rather blow them all off and keep on running away
I’m quite familiar with this feeling (Feeling)
Of my whole psyche peeling (Off the past)

(Showstopper, nobody can stop her)
(Nobody can top her, nobody can topple her down)
(Showstopper, damn she’s off her rocker)
(Damn you better watch her make herself the talk of the town)
I get so goddamn emotional (Showstopper, nobody can stop her)
I try my best and still fuck up (Nobody can top her, nobody can topple her down)
If God says “be the jester” (Showstopper, damn she’s off her rocker)
I won’t dig my old self up (Damn you better watch her make herself the talk of the town) 

Times are changing, strength is waning
I cannot allow this to go on
Who’s remaining, who’s still waiting
It’s cheesy to say, but I’ve moved on
I let my character rest in peace
I am the queen of my destiny
Something in me that is festering
Cuz who even said that the show must go on

Times are changing, strength is waning
I cannot allow this to go on
Who’s remaining, who’s still waiting
It’s cheesy to say, but I’ve moved on
I let my character rest in peace
I am the queen of my destiny
Something in me that is festering
Cuz who even said that the show must go on

(Showstopper, nobody can stop her)
(Nobody can top her, nobody can topple her down)
(Showstopper, damn she’s off her rocker)
(Damn you better watch her make herself the talk of the town)

Showstopper

Showstopper (feat. jauntsen)

featuring vocals & writing by @eva-nge-line
co-production (bridge guitars & synth) by gasmask
co-production (ending guitars) by taylor may
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
[too long to post on SC lol]

The Deconstruction Movement

Glitter Nails (feat. evangeline)

featuring vocals & writing by @samuilkeyes
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
What’s a love song without the romance
(They call it soulless)
If I knew how to, I’d give true love a chance
(My future’s hopeless)
I haven’t really emoted since 20 fucking 17
And all my adult peers are down for anyone, including teens
I haven’t found a boyfriend, no one’s ever really wanted me
And that’s not overdramatic, that’s just pure honesty

I can’t do anything, I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything if I don’t fucking know how to feel

I didn’t know love could ever be this lonely
I feel ashamed I don’t need a special someone to hold me
I could go my whole life without a true love’s kiss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss
I don’t believe that a soulmate’s waiting for me
I feel no weight in the truth that everybody has told me
I could go my whole life living in ignorant bliss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss

But will they miss me, will they miss me,
I hope that when I die I’m not alone cuz I don’t fucking know how to feel

I'm like what I load into my recurve
My feelings don't lack and my heart isn't weaker
Pierced your mind cuz you won't stop being a speaker
Playing loud fucking tunes with a mindset that's meager
You say I need a legacy when I die
But deny me of what I need while I'm alive
Want me to shift perspectives to disregard mine
But humans come from different walks of life

I can’t do anything, I can’t do anything
I can’t do anything if I don’t fucking know how to feel

I didn’t know love could ever be this lonely
I feel ashamed I don’t need a special someone to hold me
I could go my whole life without a true love’s kiss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss
I don’t believe that a soulmate’s waiting for me
I feel no weight in the truth that everybody has told me
I could go my whole life living in ignorant bliss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss

But will they miss me, will they miss me,
I hope that when I die I’m not alone cuz I don’t fucking know how to feel

And I sometimes feel a yearning
Maybe I just haven’t met the right one yet
As the sun sets, my heart is still burning
Cuz there’s a hole I cannot fill with my friends
I’ve been on a journey of self discovery
The peaks and the valleys, and I’m still recovering
But I know in the end that it wasn’t for nothing
Cuz now I know myself better than ever before

I didn’t know love could ever be this lonely
I feel ashamed I don’t need a special someone to hold me
I could go my whole life without a true love’s kiss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss
I don’t believe that a soulmate’s waiting for me
I feel no weight in the truth that everybody has told me
I could go my whole life living in ignorant bliss
That doesn’t mean when I die, I won’t have people I’ll miss

(But will they miss me, will they miss me)
(Cuz I don’t fucking know how to feel)

The Aromantic Song (feat. Samuil Keyes)

featuring vocals, writing & co-production (ending guitars & drums) by @gasmaskatl
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
I take a compliment, and I distort it
I know I’ve never been good at reading warnings
You like my temperament, so you support it
Shower me in praise, then get mad when I ignore it
(Sorry!) I know flattery when I see it, yeah no
Don’t call me the goat, I simply cannot be it yet
Though I hope to be there at the top some day
I know good things come to those who wait

First thing she does is name search
She says it entertains her
The things I do for fame hurt
Keep it in my grasp, what little I have left of me
To be called an ass, would simply be the death of me
Gotta go fast, to finally reach my destiny
Have you seen the best of me if you don’t even text me back

I’m a control freak
I’m so obsessed with my image and it controls me
I simply fall to my knees, and pray to God and plead
That I won’t lose it all in a week (I’ve worked so fucking hard)
I’m a control freak
I’m so obsessed with my image and it controls me
I simply fall to my knees, and pray to God and plead
That I won’t lose it all in a week (I’ve worked so fucking hard)

Always ready to fight for your life just for an asshole
Truman Show the way your circle’s full of actors
Zeroing in on the before and not the after
Chasing your tail over shit that doesn’t matter
(Dog!) You’re crazy, and I won’t be a part of it
Whining ‘bout the fighting, but you’re the one who started it
You’re not the center, you’re not some fucking conduit
Think no one notices, bitch, we’ve all been onto it

I’m a control freak
I’m so obsessed with my image and it controls me
I simply fall to my knees, and pray to God and plead
That I won’t lose it all in a week (I’ve worked so fucking hard)
I’m a control freak
I’m so obsessed with my image and it controls me
I simply fall to my knees, and pray to God and plead
That I won’t lose it all in a week (I’ve worked so fucking hard)

I think that my 5 minutes of fame will be over any minute
I am merely a spectacle that will never be forgiven

So what you sayin’, I'm irrelevant
Cuz I've turned away from making you a profit
Thirty thousand hours of my life, I think I've lost it
I'm the sunk cost fallacy in the flesh
if I put another track in this track, it might be the best
I am not a symbol, I will not be treated as such
I’m just a man with an agenda, yeah they can't catch up
Control freak, I've got them all right under my thumb
Go tell them all to run, go tell them all to run

If I ever sign a record deal, you might as well shoot me
Cuz I’d rather go to hell than let a label deal screw me
So much baggage attached to my persona’s duties
And the best part is I don’t think she ever knew me
I’m the queen, on a throne of lies
It be “fake it ‘til I make it” for my whole damn life
I got an audience of four seeing through the disguise
As I’m preparing to be baptized

I simply fall down
To my knees
And pray to God
And plead (I’ve worked so fucking hard)
(I’m a control freak)
(I’m so obsessed with my image and it controls me) That I won’t
(I simply fall to my knees, and pray to God and plead) Lose it all in a week
(That I won’t lose it all in a week) I’m a control freak
(I’ve worked so fucking hard)

Control Freak (feat. gasmask)

co-production (guitars) by @taylormaywhat
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
Knife in hand
Hear my heartbeat pounding as hard as it can
Try to stop me like the last time but you can’t
Swear to God this isn’t happening again
No, not again

In bed
Kept awake by all the noise inside my head
I could do that overdue shit but instead
I’ll just cry and let my spirit fill with dread
I should be dead, and yet I’m still alive
It’s been too long a day for me to sleep tonight
Is this insomnia or punishment from high
I feel an urge to leave my whole damn life behind
I don’t know why

I guess it’s fine
I’ll say it’s all okay to keep it off your mind
How I’m secluded wasting hours of my time
Not even doing shit to justify this lie
I might as well just cry

Who do I seek out to bring me out of the darkness that I wallow in (It’s my time)
To feed off for my need of this catharsis, oh I swallow it (Close my eyes)
Don’t beat around the bush, you got this far, it’s come to push and shove (My best try)
To get you up to somewhere you are loved, if you’re lucky (Do is cry)

(Back to a time when)
(I lost my will but chose to find it)
(Seek out the old me’s ancient guidance)
(Shame that he’s buried and divided)

Flash back to a time when
I lost my will but chose to find it
Seek out the old me’s ancient guidance
Shame that he’s buried and divided

Who do I seek out to bring me out of the darkness that I wallow in
To feed off for my need of this catharsis, oh I swallow it
Don’t beat around the bush, you got this far, it’s come to push and shove
To get you up to somewhere you are loved, if you’re lucky

Stop being so dramatic when the clock is saying it’s my time
To see what lies behind the darkness when I close my eyes
I’ll grab the cursed thing and hold my breath at my best try
To take the pain away cuz all that I can do is cry

Knife In Hand

featuring vocals & writing by @vai5000
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(Bitch, who the fuck is Ms. Hyde)

What do I look like from your point of view (Point of view)
Should I just sing or do you want some personality (Oh no)
I’ll do whatever you ask me to do, just for you (For you)
I’ll change all of my mannerisms, bend to your mentality

(Oh no) Never see it coming
(No) Hold my tongue from something
(No) Tell myself I’m bluffing
Even though I know the truth
(Oh no) Two-faced piece of shit
(No) Crowded in my skin
(No) Gemini within
We share the same morality (Oh no oh no oh no)

What do they see from outside
Don’t think it’s me they idolize
Another voice that’s in my mind
Who’s Doctor Jekyll, who’s Ms. Hyde

All rehearsed but say I wing it
Write a lie or two then sing it
All those girls who think they bring it
My laughter rings above the crickets
Quite a shame they live in fiction
Hatred is my worst addiction
You won’t catch me causing friction
Cuz I’m a walking contradiction

(Oh no) Never seem disdainful
(No) You call me an angel
(No) But I’m far too shameful
There’s room for more than just one spirit
(Oh no) Two time this whole life
(No) Split from bark and bite
(No) Bottle up my spite
I’m sinking to a superstition (Oh no oh no oh no)

What do they see from outside
Don’t think it’s me they idolize
Another voice that’s in my mind
Bitch, who the fuck is Ms. Hyde

You can't see outside your
Preconceived perceptions of what I am to you
Look into your own mind
Does it fear you that you and I are alike
You want to hear me scream (You want to hear me)
What you see of me is all I'll be (Watch me fall in your hands)
To you, change my face (I am all that I have)
That other part of me locked away (Lock up)

(No) Stare at what she’s shown us
(No) Start to lose my focus
(No) No one else will notice
How the world is spinning around
(Oh no) It’s our little secret
(No) Swear to never speak it
(No) Can’t turn back, I’ve seen it
It seems that Ms. Hyde has been found (Oh no oh no oh no)

Ms. Hyde (feat. vai5000)

co-production (keyboard solo) by @gasmaskatl
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(One two three)

Once upon a time, I had met this guy
And he seemed infatuated with me
I threw a bone, I gave him a try
I told myself “just how bad could it be”
And then he showed up on my feed (My feed)
Every single post I could see (Could see)
Was just pestering my friend to be as
Close to him as could be

So what do I do, now that I know the truth
Now through the fog, you look like a loser
Judgment was clouded, and I won’t think much about it
That my friendship was a product you consumed

And I know it’s hard for you to make friends, you’ve said as much
And I know how hard it’ll be when I stop keeping in touch
But now you’ve crossed a boundary and there’s just no turning back
If you wanted her number, you might as well have just asked

(Woe is me? No!)

Do I feel pity, do I feel sad
I am not your mom and I’m not your dad
When’s the last time I texted back
You do the math, bitch
I do not fuck with the way you refer to me
Do not flaunt me like I’m just a fad
You speak disconcertingly, when I leave
It won’t be my bad

So what do I say to your next text
I could ignore and let it fester
But I’m not your jester, and I won’t clean up your mess, sir (One two three)
Cuz we both know in the end, it’s for the best

And I know it’s hard for you to make friends, you’ve said as much (You’ve said as much)
And I know how hard it’ll be when I stop keeping in touch (Keeping in touch)
But now you’ve crossed a boundary and there’s just no turning back
If you wanted her number, you might as well have just asked
(Woe is me)

And I know a part of you was partially for real
Because sometimes what you share is exactly how I feel
And for a sec, I thought what we had might be genuine
But I won’t fall for your shit ever again
Woe is me

Woe is me
Woe is me
Woe is me
Woe is me
Woe is me
Woe is me, me, me, me

And I know it’s hard for you to make friends, you’ve said as much (You’ve said as much)
And I know how hard it’ll be when I stop keeping in touch (Keeping in touch)
But now you’ve crossed a boundary and there’s just no turning back
If you wanted her number, you might as well have just asked
(Woe is me)

And I know a part of you was partially for real
Because sometimes what you share is exactly how I feel
And for a sec, I thought what we had might be genuine
But I won’t fall for your shit ever again
Woe is me

Woe Is Me

featuring vocals & writing by @taylormaywhat
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my-
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my-

I met up with this guy, we hadn’t talked since I was 15
He seemed closed off, distant, did he even really like me
We spent the day together but he barely talked to me
Was I enough for his ever burdening masculinity

(Dude, bro, what’s up buddy)
(Hear my jokes and call me funny)
Talking to men has become such a chore
(Boy, kiddo, what’s up chico)
(You’re my pal, you’re my amigo)
Is it cuz I’m not a man anymore

I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
Emasculate, elicit
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
Manipulate and fix it

Dysphoria will play the long game
If I want to win, I’ll have to make a change

What the fuck is goin’ on
I got my legs up, cap on, gaviscon, I gotta
Sit right there, jus chillin’ on a chair
Keeping my mouth shut like I’m not there
Don’t wanna speak out loud, draw attention on me
Why I oughta, sound like an imperfection when I speak
Why do I sound like this, am I a freak
Formant is the new wave here, have a treat

Why you gotta be a bitch, I just want a little pitch
And now you're acting like this, why you gotta be a bitch
You gotta ruin all the fun, three semis up you better run
Paint my nails and flip you off, cause bitch I won
I can sound however I want
I got formant and an octave to flaunt
I can sound however I want
Despite it all tho I still hate my

Voice, but I’ve still got no choice
I’m still some fucking toy
You pull the string and listen to my scratchy singing voice
I’m far beyond annoyed
My psyche’s been destroyed
Is there anything to do to fix my awful singing voice

It hurts like hell to hit these high notes
Listen back and hate this song I wrote
The outcome goes against all my hopes
I still think that I feel something in my throat

I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
Emasculate, elicit
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
I hate my voice
Manipulate and fix it

Dysphoria stays the exact same
Please don’t tell me nothing’s ever going to change

I Hate My Voice (feat. Taylor May)

co-production (guitars) by @quedronol
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
First time I painted my nails, I fucked up
And the second time too
When the past comes to bite, I just tell it “shut the fuck up”
I won’t listen to you
I won’t listen to you
I won’t listen to you

First time I missed my flight, I knew I’d fucked up
But I knew what to do
Everybody in my life told me “bad idea”, shut the fuck up
I won’t listen to you
I won’t listen to you
Should I have listened to you

Do these feelings ever truly go away
Keep the need for adventure at bay
Cuz my life’s gone to shit since I tried to do college and quit
And I just need some change

First time I dyed my hair at home, I fucked up
It looked greener than blue
I’d been manically rushing it, told my brain to shut the fuck up
I won’t listen to you
I won’t listen to you
I won’t listen to you

First time I tried that shit, I knew I was fucked
Because deep down I knew
There’s a goddamn addict inside me that wants to reach up
And I won’t listen to
What it wants me to do
I won’t listen to you

And the past few months have been rough
Cuz I worry I don’t do enough
To stand out in a crowd, I shut down when the noise gets too loud
Are they calling my bluff

I remember the Wednesday I cried
When I realized I’d be down to die
If it give me escape from the tortuous hell I had made
Even if I’d be saying goodbye

So I’ll find a solution to all of my problems
I’ll fly out to New York and go to a concert
And if I get lost walking back from the show, I’d still know
That it’s gonna be fine

Adventure

featuring vocals, writing & co-production (acoustic guitar & whistle) by @flatroomvr
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
Everyday, every way, questioning my sanity
Different days, different ways, you come back in my head to say
“Don’t forget me, come and catch me”
(What could I do)
Cuz it’s been nearly two years since the final time you messaged me
That last exchange just seemed like any other typical day
“Don’t forget we have something to do”
(What could I do)
And now you’re good as dead, I had a funeral and everything
The messages sent, I keep on searching for about anything
A clue that you left in the past
It didn’t occur to me that call would be our last

Recovering, recovering
From wounds inflicted when your parents
Told me you’d be gone before I blinked
Say something, say something
Affirm that you weren’t lying when you
Told me you’d be back before I blinked

We were just kids
Together on the internet
How else could we have possibly met
It’s shit like that makes me question God’s plan
Cuz why would a loving father figure allow me to meet you
An angel personified, when people mistreat you
It hurts
I sometimes question if I’m haunted
If you happen to be listening
I’m sorry I didn’t talk more
I didn’t really mean to ignore
When you said they fucking tore off your door

Recovering, recovering
From wounds inflicted when your parents
Told me you’d be gone before I blinked
(What could I do)
Say something, say something
Affirm that you weren’t lying when you
Told me you’d be back before I blinked
(What could I do)

If you’re having trouble listening
Then hear this for me

Recovering, recovering
For you
Recovering, recovering
For you

(Recovering, recovering) And everyone knows why you were here
(For you) And everyone knows you’ll disappear
(Recovering, recovering) And everyone knows why you were here
(For you) And everyone knows that you’ll disappear
(Recovering, recovering) And everyone knows why you were here
(For you) And nothing lasts forever, does it
(Recovering, recovering) It’s like I live in a bubble now
(For you) For you

Before I Blinked (feat. flatroom !!)

co-production (second verse synths, second verse drums & instrumental section synth solo) by @henryyoder
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
(Micah Callari)

I’ve learned a lot since I dropped out of college
I’ve found out dopamine keeps me alive
Now French horn and MLA didn’t cut it anymore
There was adventure for me to find
(And I found it, and it rocked, so then I went home, and it sucked)
Was there even a reason to live anymore
(I act all escapist, but I’m trapped in my room)
Cuz I’m still the same bitch I was before

I swore I’d never pick up a comic book
I just wasn’t into it
I swore I’d keep my grip on reality
But something loosened it
Now I dissociate, several times a day
And see myself in a two-tone four panel page
I’m reading comics now, I’m trying new things out
But I don’t know how much more that I-

There’s static in my room and I hate it (I hate it)
I’m sick but my friends think I fake it (Oh no, no)
I probably picked up something in the city
I’m sitting out this shift, cuz my voice is breaking
I’ve learned a lot since I flew to NYC
I missed my flight and I wanted to die
But somehow I got the new ticket for free
God answered my prayer and I don’t know why

I swore I’d never pick up a comic book
I just wasn’t into it
I swore I’d keep my grip on reality
But something loosened it
Now I dissociate, several times a day
And see myself in a two-tone four panel page
I’m reading comics now, I’m trying new things out
But I don’t know how much more that I can take

Take apart, take apart, put it back together
Turn the page forever, the story goes forever

(Aw yeah)

The last time I painted my nails had a purpose
I wanted to look my best for the trip
Oh, and look at me now, I’m like a goddamn circus
With the messiest paint job I could get
I might just fuck off and send off my vocals raw
Who would stop me, who’s gonna stop me
I wasted all my money for no point at all
Can someone stop me, please stop me

I swore I’d never pick up a comic book
I just wasn’t into it
I swore I’d keep my grip on reality
But something loosened it
Now I dissociate, several times a day
And see myself in a two-tone four panel page
I’m reading comics now, I’m trying new things out
But I don’t know how much more that I can take

I swore I’d never pick up a comic book
I just wasn’t into it
I swore I’d keep my grip on reality
But something loosened it
Now I dissociate, several times a day
And see myself in a two-tone four panel page
I’m reading comics now, I’m trying new things out
But I don’t know how much more that I can take

Take apart, take apart, put it back together
Turn the page forever, the story goes forever

Comic Book

featuring vocals & writing by @erismirror
written, produced, performed & mixed by Micah Callari
mastered by @ryptage

LYRICS:
[too long to post on SC lol]

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