AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

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DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
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#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

[Intro:]
Saw it in your eyes—before the blade came down.
The lies you stitched still bleed, still drown.
I’ve met the Devil...
He’s kinder than you.

[Verse 1:]
Brace for the blow—it’s closing fast.
Truth cuts deeper than your past.
I carve the names in scars you left—
Your throne’s a tomb, built out of theft.
Your mask is cracked, truth bleeding through.
You buried guilt like it wouldn’t bloom.
You're the frost in every vein.
Now the silence screams your name.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Your fire’s out—just smoke and shame.
I won’t bleed for you again.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR WORDS ALL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY LIFE’S A FIST!
DEVIL’S AT YOUR DOOR—CHOKE ON WHAT YOU WROTE!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on it—swallow the flame!
Drown in truth—you forged the blame!
Storm is rising—your crown won’t last!
Truth is metal—and breaks like glass!

[Verse 2:]
You spit your venom, circle lies—
I wear my wounds like armor ties.
You cut deep, but I never dropped—
You cut deep, and I rose up.
I’m what you fear—unbowed, unbent.
Gold turns black—your testament.
Truth’s a blade and I’m its edge.
Say my name... and taste regret.

[Pre-Chorus:]
You said I’d break—but here I stand.
This rage was forged in your own hands.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES ALL BURN!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—I’VE EARNED MY TURN!
DEVIL’S GOT YOU NOW—CHOKE IN ENDLESS NIGHT!

[Post-Chorus:]
Burn in pride—your throne’s a shell!
Drown in rust—you built this hell!
False king falls—no one kneels!
Truth don’t beg, it breaks and heals!

[Bridge:]
You swore I’d fail—you watched me bleed.
Now I’m thunder—cracking teeth.
You laughed me down—now hear me rise.
I’m the storm behind your lies.
RISE!

[Final Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES STILL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY FURY PERSISTS!
DEVIL’S GOT YOUR THROAT—YOUR CROWN’S CORRUPT!
CHOKE ON FLAME—WHILE I RISE FROM DUST!
NEVER FORGIVE! NEVER!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on pride—truth won't die.
Rage you gave—I wear like light.
Watch me rise—fear me now.
I am the reckoning—you allowed.

[Outro:]
I’ve seen your worst.
I’m still here.
That’s what scares you most.

Ashes and Thrones

Blind

betrayed

The hardest, rawest track on the album. Riff-heavy, aggressive, and defiant. A warning: your grip is your downfall.

The Cost of Control

Ashes of our own

Damned

A descent into shadow, Death of the Voice is an unflinching blend of crushing riffs, haunting melodies, and cinematic atmosphere. Every track is a chapter in a story of defiance, decay, and the search for meaning in a world that silences the truth.

The Dark Silhouette

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real 

The silence fills the room 
But it feels so heavy 
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do 
The static on tv 
Drowns out the way I’m feeling 
Fuck the way I’m feeling 
I’m angry that you died for no reason 
Feels like my heart won’t stop bleeding 

Bleeding I feel it 
Just take it 
Embrace it 
Take me 
I’ll fake it 
I made it 
Don’t break it 

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real

Breathe in breathe out 
Breathe in breathe out 
My heart sinks in my chest 
I’m a fucked up mess 
My heart sinks in my chest 
I’m a fucked up mess 
Is this the bitter end 

The day you that you died 
Was the first time in years that I cried 
I fight it off don’t want to feel 
Tell myself this isn’t real

Bitter ends (prod. 52Blu)

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Ashes of our own

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