I love how the voice is approached in this mix!

Living on My Deathbed

All the best days of my life have passed me by
This messed up world still wants my best try 
Give a hundred percent
You gotta pay rent
Drag your ass to church on Sunday, repent

I’m trying
Why does it feel like I’m dying? 

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter,
I wear this shame like a scarlet letter
Painted on my head
Living on my deathbed

The doc gave one for pain and one for depression 
‘Cause I’ve never been good at cleaning up messes
And now, I’ve got bills
To pay for these pills
But I never get better, they’re making me ill

He’s lying
I still feel like I’m dying 

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter,
I wear this pain like a barbed wire sweater
Hanging by a thread
Living on my deathbed

I’m filled with holes like a pair of blue jeans
I patch one up then rip a new seam 
Then drive off course into the well
I swear rock bottom feels just like hell
So far down and there’s no way out
I claw the walls and I scream and shout
I curse at God and he yells right back
You’re gonna learn never talk to me like that

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter
Thought it couldn’t get worse but I should’ve known better 
Just like I said

I don’t want to live down here but baby I’m stranded 
These are the lousiest cards I’ve ever been handed
The rain pours down, the ground gets wetter
I wear this shame like a scarlet letter
Just like I said
I’m living on my deathbed 

Lyrics © 2025 Brooke Justus. All Rights Reserved.

Living on My Deathbed

Hard-hitting riffs and emotive melodies. Separation from Soul is a cathartic, reflective exploration of loss.

Separation from Soul

I'm used to making hyperpop music, but I started to get bored of making the same songs.
I'm a fan of 80s pop 90s r&b so I attempted to make a song with that vibe. 
That's how I came up with this song "dream of us".

It's my first attempt outside of my usual genres.
I hope you enjoy it.
if it gets good attention then I'll definitely put a lot of effort into making more songs like it. 🖤

dream of us

“Hits Like Thunder” blends nostalgic synths with modern heartbreak. Built on punchy drums, shimmering arps, and late-night vocals, it tells the story of love that won’t let go — even when the world moves on. midnight drives, and memories that hit harder than they should.

Hits Like Thunder

Gravedigger

Black Hole Halo

https://on.soundcloud.com/6mHje4Erd4ANDr8bki by Nova J @nova-j-49914957

MIDDLE AGE by NOVA J

[Vers 1]
Where’s the train, it’s rollin’
Oh, I missed my station
There’s my mind, controllin’
Low on inspiration

I’m not here to misbehave
I’ve got no more oats to sew
I’m damn near my middle age
You know how the story goes

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Vers 2]
Look around
Looks like I missed the memo
Starin’ down
It’s a long hard fall below

I’m too tired to keep on climbin’
But I’m too afraid to fall
I’ve worked hard for what is mine
And I’m so scared to lose it all

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Bridge]
I know I somehow made it halfway
But there’s so much I don’t know
I know how scared I feel on some days
Is there any room to grow?
I don’t know (ooooh)
I just don’t know (ooooh)
I don’t know

[Outro]
I’m not here to misbehave
You know how the story goes
I’m damn near my middle age
But I’m praying I can grow
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

ShAnkAri touch - ShAnkAri prod.
@shankari-touch

Nova J - MIDDLE AGE (ShAnkAri touch)

Whipped (Prod Flavour x yoquiet x klimax x krose)

New Mix & Master

Guitar Solo by the great Rob Kleiss, Cheers to you in la France!

The driver said: Keep your eyes on the road that you ride on, stay on
And don't be a fool to dream your time away
I'm thinking about time, is it more, is it less than six weeks
On the beach? Or forty boring cloudy windy days?

Oh, na na na nai

Yeah ooh, wo-o-wo-o
I work too hard in the morning. I get up at seven
I shut my shades. All day long I don't do a single thing
And I don't have much more than a dreamboat to sail away
Six strings and a song to sing

Solo

There's a beautiful girl in the hills of Wales and I love her, mm-mm
And I can't give her nothing but my love
The driver said: You'll be dead if you touch my sister, mister
I know damn well what you're thinking of

Oh, na na na nai
Ooh, woh woh woh, na na na nai

Oo-ooh
I work too hard, I work too hard in the morning. I get up at seven
All day long I don't do a single thing
The driver said: Keep your eyes on the road that you ride on, stay on
And don't be a fool to dream your time away

Celar Aged Wines

The Driver

Intermission

A sweet little tune based on the poem "The Perfect Woman" by William Wordsworth.

Lumina

I'm an artist, I do artistic things lol

𝔜𝔲𝔫𝔤𝔭𝔲𝔫𝔨𝔠𝔩𝔦𝔮𝔲𝔢

I'm also looking to collab and network with other artists. If you're interested then please don't hesitate to message me. 🤘🖤

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