its my 18th birthday today. 
made this in 5 hours after getting out of the icu a week ago

produced by me
guitar solo by me
recorded/mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go?
Bullet in lung?
Oh way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?
(Isn’t life wonderful!?)

And I hate to fall to the war with self,
Man control yo self
Always looking for something to be wrong even when there’s no goddamn problem at all 
“Oh keep pushing through brother, you might as well deal with the pain, you’ll just get stronger anyway, It’s gonna be okay”
Well sure, then fuck this game me and countless others playing, 
Well, why don’t you stitch me up crochet?
And I have all these scars to say things like how I got em, 
“How the fuck did you breathe?” 
Oh bro, I didn't bother
Breathing was venting and I never just let myself be fucking fostered
That’s why I struggled with the fucking mental doctor
Too stubborn for therapy and 
I’ve been the same weight for four years with a fear to eat, not supply. 
Weigh 125 (LBS)
And I might take some amphetamines just to give me a better reason to say that I need help, ugh

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go?
Bullet in lung?
Oh, way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?

“911, what’s your emergency?”
Agh, agh,
“Oh I feel like I’m gonna fucking hurt myself!”
“Calm down sir it’s gonna be okay,”
It’s gonna be okay!?
No it’s fucking not
Cops take me to the fucking ICU
Now I rot on top of a fucking hospital bed
While you just fucking living not knowing what I’ve almost done
And you wont know

You wont ever know
But why’d I make it this far to throw away all I sewed?
“Oh he was packed with talent”
Oh, but you don't get it though 
Being good at something comes with a malice-filled price 
You either give and you get and/or you give and you're met with the in-equal shares of bets you cant even make with yourself,
Cant wait to say fuck it and just off myself
Don't want attention but this a fucking cry for help

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go? 
Bullet in lung?
Oh way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?
(What have I done?)

ISNT LIFE WONDERFUL?!?
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
WHERE DO I GO?
I DON’T KNOW
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
HELP!
ISN’T-ISN’T LIFE-ISN’T LIFE WONDERFUL?!?

ICU, i see you

ICU, I See You

Official Soundtrack of Madness Interactive Reloaded:
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Madness Interactive Reloaded OST

Brake-Breaker

This is my final track of the year! ❤️
Thank you so much for all the incredible support you've shown my music.
I hope you enjoy this one, and here's to an amazing 2025
Let's make it our year!

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MIND CONTROL

mind is spittin like a mac
tweakin like i’m offa bath salts
beaucoup of the pack in my lungs
bitch i don’t know how to act
bleedin out my knuckles i got shit left to unpack

on an unnamed road
that’s where i lay, that’s where you’ll find my bones, ugh 
i took that medicine aint helpin with my soul
they told me it would make me better it just made me overdose

you know that you ain’t know shit bout me that’s cause i keep em distant
hated the way that the candy paint looked i switched the pigment
don’t even know if they feel me imagination i’m a figment 
two more tokes that i take sit down and question existence 

in the early morning, smokin before the sunlight 
i got skill, it don’t matter if i’m bladed at the gunfight
i’m reflecting, on my past, i ain’t done rigjt
sigyls etched in my back then i vanish in the night mothafucka

mind is spittin like a mac
tweakin like i’m offa bath salts
beaucoup of the pack in my lungs
bitch i don’t know how to act
bleedin out my knuckles i got shit left to unpack

mind is spittin like a mac
tweakin like i’m offa bath salts
beaucoup of the pack in my lungs
bitch i hope you’re never coming back
flickin out my blade it got him pissin in his slacks

iont care about my body, know i’m always on attack mode
every day i’m waking up and just tryna think how to stack more
finna burn you to the ground you ain’t nothing but some ash hoe
finna fuck you then forget you you ain’t nothing but some ass, hoe

my minds itching with the demons it turning to hells furnace
fill the night with all the light from all the bridges that i’m burning
put everyone up on my back know i don’t care how much it’s hurtin
spinal breaking from the weight and now the pain has got me squirmin uh

mind is spittin like a mac
tweakin like i’m offa bath salts
beaucoup of the pack in my lungs
bitch i don’t know how to act
bleedin out my knuckles i got shit left to unpack

FIERCE WAR (DYTENNA)

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