Lyrics:
maybe you could tell im sick and tired of losing everything
when you hit me up want me to smile but i could never be
happy in my brain i used to fight it now its killing me
winters coming soon i really hope that it dont get to me

think im always freezing but my brian just wont admit it
seek out every feeling in my soul so i could kill it
always feel too much like every day dont want to live it
you could take this gun and splat my brains and see my spirit

you dont understand im just so done
try to go away but i wont run
feeling all this the pain but i wont jump
say that i could stay but its no fun

whats the point to living if im feeling dead already
know my bed is just a coffin in my cemetary
and my brain is just a prison ill admit its scary
waking up knowing im breathing where im getting buried

im just tired of losing everything
like my mind, but the pain itll never leave
im just tired of losing everything
never happy so i guess it wasnt meant to be

fucking done, you can tell im getting lazy
fuck a check, yeah you might just call me crazy
fucking wreck, give a shit if you dont pay me
fucking dead, what im living on the daily

i gave up, so just stay out my business
leave me alone cause if not ill be livid
gave all i had but i fell short the minute,
i tried to reach out but then i hit my limit

Losing Everything

losing everything

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rotting self consciously (prod. caspr)

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i will never be a memory

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rnrn (prod 4evr x shini)

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with @kingtheta 

prod. @lilrodger

lyrics

theta:
4 in the morning, a menthol to the face
Exploring how I can get out of this place
Bounce out, I don't got no more time I can waste
With no warning, without even leaving a trace

Always wanna run away
Always being chased, cause,
the Devil's in the back of my brain
I'm sleepin through my day
Even though I'm awake, cause,
I'm stuck identifying with the pain

So no I'm not ok, but it's okay
No I'm not ok, but it's okay
No I'm not ok, but it's okay
But it's okay
But it's okay

kajvaek: 
if you run away now then you might escape
you thought i was the one but im just a disgrace
i dont wanna feel this way take two to the face
im holding onto nothing gotta leave this place
it was 4am smoking ciggarettes at your parents place

what a waste
what a shame
im used to that
and its not ok
its ok
im not ok
itll be ok
but im not ok
tell me sweet lies while i waste away

IM NOT OKAY

theta:

Always wanna run away
Always being chased, cause,
the Devil's in the back of my brain
I'm sleepin through my day
Even though I'm awake, cause,
I'm stuck identifying with the pain

So no I'm not ok, but it's okay
No I'm not ok, but it's okay
No I'm not ok, but it's okay
But it's okay
But it's okay

kajvaek & theta:

its ok, im sick of being chased
murder my shadow, why do i feel this way?
think im a demon, do you know the pain?
do i deserve this? should i run away?

im holding onto things from a past life
remember last night? i know its not right.
but im ok, how was your day?
... "i dont wanna say," .. "ok."


theta:

Always wanna run away
Always being chased, cause,
the Devil's in the back of my brain
I'm sleepin through my day
Even though I'm awake, cause,
I'm stuck identifying with the pain

But it's okay
But it's okay

king theta x jackvaek - im more awake in REM [p. rodger]

I <3 me way 2 much 💖 insta - jakkyboiii

shoulda called back shoulda called back shoulda but i didn’t and i coulda cuz i want u now i never wanna know yeah
now i never wanna know yeah woaaahhh

shoulda called back shoulda called back shoulda but i didn’t now ur gone in the back ya forget everything i told ya 
forget everything i told ya 
and don’t call back again

whoaaaaaaaaaaa
ya don’t call back like

ayye money coming in i told ya
paint my nails say i’m pretty and i want love
ya I don’t think i want her and i don't ya
i’ll admit it baby it’s just paranoia 

ayye now go do a line
put shit to the side now i’m dripping by 
hey I think u missed this time 
stab me in the back but i’m perfectly  fine

u and i in a little toy shop
buy all the dope old stuff we loved 
i don’t give a fuck i love me too much yee
i love me way too much

i’m getting high just to numb the pain
i don’t think i’m fine but I'm better that way
i don’t think i’m fine but I'm better that way
I think I'm over it 🤷‍♂️

shoulda called back but i didn't

i been off the drugs
for the whole night
pain it cuts me up
till the sunlight
i can't go to sleep
can't shut my eyes
fuck is wrong with me
feel so numb inside
what the fuck is wrong with me
i can't find my inner peace
i been lost all nineteen years
just fuck me up and let me bleed

yeah baby pour me up
i don't wanna feel anything no more
i just wanna lie down maybe smoke some weed in my room
let my demons in through the door
i know i'm a fuck up
i know i'm a waste
i know you don't ever wanna see my fucking face
and maybe it'll stay that way forever 
maybe imma drown in this rainy weather girl
keep my heart sitting beside your bed
let me in your dreams, let me in your head
you were my angel but lately you've been turning red
i've been feeling empty bout everything i'm alive but i'm still dead

wtf is wrong with me (prod. jakkyboi)

Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6hrUfX7wsi7bSUJNxVKbi4?si=OR6MWOowSsCWyHRlqECuGQ

Dear Dad why’d you have to go so soon
It feels like I never really got to know you
You lost track of ur life when your pops passed
Tryna drink away your problems through a shot glass 
I just hope that I don’t fall into the same path
I’ve had addictive personality since way back
It’s in our blood some times I really hate that
But we’re alike in other ways I wouldn’t change that 
You loved work you put that over everything
You even put it and liquor over a wedding ring
They say you never know what you had til' it’s gone
That’s why I’m writing you this song 
I've been stressing and second guessing decisions
Learning lessons and growing up gaining wisdom 
You’re out the picture this never was in my vision 
You helped me buy my equipment 
You shared my songs and you listened 
When I was younger heard arguing in the kitchen
Moving around a lot houses always switching 
As I got older began to see the addiction 
Mom tried stay to calm couldn’t stick with it
I don’t blame her but sometimes I blame myself 
Like there was someway or somehow I could of helped like damn 
Maybe if I called the ambulance a little faster 
We wouldn’t be in this disaster 
Instead of staring at the blood on the walls like it’s plaster
But I guess it doesn’t matter
Grandma’s crying in the arms of the pastor 
Not all stories get a happy ever after
Me and my brother stuck together that’s for life too 
Mama found new love met a nice dude
Things sucked but I always had to fight thru
How’s the weather in heaven hope it’s a nice view
Nowadays everything ain’t the same 
A lot of problems are bottled up in my brain 
I never thought that I would have to feel this way 
But I can’t help it I’m breaking down every day 
I don’t wanna get upset I don’t think I should regret 
Holding on to what is left hope ur happy looking down
I just wanna make u proud even tho ur not around 
I know you’ll always be there I know that you’ll always care
So I love you and I swear even though we weren’t prepared
Maybe this was meant to be this is what you meant to me
I won’t forget the memories 
I won’t forget the memories
Rest in peace yeah

wtf is wrong with me (prod. jakkyboi)

mike harding