Just noticed it's  Saviors guitar riff in the background. I see you're also a man of impeccable taste 💯

The instrumental in the background is from one of my favorite bands!! Fuck yeah dude 🔥

All of your music is so sad but in a happy way 🥲 just resonates y’know

prod. caps ctrl (https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997)
feat. kais (https://soundcloud.com/ripkais)

october:

dont tell me goodbye (x8)

just go away leave me alone
dont talk to me when youre stoned
no im not okay youre breaking my bones
and no i cant find a home
im lost in a maze i cry and decay
i get into bed and i die everyday
i get into bed and i cry everyday
i dont deserve the money i make
im a loser and im lazy on the highway 180
gonna swerve off cant save me 
all in hd 1080 say go away 
bitch make me idgaf if you hate me
if i were you i wouldnt date me
coz my head a mess it so crazy
its so crazy im broken
life shattered heart frozen
dont really know where im going
but im prolly gonna blow it
now i cant work and i cant eat
takes too long to go sleep
dont really think you ever loved me
gonna leave me gonna dump me
the first time i drank i was with you
havent talked in years now i miss you
i think my whole life an issue hit ctrl z edit undo
baby can you delete me see me in the grave on the tv
life is done now wont see me end of the game its gg

kais:

im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make u smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well
theres three words ill still tell you, even though we dont feel it cus we fell through
i dont even know who u are anymore 
fuck is you talkin bout
you think im fine when you not around 
who do you think I am tryin to change me like baby let go of my hand 
lookin back at all our memories 
tryna find the reason why you cant just let me breathe
girl you got me on my knees
i’ll never replace you
and i wouldnt think of it at all
and im gonna stay true
ill be there when you gonna fall
im really sorry I missed your call
got my back against your wall
i try my hardest give my all
im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make you smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well

i dont even know who you are anymore

dont tell me goodbye (feat. kais)

Lyrics:
maybe you could tell im sick and tired of losing everything
when you hit me up want me to smile but i could never be
happy in my brain i used to fight it now its killing me
winters coming soon i really hope that it dont get to me

think im always freezing but my brian just wont admit it
seek out every feeling in my soul so i could kill it
always feel too much like every day dont want to live it
you could take this gun and splat my brains and see my spirit

you dont understand im just so done
try to go away but i wont run
feeling all this the pain but i wont jump
say that i could stay but its no fun

whats the point to living if im feeling dead already
know my bed is just a coffin in my cemetary
and my brain is just a prison ill admit its scary
waking up knowing im breathing where im getting buried

im just tired of losing everything
like my mind, but the pain itll never leave
im just tired of losing everything
never happy so i guess it wasnt meant to be

fucking done, you can tell im getting lazy
fuck a check, yeah you might just call me crazy
fucking wreck, give a shit if you dont pay me
fucking dead, what im living on the daily

i gave up, so just stay out my business
leave me alone cause if not ill be livid
gave all i had but i fell short the minute,
i tried to reach out but then i hit my limit

Losing Everything

losing everything

99violet - reflections freestyle (@youngtaylor)

<3
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head 
Roses all over your bed 
I know I wasn't the best 
I heard the words that you said 
They try to play with my head
Youll wish that I wasn't dead 


cant sleep with the lights off 
cant sleep with the lights off anymore 

Prod - Brady Amour 
Art -Brady Amour




hit up @scottysplash for mixing

I cant sleep with the lights off anymore

when the moonlight hits, i don't wanna sleep without a goodnight kiss

my very first time singing on a song, with the help of one of my best friends thebreathingbackwards (@stationsix)

i hope you all enjoy 🖤

LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/23Fnem8w7IejrKmYfNbi0b?si=PkMHSCarRHCzCoRy0gqp9g

bad for you (ft. thebreathingbackwards)

"You can never be there for me like you did :(" - van

Demxntia: @demxntia
Mix/Master: @polearm
Prod by: @deadyami
Artwork: @Ihateshota (on twitter)

My Spotify playlist: https://tinyurl.com/yx9xprau

"Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)”

Lyrics-

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
Nobody ain’t even help 
I’m fighting this on my own
Don’t need anybody els 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Verse-
I doubt you would even care
If I came to you with my heart in my hand
You’d let me wait outside in the pouring rain
I want to feel loved, but it’s always the same 

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Demxntia/ 
it’s just me and myself in the end
even if i told u u won’t understand
don’t wanna burden my friends
don’t wanna hurt u again
never said i was heaven sent
everyone needs me for something
get what they want like it’s nothing 
can’t get a second to myself
lemme be myself for a second

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Is Anyone Even There?

Other Platforms <3

Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)

[+] wrist cut to the artery yea it hurts so bad when you lie to me
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
cut you off like an artery
got a bad lil hoe in my army
and i could really see what you are
look inside your eyes and your heart
i can really do that
im kind of crazy
i just wonder now how the fuck you goin save me
but you not this
and you not that
so lets not label shit
and i’ll put you on the map

im a fucking pyro
burnout on my chest ima pyscho
i could cut you off like coldest winter night yo
i’d just leave you there in the past
focused on my bag
and its goin up fast
remember when u told me that id never be shit
now you check my page all you gonna see is hits
i be with my gang and i know theyll never switch
its burnout xo and we blowin up this bitch

[hook: seejayxo]
i gotta cut you off like an artery
i got a bad lil hoe, she my barbie
i gotta tell you now, i'm fucked up
baby i don't feel nothing i been stuck

[verse 2: skele]
wrist cut to the artery 
yea hurts so bad when you lie to me
i'm not even close to who i wanna be
yea you could leave it's hard to see
i know, i'm not really okay
nails painted black its a pretty heartbreak
and you don't really miss me just another mistake
i'm so cold going down in the flames

(seejayxo + skele)
wrist cut to the artery 
yea hurts so bad when you lie to me
i'm not even close to who i wanna be
yea you could leave it's hard to see
i know, i'm not really okay
nails painted black its a pretty heartbreak
and you don't really miss me just another mistake
i'm so cold going down in the flames

artery (feat. lil skele)

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artery (feat. skele)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

follow boyfifty

useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

if all my songs were polaroids, id burn the ones i wrote for you

produced by @nothingnowheremusic 
it all comes full circle

[LYRIC VIDEO]

bleeding (p. nothing,nowhere.)

ft. @emofruits
prod. @seantseant

MIDNIGHT, STREET LIGHTS

Lyrics:
Midnight
Street lights
Baby your the shadow in my life

Feels like
We died
It might just be a thought inside my mind

It feels like theres just something i cant find
Im goin to the city of stars tonight
I have ghosts that haunt me in the night
Speaking to me under the moonlight

World of darkness
Creatures and monsters 
Feeling so heartless
Everythings so hard now

I need to find a way outside this town
Before i drown 
Before i let you all down again 

Oh my friend 
Is this the end
Is this the end of everything ive ever known
Can you stay i dont want to be alone

Frvr X Emo Fruits - City of Stars [Prod. Sean T]

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

losing everything

HKFIFTYONE

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