A song I wrote in heartbreak (spring, 24).

Lyrics:

Purple bloom skies with a grey-blue haze
Coke and trepidations stain my brain
Mint chip gum stick to chew on regret
No words in my end
I stay empty singing

If you really loved me why would you always lie
If you were there for me why did you leave every time

I don't need you, I needed a friend
You'll get the drinks in then I'll play pretend
Like I don't feel like dying
Feel like crying in your arms again
You pathetic liar
I moved out yet you live in my ruminations

Always disguised in a red eyed shame
Don't you have her body in my bed laced in vain
Burn the board games like you really mean it
I know you're high again so I'll stay empty singing

If you really loved me why would you always lie
If you were there for me why did you leave every time

I don't need you, I needed a friend
You'll get the drinks in then I'll play pretend
Like I don't feel like dying
Feel like crying in your arms again
You pathetic liar
I moved out yet you live in my ruminations

Every night
Every time
You are on my mind
And I don't need it

Cover Credit: DİVİSİON (2022) Painting by Burcu Panahi

Ruminations

I Don't Mind (Preview)

an alternate version of my first single "Lana" recorded while lost in love (21).

V1:
Rosewood fallen dust, lines your lips
Cinnamon cigar, you lied to me
I could say I only loved you in the morning
But I still do, I still do… 

PC:
With that 60s smile and gucci perfume 

CH:
I’d fall for you all over again
Even though I know my heart will be broken
How don’t I know our bodies will never mend
I’m loving you but all you can do is write a song about them
How do I become someone you love
Lana

V2:
Eyes of solemn stars, align your glimpse
Lickerish simper, you lure me in 
I could say I only loved you in Los Angeles
But I still do, I still do… 

PC:
With that 60s smile and gucci perfume 

CH:
I’d fall for you all over again
Even though I know my heart will be broken
How don’t I know our bodies will never mend
I’m loving you but all you can do is write a song about them
How do I become someone you love…

BR:
Who you’d read your poetry to
Under the sun in July
Why don’t I make you cry

CHORUS

Lana (Lost In Love Version)

A place for my raw cuts. I know how it feels.

Ruminations

MIRATISE

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