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Dark Trap, Metal, the track is very heavy, with topics of suicide and not knowing what to do and how to better myself instead of that I’d rather destroy myself and erase any trace of me.

NIGHTMARES [Prod. NetuH

DEATHWISH 

Lyrics:

Man it’s all fucked
Fuck this misery 
I tried to drown it with love
But that made me turn to drugs
Magic touch 
Serpentine 
Filled with lust 
Medusa turn me to stone
I am alone
Chrome in my mouth 
Blast through my dome
Blast through my DOME

Devil wishing me luck with love 
But I wanna go back
Never thought about it
Left it all in the past 
Never wanted to die
But I guess I’ll turn to ash

Yeah my fate is sealed
My date decided 
Here I am confiding 
In a pew 
Pleading screaming 
What can I do
Repent for what 
My soul left
with the Devil too

I was always reject
Even gave them respect 
Earned 13 reasons 
But I could never die
Wanna multiply 
But scared of my bloodline
Use the sun to burn my eyes
Masochist of the family
Love to hurt myself 
Even when they can see
Prying eyes be watching me

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself
(With myself)

People be afraid of me
I guess that’s what I get 
For looking like a young Charles 
I can’t handle it 
Still fathom it
How can I live with myself
23 years
I’m in still down in hell
Metaphoric Shit 
I kept it on a shelf
Hanging by a wire 
Cutting my hand 
Wondering where the fuck is neverland
If I fall I will never land
Only fall until I create another abyss 
Man it’s all fucked 
Wanna scream 
But no one can help
Knowing this shit
I should die 
Make it a closed casket
Cause ima cut my face 
Hate myself so much 
Id love to make the others cry

DEATHWISH

Druglove

Rotten/Rotting

May 28th 2024

@Malxcxous_Smxle

[Prod. DESYED]

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Rotten/Rotting [Prod. DESYED]

Lyrics: 

Sitting here in fear of myself
Thinking back I can’t deal with my health
I been dying for a long time
I Can’t remember when I smiled 
Where’s the sunshine

Been feeling sick lately
I quit the drugs 
But I want them to save me 
I’m running out of ways to end the pain 
I know it’s temporary 
But it’s better than to escape 
Permanently
That feeling alone 
Is eating at me 
Hurting me 
When I’m alone 
By myself 
No one to call for help 
Kicking back thinking who the fuck can help
Stuck in a trance staring at the ceiling 
Waiting for a way to advance 
MOVE FORWARD 

But I keep looking back
All the smoke around me 
Make me wanna relapse 
Fall back into habits 
Ruin my life 
Yeah I might crashhhhhh out 
Go from doing small time drugs 
To getting promoted now 
I’m moving up
Along the way meet H 
Put her in my arm 
Maybe fuckin escape
Pain is un-wavered  
I’m Sinking deeper 
No taper
I don’t wanna save myself
And I ain’t weaning off 
I’m going head first 
No bitch you can’t save me 
from myself 
I know I can’t backtrack 
from the road to hell
I can’t even stick around 
long enough 
To start feeling well again
I can’t fucking understand 
It’s like I’ve been fated from the beginning 
To fast track to the end 
Now It’s all I think about 
And I know myself too well
But this time there’s no way out
Only one path to walk 
And I gotta move forward
Maybe it’ll get better 
But I fuckin Doubt it 
But I don’t wanna be 
stuck in my head 
Any longer 
No more 
No more

Relapse

🔥💀🔥

Lyrics:

It seems like every fear 
I have becomes personified 
I bring my demons to life 
Manifesting shit I never want 
With ease
Still doing as I please 
But I’m on my knees 
Begging and pleading 
Still searching for another reason
Waiting for the last straw
Knowing that will 
Be the one thing 
To make me end it all
Been waiting for a while 
Yet all I can do is smile
That’s why I’m malicious 
And I can claim that 
for a while I was happy
Seeing all the bridges built 
Just to see em all collapsing 
Seeing everything crumble 
around me
Wonder if I should’ve 
Stopped the world 
I see my destination 
Got failure all around me 
Nothing but sorrow and grief 
surrounds me
But to release some pain
Anger fueled 
I’m rowdy 
Looking for my 13th reason
Writing this song 
Like it’s the finale of the season
Waiting for every bit of treason 
Seeing the snakes around me 
Recognizing everything 
It seems so profound 
Yet always simplistic 
Bitches call me sadistic 
But I say I’m Malxcxous
That’s why I named myself 
This shit 
Take me deeper into the mist 
Drown me in the depths of every pit
Bitch

Spawn

Welcome to the bonus section of the album.. 10th song

Made after the tracks were all set. Kind of cool right?

Lyrics:

Say I’m being vague 
But I think I’ve been precise
Paying for whatever I could 
no matter the price
Still in this life 
So I’ll continue to roll the dice
Don’t care about my luck
Could be number one 
Could be never comes
Trust me if it’s done 
I’ll say it a few times 
But if it comes to it 
I’ll never think twice
I gave too many chances 
To too many people
Now they mad cause 
Cause I’m so happy I’m prancing
Used to be in love with dancing
Closed me into a shell 
now it’s time for enhancements 
See me glow the fuck up
See me flaunt aka stunt
Never been so confident 
But trauma made me gain that 
Now I’m looking for a way to spread it 
I’m infectious 
Feeling good about my flexing 
Stopped with the texting 
no I ain’t been vetted 
Trust on your projections 
These snakes be overzealous 
Cutting off their heads 
They must need some reflection 
I been thinking a lot 
About my problems 
There may be too many
To solve ya
But I’m proceeding 
Every day with caution
With caution

I been that man regardless 
I been that man regardless

I swear my smile be like Dexter 
My eyes been on kawaii mode
Bitch romanticize me 
Make me feel like an idol 

Running through my mind 
Rent free that shit is wild 
Hall nah run me that dough
You living without paying hoe 

Hell no
Bitch you broke
And I ain’t a fucking joke
I’m coming out 
and I want all the smoke
Motherfuckers wanna talk to me 
Real cold
Real cold
Talk in code
Give a fuck bitch I’m like sub zero
I’m ice cold
Give a fuck No
See me in the fuckin back and I’m gone hoe
I’m in the darkness 
I’m in the darkness
I’m in the darkness
Real goth boy
Real goth

I’m So Vague(haha)

11th Track as well as the final for the album.

This one is my favorite💜

{P.S. I’ve already started working on a new album and it’s way different from what you normally would expect.. stay ready, be waiting.}

Lyrics:

I’m saying fuck it
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it

Fuck it all 
I been tryna put a cease and desist to my feelings 
Think daily about the art 
I could create on the ceiling 
I feel like I’m bleeding constantly on the inside
I been tryna burn my ties
I got this slow burning candle 
And it’s consuming all of your lies
I had a big heart 
But I think you have destroyed it 
I’m either tired of feeling 
Or sitting in the void and
Feeling avoided
Must destroy myself 
It’s the only way out to this hell 
Fuck everything 
Let me just decay
I gotta let go 
completely 
to really let go 
If ya know what I mean…

It ain’t just a fuckin dream
Because I live through it all daily 
Stuck in reality 
Couple bottles may save me
Or they may increase my problems 
Only one way to solve em..
Order more bottles
Order more bottles
Order more bottles

Fuck It/Order More Bottles

Glitchcore Baby💜

Lyrics:

It all makes sense now
Put a filter over my eyes
Let me be obsessed wow
Pure beauty baby
I got hearts up in my eyes
Pink and blue sky 
Cotton candy dreams 
Come and see me 
tonight when I dream

I’m trying to get over you
But every time I see you 
I fall back into the same old trance
It’s like I’m skydiving in my heart 
But I can’t land 
I know how I’m going to suffer 
when I see the end

Tell me it isn’t fucking true
I don’t think in this lifetime 
I’ll ever get over you
Even if only get one text
Makes My heart go a flutter 
Butterflies in my body 
Make my mind wonder off

I think I’m stuck in this
Love paradise
I can’t even see you tonight 
Maybe it’s paralysis 
Babe I must be dreaming 
Every thought of you 
Got my mind screaming 

Why oh why
Can’t I make up my mind 
Why oh why 
Am I wasting my time
Why oh why
Am I still in love 
It’s been so much shit 
But I’m praying to the heavens above

Maybe I’m naive 
Maybe I’m feeling nothing 
Maybe it’s a lie 
And maybe I’m made for no one
Maybe it’s a lie 
And I’m made for no one

My Heart (Is Broken)

More Glitchcore!!! 💜

Lyrics:

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart
I know you see the hurt in my eyes 
I’m kind of waiting for someone to save my life
I don’t know where I’m going now
Thinking bout putting myself down

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
If the worst thing happens 
Please just don’t hate me
Don’t hate me

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart

I’m low key falling apart 
Low key falling 

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
Tell me it’ll be okay

Fading

Lyrics: 

You said you’d stay with me forever
Now I’m dying in my mental chamber
Got a bullet in the chamber yea
Reload it now my times up

I’m bout to stop the clock (now)
106 hours till I drop (wow)
People tryna tell me that I should get better 
But I can’t help myself no more (no)

I been tryna do it right
But I can’t sleep at fucking night
And I’m just tryna stay strong 
Even if it’s just for a night

I’ve been classified 
I’ve been locked away
I’ve been tryna hide (yea)

I’ve been classified 
I’ve been locked away
I’ve been tryna hide

I’m just tryna do what I need to 
But I’m swimming in the fuckin deep blue 
Ocean
Drowning by myself 

No one around me
No one to talk to 
So I send myself to hell
Not even I can save myself

Nothing at all yeah 
I take this pain and
Evolve myself
Into a demon

Now no ones scheming 
But ima still plummet 
Feast with all the demons
Look at me 

I’m screaming 
I’m burning alive 
and now I’m 
Dead 
barely alive 

Hanging on by a thread 
I think reaching the end now

Might just close my eyes (yea)

Staying classified 

Eternal Suicide

Classified [Prod. Goth Helma]

Lyrics:

Bitch I caught a cold case
Skating through my membrane 
Going insane 
Psycho

Been saying that I might blow
My motherfucking head off
Skating on a razor blade 
Down my fucking arm

I’m idolizing suicide
Cause I don’t give a fuck
Got a penthouse in my mind
Full of fucking murder

Blades & guns everything 
That could put a hole through ya
I’m loving every minute of it
Approching suicide 

Eternal bliss for myself 
Even if it costs my life

Drinking till I fall
Smoking till I can’t feel
Killing cells up in my body 
Tryna make me real 

Once again 
God would say 
all these things are sins
But I lost my will to care 
Like I lost my will to live

Cold Case

Lyrics:

Genesis to exodus 
Ice I swear it flood my wrist
Bullets raining from my clips 
Mag be loaded like a spliff 
Don't care to cuff a bitch
I been through too much shit
Tell you how my head feel 
Baby it been fucking empty
Ever since you fucking left me
I been dying but please don't tempt me
Got the trigger finger itching 
Demons they be scheming 
Tryna catch me lacking 
But I'm stuck in the 5th dimension 
Electromagnetism 
Gravity kept me fucking stuck
Love you but it hurts so much 
Lose myself without your love 
Babe you don't deserve my heart
Darkness surrounding my songs
Baby I got Stockholm syndrome 
Kept me locked up in my mental 
Dreams of Bullets through the temple 
Sorrow spreading from plain to plain
Sorting through files of all my pain 
Wonder how I stayed sane
Depression grabbing hold of me 
Through away the lock and key
Feeling like a desk jockey
Isolate and never sleep
Addicts wanna be like me 
I been lacking empathy 
Swear these drugs be helping me 
Alcohol my only drink
Tears be streaming down my cheeks 
You won't ever see this side of me 
I'm broken down 
A hellish fiend 
Hide away 
From my feelings 
never release
Never release 
Demons in me
I could give a fuck 
If these bitches really want me for me
I could give a fuck
Cause I've seen everything so clearly
Hoe's be scheming 
I'm still gleaming 
Shiner brighter than a star
Spitting too much fire 
You'll need an extinguisher 
Gave my heart away 
Then got it back broken 
Found the pieces frozen 
Coming back smoking 
Numb to all the pain 
Feel insane 
Too much in my brain 
Eyes cold 
Can't see anything 
Yeah I'm lost 
I'm psycho mane
I lost my soul 
Contracted it
Regain myself 
Despite that shit 
Dead inside 
No spitefulness
Abhorrent 
Miserable 
Mentally 
Concave
Don't 
Remember 
Anything 
Can't 
Ever 
Concentrate

Taking Back Control

Lyrics:

Nightmares on the inside
Crazy while I get high
Suicide what I idolize 
Hear that click revitalize
——
Disappointing everyone 
Can’t even control my vices
Cause some fuckin damage 
Now I’m ruining all the prizes 
(Now I’m ruining all the prizes)
——
Call Malxcxous if you want a killer
Smxle while he do it 
He love the thrill (yeah)
Low profile like a ninja 
Silent blood spilla
Psychopathic hunter 
On the prowl 
See the cases raining down
Bullets hot 
Just like my sound 
——
Born and bred then caged
Feelings out of place
Anger from mistakes
Positive thoughts and feelings 
Still floating in space
They still saying that it’s staged 
Swear it’s not fake 
Barely come out of hiding 
I’m so busy deteriorating 
I can’t even feel my high yea
(I can’t even feel my high yea)
I can’t- I can’t- feel my- high 
——
[BEAT SWITCH UP]
——
(Wah wah)
(Let’s go)
(Wah wah)
(Malxcxous)
(Wah)
(YEAAAAA)
(That boy he bout to SMXLE!!!)
——
I’m fucking coming out my mind 
Check the weapon twice 
Enjoy failure like another fucking vice
Love to play until I’m bloody
Open up the flood gates of hell
Let my evil spirits take over 
Demonic when I’m out of hiding 
Forever slicing 
Malxcxous became a killer 
Enjoy the SCARSSSS
——
(VOCAL FRY)
——
Body parts 
All around 
Cells & amoebas
Rushing for the life force 
Of the bodies on the ground 
Draining from the dead
Feelings fading 
 I’m seeing red
“Malxcxous intent”
Murderous events
——
[BEAT SPED UP]
——
Tried to be soft 
But they begging for the dark shit
Love to embrace my anger
While I go hard bitch
Never fix a fucking thing
Forever stay deranged
Unhinged please don’t pray
——
It’s a waste anyway
I’m fucking immortal 
My voice will never leave 
Voices inside they telling me 
Who’s next on the blood streak
(Ughhhhhhh)
——
(VOCAL FRY) 
——
Malxcxous suicidal 
He got no fucking idols
Forever hold the rifle 
DEFCON locking up his heart
Never be hurt again 
Lost all fucking sparks
Walls surrounding 
King of the Hill 
On my life
Like it’s a fucking bounty

NIGHTMARES 2

Lyrics:

Killa from the CV 
Keep this shit on repeat
Idolizing suicide 
Drugs I’m tryna reach 
Killa from the south side
No matter what I let it ride
Even if the sun go down
I’m still finna shine
——
Diamond boy
Heart breaker
Love attraction 
Tree shaker 
Daily sippin 
Whatchu think 
Drugs combative 
Don’t feel pain
——
I’m still the same kid 
Who want a noose
Still here grippin iron 
Chrome when I’m feeling fancy
Blood what I desire
Blood trickle 
Till it make a stream
Mouthy bitch 
We know what you mean
Bodies in the trunk
Hit ‘em with a beam
Digging holes 
6 feet deep 
Closed mouth 
Withered dreams
Figments of thoughts and feelings
Evaporate tears 
Just to Smile
Young boy he grab that rifle
Putting it straight to his head
Fire off a couple shots 
Turn everything around red (red) (red)
——
Fuck the cops 
Fuck the opposition 
Bitch I’m in position 
Took a kill shot 
Did I leave a witness?
Know they out here spilling 
Too much going on for me 
To even fucking care
No matter 
Let the brain matter slide down the wall
Yeah you know how high I am 
Fuck it man we ball
Crucifix on my chest
Yea you better believe it
Razor blade hang off my neck
Looks can be deceiving 
Pistol on my hip
Rifle on my back
Someone let the dog out 
Cause I’m constantly on attack 
Ripping joy from the angels 
When they see my heart
Taking pride from the demons 
Cause I go too hard
——
King of the hill
Turned to
Killer of the season
Bitch I’m steady steezin’
Look at me glow 
Pulled up with gold and diamonds 
Just to let you fuckers know
I ain’t here for nothing 
Even if I come from nothing 
Ima make it in to something 
Have the whole fucking crowd jumping
——
(Yea yea yea)
——
I could give a fuck 
where you keep it tucked 
Talk about it 
know your limits bruh
I’m adaptive to anything 
Turned off the limiter
——
(Yea yea yea)
——
Bitch I’m flying high 
Like a rocket 
Silk in my step 
Moonwalkin’ 
out the cockpit 
Thoughts drippin’ gold 
Alchemy in the socket
Smoke rising 
all my past sins 
start to mock it
Eye in the flame 
see the pain and I can’t stop it
Holding the world in my hands
Used to pray for a chance 
Now I’m down to nothing 
Used to have it all
now I’m stuck with my mind 
Rumbling
——
(Rumbling yea)

I’m The Dissident Voice

Lyrics:

Mr. nicotine
Liquor fiend
Soul searching 
Behind the scenes
Tryna find the light 
Where the silence leans
Shadows speakin’ loud 
In my daily routine
Mind playin’ chess
Every thought a guillotine
Watch me burn 
In the gasoline
Fire activate me 
Like demonic fiends 
Spit infernos daily
I’m burnin’ through your dreams
Smoke in your reality
nothing’s what it seems
No
Nothing’s what it seems
No
——
Hell’s my playground
chaos in my laughs
Darkness in my veins
light flickers past
Gravitate to fire
but I’m born from the ash
Eyes on the throne
but I’m destined to crash
Riding the storm
but I’m tethered to wrath
See I’ve been riding the wave 
For a fucking while
Dreams been falling hard 
So still I run that trial
Hoping for a mental win
but I’m still stuck in the wild 
Bitch I’ll never win no
NO
NO-NO-NO
——-
(Ad-lib {Conversation})
——
{Malxcxous}
I AIN’T FUCKING DONE
——
Been hiding behind my past
If I let go of the masquerade 
I might as well crash 
Bitch I’m pulling guns and knives 
Got ’em paralyzed
every move’s a twisted design
Of my mental arbiter vice
My Heart be cold as ice
but I’m burnin’ through the sky
Feelin’ like a legend
watch me rise and never die
Always advertise 
My fucking mental health
One day it’s hey look I’m alive 
Then the next it’s always farewell 
Fighting demons inside 
but they ain’t never left me well 
No
Let me out of my cage tonight 
Actually let’s make it a cell
You don’t ever wanna cross me..
Why? 
You’ll find out in hell… Woah

Infernal Entity

Lyrics:

Fuck I’m drawing blanks
My mind is quiet 
Someone plotting 
For my demise yea
—
Paranoia 
creepin’ silent like a virus in the wires
Voices in the static 
whispers of death behind the tires
Pressure in my chest
I feel the flame before the fire
I’m built for war
So they can try
But they’ll fuckin’ expire
I’m the storm
They can’t outrun
Said I do this shit 
For fun 
I’m laughing and experimenting
Didn’t I say I love to play in blood
Testin’ my limits
never stoppin’ 
Until I’m drenched in mud
I’m playin’ with fire
burning the bridges
leaving em fucking stuck
I’m carving my name into the ashes
no redemption
just blood
I’m the nightmare in their dreams
Got the reaper under my thumb
They pray for mercy
But they don’t know where I’m from
——
VOCAL FRY
——
I run with extensions on my guns 
No need to reload 
Clip full of energy
watch how it explode
Keep it on repeat
I let the ammo flow
Shots hit like thunder
Better watch the ground below
Movin’ like a shadow 
but you know I’m never slow
Eyes all on me
but I’m quick to lay low
Silent with the moves
but my actions always show
I knew they wasn’t ready 
For this new Malxcxous flow
I spit infernal flames
But all my drip has conjured snow
Frozen in the game
but my soul’s burning with fire
Been stuck in the mold 
But I’ve broke free
Now I’m climbing higher

Demonic Steppa

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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