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Ashes for Dreams

Ten hours and counting 
Till I see your sweet face
But will I feel your embrace?
Does the break mean we’re broken 
With no hope of repair 
Will anger linger in the air?

Have we gone too far
To find a way back?
We can’t change the past 
But the future’s for the taking if we ask 

Is the pill too bitter 
Is the truth too hard to hear?
I owe you honesty
I want you badly
I’ll love you to the end 
But I won’t lie I won’t pretend 

Have we gone too far
To find a way back?
We can’t change the past 
But the future’s for the taking if we ask 

Eyes on the prize 
What do you want from me
Take me as I am
I’m yours tonight 

Have we gone too far
To find a way back?
We can’t change the past 
But the future’s for the taking if we ask

Gone Too Far

You’re drowning
Heart’s pounding
Fear’s mounting
Pushed, you will fall
Fate sent me
Step gently
I’ll extend a hand for you to hold

Today’s the day for a leap of faith 
I’ll catch your fall
Don’t be afraid to break the chains
Don’t be afraid at all

The past haunts you
Fear taunts you
Life’s cost a price
That you can’t pay
Put one chip then two down when
You find the right game to play

Today’s the day for a leap of faith 
I’ll catch your fall
Don’t be afraid to break the chains
Don’t be afraid at all

The suitcase in the hall
A life not lived at all
Open up that door
Let your life unfold

Today’s the day for a leap of faith 
I’ll catch your fall
Don’t be afraid to break the chains
Don’t be afraid at all

Break The Chains

What are you thinking when you go cold?
You say it’s not me but that story is getting old
What do you feel?
You’re looking in my direction but not at me

When your eyes glaze over
What do you see?
Your lips are moving
But your words I cannot hear

Lean on me
Let me be what you need
To protect you from what you fear
Let me in
Let me under your skin
So that I can begin to be
Be what you need

Where do you go when you’re not with me?
You tell me that you need your space to be free
Does it work?
Whatever you do does it kill what you’re frightened of?

Your calm demeanour doesn’t
Tell me too much
But your pulse is racing
And your skin’s hot to the touch

Lean on me
Let me be what you need
To protect you from what you fear
Let me in
Let me under your skin
So that I can begin to be
Be what you need

The demons surrounding you
Your thoughts compounding
The threats that you hear
In the wind and the sea
As you walk to forget
As if I’d ever let you
Ignore all the help
Waiting for you

Lean on me
Let me be what you need
To protect you from what you fear
Let me in
Let me under your skin
So that I can begin to be
Be what you need

Let Me In

Temptation is out of reach 
I can’t describe it and I don’t know how it feels
But something’s missing 
I feel it in my gut 

Expectations are misaligned 
I fear we’ve got it wrong 
Though we tried so hard to get it right 
Perhaps I simply want too much 
You give me everything I need 
But it’s never quite enough 

Do I throw it all away 
For something I can’t define?
Or do I hold on tight to the life we've built
For fear I’ll never find what I’m looking for?
Do I throw it all away?

Temptation, a planted seed
Dreams I never knew I had
Of a life that I don’t lead 
Fantasies I’ve hidden from you 
Secrets I can never share
And I don’t know what to do 

Should I throw it all away 
For something I can’t define?
Or do I hold on tight to the life we've built
For fear I’ll never find what I’m looking for?
Do I throw it all away?

The answer is quite clear
I’m just too scared to face 
What’s staring at me

Do I throw it all away 
For something I can’t define?
Or do I hold on tight to the life we've built
For fear I’ll never find what I’m looking for?
Do I throw it all away?

Perfection... out of reach

Throw It All Away

I don’t want you to go
I want you to stay
But I can’t let you know
That I’m so afraid

I know that you think
It’s a casual affair
And that love has no place
In the game that we play

You’re the reason I breathe
You’re the push and the pull in my days
And I know that I shouldn’t need 
You to lead the way
But I need you, I need you to be there
So I can breathe

I fear if I show
That my love hasn’t waned
But instead it has grown
That I’ll scare you away

You’re the reason I breathe
You’re the push and the pull in my days
And I know that I shouldn’t need 
You to lead the way
But I need you, I need you to be there
So I can breathe

A chance I take 
A choice I made
To feel but hide the fear inside
To go so far 
And then retreat
To show the the want, conceal the need

You’re the reason I breathe
You’re the push and the pull in my days
And I know that I shouldn’t need 
You to lead the way
But I need you, I need you to be there
Do you need me to need you to be there?
So I can breathe

The Reason I Breathe

It’ll take time, maybe it should 
I’d own your pain if I could
You’d do the same I know you would
There’s no right way to feel the hurt 
You’ll find your path, you’re not the first 
To think it’s something you deserve 

Give yourself a break
Let me give while you take, darlin' please

Lower your shoulders 
I meant what I told you 
Just let me hold you 
And sweep all your demons away 
I’m brave and I’m bold
And your life will unfold 
If you trust me to hold you 
And sweep all your demons away 

I saw you standing to the side 
Like you had something to hide 
And I was mesmerised 
I’m not sure why I’m drawn to you 
You seem so closed, but open too 
It’s in your eyes I see your truth 

Let your feelings out 
In a whisper or a shout, darlin' please

Lower your shoulders 
I meant what I told you 
Just let me hold you 
And sweep all your demons away 
I’m brave and I’m bold
And your life will unfold 
If you trust me to hold you 
And sweep all your demons away 

There’s no healing without feeling 
However pleasing to box away the pain 
Escape takes many shapes
But when you return the loss remains 

Lower your shoulders 
I meant what I told you 
Just let me hold you 
And sweep all your demons away 
I’m brave and I’m bold
And your life will unfold 
If you trust me to hold you 
And sweep all your demons away

Lower Your Shoulders

For Jane: "Only the brave feel fear".

I want you to save me
It’s a choice that I made, dear
Don’t push me away
I know you’re afraid 
But only the brave feel fear

I want you to see me
So look in my eyes, dear
With the trust that you’ll find 
You’ll make up your mind 
Please be brave for me 

The pictures of what you’ve lost 
Fill your dreams when you close your eyes
The answer is never behind you 
The past will find you reasons to hide

So how do you feel
Trapped or free, dear? 
The time has come to stay or run 
So please run to me 

And I’ll be waiting here
As long as it takes, my dear
There’s nobody else 
To take your place 
I believe in you and me

The pictures of what you’ve lost 
Fill your dreams when you close your eyes
The answer is never behind you 
The past will find you reasons to hide

The deeper the love
The greater the pain 
And the fear of the loss 
Overshadows the gain 
So don’t let the past 
Mean that you’ll never love again

The pictures of what you’ve lost 
Fill your dreams when you close your eyes
The answer is never behind you 
The past will find you reasons to hide

Fear

So disappointed
I wanted so much more
So disjointed
As I sink down to the floor
I’m reeling, I thought you were the one
But I see now, what's over hadn't ever begun

Such confusion
You said you'd be there till the end
But you used me and now you want to be my friend
I’m reeling - I don’t understand you
But I see now, you’re not the person
I thought I knew

I feel the heat but I don’t see the flame
The beat is new, but the dance is the same
Your lips are moving
But you don’t say my name
I see you
But I don’t even make your frame

Just an illusion
So strong that I believed
Feeling bruised now
Maligned and deceived
I'm reeling, I thought you’d set me free
But I see now, you made a promise you could never keep

I feel the heat but I don’t see the flame
The beat is new, but the dance is the same
Your lips are moving
But you don’t say my name
I see you
But I don’t even make your frame

Time to realise
I’ve been telling myself lies
I still want you
But moving on’s the only thing to do

I feel the heat but I don’t see the flame
The beat is new, but the dance is the same
Your lips are moving
But you don’t say my name
I see you
But I don’t even make your frame

Feel The Heat

You remember somersaults
I remember falling
She remembers nothing
It felt like only days to you and years to me
And she remembers nothing

You remember finding me
A path I couldn't see
She remembers nothing
You were my voice
When I needed it most
And she remembers nothing

Every day you pray you'll find your way
As the end comes closer
I close my eyes in sweet denial
Don't think and it'll be over
You squeeze my hand to try and make me understand
This time, I'll hold her

You remember picking names
I wouldn't dare, I was too scared
And she remembers nothing
You felt excitement and joy
I blocked it all
And she remembers nothing

Every day you pray you'll find your way
As the end comes closer
I close my eyes in sweet denial
Don't think and it'll be over
You squeeze my hand to try and make me understand
This time, I'll hold her

Every stand taken was for her
Every wish granted
Every waking thought was of her
We wouldn't do it any other way but for her

Every day you pray you'll find your way
As the end comes closer
I close my eyes in sweet denial
Don't think and it'll be over
You squeeze my hand to try and make me understand
This time, I'll hold her

Somersaults

We’re not promised tomorrow
We need to live our lives right
I won’t barter or borrow
Our future for tonight

Never know what ahead of us
What lurks around the corner
Never know if our future
Is built on sand or mortar
I’m not wasting time, playing games
I won’t create a past, filled with shame

We’re not promised tomorrow
We need to live our lives right
I won’t barter or borrow
Our future for tonight

I don’t try to pretend
That I’m the greater person
I don’t judge, I don’t defend
I’m not better, I’m not worse
I don’t look at you like you failed
I’m not looking for souls to save

We’re not promised tomorrow
We need to live our lives right
I won’t barter or borrow
Our future for tonight

I won’t be paralysed
I have a goal and I’ll pursue it
And I am under no illusion
That I know best what to do
But I’ll proceed with a knowing air
No one knows what I choose not to share

Take your place, by my side
Don’t be scared, we’ll be fine
Don’t look left, don’t look right
Lock our dream in your sights

We’re not promised tomorrow
We need to live our lives right
I won’t barter or borrow
Our future for tonight

Sand or Mortar

Please don't speak for me
You don't know what I'm trying to say
Please don't try to feel my fear
Or wish it away
Don't pander or stand for me
Don't cry, don't you fight for me
The things that I hide
I don't want you to see

You're not me
You can't see
What I need to be free
Find yourself someone new
I'll do me, you do you

Please don't tell me what you think I want to hear
Please don't hide the truth to stop these tears
You think it's fine cos they're little white lies
They might be kind but they're still not right
So go, leave, shut the door
I don't want you here

You're not me
You can't see
What I need to be free
Find yourself someone new
I'll do me, you do you

Just because you want me doesn't mean that we'll succeed
I know you're convinced that we've got all we need
But it's not enough for me 
And I know deep down you see it

You're not me
You can't see
What I need to be free
Find yourself someone new
I'll do me, you do you

You Do You

Watching, waiting, real anticipation 
The world is changing beyond expectations
Ignorance is not a limitation 
When evidence is trumped by speculation
You avoid the questions and the explanations
If I look away I’ll miss your true fixation

Spinning, moving, changing now
What I knew is gone somehow
Everything’s new, gotta feel my way
Every hour, every day

You permit and you prohibit 
Embrace your fans, ignore your critics
Push my buttons, push me to the limit
You’ll never break me, never break my spirit
So line right up and take a ticket
I’ll stand my ground, refuse to listen

Spinning, moving, changing now
What I knew is gone somehow
Everything’s new, gotta feel my way
Every hour, every day

Leaders lead and fakers quiver
What you say and what you do are different
Promise the earth but don’t deliver 
It’s time to take a wedge from life and not a sliver

Spinning, moving, changing now
What I knew is gone somehow
Everything’s new, gotta feel my way
Every hour, every day

Push

I'm an ice queen
I'm aloof and I'm serene
You'll never succeed
In cracking me

Don't try make me the bad guy
Don't push me too far
I'm fine here nicely simmering
I see exactly what you are
I hear the words you spit at me
You want me to spit them back
And then I'll be the villain
The one on the attack

I’m an ice queen 
I’m aloof and I’m serene
You'll never succeed
In cracking me 
I’m an ice queen
My face is just a screen
You’ll never see 
What’s bugging me.

I see what you are doing
You think you hide it well
You manoeuvre and position
As if I cannot tell
That your hurt, it is unfounded
Your fear it is not real
And your treachery's compounded
By an ire you can’t conceal

I’m an ice queen 
I’m aloof and I’m serene
You'll never succeed
In cracking me 
I’m an ice queen
My face is just a screen
You’ll never see 
What’s bugging me.

In my heart I am already gone
My presence only flesh and bone
Immune to names and sticks and stones 
I’m ready to desert you

I’m an ice queen 
I’m aloof and I’m serene
You'll never succeed
In cracking me 
I’m an ice queen
My face is just a screen
You’ll never see 
What’s bugging me.

Ice Queen

I’m falling apart, and this heavy heart
Makes no sense from where you sit 
I tick all the boxes, have all the options 
All targets hit 
But I’m falling apart
I’m falling apart 

Outside in it’s working 
Inside out it’s not
I’m done pretending 
I’ve given all I’ve got 
Why is everything still not enough. 

If you ask me how am I feeling 
I’ll say I’m fine 
Why would you question, not believe me
Why would you cross that line 
I say I’m feeling fine 
I’m feeling fine 

Outside in it’s working 
Inside out it’s not
I’m done pretending 
I’ve given all I’ve got 
Why is everything still not enough. 

If only I shouted, if I had the courage 
To pick up the phone 
To say that I’m drowning while No one is watching 
I’m all alone 
I’m all alone 
All alone 

Outside in it’s working 
Inside out it’s not
I’m done pretending 
I’ve given all I’ve got 
Why is everything still not enough. 

You say if you were mine 
We’d be just fine 
Maybe it’s time 
To give it a try

Outside in it’s working 
Inside out it’s not
I’m done pretending 
I’ve given all I’ve got 
Why is everything still not enough.

Not Enough

I’ve been cheated on, beaten down, taken for granted 
For playing by the rules 
I’ve cried in my pillow for the loss of my heroes 
In a world that’s governed by fools
But I won’t paralyse my dreams and my desires
Even if you want me to
I’ll stick to my guns, I’m strong enough to know
That it’s not me, that it’s you 

And I’ll walk on your spine to straighten mine 
It feels like it’s time to hand the burden to you 

I gave it all except my soul
Left this place with nothing but my dignity 
Stripped bare, all my cares redefined 
Reordered by priority
Now my eyes can see
Relieved of all the bullshit to give clarity
Decisions are made easy 
When I don’t have to honour your authority 

And I’ll walk on your spine to straighten mine 
It feels like it’s time to hand the burden to you 

I won’t be fooled by your charm and the words you speak 
You can’t win me over with promises that you won’t keep 

And I’ll walk on your spine to straighten mine 
It feels like it’s time to hand the burden to you

Walk On Your Spine

Try me, don’t assume that I will bite
You’ll find me less scary, more inviting 
Than the picture that you’ve painted in your head 
Let’s take the time to figure out if we’re a match instead 

See me how I want to be seen 
Release me from loving unrequitedly
I need to show that I’m not playing games 
And even though I’m sure I won’t assume you feel the same 

Put your arms around me, hold me close
You’ll see that we fit better than most 
Was I made for you and you for me
I guess that time will let us see

Tell me, tell me what I need to hear
Please sell me the story that will seal the deal 
To bring us right to where we need to be
The bells will ring announcing that we were meant to be 

Put your arms around me, hold me close
You’ll see that we fit better than most 
Was I made for you and you for me
I guess that time will let us see

My heart’s pounding now that I’ve found you
I hope that you will feel the same 
With time I believe that you’ll find 
Love worth the wait

Put your arms around me, hold me close
You’ll see that we fit better than most 
Was I made for you and you for me
I guess that time will let us see

We built a life, just you and me
We needed nothing more
Closed the curtains to keep the world away
Turned down the lights, locked the door

Your words spoken gently
Were they meant to deceive? 
Your promises made sweetly
Were they broken with ease?

Don’t leave, please stay, you owe me
Stay, don’t leave or I’ll destroy you

I thought you were protecting me
Now I see that I was locked away
While you broadened your horizon
I lost every hand you played

Don’t leave, please stay, you owe me
Stay, don’t leave or I’ll destroy you

Rain pours down darkened windows
I throw them open to get some air
Let the water wash over me
As I try to clear the pain

Don’t leave, please stay, you owe me
Stay, don’t leave or I’ll destroy you

Step gently, tread with care
Don’t do something you’ll regret
If you leave, you can’t come back Are you ready for that?

Don’t leave, please stay, you owe me
Stay, don’t leave or I’ll destroy you

You Owe Me

Twisted Fate

Twisted fate
Met too late
Won’t take the bait
So don’t wait to be mine
Twisted fate
Won’t hesitate 
I’ll tell you straight 
Don’t have to wait for a sign

I love you, know I shouldn’t
You are spoken for as am I
I’d love to though I wouldn’t
Take you low and take you high

Please forgive me
Hold my hand
And nothing more tonight 
I know I promised to commit to you
If it felt right

Twisted fate
Met too late
Won’t take the bait
So don’t wait to be mine
Twisted fate
Won’t hesitate 
I’ll tell you straight 
Don’t have to wait for a sign

I’ve tried to forget you 
Tried to get you out of my mind
Can’t justify the way I feel
I know I tried

Please forgive me
Hold my hand
And nothing more tonight 
I can’t commit to you 
It’ll never be right

Twisted fate
Met too late
Won’t take the bait
So don’t wait to be mine
Twisted fate
Won’t hesitate 
I’ll tell you straight 
Don’t have to wait for a sign

Why did we meet
If only I’d never felt your touch
Cos the loss of it is too great 
It hurts too much

Twisted fate
Met too late
Won’t take the bait
So don’t wait to be mine
Twisted fate
Won’t hesitate 
I’ll tell you straight 
Don’t have to wait for a sign

Twisted Fate

Want to tell me what you saw 
What made you scared, what made you crawl 
Under the covers and hide your eyes 
You keep it bottled up inside 
It might be better to confide 
Let me discover what made you cry

What was said to seal your lips 
What kind of threats what kind of tricks
What rules were broken, and how 
Was there solidarity
Any plans to break free
Even unspoken, even now 

Shout out, shout loud, shout now 
You’re allowed, stand your ground 
Stand your ground 

How do you sleep
Do you have something that can help 
To keep The demons at bay
Do you twist and do you turn
Do you shiver do you burn 
As you count the hours away

And does the distance help
With every day and every step 
That brings you further from harm
Can you take the weight 
Or is the damage too great 
As you try to carry on 

Shout out, shout loud, shout now
You’re allowed, stand your ground
Stand your ground

I hear that speaking out is a sin
I see the bruises on the skin 
Of those who dare to take a stance
You look to me and then behind
Afraid that you will find
That every kindness is a trap

Want to tell me what you saw 
What made you scared, what made you crawl 
Under the covers and hide your eyes 
You keep it bottled up inside 
It might be better to confide 
Let me discover what made you cry

Shout out, shout loud, shout now
You’re allowed, stand your ground
Stand your ground

Stand Your Ground

Nothing moves me
As the world passes by 
The lows just sit there
The highs don’t feel so high 
I wanna cry but my eyes are dry
Cos nothing moves me 

This can’t be all that’s left for me
I’m chained down, I can’t break free 
I close my eyes so I can see a better place 
But it’s just a dream

Nothing moves me
As the world passes by 
The lows just sit there
The highs don’t feel so high 
I wanna cry but my eyes are dry
Cos nothing moves me 

Your fingers not quite touching mine 
Stretch some more and so will I 
Please take my hand, I know with time
You’ll clear the way and I’ll free my mind 

Nothing moves me
As the world passes by 
The lows just sit there
And the highs don’t feel so high 
I wanna cry but my eyes are dry
Cos nothing moves me 

Pull me, push me, shake me now
Make me feel alive somehow
Sensations out of reach 
Memories tantalising me 

Please move me
The world’s passing by 
The lows just sit there
The highs don’t feel so high 
I wanna cry but my eyes are dry
Please move me

Nothing Moves Me

All songs on channel are original and copyright of Karen O'Mahony (c). 

You'll find me also here in my collaboration project with Johan Alm https://soundcloud.com/ashesfordreams

Ashes for Dreams

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