ketamine 

it’s just like it’s never ending 
it’s just year after year 
idk what to do anymore 

Idk what to do anymore 
Someone please help me
I can every thing shutting down internally 

I’m shutting down 
I don’t wanna be around 
I’m tryna spread a message 
I’m tryna help so people don’t end like I am

I had to learn the hard way 
Bitch I’m living life the hard way 
All these things holding me back 
I’m the only one blame 
Man I hate that life has to be this way 
I’m not okay
I’m gonna stop pretending 
Off da k I feel myself ascending 
It was so hard for me to take accountability 
Why was I made this way 

Why is the world so fake 
All these images everyone’s tryna portray 
As I get older 
I’m starting to see people’s true colors 
It fucking disgusts me 
I’m having all these fucking bad dreams 
I hate that I’m not fucking with ur energy 
All these lines of ketamine 
I’m damaging my self 
But I see reality

perception [MOTHMAN]

prod. @etaiso + @vi1e

lyrics:

off a potion moving slow
the half a heart that i have left is cold 
and icy as the snow 
swear to god ill never know
how the fuck im supposed to live
without a drug in me to cope

and i pace the floor alone
every step i take aheads another step toward the unknown
don't care what my future holds
according to the way its going
time is running short
my last resort

cant afford another xan
pop a different pill
i think im portugal. the man
cause i feel it still
i was off for like a day
but im on fr
acting like im AOK
but im not fr

i came from smoking in garages and basements
i tried to make a couple beats and get a couple good placements
but it all fell apart when i got stuck on creating
i feel in love with expressing myself through violence and hatred 
oh yeah

i cant control myself
get high as the heavens
im smackin live fuckin resin
to say goodbye to depression
and thats life
a vicious cycle of the finest of lessons
but all i learned is to cook fire
im in my bag every session
oh yeah

off a potion moving slow
the half a heart that i have left is cold 
and icy as the snow 
swear to god ill never know
how the fuck im supposed to live
without a drug in me to cope

and i pace the floor alone
every step i take aheads another step toward the unknown
don't care what my future holds
according to the way its going
time is running short
my last resort

cant afford another xan
pop a different pill
i think im portugal. the man
cause i feel it still
i was off for like a day
but im on fr
acting like im AOK
but im not fr

half hearted

heart of stone (prod. Pawl4k)

Thank you to all who helped me and all my friends.  Sorry for the wait but I'm glad to be back.  Message me if you'd like any of these beats.
James 4:7 - Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

0:00 calibrate (solo)
1:10 carbine (@askenemy)
2:30 i wish it was 2019 (@pw4prez, @iheartlindo)
3:38 applause flip (solo)
5:36 protocol (solo)
6:51 retaliation (@fucktwintails)
8:09 exfil (solo)
9:23 corvette (solo)
10:29 strafe (@7saiko)
11:40 50 cal (@skeya_o, @1bleedinggrey)
12:38 just dance flip (solo)
13:48 darktide (solo)
15:03 voyage (@niteclef)
16:07 ballinc (@prodpawl4k)
17:43 ffa (@1bleedinggrey)
18:52 drillgalia (solo)
19:53 evening (solo)

resistance pack [grey, sochi, askenemy, lindo, twintails, saiko, skeya, niteclef, pawl4k]

am i gona die [counter]

Everybody said be yourself 
I don’t even know who that is 
Yeah I’m finna go before it all ends 
Got the homies tying loose ends 
In my head yeah 
Bitch I’m up counting blue benjis 
in all green whip 
Cause I made amends 
I feel the love you don’t gotta put ur 2 cents 
Pants so tight gotta keep the d*ck tucked 
Heart so damaged yeah that shit lit up 
told this shawty that I watch her like a movie 
Watch her like a movie 
Watch her like a movie 
Watch her like a movie 
Doing shows in a 2 piece 
I just got laid off excuse me 
Fool me once yeah that shits my fault 
I’m not gonna say that I’m sorry 
Yeah I’m sorry 
I’m sorry 
Too many girls trynna top me 
got lock jaw her name was Molly 
And she blowing up my phone 
You would think that I’m famous 
Yeah I’m somebody not worth hating 
finna disappear and change my name yeah 
Idgaf 

I know what u want 

Kiss me on the lips like u mean it baby 
ima take u by the hand and bring u with me 
Ima take u to the top and then we finna disappear 

We could live up in the mountains 
or a house on a farm
idc where we are 
As long as im with you

with_you_(prodgloom)

ready to die just took the nicest picture i have ever seen
hurts my heart heave its prolly gonna sting
i see myself inside of the mirror like a freak
can’t be seen by anybody no that shit would get me weak

hide my face from the cameras try not to think about it
business days go bay invisibility my super power
dont think ab much anything inside my head im gone 
new prescription that they gave me dont ask me what im on

on some other shit lil bish, i can put u on
they askin me for methods im like what u want
what u want from me im just only one person
press me must’ve forgot i can put you in the dirt son

in the dirt
like know ur worth
i think ur face might look ugly on a white shirt
fasho, just had to lyk
why dont u catch me at the shoooooow

show me some racks rn lil bro so i know what u say is true
like a bill, we could get right into foldin u
cant live without it, margiela all on my outfit
can get these sneakers dirty, best believe that im about it

bouta tweak out at the function think that my pills are pressed 
im curvin hoes from left to right theyre so depressed (like swerve)
walk in the room high as the sky
my heart beatin too fast i think that i might die

ready to die just took the nicest picture i have ever seen
hurts my heart heave its prolly gonna sting
i see myself inside of the mirror like a freak
can’t be seen by anybody no that shit would get me weak

hide my face from the cameras try not to think about it
business days go bay invisibility my super power
dont think ab much anything inside my head im gone 
new prescription that they gave me dont ask me what im on

new prescription (yui;seven whyjuzo ripwarheart)

if we kissed, would you still be alive 
miss you so much no i dont want you to die no not tn
feels like ive known you for forever my whole life
ill meet you in the afterlife ive decided

my heart cant take anymOoOre suprises
tears roll down my face im afraid that i cant hide it
hide in my room it feels like im all alone
but you never left you’ll always be my home

used to smoke dope, pop pills at the show
now im lookin out for tweakers tote a pole
woah woah, i need to hear ur voice rn lets facetime
consider all the shit i’d done i could’ve faced time

pull up to the function with the crew and tear it up
im mixing potions in the whataburger cup
i wish, upon a star that i can see you again
maybe i can it doesn’t have to be the end
i’d end my life just for another chance to see ur eyes
it doesnt have to be the end it doesnt have to be goodbye
i see ur smile lookin down on mee
for once in this lifetime i finally feel free

but bitch get out my face im way to busy stoned
cryptic messages poppin up on my phone
new prescription i cant tell you what im on
wish we could embrace rn but ur gone

if we kissed, would you still be alive 
miss you so much no i dont want you to die no not tn
feels like ive known you for forever my whole life
ill meet you in the afterlife ive decided

my heart cant take anymOoOre suprises
tears roll down my face im afraid that i cant hide 
hide in my room it feels like im all alone
but you never left you’ll always be my home

facetime (takuori)

WHITTLE ME AWAY (androidwardrobe)

armani ft. dev0 [prod. gfelds]

https://youtu.be/-IFm9rK4a1Q?si=sF1mgzBJ1DkQJTQE

@prodcxrter
@spaceboyry

lyrics:

tried my best
yeah i tried so hard

fucked up something that i can't restart

talk back to me
u think ur so smart

run back to you
but i end up scarred

ask what's wrong
don't know where to start

ran in circles
yeah i ain't get far

back then, used to be so insecure

back when i would take your words to heart

we could do it all again
i won’t mind it

imma roll it up
you could light it

seen my texts turn blue,
turn green,
black screen

now i'm back where i was
yeah i hate it

yeah, took it so far

oh, that's how we are

sleepless nights w you under the starss ://

gotta watch my back
i keep my guard

think sum wrong with u,
wrong with uuu

i can't always lose..?
i do, its true

good gas w my crew
that's what i'd rather do
not you

im stacking
what's happening
got traction

got traction, more action
i'm up, why u lacking?
stop talking.. distractions
i did that n then u copy me

free
act nice, now you want something for free

get back
get off of me
got no time
got no days off

i can't lie i miss ur heart so soft
i miss ur luv, your touch
when u would take it all off

..for me
now u act like you don't know me
you act like you don't miss me
like you don't wish for me

we could do it all again
i won't mind it

imma roll it up
you could light it

seen my texts turn blue,
turn green,
black screen

now i'm back where i was
yeah i hate it

yeah, took it so far

oh, that's how we are

sleepless nights w you under the starss ://

gotta watch my back
i keep my guard

perception [MOTHMAN]

2manyemoceans

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