state of solitude

Constellations in da sky 
Constellations in my mind 
Ketamine has taken over my life 
Girl I need to get you out my mind 
Girl you really fucked up my life 
You Left me in a fucked up position
I wish I never met you 
I know u don’t believe in me 
U move on like we were never a thing 
U still text me when ur taken
I know u still think about me 
U treat me like I have no feelings 
U treat me like I never meant anything 
I know I was never the best
Thanks to u I have such a horrible image 
There’s so many false things bout what u said 
What about the things you’ve done u r not perfect 
U showed me I cannot trust nothing 
U showed me I cannot trust nobody 


Ketamine all on my desk 
We’re mixing drugs like experiments 
Ketamine coke and Molly 
We mix it all now we get to snorting 
We do fat lines that’s why our nose is always burning 
Ole girl heard I got coke that’s why she’s all up on me
I be so fucked up that’s why I’m barely talking 
She sat next to me when I was tripping lff the Molly 
This is not me this is the drugs talking 
I do not remember I be forgetting 
I have a drug problem I must admit 
I have a drug problem I’m addicted

get out of my mind [Dakota]

I don’t wanna go to sleep tonight 
All the bad dreams I’m having 
Is the universe tryna me something 
I wake up every morning feeling like I’m nothing 
I wish I was something 
I do not believe in coincidences 
Everything happens for a reason 
Self medication im searching for the truth 
No one really hits me up ive reach my state of solitude 
distancing myself cuz no one understands what im going thru 
 Off da dmt I saw the truth when I break thru 
I cannot believe what the fuck has happened to me I’ve made bad decisions that’s the true reality 
I refuse to walk around acting like I’m something cuz I know I’m Nothing

state of solitude [ang3lcry]

You changed my life 
I cannot deny 
What you did to me
You’re so deceiving
You act like you know everything but you don’t 
You want me to chase you but I don’t wanna chase a ghost
I did it for years and it got me nowhere 
I do miss you but it’s gonna get me nowhere 

It’s crazy how much of an impact you have on me
You left your mark on me now I’m damaged permanently
 I don’t think you want me to happy 
You show time after time misery loves company  You always try to paint a horrible image of me
You make me wanna run away from society
It makes it so much worse that I have so much anxiety 
Mental illness that is nothing new to me

I cannot spend my life like this no I can’t 
I’m getting tired of talking to people can no one can relate to me
The day I did 14 grams of shrooms I started my journey 
Idk how I’m still alive after all these drugs I’ve put in me 

Time after time I’ve tried taking my life 
Idk what’s out there but it won’t let die
I’m sorry for all the times I’ve made my family cry
Waking up from overdoses time after time
People wanna drug talk but they ain’t never live that life 
Nothing comes with it so don’t try to live this life 
I’m just tryna spread a message about life 
Over the last years I’ve seen the truth in this life

state of solitude

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