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Dammit

i can't be real

old 2021 song from @gly9h my old project

this might be my last song it might not be music isnt rlly enjoyable for me anymore i only post bc ik u guys like it

dick :3 (ilybeam)

instrumental by me, ft. @deadcouple

https://open.spotify.com/track/3BGn9mC8B7TOGeZqfJNXaT?si=b6b1d111540244e4

lyrics:
[sekai:]
she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

kisses on the cheek
baby ur so sweet
my knees are feeling weak
i forgot to eat
think it's been a week
and theres blood on my sheets
in what fucking world
would someone like me?

i just wanna be normal, normal
sit around feeling horrible, horrible

i just wanna be normal, normal
sit around feeling horrible, horrible

she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

[deadcouple:]
yeah i love ur smile its adorable
im afraid to mess up this time i dont want that
sit in my room wasting away feeling horrible
yeah i hate this shit i always feel like trash

cut and crash
why are you sad?
dont feel bad
i did this all for you

why are you sad?
dont be mad
wipe ur tears
i did this all for you

[sekai:]
she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

she's a girl i met online
she could take my heart
yeah for a dime
her long pink hair and evil eyes
so dragged to her i'm mesmerized

denpa girl ft. deadcouple

never thought id ever fall for someone again
ive always kinda hated romance and all of  that stuff
twitter girl she made my 
heart flutter
and melted my head 
like butter

she posts on twitter everyday
likes its r9k
i really dunno why but i like it anyway
and if she looked my way
i think id pray
that she would stay

never thought id ever fall for someone again
ive always kinda hated romance and all of  that stuff
twitter girl she made my 
heart flutter
and melted my head 
like butter

twitter girl

lyrics:

atp im down for whatever
relationship w a whore
whatever

the pillows i hug r not enough
i need some fucking female touch

but im a wreck im a mess
im not a good man
i have a billion issues
save me pls maam

idc about anything i just need a hug
im so down bad and i don give a fuck

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

i dont blame the society
i dont blame anyone else
the only one whos responsible is me, myself

i know im at fault i fucked my life up
so a whore would be just good enough

i dont pity myself i deserve what i got
but for my redemption i need someone

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

to scratch my hair cuddle me in bed
holy shit i hate myself

finally im starting to get what ive always wanted
but why does it matter when im fucked in my head

im not good looking have no social skills
my paycheck barely covers all these bills

they said i shouldnt drink on these pills
but what the fuck am i supposed to do
fuck this bullshit

atp im down for whatever
relationshit w a whore
whatever
fuck my life fuck me
forever
im gonna kill myself i swear
whatever
x2

Relationship W A Whore

lyrics:

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

FUCK MY LIFEEEEE
FUCK MY LIIIIIIIFEEEE
IM SO DOOOOOONE
 i said FUCK MY LIIIIFEEEE

im a mess
im a wreck
i am fucked up in the head
growing up
growing old
the mental problems wont go away
fuck you say
that you can just grow out of it
you stupid bitch
i swear i will die like this!!!

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

my parents didnt know any better than i do
but they somehow made it work
threw me into this world

i guess i was always weird
i used to bully fat kids
then i got bullied
for being too skinny

karma is always right
i deserve what i got
i shouldnt be upset
but its not making sense

i guess im just meant to die alone
(thats true)
i guess i can never be loved
(fuck you)

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me x2

im not that important to god
to be cursed
but theres some ppl like me oh ya
in the world
ppl who will always be alone
will die alone
even with so much love
inside them
ppl who are just observing
the world
i guess thats just how it works

Bless Me

ty for 4k listens <3 pls listen on spotify too https://open.spotify.com/album/0Zu1TMGY256iat7o8KzQDF?si=svEpCWrKQpmFG-wHON6KPQ

based on the anime "our dating story"
prod me

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon
cos i noticed u started distancing
and i knew with time
you'd eventually leave me

im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
x2

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon

jealous loser

(everything prod by me)
ive had this song in my drafts for a reaaallly long time and i was finally able to get it done and im rlly happy with how it turned outt :> im probs gonna make more stuff like this in da future 

lyrics:
think im losing my mind
cuz i was so blind
lovers intertwined 
we were meant to bind 

ill kiss between your scars
and hold you in my arms 
so i can never forget you
stay right beside you
maybe this worlds not so gray
and i will live another day 
holding you close to me
cuz darling youre all i need  

take a piece of my aching heart
and keep it locked 
throw the key in a wishing well 
and let my love forever dwell
can you hear my silent cries
i dont know why i even try
is it so hard to feel something?
or maybe i just meant nothing 

defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)
defect (youre the one)

the angels in the sky
will pick us up and help us fly 
by our sheer destiny 
our love is heavenly 	
ive been living in a dream
but i dont wanna wake up
no i dont wanna wake up
no i dont wanna wake up

take a piece of my aching heart
and keep it locked 
throw the key in a wishing well 
and let my love forever dwell
can you hear my silent cries
i dont know why i even try
is it so hard to feel something?
or maybe i just meant nothing

and so our love prospers

Prod @1lav

Toki Doki shawty
bag from Murakami
vampire mommy
you should come and top me
cut me down right from my neck
slit my throat I like that shit
got some hoes up on my dick
cast a spell I'm gettin rich
Elisa Jordana the way she wanna fuck
got some dirty denim on u should take it off slut
got my vampire mommy she gon hit my phone up
I can tell the way she bite my neck that she fell in love
alone with all the bones
i hear all ur moans
take me to ur house and ill take off ur clothes
im not rlly in love i js rlly wanna fuck 
pls dont bite off my dick when ur suckin on my cock

toki doki shawty
bag from murakami
vampire mommy
you should come and top me
cut me down right from my neck
slit my throat i like that shit
got some hoes up on my dick
cast a spell im gettin rich
elisa jordana the way she wanna fuck
got some dirty denim on u should take it off slut
got my vampire mommy she gon hit my phone up
I can tell the way she bite my neck that she fell in love
alone with all the bones
i hear all ur moans
take me to ur house and ill take off ur clothes
im not rlly in love i js rlly wanna fuck 
pls dont bite on my dick when ur suckin on my cock





elisa jordana<3

mommy vampire gf

the marias no one noticed 

maybe i
lostmymind
no one noticed 
no one noticedddffxc n nc
its getting old
id kinda like it if ud call me
all alone
cuz im so over being lonely
may have lost it
i need a virtual connection
i have lost it
be my video obsession
no one tried
to read my eyes
no one but u
wish it werent true
maybe i 
its not right
make u mine
take ourrrr time
come on 
dont leave me
it cant be that easy babe
if u believe me i guess ill get on a plane
fly to ur city
excited to see ur face
hold me console me
and then. ill leave w out a trace

virtual obsession.mp3

i dont feel happy no more
i want my wings to swore
look at you look at him 
this life seems so brim
do you wanna be with me  we can go A cross the 
do you want to be with ,e 2x
hold my hand thru the dark
tell me what i did wrong
tell me what i did wrong
my body not that strong
i dont feel happy no more
i feel like my wings are torn
look you look at him 
your life seems so bring
my soul could just be yours
i could be yours 2x

do you want to be with mev2 master

https://open.spotify.com/track/74RwQbNMVqPSbp3bvtdwAd?si=fc258f8a429f4b54

i'm rewatching citrus rn, it was like 1 of the first animes i watched when i was 11 so i can't rly hate it....... 

i can't find a good cover art w/ them in it so i'm using the i can't stop crying girls. everything by me (like always)

lyrics:

ur confusing me
are we meant to be?
i feel heartbeats
i don't wanna breathe
when ur lips are so sweet
i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here

even if they get us to break up
i'll be thinking of u night & dusk
what else could we call this besides love?
i wanna be the one u see above
ur in my heart
don't hide ur scars
look at the stars
while i sew ur arms

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
why'd u have to kiss me? 

ur confusing me
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
are we meant to be?
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i feel heartbeats
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
i don't wanna breathe
(nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa-nyaa)
when ur lips are so sweet

i know it's wrong
i want to love
let's make things clear
i'll wait right here
come wipe my tears
destress my fears
away, i can't veer
away, i can't veer

(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)
(kiss, kiss, kiss)

as long as we're under the same sky
we're rly not that far apart

citrus | 君に恋するはずじゃなかった

my brain feels like its turned into mush
maybe im on the internet too much
i love candy i got a sugar rush
fill me up

my nintendos my only friend
and when it dies ill cry again
mario carts my medicine
until the end

(mikus part)
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happy
i dont need humanityyyyy
my nintendo makes me happyyyyyyy

my nintendo makes me happy its all i ever need
i feel fine as long as im in front of my screen


my nintendos my only friend ft miku

beautiful like butterflies
your eyes they never lie
contemplating suicide 
baby im right by ur side

youre so fucking perfect 
no you dont deserve to die
i know im worthless
but im better then those other guys

fall onto me
this feels just like a dream
blood falling off ur sleeve
me and you were meant to be

im stuck like a tree
if only you could see
im so in love with you
i got ur blood stuck on my teeth




teeth (x8)

marry me i'm meant for u
ur so perfect like mary sue
without u, i don't have a clue
what i'd do, what i'd do
world's so big 
but ur the only one
i only live 
for u call me dumb
i wanna see u be nice
i wanna be in ur life
i wanna hear u at night
saying ily





u dont deserve to die ft bloodsekai

prod. @bloodsekai
epic rockstar epic songstar these songs are always fun and cool i love it yay      
(btw old cover was requested to be removed by the original artist)
lyrics:
@hxnterbtw
when im with you baby i just feel so right
when im with you baby i dont even wanna die
when im with you i can grow some wings and start to fly x2

and without you ik i would go insane
and without you i would fucking blow out my brains x2
shoot the club up im so fucking sad n wanna die
shoot the drugs up feel so lonely and i hate my life

when im with you baby i just feel so right
when im with you baby i dont even wanna die
when im with you i can grow some wings and start to fly 
when im with you baby i just feel so right

@bloodsekai
pls don't leave
i can't do
anything
without u
i'm so helpless
don't have a clue
of why i'm like this
so fucking screwed
i cry too much
cuz i know i suck
i'm not enough
but i need ur love
i cry too much
cuz i know i suck
i'm not enough
but i need ur love

@hxnterbtw
when im with you baby i just feel so right
when im with you baby i dont even wanna die
when im with you i can grow some wings and start to fly 
when im with you baby i just feel so right

when im with you
when im with youuu x3

when im with you
it just feels so right

when im with u w/ bloodsekai

i saw you at the store 
staring at the floor
i really wanted to talk to you

ur looking really bored
arms hanging like a cord
how could i brighten up ur mood?

i really wish i wasnt such an awkward idiot
wanna tell u a sentence but i cannot finish it
being in conversations just makes me the dizziest
i dont know how to respond im such an embarrassment


words are choking 
i ruined the vibe
i should start smoking to ease my mind
i wanna run back home and forget it all
but im stuck in this hell hole all day long

my lifes a sad story
i got no one to hold me
i suffer by my lonely
i think im dying slowly

throwing up my insides i really wanna die
when is it my time








 




awkward idiot

on phone on bandlab at 12am shitty song thing 

inspired by shaun tan’s “never leave a red sock on the clothes line” painting, from the book rules of summer. 

it keeps pouring out
i left one of my shirts on the clothes line
that mistake was mine,
will it dry now?
didnt check the weather
missus pull yourself together

it keeps pouring out

is it still pouring out? (everestdidthis)

Pornstar!!!!!

prod, mix, master by @bloodsekai

u said we'd be together
yea jus u n me forever
but i hate u more than ever
u stripped me of my flesh n leather
x2

but i keep coming back
self respect is where i lack
u know i got none of that
now u rlly got me trapped
but i cant hide from anyone except me
feelings classified n i jus swallowed the key

cut me open
im so broken
my hearts frozen
but u dont notice

i cant watch u fry my brain
do u enjoy inflicting pain
cut ur wrist n write my name
i didnt know u were this insane

u said we'd be together
yea jus u n me forever
but i hate u more than ever
u stripped me of my flesh n leather
x4

more than ever

prod, mix, master by @bloodsekai

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x2

i dont even wanna die
but i think that tonights the night
i dont wanna fight it
my body wont deny it
do u gotta be so violent?
im bein so compliant
give me one little moment
need time thought i could buy it

i dont think that i could live another day
my body would expire and slowly decay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

wrap my body in bandages
im rlly falling to pieces
all my guts r leaking
every time im speaking
x3

u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
u never asked if i was ever okay
but its fine i guess ill never have to say

bandages

https://open.spotify.com/track/3lkhCDJWTppoesEyWSulO4?si=f62eb3cb5b1c418a

production: @bloodsekai 
featuring: @yukisasayaki

--- lyrics: ---
don't leave the room just yet
i need to tell you something
i wrote it down with pen
cuz they'll act weird if they know
there's someone in control
they wanna make things bloody
we're not supposed to know
so please just act like i said nothing

do you like my new poem?
i'll punch you if you say no
i doubt you could do better
i'm laughing till you try
tears form inside both my eyes
overload it's tmi
she can't tell the cake's a lie
everyone, she'll just rewrite

just me
just me
jus me n u here for eternity
corrupt
my files
i think ur in denial

i cant watch this any longer yea its tearing me apart
gonna push her to the edge, make her stab her in the heart 
all of that for u to delete me
and press restart

we're gonna be here a while so grab ur paper and a pen
u can write me a poem
that jus never has an end
u shoulda got a cupcake 
to fill in ur heartache
u'll never get them back
u shoulda picked me in the first place
i cant watch this any longer yea its tearing me apart
gonna push her to the edge, make her stab her in the heart 
all of that for u to delete me
and press restart

don't leave the room just yet
i need to tell you something
i wrote it down with pen
cuz they'll act weird if they know
there's someone in control
they wanna make things bloody
we're not supposed to know
so please just act like i said nothing

secrets written with ink

secrets written with ink (ft. yuki)

@bloodsekai beat

i know u wont hold me close
u could go yea i just hope
dreams come true yea i'll b two
cuz being one gives me this mood

nobody cares 
nothing is fair
i hate my hair
i hate my wear
they always stare 
i am aware
i am alone
im on my own

i know u wont
if u think dont
good intentions
just uncapable
i want to give
reasons to live
i want to live
lets coexist

breaking my heart
fate tears me apart
fate tears me apart
2x

i know u wont hold me close
u could go yea i just hope
dreams come true yea i'll b two
cuz being one gives me this mood
i want to say i love u i love u 

nothing feels right i dont know what i want anymore

@interwebaddiction @yukisasayaki

prod @1zakuro

magician9000 + yuki - haunt u

prod me
cant find cover ughhhhh

god i rlly hate my life
thinkin bout suicide
fantasize abt it at night
i dont know whats right

god i rlly hate it
im numbed n im sedated 
my mum treats me like a patient
i jus wanna b normal again
im trapped in my head
im better off dead
just want it to end
im so hard on myself

god i rlly hate my life
thinkin bout suicide
fantasize abt it at night
i dont know whats right
x2

nothing feels right i dont know what i want anymore

moxi moxi moxi moxi moxi moxi