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lyrics:

it takes a lot to understand
and a lot just to forgive
i got a song stuck in my head
and the words just make me sick
because it makes me think of you
and that's the last thin i wanna do
we were kissing til we can't 
making angels in the snow
now i've got an empty hand 
and a lump within my throat
and i just can't seem to renew
because there's no one else like you

i
don't wanna cry
so leave me inside
where i'm without harm
lie
i hate when i lie
i'm feeling like ice
i'd like to be warm

so
where u been at, where u been at?
cold
i'm used to that, i'm used to bein
alone
will you be back before i turn to stone?

no
i don't think that you'll make it even close
and god i wish i didn't have to know
i didn't have to know

i don't wanna go
but i don't wanna stay
cuz everywhere i look i see your face
i don't wanna go
i guess i'll stay the same
i've never felt like more of a disgrace


I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, LOVE
HAVING CONVERSATIONS WITH A GHOST
I SWEAR THE THOUGHT OF YOU'S A PARASITE
AND I'M A VERY WILLING HOST
I'D GIVE IT ALL TO SEE YOU BACK HERE
BUT I DON'T HAVE A LOT TO LOSE
I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, DEAR
BECAUSE IT CLEARLY ISN'T YOU

Echo 419

disorders mixed with being disoriented

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

I change with the seasons, I don't need a rhyme or reason
Roots in the ground stand strong, soon to weaken
In this world you eating or you'll be the one that's eaten
You can't cut me down, I'm the tallest in the region
That's that
When I'm feeling down I get high off tree sap
I got sticks as bones, leaves on my kneecap
Boy I'll smoke you in a wrap
Don't get high off of the traps
I've been working every night tryna make it on the map

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

Now we're all snowed and I'm all alone
Frozen wind, Skin grew icicles
My leaves died and I cried But I ain't turn to ash yet
Hope when summer hits I'll burndown hope to break the magick
I'm suffocating, not myself but still I'm conscious
This oxygen I'm breathing hurts my lungs like it's noxious
All the evil in the world just make me think its godless
All these stories on my skin are my only solace

Branches for arms
Leave a mark on my body
I keep a charm in my pocket when it's foggy
Skin made of bark same color of some coffee
Leaves fall in the winter, lake iced over playing hockey

Seasons [prod. yunny goldz]

Got to see what this prevails
Sure I'm gonna talk about it even if I fail
Pour my fucking heart in this shit
I don't follow trails
Never gonna walk without this crutch until I'm pale
Deep inside the forest, take a tour
I'll see you there
Empty bottle snoring, rain be pouring
You'll forget that
Only course of action is to step beyond the tree lines
These pines hold
The might to unmold

You're just a fraction of perception
Everything you know deception
Ego craving that intention
Overthinking that inflection
Loving every each obsession
But it's all in your mind
Nothing really fucking matters
I'm not lagging behind
Spending every waking second
Ask me how could I pass judgement on another
If I stare up in the mirror
Scared. Don't suffer
Crazy but it's all in your head
Project your fucking consciousness to where you will head

Stay afloat
Thoughts flow down stream quick
Choosing what you focus on
Let decay the other songs
Too much get you sea sick
Throwing up Hennessy; quick
Tomorrow got work at three; quit
Learning nothing with my time
I'm tired of trying to fit in line
Scared of not succeeding
Must learn to walk all on my own
Fear sets I faulter
Mask my tone
We all living on this planet till we're cold like stone
Better learn to love yourself
Conscious melts off the cone
Everything is fake, there's no meaning to it
You're your own god, best believe it
Cause we look back to the past

Try to grasp, running fast
You are leaving from the place you once knew
Now the sky isn't blue
And you cry every night wishing that you had knew
Things forever changing
Always temporary
Look past all the pain
It's only memory

The Forest (bonus track)

so, what if i took your fairytale away from you
what would you say? x2
 
I was crying for your help you never listened to me
just left me around that same damn place
yea i feel a way x2
you don't know how bad i hate it

uh this is awkward i cant do this Cover.mp3

солнце согреет мою душу
мои руки покрыты резьбой
что же со мной
что же со мной, забери мою боль
я обвиняюсь в твоих грехах
но я рад, что держу у себя 
твою любовь
объятием согрей меня
объятием согрей меня
объятием согрей меня

shamed/blame type track

what we once had is here

bipolar freestyle (prod. GHXST & Dj Pain)

mixed by @polearm
featuring @sewerperson
produced by @splashgvng and @irby314

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

i think ill be late to the grave at my own damn funeral
say what you say i know i act quite unusual
fake homies fake like they dont know that im on to them
its okay whatever bro cuz 
i was never fond of them
i just copped and popped out to LA
shot the shit and kicked it with my bae
told my brothers theres another way
now we been grinding time to fill the days
we been on the sun in outerspace
stress was melted
felt it drip away
i been on a hella different wave
i been on a hella different wave

sewerperson:
moonlight thru opening in the sun roof
it feel like one of these times where i just have to tell u i
love u
and i dont wait till the morning
and i dont wanna wait anymore like
tell me
how many of these nights u been alone u really happy
everything im feeling come back round to overlap me
i guess i just wanted u to know ion know what id do without ya
i guess i just wanted u to know i still been
selfish
sorry
i cant help it
promise
blacked out
i cant feel if im honest
can u tell me bout ur face cause i forgot it
since i pushed most those memories into my closet

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

selfish! ft. sewerperson (prod. irby)

@sewerperson
@guccihighwaters

prod by me oobv get w the times

Down and Out (feat. sewerperson & guccihighwaters)

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane 

I couldn’t give a fuck it I tried 
Cuz someone out there piping the love of my life 
Nah I couldn’t give a fuck if I died 
But I bet there’s someone out there thatd gladly trade lives 

I don’t fear sharks and I don’t fear drowning 
Once ur heads below the surface it’s just another day 
I don’t fear heights and I don’t fear flying 
I just fear the day to come where I forget your name 

You’re so fucking different now 
You’re like everybody else in this shitty town
You don’t like me you don’t believe in me
I fucking hate that I gave you a piece me 
I bet you think about me like you never ever knew me 
Bitch you dumb fake like a shitty toupee 
I’ll rip a page from your book I want you no where that I look
id do anything it took to get you out my minds nooks 

and I hate your guts but I love your bones 
and I love you more the more you break down my hope 
oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
oh loving you to death it would end in vane

(sewerperson)
cold winter nights
in your arms
the blood inside of her is keeping me warm
i promise im just checking if ur alright
baby i dont wanna fight like last time
could you heal me
of my damage
i feel so alone on this planet
i lay awake at night in your mattress
baby open up i need access

crows fly off my window sill
she told me draw my blood so she can tell if im real
blue seeps out from my open wound
she said as long as you love me i can love you too
and she cant be replaced ah
baby kiss me slow i miss the taste
she look me in my spirit everytime i grip her waist
she pushing back against me while she hold me by the face
if its true love we could always power thru the hate

(kindmile)
And I hate your guts but I love your bones 
And I love you more the more you break down my hope 
Oh beauty is pain so the devil must reign 
Oh loving you to death it would end in vane

disorders mixed with being disoriented

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