Verse

It’s like 2 am
You hit my line again
I check the messages 
You on that bull again

I’m not going for it
We’ve been down this road
You already know
(Know)
We’re never speak again
That’s what our agreement said

Tryna get up in my head
I can’t tell yet
You leave me so confused

Pre Chorus

Cause you touch me like you want me to stay
(Ooh)
Then turn around and push me away
(Ooh)
What do you want?
(Ooh)
What do you want from me?
(Ooh)

Chorus

Act like you don’t care
You’re so unaware
You know this ain’t fair
But you don’t care ‘cause
You push me around
(Never ending)
Merry go round 
(Never ending)
 
Don’t know what to say
You manipulate 
You underestimate me but
You push me around (Push me around)
(Never ending)
Merry go round (Merry go round)
(Never ending)

Verse

You play with me constantly 
On the daily
(Frankly)
You really need a hobby

I won’t let you continue to play with me
(I- I’m not no fool)
Don’t think you got power over me
‘Cause you and I were once we
You don’t

I’m not your private game 
It’s not a masquerade, so take the mask off
Stop pretending to be better 
Than you really are

Chorus

Act like you don’t care
You’re so unaware
You know this ain’t fair
But you don’t care ‘cause
You push me around
(Never ending)
Merry go round 
(Never ending)
 
Don’t know what to say
You manipulate 
You underestimate me but
You push me around (Push me around)
(Never ending)
Merry go round (Merry go round)
(Never ending)

Verse

It took me so long to move on
And yet, you won’t let me put it to rest
What’s your deal?
You were once my dawg, so please heel
So I can
Give me open wounds, needing bandages

Bridge

Despite what I’ve said
I miss what we once had
I hope we can leave it all in the past
(All in the past)
Please let me forget it all
Please move on (Please move on)

Chorus

Act like you don’t care
You’re so unaware
You know this ain’t fair
But you don’t care ‘cause
You push me around
(Never ending)
Merry go round 
(Never ending)
 
Don’t know what to say
You manipulate 
You underestimate me but
You push me around (Push me around)
(Never ending)
Merry go round (Merry go round)
(Never ending) 

Post Chorus

A never ending merry go round 
(Ohh oh- oh)
When can I get off of this wild ride?
(Off of this wild ride) (Oh)

Merry Go Round

Prologue

Hey, um.. I’m just calling to check up on you.
We haven’t talked in a few days, so um..
Just call me back. 
I love you.

Verse 

I spend so much time reminiscing on the times we had
I’m up all night wishing missing all the times we laughed 

I said I’d walk away gracefully though I crawled away with a gash (A gash)
(But it’s okay) But it’s okay I don’t regret a single thing 

Time moves so fast (So fast)
Hate to feel like I’m almost out of it
My heart beats for you in such a dim light
(Dim light)
It didn’t always but it had to after that night (That night)

Though I understood your response it just didn’t feel right (response) (feel right)
(Ohh)
For weeks to come I stayed up tight

I wanted off of this emotional flight
But my spirit wouldn’t let me off this ride 
(Ohh)
Even tried bargaining to points where my tongue tied
Even cross eyed 
Because if it works I just might
Have a chance to have one more night
With you in that state of mind

Where my heart and your mind aligned
Please just give me a sign
That my logic and delusion aren’t intertwined. (A sign) (Ohh)
Intertwined

I still hope for a future where there’s you and I
(Future) (You and I)
I hope that this ends all right (Really hope) (Alright)
Wish I could tell you about all my hidden heartbeats (Hidden heartbeats)
But unfortunately that wouldn’t seem to help me. (Wouldn’t seem to help me)

If only I could get back what you were offering
Swear you got me on some sick monopoly
(If I could only) (You got me) (Monopoly)

La-La-La 
La-La-La 
La-La-La-La 
La-La

I just wish we could
Go back to the times where you and I
(Go back to the times where you and I)
Had the same mindset

Poem
The crazy things love will make you do…
These emotions almost feel me like the blues.
The way my heart sings for you
The hidden heartbeats that my mind possesses
With my heart aligned,
Confesses
It makes music for you.
Sings
Almost like a symphony
Coming from the mind of thee.
I just hope that maybe
One day,
You’ll truly understand me
And my connections of we.
One day,
You’ll hear my symphony.
And maybe even cry for me
For my hidden heartbeats.

Hidden Heartbeats

INTRO

Chorus 

Feels like every night I got you 
Finally close my eyes to see you 
Brand new places to run off to
Far from impromptu
Your style always impresses
What will you say you leave me guessing
So many questions 
(Baby wait for me)

Verse 

I think of you in every moment
(Every moment)
When my mind’s on you, you take control
(Ooh)
When our eye’s meet it’s like production
And I really love the script I wrote

Pre chorus 

(Ahh)
You’re perfect to a T
Your handsome brown eyes gleam
The way skin sings to me
It’s perfect
You’re perfect

(Ahh)
The way you cut your hair
The type of shoes you wear
The way you always care
I’m not ready for that clock to blare 

Chorus 

Feels like every night I got you 
Finally close my eyes to see you 
Brand new places to run off to
Far from impromptu
Your style always impresses
What will you say you leave me guessing
So many questions
(Darling wait for me)

Bridge

(Ooh)
If only you could come into my world
I’d show you everything about me
(Every single thing about me)
Just wish you existed
In my reality
(Reality)

Chorus

Feels like every night I got you 
Finally close my eyes to see you 
Brand new places to run off to
Far from impromptu
Your style always impresses
What will you say you leave me guessing
So many questions
(Honey wait for me)

Post chorus

My dream boy
Ohh
Wait for me 
In my dreams
Ohh

Part II

Wait for me

I know this dream won’t last forever
(Please wait)
Not ready for the morning
(No) (wait for me)
I know the clock is ticking
It’ll go off any time soon
(Oh no)
I’m not ready for the clock to blare

Impromptu (Wait For Me)

Verse 

Been two whole months since I seen your smile
Wonder if time has left you down and out 
Too
Over time you stopped coming ‘round
Tryna say we really over now?

Pre chorus

You’re confusing me
I know you miss me babe 
Always sitting playing games
At this point bonne journée 

We’re on and off
You say you don’t love me, please
You said we not done, come on
So why you ain’t call me?

Chorus 

Call me back 
(Back)

Stop playin’
Hit my line

Verse

I remember when our love was unconditional 
You were so irresistible 
What happened?
We were a match made in heaven 
Now we are stuck arguing
Unnecessary 

Pre chorus

You’re confusing me
I know you miss me babe 
Always sitting playing games
At this point bon journee 

We’re on and off
You say you don’t love me, please
You said we not done, come on
So why you ain’t call me?

Chorus 

Call me back 
(Back)

Stop playin’
Hit my line

Bridge

Gettin’ real sick and tired of this
Don’t know much more I can take 
To be honest, got nothing in the tank

Can’t take no more
Expectations on the floor
You were better than this
I’m leaving pick up so I can tell you this
Please call me back 

Chorus 

Call me back 
(Back)

Stop playin’
Hit my line

Call Me Back

It took me time to realize I was tending to gardens not worth my while

Thinking that plants would grow right if the watering was just fine

Truth is I’ve known but I wasn’t ready to grow

The mental pesticides filled my mind making it hard to realize

I wasn’t getting hoed but being hoed 

By those that surrounded me which quickly showed 

Why they’d never grow with me but rather put on a show, better than André (3000 to be exact)

Like pretty weeds staying on the low 

Pretending to be wheat but bash me when thing turn awry
(Get it? ‘Cause wheat… rye… whatever)

Put the deceptive presence breaks me out in hives 

Tolerance far from high 

Guess the gluten allergy was a sign


Tired of watering dead gardens

Actions like this make me guarded

They assume it made heartless

Least regarded 

Real option?

That maybe, just maybe I’m not just heartless

But maybe I’m just out of water

For the garden


I loved you but it quickly faded into
Resentment.

Unintended

But happened.

Baby I can’t do this with you anymore, 
Leaving me to take to close this door

Though I’ve done this before

But this time you can trust it 

Because my hinges are rusted and there’s no more oil.

Wish I could say these words to your face

But it pained me just enough putting this pen to page

I hope you always know you’ll always mean the world to me.

From,
Yours truly

Words I Couldn’t Utter (Poem)

Onward

Intro

(Ahh)
Ahhh

Verse

Moving onward with my life without you
(Without you) 
Feeling better ‘cause I said we are through
(We are through)

Chorus

Moving forward with my life
(Moving forward with my life)
Moving onward
(Moving onward)
Onward
(Onward)
Gotta keep it moving
(Gotta keep it moving)
Onward
(Onward)
Onward
(Onward)

Verse 

I’m learning how to wake up in the morning
(Ohh) (onwards) (onwards)
And not expect your text
(No expectations)
Old habits are going out a bit dramatic
(So dramatic)
Ooh-ohh

Verse

I know I’ll move on, and I know I’ll grow
(I’ll move on, I’ll grow)
It just takes some time 
(Takes so much time)
I’m working towards improvement
(Working, working)

Bridge 

I know I’ll get it I’ll move onwards 
(I’ll)
Get it I’ll move onwards
(Onwards)
Moving inwards 
(The world keeps spinning)
I’m moving onwards


Still Missing You


Verse

I still miss you everyday
I am struggling with not seeing your face 
(I am struggling with not seeing your face)
I know I said I’d move on but it’s getting hard
Maybe just one more talk that’s all

Chorus

Do I really have to move onwards?
(Onwards, onwards)
‘Cause I’m still missing you
(Missing you)
Do I really have to do this?
It’s got me feeling blue 
(Feeling blue)

Verse 

Do I really have to move onwards
(Do I)
Know I should but I’m missing you
(Know I should but I’m missing you)
I’m still missing you
Trying to move onwards 
(Onwards)
But it’s really hard
(Onwards)
‘Cause afterwards our connection was off
(Onwards)
Haven’t seen your face since that day
Still missing you
But I gotta move onwards

Onward/ Still Missing You

Chorus

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
Not controlling, overloaded
Or spiteful love
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
Not controlling, overloaded
Or spiteful love
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love
(Real love)

Verse
 
Want a type of love
That keeps me up at night 
Keeps me feeling right
With no doubts to fight

Really hope I find
Love that comes to mind
But I
Wouldn’t know

I know times have changed
Truly such a shame
Love has gone from a feeling to children’s game
(Shame shame shame)
From got you by the collar to dollar to play
I just hope this new era don’t stay this way

Verse 

Gone from love to lust
To right over trust
Got me wondering if all hope’s really lost
It’s crazy 
These changes
Just really hope 
That- 

Chorus

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
Not controlling, overloaded
Or spiteful love
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
Not controlling, overloaded
Or spiteful lover
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love
(Real love)


Verse

Things are different 
Can’t help but notice it
It’s apparent that’s it’s not as passionate 
What’s happening?
Leaves me wondering 
Got me questioning
But what if? 

Bridge

Will it be back again?
Is my sitting and hoping just pointless?
Useless?
Is it
Realistic?
What am I doing?

And I know
I can’t be the only one
Maybe one other person 
I just hope they’re for
Me

Chorus

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
(50s, 60s)
Not controlling, overloaded
(Not con-)
(Not controlling)
Or spiteful love
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love

I want an old fashioned love
Filled with passion love 
Not quite 50s or 60s but a real love
Not controlling, overloaded
(And I just hope it’s not just me)
Or spiteful lover
But romantic, fantastic, surreal love
(Real love)

Post Chorus

I hope that it’s not just me
I can’t be the only one
No
It can’t be
No

Old Fashioned  prod. Anonymous Smiley

Intro

(What is the meaning of?)

You know, many times I wonder
(I wonder)
What was the meaning of our love?
(What was the meaning of our love)
I mean, was it me trying to be above the expectations you had set?
(Expections)
Or was it me trying to be apart of your atmosphere and understand your head (Space)
(Atmosphere) 
(Headspace)
I mean, really you could’ve grabbed your comb and gotten me out of your hair, but instead you out your durag back on and you kept me here
(Comb but you grabbed your durag, oh)
So
How do I take this?
(How do you want me to take this?)
Do you want me or should we just skip this disk?
(Skip the disk, oh)
Many nights, I’m up left with questions… 
(So many, so many)
Wondering if you treat this like a stand up or respect this.
(Stand up comedy or respect for me?)
I just wish I had answers
Just give me your confession.
(Confession)

Chorus

What does love mean to you?
What is the meaning of everything you do?
It feels like you like leaving me so confused
Just tell me what the meaning of our love is to you 
(To you)
To you
What is the meaning of?

Verse 

The things you do are so questionable I don’t even know, I
I asked you what you wanna do and you said let’s
(Go with the flow)
Just keep the status quo
(What?) 
(That’s some bull)

But we both already know how that goes
And I know
(I know)
I’m not the punchline for your comedy show
A part of me wants you to be decisive make up your mind
(Make up your mind)
But I won’t force myself on you
So no, I won’t
(No, I won’t)
Continue to go down this road
(No, no)
You’re not worth it to me to compromise my being
I need my peace
(Keeping my peace)
Ohh
Tell me where your head is

What is the meaning of our love to you?
(To you)
Is it worth the commitment or are you not with it
Is it worth it for you?
(For you)

What is the meaning if our love?
What is the meaning?
(What is the meaning)
Ohh ohh
For you

Outro

Uh-uh
(Tell me, tell me)

What is? What is?
(What is?)
What is? What is?
(What is?)
What is?
(What is?)
The meaning baby?
(What is?)
Ohh
(What is?)
(What is?)
(What is?)

Ooh

(What Is) The Meaning Of  prod. CTHACHEF

Prologue 

(Ooh)

Untitled Documents i
The beginning of an era
This is: All For You

Chorus

I did this all for you
I thought it all through
My intentions are pure with you

I want to give you the world 
(The world)
I wanna give it all to you

Verse

To you 
(To you)
You deserve it all
(To you)
Everthing and more
It all goes to you
You’re ar the top of the list
It all goes to you

It all goes to you
(You)

I know we’ve been through thick and thin,
But we got through it
We’re stronger than we think
I’ll hold your hand ‘til the end
I know we’ll make there

Bridge

Its written in the stars
For us to make it far
Just count the constellations with me
We can be

Chorus

I did this all for you
I thought it all through
My intentions are pure with you

I wanna give you the world
I wanna give it all to you

(To you)

You deserve it all

Untitled Documents i  prod Seva

Singer/Songwriter
A Love Story (EP) is now out
@Anonymous_smileyyy on IG
Anonymous.smiley18@gmail.com for business inquiries

(What Is) The Meaning Of prod. CTHACHEF

Ms. B

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