Life Of Pain

My Only Friend

Live Forever (Lil Peep Cover) Ft HKFiftyOne

Art by Emotional Buu https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu
https://twitter.com/emotionalbuu

Lyrics:

Still couldn't say,
Who mothered guilt and delivered the prey?
They roll the credits but I still replay
Over and over, it's over. Ok (again and again)
But I don't know who the enemy was
Reflections show up empty of trust
It was you feelin lost, lookin for rest
I was willing to offer the home in my chest

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Along for the ride
As we took off I let fate be our guide
But you shook off what I knew wasn't right
Blood on my neck that's a poisonous bite!
But I didn't let this change me
In one week like relapse
I went down in slow steps,
Lost hope like bad romance
Next thing you know I'm in entirely numb
On a dangerous road, say I had a good run

If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to pay my debt
If I could I would take it all back
Not to self save, but to free your head

I made
One beautiful mistake
and I pay for it every single day
Now you hate me in every single way
And I know that'll never ever change

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward
X2

Now the Devil's made his home on both my shoulders
As I get older I yield to the smolder

Now I've got a shadow
A two dimensional symbol of how shallow
It shows up with the sun to throw all that I've done
On the floor, can't ignore, but move forward

Shadow

skele - thoughts (+ irby x dead spyro)

You make me wanna die baby girl that’s not a figure of speech
I got a razor blade just incase I need a release
A little blood dripping down off the edge of my cheek
And I don’t know why I got so high

I wanna die baby girl that’s not a figure of speech
I got a razor blade just incase I need a release
A little blood dripping down off the edge of my cheek
And I don’t know why I got so high last week

A little bit psycho ay
Yeah you can call me what you like hoe
I guess it could have been a typo
Shit, I think it mighta been right though

You make me wanna die baby girl that’s not a figure of speech
I got a razor blade just incase I need a release
A little blood dripping down off the edge of my cheek
And I don’t know why I got so high

I wanna die baby girl that’s not a figure of speech
I got a razor blade just incase I need a release
A little blood dripping down off the edge of my cheek
And I don’t know why I got so high last week

I think I might of took too much
Yeah I got a love hate with the rush
I guess I really don’t mean that much
Shit

It don’t matter either way
Either way, yeah 
I’m dead inside either way yeah

I feel asleep, woke up in a grave yeah
People do it everyday yeah ay

NOTHING MATTERS

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feeling like im gunna break but
I dont wanna get fucked up tonight
ive got so much to say but
the time is never right
put on another sad song
the feeling never lasts long
the feeling never lasts long
trying hard to be strong
feeling doesn't last long
feeling doesn't last long

I just really wanna feel normal for once
but all my past traumas make it hard to trust
I know you love me
I heard what you said
but its really hard to listen inside of this head
when the demons seem to feast
on keeping me to my bed
I always start to wonder if im better off dead
but ill learn they aint shit
imma live instead
drop a song with Van and try to chase that bread

*Yung Van

one second youre here
and now your gone
I dont wanna believe, its been that long
ive been crying all night, im not so strong
I know you've left, but im not ready to move on

now youre living out your life
just beyond the veil
I wish I could have said I love you, but I never will
I keep a picture of you 
right beside my bed side still
just in case you want to visit
but you never will

I just really wanna feel normal for once
but all my past traumas make it hard to trust
I know you love me
I heard what you said
but its really hard to listen inside of this head
when the demons seem to feast
on keeping me to my bed
I always start to wonder if im better off dead
but ill learn they aint shit
imma live instead
drop a song with Van and try to chase that bread

Thanks for listening :)

If I Told You This Was Killing Me  ft. Yung Van (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Unwrap my body from the vines
You're tryin
The soil's watered all the time
It's fine

Swallow that pride
Swallow that pain
If you meet god will you
Plead my case
Bury that lie
Bury that face
When you get tired baby
No it's not safe
Swallow that pride
Swallow that shame
If I get caught
Will you plead my case
Bury that knife
Bury that face
When you get tired baby
No it's not safe

Alive and broken cast aside
You tried
We suffer honestly
We're tied and blind

Pull us apart
I am the pine trees
I am the stars
You're in the driveway
Right where I parked
I am the dark
The deafening quiet of snow

Choking Hazard

@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

Follow me <3

BREATHE (prod. curtains x taxpurposes)

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)

LOVE/HATE

trechor boy x nicoteen ninyo - LOVE/HATE

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If I Told You This Was Killing Me ft. Yung Van (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

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