shoutout @decago n @1altr

every day that passes by
i rly wanna die 
i wanna go 2 sleep forevr i jus wanna cry
ur presense made me feel whole
felt like i could try
n now that ur gone i rly wanna die
restarting my life i wanna fkn damn retry :) 

ik im the problem 
my life that im not solving
counting days till im not here 
cant see myself so clearly
i cant seem 2 escape these problems
i been hiding in the darkness
restarting my life wont solve em 
ik that im the issue- 

i dnt wanna miss u (miss uuu)
i jus wanna kiss u (kiss uuu)
ik im the issue (issue)
crying in my room i miss u

i dnt wanna feel this way jus anymore
i been hating myself 2 the core
i wanna die 
i wanna die baby
i dnt wanna feel my emotions lately
cant keep this 2 myself yeah i cant hide it
evry day that passes by i feel dying
my own life yeah that imma be jus ending
i dnt wanna live this way anymore

itwouldbebetterifiwasdead (decago x altr)

solo <3 @sensuku
botanica pad by @navinor

u were always near

look at me
n stay right here
ur right here		
i cant stop thinking
hide my heart, lest i feel
its not me what i fear

do you truly feel inside?
cos it hurts when you bleed our time
i dont know- im cruel and blind
hand on heart do you hear me cry?

why should i feel at fault
am i wrong just to feel at all
am i wrong just to feel your pulse

save me, i fear my own life

lest i feel

lest i feel (me, navi)

@haunted_sad
ya baby ya u nvr needed me
u left me in the background jus so easily
i let u in i shouldnt have trusted u

shattered dreams scars i wear on my heart
i watched u and me the way that we fell apart
ya u replaced me ya u jus left me
all the lies we had it was neverlasting

i popped a pill to feel alright baby
was always waiting for death to fkn take me
i knew baby that #imtheissue (im the issue)
cryin in my head again think i miss u
idling away in my room im decaying
u left my heart baby ya u jus drained me
u pushed my face in the dirt u betrayed me
ya baby sry tht i couldnt save u :(( 
i thought baby tht i could jus save u
im spiraling back down lately what do i do?
ive been sading away lonely in my fkn room
i wrote all these songs jus tryna forget u
neverending letter baby that u never sent
u ripped the soul outta me left me feeling #dead
i dnt wanna rly feel my heart baby
lately i want death 2 jus take me

i dont feel alright baby
evry single night i want death to take me
lately i dnt wanna feel anymore
i hate myself baby 2 the fkn core ++
..
@ritsuzuki
I broke so many promises
you done messed up for the last time
you gave no fucks about us
you'd rather forget it all
and it hurts me
but now i cant give no fucks anymore
i hate everybody
i cant look them in the face
its like,
no one really sees the truth in my eyes
gotta end it now
its too late its already worse
break the mirror
yeah i messed up my skin forever

yourippedthesouloutofme w/ritsu (spaceboyry)

Special thanks: 
- Instrumental by @rewind214 & @pico-13910899
- Mastering by @soreu_u

A thousand things I can’t convey
There’s so much on mind to say
Won’t you wait... won’t you stay...
Won’t you stay?

The silence I know more each day
Your voice lingers on when I pray
Wide awake, how I lay,
You’re the one,
I crave

Time flew past,
And the tides started turning
Living life fast,
But at night I’m yearning,
Yearning to see you again,
I’m hurting
Knowing I can’t be right there,
I’m certain

I know you’ve moved on
I’m in a city that I hate,
It feels too wrong
Living life estranged for way too long
Yeah I’ve got no place where I belong, no

I want you by my side,
You in my life
For you, I would die
Baby, that’s no lie


a thousand things i cant convey (rewind + pico)

indifferent (hartfxlt + akura)

prod @nazzz333 x @rewind214 !!

shoutout @6vesta and my hollowed twin @1xene

@haunted_sad
i knew baby tht i could never trust u 
i knew baby tht u were a liar from the start
u broke my heart bby its all the same to me
living in a fairytale call it make believe 
i might #flatline bby what do u see in me? 
stuck in second place baby think its meant4me
idling by i been wasting all my time
im always comin back to this point tht i wna die
cryin in my head cause ik im the #issue
i wna go back 2 the better times

@6vesta
i thought u were the one for me 
blood dripping off of the sink
only tell me what u mean
why im crying all the time? 
something i dont know
im holding onto these feelings but i think i should let go 
its something different now
its something i dont feel
its something i cant show u but i promise u its real

why im lying all the time
why im falling all the time
why i give up all the time
why im cutting all the time 
x2
@1xene
in the background
background
is where i stay
yea my hearts bound
hearts bound
to this place
yeah i might drown
might drown in chardonnay
so done
so done w all this pain

take away it all
erase it all
break, girl break my fall
erase it all

ialwayswastedmytime w/ xene + vesta (rewind + naz)

let's get it started.

w/ @kyphosis-201925369

get it started w/ kyphosis (prod. xtasane)

produced by me and @cr1siss + @rxtrx
much love to them 
inspo from @trustt
https://open.spotify.com/track/4xPVcsNXNRyC6pN3xoCtty?si=cf5c44bf62fb4c88

trynna call my phone i wont pick up
all those words you said still get mixed up
im still lookin for my fix yuh
they were never real
like damn that shit sucks

i, dont wanna cry if you'll see it 
say, that you miss me you dont mean it
fall, is my favorite time of season
now, now i hate it and ur the reason

-

and the days been gettin colder
i said im tired and i told her
i need some help i need some closure
it'll never be the same since october
october october
since october
getting colder
i said im tired and i told her

-

i dont know what i want
but im missing something
what did i do wrong?
but cant i feel nothing
(x2)

urthereason

so bad

moveova(prod.stanthekid)

Rewind

18 

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frieren is peak