Xene whenever I read the lyrics of your songs, I know your heart is full of love

A THOUSAND THINGS I CANT CONVEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i dont know how much time i have left

self prod

ִֶָ 𓂃˖˳·˖ ִֶָ ⋆★⋆ ִֶָ˖·˳˖𓂃 ִֶָ

[https://soundcloud.com/ritsuzuki]

(intro)
my heart is hurting i cant think alot
i think im bleeding
i dont wanna see you go,
i dont wanna see you turn,
i think that im broken, im defective, im awful
go ahead and hurt me all your pain is my doctor

(pre-chorus)
i hate my voice and i hate the way i sound
i dont even feel im loved cause nobody else around
now im looking up and down
i feel shitty all around
now im crying all alone
and im sorry to the people that i let down

(chorus)
you wanna hurt me, thats alright
i really wanna die
i dont even wanna try
ima fly high up in the sky
pick me up again
ill fall into your hands
i-i-i dont want this shit to end!

my heart is hurting i cant think alot
i think im bleeding
i dont wanna see you go,
i dont wanna see you turn,
i think that im broken, im defective, im awful
go ahead and hurt me all your pain is my doctor

(post-chorus)
write my will on a fucking song
they'll jus think im fucking singing
when im crying out for help
its the beauty of it all
you dont get me at all
i always give it my all
im fucking sorry for living at all

(break, then chorus loops twice)

((you're too late im already fucking dead))

im sorry (me)

Had so much fun making this track with @ritsuzuki and @reflem!!!

Thanks to @reflem for the mastering on this.

prod. @overoveroverover

Lyrics:

[@drewalongtheglare]
I said it once, and I'll say it again
I never needed your love to begin with
So many things are tryna stop us—we can hold on
And as I’m swimming out the water, feel my heart lock

And I can heal all your scars
I just wanna feel who you are
If you would only give a piece of your heart
There’s like no way we could break apart

And yeah, baby, I think you’ve had enough
We could’ve talked more, but things were said and done
I can breathe enough, I can’t feel a lot
And I could give it my all—it’s always never enough

[@ritsuzuki]
Why are you always like this?
Can't understand it..
What did I do to you??
For you to not see me through..
I can't resist!
You make it look easy
You don't want my heart now..
Why can't you just love me?!

Yeah
I'm falling out..
I'm falling out of time!
I said I'm fine!
You make me wanna cry-y-y
In your arms tonight!
I promise to you baby..
Imma be alright!!

[@reflem]
bby tell me what ur problem is
are we good are we not solving it
like do u even care abt how i feel
all that love i had yeah it wasn't real
ughhh
im gonna leave it right there
like
ughhh
dont go and act like u care
like
ughhh
i woke up feelin nothin
ever since u left i dont wanna try again

Who You Are w/ ritsu & reflem (prod. over)

Instrumental by @yashio20k

I guess that you’re sick of me
You’ve been acting differently
If I’m being honest
You were all I ever wanted
I know that you don’t think of me
I remember you so vividly
An Aphrodite incarnate
But I didn’t mind your sharpness

Oh my tongue’s no good
And my mind ain’t too
Can’t convince you
So what am I to do
I’m in love with you
But your love’s untrue
No matter how long I pursue
The truth won’t be less cruel

It’s so hard for me to open up
You took me in, and dropped me off like you don’t give a fuck
Ah, ah... what a way to mess me up
I think about you every day
You've probably already forgot

But it’s cool though
This ain’t nothing new, no
Chew me up and spit me out
Make me feel like a fool, oh
I’m not someone you should worry about
I know that you don’t, there is no doubt
Nobody wants me around
But I guess it doesn’t matter now

I could scream and I could shout
I’ve lost all I’ve ever found
But I won’t make the faintest sound
’Cause it’ll get drowned out...

aphrodite (yashio)

The weekend goes 2 fast man ...

anime reccomendations pls 🫰

Thanks for listening!

Want it to be true (prod. drew)

@hartfxlt @reijiro3k

in the side of my head
is the soul from the mess
take the time to rest
and decide

you say i dont know you
but i cant give it up
so ill choose
what you dont want me to
say that "its hard but we'll make it through"

stay, wont you stay
we both know theres no other way
dont change your face
you're the place in my heart that i chase
ill always embrace

self sabotage subconsciously
you're in my thoughts just haunting me
I never thought it run this deep
you're loves not a want, I swear its a need
so if you're listening...
I've grown sore, to your insistency 
of your push aways and distancing !

in the side of my head
is the soul from the mess
take the time to rest
and decide

you say i dont know you
but i cant give it up
so ill choose
what you dont want me to
say that "its hard but we'll make it through"

stay, wont you stay
we both know theres no other way
dont change your face
you're the place in my heart that i chase
ill always embrace

the place in my heart + hartfxlt (reijiro3k)

super proud of this one + first self prod <3

##straycatsszn

lyrics:

@1drms
and i js fall in reverse i cant change it
yea bitch and u lied to my face and i hate it
bitch u made me cope and i cannot explain it
cant escape this cell that im in yea u blamed me

and u tied me up and i cant go down
i lost my dignity on the ground
and i wont chase u ill lose my crown
yea n i cant change u ill leave this town
and now im layin here on the ground
falling asleep to ur distant sounds
feel like a prick i dont leave my house
baby make me escape this nightmare

@1akura
tell me why it always feels like i could die
and every single night i wonder why i still try
break me out of these chains, i need to change this
i cant explain it, you kno i hate it
i dont wanna hear u
ima leave u in the rear view
fall in reverse i cant change it
you know that ur one of the worst and u fake it

spotify soon yippie

distant sounds +akura (drms)

As always Thanks 4 listening 🫰

Lyrics:

Everything was fine, until you showed up.
Told you that I’m not scared, I don’t wanna run.
I can’t feel my heartbeat, I can’t feel my lungs.
Lie, leave, repeat — I can never trust.

If it’s really over, prove to me it’s done.
Lying to my face, then you tell me I’m the one.
If I could believe what you said, then I would!
Knew it from the start, I was misunderstood. :/

And I hate that I’m always too late.
Wanna see you say that you had a good day,
’Cause it means everything to me, facing reality.
Having to watch you leave, still I feel so empty tho.

Already said you don’t have to go.
Is it worth it? I think you should move slow.
Your body’s on the edge, feel like I can’t hold.
Had to let you go, hope that you can understand tho. </3

Lie, Leave, Repeat (prod. drew)

Special thanks: 
- Instrumental by @rewind214 & @pico-13910899
- Mastering by @soreu_u

A thousand things I can’t convey
There’s so much on mind to say
Won’t you wait... won’t you stay...
Won’t you stay?

The silence I know more each day
Your voice lingers on when I pray
Wide awake, how I lay,
You’re the one,
I crave

Time flew past,
And the tides started turning
Living life fast,
But at night I’m yearning,
Yearning to see you again,
I’m hurting
Knowing I can’t be right there,
I’m certain

I know you’ve moved on
I’m in a city that I hate,
It feels too wrong
Living life estranged for way too long
Yeah I’ve got no place where I belong, no

I want you by my side,
You in my life
For you, I would die
Baby, that’s no lie


a thousand things i cant convey (rewind + pico)

xene

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