i wish that i could drop these stupid ideas from my head

i wish that i could drop these stupid ideas from my head [prod. funnymxuth]

ambrosia

IMMACULATE

gothic barbie

My Mind

Heartless, Regardless

birdz

if only it were so long ago 
when you shot me down
and i was on my own

cold hard path
it made you laugh
to watch them stab 
at me when i was down 

i’m a token of despair 
the things you wished, i wouldnt dare
if only you could see the effect 
of which the man had put in my head 

drag, drag
drag, drag
drag, drag

a token

I wish I could've done more... a sentiment shared too fucking often. I know my voice is and was irrelevant to the grand scheme, but if he could've known that there was one more person maybe it could've prevented this. Unlikely, but still, a regret to hold until I die. We weren't close, we didn't talk, but I was a fan from the early days. Seeing the swap to Fox and the age of 20XX, to the creation of the B0XX and Nightclub series, to the creation of 1.03, and the repeated requests to be unbanned... I'm not a TO. I'm not a top player, not even locally. I'm not a Smash content creator. I'm just someone who loves the game and has loved the game for a long time, just like Hax. This was not only tragic, but preventable, and we all have to do better. Not just the TOs, not even just the Melee scene, ALL of us. We are in a time of immense apathy and the world is collapsing from our own callousness. People will crush others, strangers and friends alike, to appease themselves. To selfishly gain at their expense. People are ready to trash your reputation and paint you as a villain for opposing their beliefs. People are ready to fight on the daily as long as it's confined to a keyboard, but what will happen when that's no longer viable? When it's no longer a choice? What will they do when they have to stand up? 

Cower down, that's what they'll do.

Shine On (RIP Hax$)

Are you struggling with bipolar or any other personality disorder? While mainly focused on the depressive side of BPD, this song is to highlight the brokenness a person may feel in there depressive episodes. You’re NOT alone. This episode will end!

Lyrics :

slow your breathing 
digest this feeling 

run, i’m changing again 
don’t wanna drag you in my rain 
hold on to me
while i ruminate 

every second hits different 
i don’t know how to feel 
when i feel it’s overwhelming 
while intrusive it’s too real 
know my body is the same 
but my skin just starts to peal
there’s no filter in my brain
so my guts they start to spill 
if i medicate in vacant 
if im here, im climbing hills 
i may seem okay to you
but my mental needs a shield 
you turn around 
my face reveals 

run,
i’m changing again 
don’t wanna drag you in my rain
(sun may come but it’s not enough)
crave, 
the love i know you give 
but i know ill drain you 
(the storm it swallows to feed)

just can’t make decisions 
i know that i’ll be wrong 
i know that you’ll be stuck here
Reflecting on my flaws
i wanna feel so capable,
i wanna feel enough 
but when you look back
i’m not the person that you see 
I told you id change 
Baby, my self esteem 
My existence, a migraine 

run, i’m changing again 
don’t wanna drag you in my rain 
(my brain is broken you see?)
Love 
i can love bomb
what i’ve known all along 
(the sickness inside me)

I’m Warning You because I Know Myself by Naomiisdark

I wanna inspire the youth to push forward. I wanna inspire the adults to feel again. I wanna inspire myself to love me as I do others

a token

naomiisdark