I wrote this on the acoustic guitar but immediately heard Electronic, Rock, Reggae, Latin and even some Jazz subconscious influences. I decided to go with synth and bass to see if I could build a heavy groove without drums. I used a shaker and a Rhodes style piano to add layers of energy and help drive the track forward. Emotionally for me, this song is energetic but still breathes with space to reflect on moments when a loved one seems to be pulling away. 

Lyrics:

So now we’re waiting
We thought that we made it
Can’t fill the empty
With memories spent
We were foolish and filthy

I caught you longing
Who am I to say that it’s the wrong thing
To pull your focus
And live like a ghost is
The world you have chosen

And now my hardest day
Is the one when I’m least afraid
And although you tried
There’s so much left unexplained
When the one that you’re closest to
Was not the one you came running to
When you felt betrayed

Now I’m seeking
Answers from someone not speaking
If not for hard times
Cold nights and smart lies
My faith wouldn’t fit right

Now the hardest truth
Is the one that I always knew
And the deepest blue
Is the one that I dove into
We practiced our whole lives
And picked the sharpest of the knives
So it’d run clean through

And still we’re breathing
Still aching, still healing
Nothing’s ending
These plates will keep spinning
When we stop pretending

Someone Not Speaking

I was a young man
I came to you when
I needed saving for my soul
I don't need redemption
I don't need affection
I just need 
something I can hold
It's been a long day
Lord, I'm feeling rotten
Cause I've spent a long 
time at the bottom
I've got vices
Lord knows we all got em
I've spent a long 
time at the bottom

Not afraid to say it
Lord knows I won't cave in
and I'm not looking for 
your guiding hand
I don't seek your approval
Lord no, don't you worry
I'm not about to hurry
to your promised land
I'm a good man 
who's forgotten
I've spent a long 
time at the bottom
I've got vices
Lord knows we all got em
I've spent a long 
time at the bottom

Life beat me down
I took a pill for it
Cause who am I to argue
with your medicine
I'll drink it down
and wash my pain away
and if it's not a problem
why is it so hard to say
why is it so hard to say
I've got vices
Lord knows we all got em
I've spent a long 
time at the bottom
It's been a long day 
Lord, I'm feeling rotten
I spent a long 
time at the bottom
I'm a good man
Lord, have you forgotten
I spent a long
time at the bottom

Long Time at the Bottom (9/12/25)

natelogston