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80 Bars Part 3

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80 Bars Part 5

Breath - pluto

This is a story
Start out happy
ends  up boring
outside it's pouring
Inside it's storming
gory movies playing
on the t.v. it's driving me insane
I think about the way the I'll die
and if you'll remember my name
my name
my name

Tell you that I'll change
do more of the same
Every day feeling a little bit  
more deranged
disengaged from society
high off of sobriety
we've come too far
we've come too far
for you to try to lie to me
I won't fall apart quietly
I won't leave till your smiling
I'm dialing your phone number
wake you from your slumber
spit out all my guts
prolly watch you as you leave me
love is tough
and hate is easy
I'm cliche and this is cheesy

I will laugh as you will tease me
I'm having a hard time breathing
You and the reefer have an odd effect
Kiss you goodbye 
when i get home send you a text

Misery loves company
and iron sharpens iron
I can't help but feel a failure
giving into my desires
this is me
if you don't like it you can leave
I promise I will guide you
long as you listen to me

and if I come up short
I take it out on myself
I take it out on my health
I'm self destructive
I don't listen to nothin

my flow comes with a current
you get caught up in it
I'm not of this world
I was brought up in it
taught to finish
what I start
use my mind
ignore my heart
you're my lights
when life is dark
just wait until the spring baby
Just like you & me
everything'll be blossoming baby
alright I'mma go out on a wing
and say you like it when I sing to you
Make time for each other
but we both have other things to do
I like you so I can't help but make fun of
and be mean to you

....
Money's not enough
it still takes love to make a man of me
Right now hit this tree but maybe someday start a family?
Who am I kidding
I don't even know
I ain't gonna rush it
let's just take it slow
I don't need to know
and I don't wanna
plenty fish in the sea
most of them pirannahs
I'm just being honest
because I could never lie to you
 I'm inside your mind
when I am physically inside of you
but just in case that's not enough
You make me blush when I least expect it
All my angers misdirected
I don't really mean it
I'm just busy fighting demons
 constant brink of extinction
not to mention
I'm tired and exhausted
But I still ain't lost the
spark that started
Me to want to be an artist

I'm here, I'll be here until the day  they take me
Label me a threat cuz of the way I am behaving
Got a storm inside me raging
Waiting to become uncaged
Tryna to keep up with the pace
I hear the sound of closing gates
 behind me

with the people that hate me
trying to find me
 this is a nightmare
This is a night where
nothings going right    
I'm tired of life
and I just might do something stupid
Have you ever felt this useless?    

Everytime I take a break
I let down my guard
it's so easy forming habits
why is quitting so damn hard
Like shit, this isn't good for me
So why do I keep doin it?
And using it
and feeling guilty
i swear this isn't the real me




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  El Ten Eleven - My Only Swerving


6th Grade Love Letter

Free Download here: http://www.growingupsong.com 
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I wish that I could say that I was in a “better place” when I found out the news.  It would make for a far more polished and respectable story.  But I think back to that night: praying on the floor at 2am as Tricia went to the bathroom to take the pregnancy test I’d just purchased from Walgreens.  I was scared.  Scared to start working on new music.  Scared of trying again and failing.  Scared of the process of staring at myself through a page and seeing someone that I wasn’t proud of.  Someone that I didn’t like.  Someone that wasn’t ready to be a dad.

I’ve always had some make-believe image in my head of who I would be as a father.  I held on to clear expectations of where I wanted be in my career, my age, my level of self-care, and my maturity.  I basically assumed that I'd have it all together.  But in actuality the hypothetical “dad" version of me looked completely different than the man whose heart was beating out of his chest on the carpet, praying to a god or spirit I hadn’t talked to in months.  When Tricia walked out of the bathroom, I knew. And I knew I had to change.

5 months later we were recording in a remote cabin away from the density that is Seattle.  I was finally having fun in the studio for the first time in years.  Songs were getting made, finally. I was going back to the city once a week to attend a birthing class with Tricia.  When I got back to the cabin the next day, Ryan had made a new beat that would eventually become the song you’re listening to.  Half of it is advice about growing up.  The other half is trying to figure out how to grow up myself.

When you try to escape yourself, life has an interesting way of creating situations that force you to come back.  To look at who you are.  This is why “Growing up” felt like the right song to re-emerge with.  It’s where I’ve been the last year, through all the ups and downs.   We didn’t want to do a big campaign or anything over the top with this.  We just wanted to put out good music, directly to the people that have been here since the beginning.  Thank you for your patience. Hope you enjoy.

And if you’re wondering…

Our daughter, Sloane Ava Simone Haggerty was born 2 months ago on May 29th.  There is nothing like the joy and happiness that comes from bringing a baby into this universe.  She has filled my heart in ways that I never knew were possible.  She is the love of my life.  This song is for her. 

-Ben

Credits

Performed by Macklemore
Produced by Ryan Lewis
Featuring Ed Sheeran

Written by: B. Haggerty; R. Lewis; E. Sheeran; J. Karp; O. Arunga; J. Rawlings

Bass by Joshua "Budo" Karp
Piano by Joshua Rawlings and Joshua "Budo" Karp
Guitar by Ryan Lewis and Joshua "Budo" Karp
Trumpet by Owuor Arunga
Trombone by Greg Kramer
Vibraphone by Susan Pascal
Group Vocals by Deshe' Brooks, Tanisha Brooks, Sherri Charleston, Josephine Howell, Dana Jackson, Karma Johnson, Russell Leonce, Shaunyce Omar, Sally Reavis, Austin Rickel, Francisca Shaw, Maelu Strange and Liah Walker

Mixed by Jon Castelli
Mastered by Dale Becker
Engineered by Stephen Hogan
Assistant Engineered by Dave West (London Bridge Studios) and Scott Cedarholm (Avast Studios) 
Engineer for mix Ryan Nasci

Macklemore Publishing (BMI)
Ryan Lewis Publishing (BMI)
Gutterfunk (ASCAP)
Arunga Music (BMI)
Joshua Rawlings (ASCAP)

Ed Sheeran Limited and Sony/ATV Music Publishing (UK)
Ed Sheeran appears courtesy of Asylum Records UK Ltd

© 2015 Macklemore, LLC. All rights reserved.

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Growing Up (Sloane's Song) Feat. Ed Sheeran

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Calling My Name ft. Amindi K. Fro$t(DAPURR ON SPOTIFY)

[chorus]
your flaws aren't even flaws to me
and when you're feeling sad
know that you can always talk to me
she has a low cut shirt
that's a booby trap
she know i'm a dog
i call her a Scooby Snack
we smoked & then we made love
you could say I got the high score
You're so pretty looking at you makes my eyes sore

[verse 1]
No wonder i feel like a loser
i ain't been outside all day
i've been in front of the computer 
playing first person shooters
while she's working at hooters

and it feel like forever ago
I saw you glow
I gave you roses
I left them on your porch
it was partly cloudy on the night of July 4th
and you weren't home so I left you a note
I'm always sarcastic but this isn't a joke
I miss you, yeah, whatever
Go home, get high, forget her

Fuck bitches get cheddar right?
one hit single and you set for life
something just to get em hype
keep em payin attention
keep em fallin in love 
keep em falling in line
never falling behind
i'm never not on my grind

You're a keyboard
without the space bar
You're a bartender
I fucking hate bars
But i drink on occasion
Usually blazing
typically cool but pretty impatient
my soul is ancient but my body is fresh
I got a lot of love to give & some hope to express
and when I'm dying I will give you my best
you can have my bones and blood it ain't nothing but flesh

You're physically rich
But your soul is starving  
would have got to heaven 
but you couldn't find parking
spiritually drained
and mentally exhausted
You didn't even give your love away
you lost it

You got in my head like DMT
I saw myself inside of you
what did you see inside of me?
 
i saw the future
moving furniture in
us laughing
having drinks with out friends
God forgiving me for all of my sins
& you loosening up because you seem really tense

if a good guy can have a bad past
and a skinny girl can have a fat ass
then a white kid can rap
and a black kid can play chess
they mad that I'm skinny
I'm just mad that I don't weigh less

If you inside my head
then why my heart heavy?
huh? tell me why my heart heavy?

I am a nomad but you already know that
once you get me started im impossible to hold back

I am a nomad, you already know that
Once you get me started I'm impossible to hold back

[chorus]

[verse 2]
Stop rewind never let this happen
you don't even care you were just really good at actin
i am so sick of losing myself inside of distractions
i need something that will last
not just another piece of ass
I mean I'm young but I'm not dumb
I don't want you for your body
I want you for your love

i'm going in
like I don't care if you reject me
it's 99 percent a no
but that's still a one percent you let me in
on all your secrets
in that calloused heart where you keep them
I've thought of you for weeks
and now we're  finally face to face
so, how are ya?  great
I really do care 
I just don't know how to show it
i've been fucked up for so long
that it's just hard to stay focused
you can see my movements
 only God will know my motives
that's why i blow this
i try an be a light that others notice
i try to be happy
 when inside i'm hopeless
everytime you smile
it becomes the Summer solstice 
warmer than your sunkissed soul is
and with the way that you were dancin 
I would think that  you were Polish
with the way that I am flowin 
you would think that I had stole it
but I didn't,
the beer is cold and the bowls lit
i put my life on it, I put my soul in it

[outro]

if i put on my best will you show me your worst?
i got so much love inside me that sometimes it start to hurt
why is everything a blessing and a curse at the same time?
who she loves and who she hate is the same guy 

[chorus]



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Champagne And Pools (feat. Blackbear & KYLE)

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Memories

(intro)
 I used to sleep with the light on 
Cuz I was afraid of things I could not see
Well, I grew up just to find out
The monsters were inside of me

My mother read to me
beautiful stories
and would pray with me
when it was thunderstorming

when I close my eyes
I feel you here with me
lending me your love
granting your blessings

I grew old over night
and it seems like
nothings changed
but everythings changed

(verse 1)

So there's a party at my crib
are you comin?
you know me imma be (im-a-bee), already buzzin
fuck,   sorry I'm tryna stop cussin
but when I'm drunk you can't really tell me nothin

They try to label me
but my new shit sweet as maple leaf
this is all just make believe
we walk around just breaking things

unaware of our effect we
kill each other indirectly
my mind matches my room 
cuz every day that shit gets messy
  
and nothings gonna change
unless we 
change ourselves
and it's really weird cuz in a way
i swear the pain will help

shake you,
wake you,
from that numbness
there's still treasure
in your cargo
even though your ship has sunken
this is for the kids 
who ain't have money for the function
so they sittin in they room
smokin a little somethin

this is a hope for the youth
this is food for the poor
you were new to the neighborhood
So I knocked on your door
with a cake that I baked you
like welcome to the lake view
where everybody loves you
and nobody hates you

(verse 2)

 Even demons know that God exists
sometimes the rarest diamonds 
you can find inside a pot of shit
tell me that I got to quit
watch me keep on doing it
put my soul into it
cuz my heart would just ruin it

when you feel like you can't
that's when you got to
show em your flaws
take off your costume

hate inspired by envy 
I'll pretend we never heard it
I smoke weed when I'm nervous
I smoke weed when I'm bored
I smoke weed when I smoke weed
then I smoke weed some more
You feel my love on the surface
but it comes from my core

Tryna set an example but I keep making mistakes
everyone I meet is fake
my real friends been here
been there, done that
you can shed light with one match
i drop knowledge
that's fun facts
catch me where the sun is at
believe me it's hard but looks easy
I'm high & I'm sleepy
you're so cold you say "i'm warm" when it's freezing

Flesh of the gods, ingested by humans
you saw beauty in your pain
and that got rid of the gloom
and when you stepped out of your room 
it was beautiful
take a trip outside your mind
out of your cubicle

I used to be so sure, now I'm just suicidal
I said I was sorry, but kept on worshipping idols
I am love, I don't need a title
when you see me get your camera out 
like it's your daughter's dance recital

I keep it real I don't need a facade
I put love into my music
and i put my faith in God

Lakeview

Made another song with my good friend Gracie Abrams. Our friendship has truly evolved after working together on many tracks now lolololololol she's cool... we took pics right after and it was lit. She got a green tea boba at urth and I got a mixed green salad. I recommend listening to this after you finish your mixed green salad at urth :) <3 -dapurr

You treat me like you hate me (ft. Gracie Abrams)(DAPURR ON SPOTIFY)

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Misunderstood

Formerly - The Faded Youth

independent / alternative

My promise to you is to reciprocate all the love that you show me. To give back all that I'm given. 

Desiring to make the world a better place means first, being a better person. You can't be a better person without knowing what it is to be good. Good is not defined by looking out at those around you who share in your fallen, imperfect, brokenness, but upwards to a holy God who is perfect in love.

Misunderstood

Nathaniel Scott