produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

just leave me alone
over halfway down the street
babe  jus wanna go home

i get the feeling u vacant in every seat that take 
new conversation, the same shit
now all of this food is just tasteless

looking out in the distance 
i can still hear u say bye
jus reminiscing 
ig guess time flies
causing the dimming of light
dont make up ur mind till 
the fragments aline

just hold it there in place
warm the coldest state
forget th bigger pic
and lose a sense of space

no no no never no
eyes at the back of my head fully grown
but i cannot see the world fall to my toes

i never expected this
u never mentioned this
nods and sighs
we dont speak in sentences

cold, affection less
never questioning
stoped to care
but thats worse than ending it

“are u okay”
u “said i miss u” i turn to ur face
words to my grave
i won’t disclose what i felt that whole day
coz i thought u had changed

woah woah woah leverge woah
moved way too fast but ignoring th past yet if a meteorite crashed
yeh i think u would know
sometimes i wish and i hope
that, u would reciprocate this back 
theres a big a difference between a i miss u 
and my i love u so

no no no never no
get rid from ur rotation, playing it safe wasting time when we can move it the edge of the globe

dont wanna not live in this world but the walls are so thin 
no amount or brick or stone could make me suffice with this life
if ur not in the plans its a house not a home

never expected this
and now im crossing every bridge
burns behind me
there’s no way back to bliss

i hate myself 
so i read these passages
lock the safe
but they’re always cracking it

always go fast
but i never fasten it
if it hits hard please stop masking it
deep and buried 
always be asking it
surprised ive lasted this long

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up
at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

never expected this x8

th_inventor (killedmyself)

lyrics

im just sitting at the bus stop while its pouring 
wishing u were here
waiting for a call before im off to the middle nowhere

even tho my mind is numb
still u swirl around in my head
the idea of being broken’s more calming than u in my bed

ohhh i thought that what we had was something special 
i guess i was wrong
i leaned all of my in to ur arms and then u let me drop

even tho my mind is numb
still u swirl around in my head
the idea of being broken’s more calming than u in my bed

im fucking drenched now 
and u just gonna let me rot

drenched (rez productions)

pessimism (prod. swaine)

dnd (2020)

find solace <3

mix & mastr by me 😱

lyrics

wear your heart out on ur sleeve now that ur bleeding out
there’s a lot more u will see now that ur leaving town
pressing screens, live like feins i can’t tell u everything but what u hear u gotta scream it loud

nearly accepted what i preach but do u mean it now
there’s not a lot more i can teach with that defeated frown
i can sense a force that’s tense and did i mention still affection coz the trees that we grew from weren’t from different ground

baby i’m tryna ‘scape reality 
coz maybe this life we live ain’t what it seem
ur point of view is something i’d love to believe
but when you’ve lived inside this hole so long it’d hurt even looking up to see

now
feel the breeze now 
and trees now
hear the voices speak now

i’m sorry for my point of view and i can take it back
and i’ll try help with all the damage that i caused but that
isn’t a promise i’m just not one to hold my word when the futures as uncertain as my mental (verge on the collapse)

and if i’m honest
we’re living in a lodge amidst a fire in th forest
it’s in ur gut so save urself before it’s too late i’m sure ur prolly sick of hearing all this logic
im sick cant stop it
lets change the fucking topic

fire in th_forest (yasuma)

u dont like me (prod. eric godlow)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall

nevrfall's yt: https://www.youtube.com/@prod.nevrfall1669


/lyrics/ 

stagnation
i try to touch the wall but my hand just phases through
patience
everyday same old thoughts just different phrasing
i can't hear you talk
I'm spacing
out
pulse racing
I'm breaking
down

throw my fist through the air
breaking knuckles against the wall
I'm not real
I'm not real
at all

head blown
started throwing objects
haven't left the bed
mom thought i was a carcass
i can't even write now
not even an artist
fuck all of the fake shit
ive been getting nauseous
i don't wanna say shit
that i don't mean regardless
had to take a break
i just had to leave the darkness
things ain't looking up
and i don't really care now
i just need to keep to myself
I'm prepared now

four months passed
and ithought i was goner
i can feel my heart beat
feel it getting faster

i just need some time
to get out of my mind
OK
need to clear a path
get the fuck out my way
it feels like
no matter what i say
i end up in the same
forsaken place

stagnation
i try to touch the wall but my hand just phases through
patience
everyday same old thoughts just different phrasing
i can't hear you talk
I'm spacing
out
pulse racing
I'm breaking
down

0.1 (nevrfall)

Organic

eternal circles

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