So calming and charming and wonderful 😩😩

original description from sometime in summer 2025: "if this is ever uploaded publicly in its demo state, it means i’m planning on taking my life, and this is the last song you may ever hear from me. going out sad i suppose lmao"

edit as of november 7th at 11:23pm: "this is being uploaded the moment i turn 22. ill be okay soon enough. this song deserves to exist. you deserve to hear it. it's yours. i'm not going anywhere"

art by cnri, my best friend. original cover art for scrapped third album

unmastered, lightly mixed. cnri also helped me write lyrics

burdenée (demo)

Perry Point VA Medical Center 18.m4a

this is very rough but i wanted to share something

after the rain

i’ve told you a million times you’re not someone to just get over
and i know this never works out right, you could never hold me, not unless we were older

& i woke up from a dream, the middle of the night,
found you weren’t next to me, pretended it was fine, you can’t make this any better
& i saw you leaving & i chased you down outside,
told you i still love you, but i know, yeah, it’s alright, you can’t make this any better
not unless we were older, not unless we were older

& we both know exactly how this ends, so it’s safer to just keep our distance
but it always comes right back to you, & i’m falling at your feet, for the second time this week

& i woke up from a dream, the middle of the night, wrote you a novel about wishing we were fine
i can’t make this any better
& i saw you leaving & i chased you down outside,
told you i still love you, but i know we can’t change minds, i can’t make this any better

& it always comes right back to you,
& i know it, & you know it, & the rest of them do, too
& i keep singing these songs to you,
the first one only five days short of hitting on year two
& i know this never works out right,
but when i look into your eyes, i feel like putting up a fight
& it always comes back to you,
yeah, we know it, yeah, we know it, yeah we both know that it’s doomed

not unless we were older, not unless we were older

not unless we were older (jan 2016 voice memo version)

Getting Back

one gal walks into a cafe, headphones are best <3 enjoy

LYRICS:

lady walks in so subtle
red buttons on her silly sweater
drenched from the rain w/ her broken umbrella
asks if you have a minute

she says, "today's not my day, not my day
showed up to work a half hour late
locked myself out of my car, left my wallet in my house, today is not my day not my day
today is not my day, not my day"

burnt her tongue on her macchiato
a goofy smile placed above her chin
big blonde bun on the top of her noggin
infects me w/ her contagious grin, she says,

"today is not my day, not my day
I woke up an hour late, hour late
spilled my coffee on my shoes
but what am i trying to prove
it's okay not to be okay
everybody has those days"

little lady walks out of the cafe
she says "thank you for your time"
claims i made up her whole day, her whole day
i said "no, darlin you made mine"

i say, today has not been great, not so great
my missing glasses are somewhere on the highway
but you walked in today with a big smiley face
you turned my frown upside down
made me smile for awhile
and i don't even know your name
my bad luck for burning my pancakes
my bad timing for staying up too late
but i believe that everything happens for a reason
a certain timing and it becomes a whole meanin'
but as i was saying
just dont keep waiting
for a great big change

enjoy every little moment, even if it's the worst
because no matter what, you'll hop right over it
just because you made a mistake doesn't make the whole day bad, no
so today, today's been okay day

Floral

Lady

This medley brings together songs from Christian Akridge's SoundCloud and his Hope EP. We decided to create this cover because we are truly inspired by his talented works. We wanted to do something special in dedication to Christian. The title for this medley, Spectrum, was chosen because of the gamut of emotions conveyed through Christian's lyrics of love and heartbreak.

Spectrum - A Christian Leave Medley

[a]n[g]els

Lyrics: 
Whatever you said, that much breath shouldn't be wasted on it
Whenever a sentence is dead, we always tend to ponder about it
I realize why we've been looking for shore so long, cool enough and
all of the water takes me, waves will always sink

Tell them what you know
Tell them what I know 
We lost all control 
Tell them what we know

A better feeling, one we've had
Sweeter days, dressed up in clad
Can't be surprised when something horrid goes on so long, 
blanket it and hush like a baby, eventually will end up on it's side

Tell them what you know
Tell them what I know 
We lost all control 
Tell them what we know (x2)

and when, and when I go 
and when, and when I show you right
and when, and when I go 
and when, and when I told you right
the deaf can't ever listen
we don't care cuz, we don't care cuz we don't ever pull the levers
we just got it, we've been finding, we've just got it
I cannot be, I cannot be that crazy side
and in my mind, what do I know? 

Can't hate a bird song when they fly overhead so long,
enticing but I get a feeling that they only sing to make me cry

Tell them what you know
Tell them what I know 
We lost all control 
Tell them what we know (x2)

Sinking

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