my heavy shit

DISCOGRAPHY

2021

October 2021

꧁october21꧂

lyrics:

I could save a life yea
Just by taking mine yea
Wait until I drink now
Now Let me run this by ya

Mod
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up

Im fine on my own
Hard times still come to close
But not mine they are homeWith my life they will mold
I am Tied to u
And u Tied to me
I had tried pulling backwards
But cuffs dont work that way
She had went loose on me
I am in fight or flight
She is in ecstasy
And she might go all night tonight
But she swear to me she changed
Well that’s all u had to say
I could save a life yea
Just by taking mine yea
Wait until I drink now
Now Let me run this by ya

Mod
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up

a_nightmare (jabarionthebeat x armen)

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nobody

lyrics:

He is not the one
I am not the one
But damn im pretty close
But we just playing on frail love 
With me baby just picket the bag wallet or watch he on the fence about it like he put the for sale up
Im eating heavy on these beats while he just picking the kale up
That jealousy in his cells and im just Pushing the bail up
She text me 20 times I read it all at once like baby im picking the mail up

I could say some shit I shouldn’t
But I keep it all to me
I could say some shit u wouldn’t like
She like oh u think u socrates
Bitch words are my job yea
Id bless u thru my teeth
If u talk cordially
Yea I aint have a choice to be great no no I just gotta be yea
Oh im really ready
Bitch im ready Freddy
I pull up with my guys like ed ed and eddy
I stack soup cups
I guess This that alphaghetti
Why would I need a therapist with half a bokkle left of remy
Random ass face tryna fuck me right
Catch me in a time when my confidence spiked
That only comes when im drunk and high
Like that one song U lucky that im both tonight
Running my fade I dont try to attract static
If I let the goons out they gon reek havoc
Boy u fucking with the scum u got to have brain damage
They gon leave u with a wound that u unable to bandage
My conscience put me right but my brain made me an addict
Count the money I had spent on liquor Id by a patek
If its not in the bank then I keep it in the attict
I dont know his bitch but he all mad she my fanatic

He is not the one
I am not the one
But damn im pretty close
But we just playing on frail love 
And ive had plenty times where it turn into a stale love
Im not tryna be cold im just scared imma fail love
I pull on this bape over my head and I vibe
I think about the moment where I know I shouldve died
So Even when im down im still grateful im alive
If u touching down turn around im in my mind for the night

the2 (jabarionthebeat x kxvi x lavish)

lyrics:

I was just tryna help I couldn’t care bout how they hate on me
Why u asking someone I never met to hear they take on me
If u tryna be funny I aint laughing where the punchline at
Growing up I would’ve died if I aint learn to bounce back
I think im playing dress up in this bitch with all this bape on me
U aint got a rack upon that rack but I 8 on me
Not a dry text but my boy said “I got that k on me”
Baby I live fast out here I told u do not wait on me
I am not no bop it for u hoe so please dont play with me
My friends something like family u would think at night they ate with me
Plus they all some dogs if they ate they eating pedigree
Told u if u feel a way about someone tell me hastily
Why u think the water moving up in the bitch
I grew out the gutter on my crocodile shit
I got a hole inside my heart that im unable to fix
Bitches come and go but u stay inside the mix
U pretty outside but on the inside u sick
And Theres no skin care routine out there to fix that shit
Dropped from the game but I resurrected
Im getting money now look what I did
Yea im really really on
Must be sour knowing after all u really wrong
Man I put that on me
Man I put that on god
And id put that on my seed but I got plenty children up inside the flow
This a nightmare
But u dont wake up from it
Girl im right here
On the stratosphere
Me and jabari on this comet we reside here We alright here

They drop me at the vibe
U cannot see my side
She cannot get inside
Im like Baby im sorry I tried
I get a whole tank
Im tryna quench the pride
20 deep with my guys
Feel like im ten foot five

I dont care im turnt up
God blessed me im live
They fill his face with red dots
No acne not no hives
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I dont know if he dies
I dont know very much
I just know that im alive
Please oh please dont test me im afraid ill get too messy
With his bitch in tellys on my time she get too wetty
Blow in this bitch confetti
Swear imma blow in this bitch like Betty
Pressing me here u stagnant 
We so deep in this bitch its pregnant

They drop me at the vibe
U cannot see my side
She cannot get inside
Im like Baby im sorry I tried
I get a whole tank
Im tryna quench the pride
20 deep with my guys
Feel like im ten foot five

night t3rror (jabarionthebeat x lucabeats)

lyrics:

From this treatment I was buried
But from this dirt I will grow
I took 2 its getting scary
But when I hurt I evolve

Some how I keep on breathing
I couldn’t tell u the reason
I think I need me some Jesus
Cause half of my guys are some demons
They got the arms like tarantula
Ion play games castlevania
Kush had put me in Andromeda 
Bitch im the shit im the enema
I think I made me some enemies
And half of them once were a friend of me
They tryna bring me calamity
I was just happy they thought of me
That 42 spill in my arteries
Giving my anger to fix our dichotomies
U put in work for the salary
I put in work its a part of me

All this emotion I push out my mouth in this bitch and u still shleep
I couldn’t have it I made it my goal to be humble and gain cheese
Everything i ever brought to my name came right out from my own teeth
I do not make new friends because plenty of people betrayed me
I just been getting high yea
I cant be teary eyed
People look up to me
I just cannot see why
I stay up touring just thinking in bed
How we would be if it was up to my head
I just checked in baby
I was going to call u
I dont want to talk about it
Until u lower the volume
Itching at my skin baby
She like I control u
Im thankful for my sins
Cause it taught me that u sin too

Some how I keep on breathing
I couldn’t tell u the reason
I think I need me some Jesus
Cause half of my guys are some demons
They got the arms like tarantula
Ion play games castlevania
Kush had put me in Andromeda 
Bitch im the shit im the enema
I think I made me some enemies
And half of them once were a friend of me
They tryna bring me calamity
I was just happy they thought of me
That 42 spill in my arteries
Giving my anger to fix our dichotomies
U put in work for the salary
I put in work its a part of me

i_evolve (jabarionthebeat x dasda x moneyevery)

october - trust u (slowed + reverb)

lyrics:

Everything I ever said to myself if my head it done came true
Waking up I dont wanna do it I pop me perc and im brand new
30 on 30 on 30 I think that my skin finna turn blue
I couldn’t deal with the pressure this shit happened quickly on two twos
Drinking and smoking some cookie in here until I am not able to move
She wanna fuck me raw but I dont want pussy I want brain
Some of these girls so trife they dont want connection they want fame

Ok ok
I have not eaten in four days
Fitting my fits too loosely
But None of my shit been bootleg
Woah
Pouring myself ace
Fuck it I pour this whole ace
Checking my phone she thirsty
She give me head like Olay
Said she dont fuck with artists
But she had ubered to me unwanted
She know I got a good night in my pocket
Everything I do she tell me shed pop it
Bitch u need to off it
Im here singing on beats for profit
U could easily be replaced
Right now im tryna be off of my face
Im blowing cookie and orange and purple.  until I am falling in deep space
Im tryna fuck u I fuck u and dip out this bitch and the convo get erased
Im going crazy and crazy and crazier I dont think I wanna drop pace
Im tryna push it till I couldn’t do it but lately I start to deteriorate 

Everything I ever said to myself if my head it done came true
Waking up I dont wanna do it I pop me perc and im brand new
30 on 30 on 30 I think that my skin finna turn blue
I couldn’t deal with the pressure this shit happened quickly on two twos
Drinking and smoking some cookie in here until I cannot move
She wanna fuck me raw but I dont want pussy I want brain
Some of these girls so trife they dont want connection they want fame

blU (jabarionthebeat x david)

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depressednimlit

RINGA LINGA - Teayang ( KAIZ Remix )
Club House / Hanoi / Vietnam
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Club House / Hanoi / Vietnam
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Tremblay - In The Clouds (prod. Kenan Belzner)

PRICK

666, DEVIL IN PHYSICAL FORM

ALL OF THE SHAME MADE ME SHAMELESS

BROKEN HUMAN BEING

CREEP

I Fucking Hate My Life

But I Choose U Instead

i really loved her

Whyd U Reach Out N Grab Me?

i was only 19, when i realized u would kill me

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/lpuff 

lyrics:

I had a dream last night 
some may call it a nightmare 
but I live for the fear 
I like the dark essence that 
runs through the air 
I live for the pain only reason I’m here 
where would I be without 
the aches upon my skin 
or the marks up on my heart 

I hate that you think you tore me apart 
I did it to myself when I tried too hard 

I had a dream last night 
saw your shadow in the distance 
whimper in fear but don’t get 
me wrong I live for the fear 
so come a little closer closer 
I wanna whisper something in your ear 

I had a dream last night 
talked to the ghosts of my past 
told them my stories how nothing ever lasts 
Share all my pain how I'm tryna move on 
Wish this life didn’t seem so long

depressednimlit

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