October 2021

lyrics:

I could save a life yea
Just by taking mine yea
Wait until I drink now
Now Let me run this by ya

Mod
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up

Im fine on my own
Hard times still come to close
But not mine they are homeWith my life they will mold
I am Tied to u
And u Tied to me
I had tried pulling backwards
But cuffs dont work that way
She had went loose on me
I am in fight or flight
She is in ecstasy
And she might go all night tonight
But she swear to me she changed
Well that’s all u had to say
I could save a life yea
Just by taking mine yea
Wait until I drink now
Now Let me run this by ya

Mod
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up
Everybody’s here and were all on drugs
She said pull my hair
I guess its called tough love
I just dropped my walls
I just shown my heart
Its just part of the night when I go to throw up

a_nightmare (jabarionthebeat x armen)

@harvest @sewerperson

𝘭𝘺𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘴:

𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦
𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘬
𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘮 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺
𝘛𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦
𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘶 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦
𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘷𝘦
𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘮 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵
𝘜𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘹𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘦 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘦𝘴
𝘏𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘳𝘺
𝘌𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘈𝘵𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘤𝘰𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴
𝘚𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸
𝘖𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘦
𝘏𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥
𝘎𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘶
𝘚𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘢𝘧𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘴
𝘉𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘔𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘣𝘶
𝘐 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘬 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯
𝘖𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶
𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦
𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘢𝘧𝘦
𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴
𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘰𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦
𝘛𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦
𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦
𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘬
𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘮 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺
𝘛𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦
𝘐𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

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my everything (ft. sewerperson + harvest)

lyrics:

He is not the one
I am not the one
But damn im pretty close
But we just playing on frail love 
With me baby just picket the bag wallet or watch he on the fence about it like he put the for sale up
Im eating heavy on these beats while he just picking the kale up
That jealousy in his cells and im just Pushing the bail up
She text me 20 times I read it all at once like baby im picking the mail up

I could say some shit I shouldn’t
But I keep it all to me
I could say some shit u wouldn’t like
She like oh u think u socrates
Bitch words are my job yea
Id bless u thru my teeth
If u talk cordially
Yea I aint have a choice to be great no no I just gotta be yea
Oh im really ready
Bitch im ready Freddy
I pull up with my guys like ed ed and eddy
I stack soup cups
I guess This that alphaghetti
Why would I need a therapist with half a bokkle left of remy
Random ass face tryna fuck me right
Catch me in a time when my confidence spiked
That only comes when im drunk and high
Like that one song U lucky that im both tonight
Running my fade I dont try to attract static
If I let the goons out they gon reek havoc
Boy u fucking with the scum u got to have brain damage
They gon leave u with a wound that u unable to bandage
My conscience put me right but my brain made me an addict
Count the money I had spent on liquor Id by a patek
If its not in the bank then I keep it in the attict
I dont know his bitch but he all mad she my fanatic

He is not the one
I am not the one
But damn im pretty close
But we just playing on frail love 
And ive had plenty times where it turn into a stale love
Im not tryna be cold im just scared imma fail love
I pull on this bape over my head and I vibe
I think about the moment where I know I shouldve died
So Even when im down im still grateful im alive
If u touching down turn around im in my mind for the night

the2 (jabarionthebeat x kxvi x lavish)

lyrics:

Bottle shots and the bottles gone
This that I could barely walk yea
She like all this fighting turn me on
But im not mad im just talking
These girls treats me like projects
Make peace well im at peace u shadow boxing lets go
This the reason I dont romance too often lets go
Concrete inside my heart it doesn’t soften no more
I just need a drink so I can stomach this hoe

Red light Stop signs Baby swerve
I knew When I hurt she said shed do me worse u fucked
I was warned but I still travelled blind yea
Now I dont need no one im calling mine yea
Ok every day I been high yea
Every day on my own she in my mind yea
Still im so damn happy when im alone uh uh
Please dont hit my phone when im in my zone uh
Yea it is not fair how im left with this bleeding heart
I could fill my fridge with the blood ive gave
Take me as u would if I wasn’t so grey
I just wanna feel something other than pain

Make peace well im at peace u shadow boxing lets go
This the reason I dont romance too often lets go
Concrete inside my heart it doesn’t soften no more
I just need a drink so I can stomach this hoe
Circuitry in me pulled me apart cause of it
Even in my dreams I cant help but think of it
But im still me still breathing im still the shit yea
Just like how she think she the one like she that bitch yea
Bottle shots and the bottles gone
This that I could barely walk yea
She like all this fighting turn me on
But im not mad im just talking
These girls treats me like

weak_stomach (jabarionthebeat x dasda)

lyrics:

I was just tryna help I couldn’t care bout how they hate on me
Why u asking someone I never met to hear they take on me
If u tryna be funny I aint laughing where the punchline at
Growing up I would’ve died if I aint learn to bounce back
I think im playing dress up in this bitch with all this bape on me
U aint got a rack upon that rack but I 8 on me
Not a dry text but my boy said “I got that k on me”
Baby I live fast out here I told u do not wait on me
I am not no bop it for u hoe so please dont play with me
My friends something like family u would think at night they ate with me
Plus they all some dogs if they ate they eating pedigree
Told u if u feel a way about someone tell me hastily
Why u think the water moving up in the bitch
I grew out the gutter on my crocodile shit
I got a hole inside my heart that im unable to fix
Bitches come and go but u stay inside the mix
U pretty outside but on the inside u sick
And Theres no skin care routine out there to fix that shit
Dropped from the game but I resurrected
Im getting money now look what I did
Yea im really really on
Must be sour knowing after all u really wrong
Man I put that on me
Man I put that on god
And id put that on my seed but I got plenty children up inside the flow
This a nightmare
But u dont wake up from it
Girl im right here
On the stratosphere
Me and jabari on this comet we reside here We alright here

They drop me at the vibe
U cannot see my side
She cannot get inside
Im like Baby im sorry I tried
I get a whole tank
Im tryna quench the pride
20 deep with my guys
Feel like im ten foot five

I dont care im turnt up
God blessed me im live
They fill his face with red dots
No acne not no hives
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I dont know if he dies
I dont know very much
I just know that im alive
Please oh please dont test me im afraid ill get too messy
With his bitch in tellys on my time she get too wetty
Blow in this bitch confetti
Swear imma blow in this bitch like Betty
Pressing me here u stagnant 
We so deep in this bitch its pregnant

They drop me at the vibe
U cannot see my side
She cannot get inside
Im like Baby im sorry I tried
I get a whole tank
Im tryna quench the pride
20 deep with my guys
Feel like im ten foot five

night t3rror (jabarionthebeat x lucabeats)

lyrics:

From this treatment I was buried
But from this dirt I will grow
I took 2 its getting scary
But when I hurt I evolve

Some how I keep on breathing
I couldn’t tell u the reason
I think I need me some Jesus
Cause half of my guys are some demons
They got the arms like tarantula
Ion play games castlevania
Kush had put me in Andromeda 
Bitch im the shit im the enema
I think I made me some enemies
And half of them once were a friend of me
They tryna bring me calamity
I was just happy they thought of me
That 42 spill in my arteries
Giving my anger to fix our dichotomies
U put in work for the salary
I put in work its a part of me

All this emotion I push out my mouth in this bitch and u still shleep
I couldn’t have it I made it my goal to be humble and gain cheese
Everything i ever brought to my name came right out from my own teeth
I do not make new friends because plenty of people betrayed me
I just been getting high yea
I cant be teary eyed
People look up to me
I just cannot see why
I stay up touring just thinking in bed
How we would be if it was up to my head
I just checked in baby
I was going to call u
I dont want to talk about it
Until u lower the volume
Itching at my skin baby
She like I control u
Im thankful for my sins
Cause it taught me that u sin too

Some how I keep on breathing
I couldn’t tell u the reason
I think I need me some Jesus
Cause half of my guys are some demons
They got the arms like tarantula
Ion play games castlevania
Kush had put me in Andromeda 
Bitch im the shit im the enema
I think I made me some enemies
And half of them once were a friend of me
They tryna bring me calamity
I was just happy they thought of me
That 42 spill in my arteries
Giving my anger to fix our dichotomies
U put in work for the salary
I put in work its a part of me

i_evolve (jabarionthebeat x dasda x moneyevery)

lyrics:

Where im from this double up batchy inside of my bowl imma call it a Big Mac
For somebody wary of artists she taking my phone just to add me snapchat
Late at night I hear the tone when she text me to ask me if she could attack that
I am ethereal off this smoke I need liquor right now and id bounce back
Me and my guys just arrived u would think its a funeral how in all black
She let me know that she close I could make it out the Buick when turned in the cul-de-sac 
She like this banter is printer im liking how u lay it down and its all fax
Baby im being myself u should try it this life way too short to be scared of that
I really gave u the world
But u had just wanted my heart
Im way to cautious I couldnt do that cause last time they ripped it apart
I been content in this state tho
I said that the last time
But no way its the last time
Baby im only human
And love is what were defined by
Promise u won’t cry
Promise u won’t cry
Promise u won’t cry
Promise u won’t cry

slo-fi-interlude (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

On that night shift uh uh
One time I was scared of it
But I know the vibe
I know its a part of the ride
I could feel my heart still beating
So I know that im alive
U should speak ur mind
My mama told me thoughts will eat u up that stay inside
So I Let that shit slide
Im just here to help tho
Cause I could handle mine
No dreams all nightmares
When I close my eyes

Y y z All the way in New York
On this flight im high
On this flight I pour it up
U just might cry
If u felt what I bottle up
Tears Never do shit but fill the cup
I Never do shit but fill my cup
I Couldn’t solve shit but I dont give a fuck
Problems come with growing up I just stack em up
Im on different shit every day I was throwing up
Way deep inside
Deep inside my mind
Tell me will u ride for me
If I lose the fight
Two two pills
Only double shots
Out like a light
Now Out of my mind

On that night shift uh uh
One time I was scared of it
But I know the vibe
I know its a part of the ride
I could feel my heart still beating
So I know that im alive
U should speak ur mind
My mama told me thoughts will eat u up that stay inside
So I Let that shit slide
Im just here to help tho
Cause I could handle mine
No dreams all nightmares
When I close my eyes

d33p inside (jabarionthebeat x elaye)

lyrics:

Everything I ever said to myself if my head it done came true
Waking up I dont wanna do it I pop me perc and im brand new
30 on 30 on 30 I think that my skin finna turn blue
I couldn’t deal with the pressure this shit happened quickly on two twos
Drinking and smoking some cookie in here until I am not able to move
She wanna fuck me raw but I dont want pussy I want brain
Some of these girls so trife they dont want connection they want fame

Ok ok
I have not eaten in four days
Fitting my fits too loosely
But None of my shit been bootleg
Woah
Pouring myself ace
Fuck it I pour this whole ace
Checking my phone she thirsty
She give me head like Olay
Said she dont fuck with artists
But she had ubered to me unwanted
She know I got a good night in my pocket
Everything I do she tell me shed pop it
Bitch u need to off it
Im here singing on beats for profit
U could easily be replaced
Right now im tryna be off of my face
Im blowing cookie and orange and purple.  until I am falling in deep space
Im tryna fuck u I fuck u and dip out this bitch and the convo get erased
Im going crazy and crazy and crazier I dont think I wanna drop pace
Im tryna push it till I couldn’t do it but lately I start to deteriorate 

Everything I ever said to myself if my head it done came true
Waking up I dont wanna do it I pop me perc and im brand new
30 on 30 on 30 I think that my skin finna turn blue
I couldn’t deal with the pressure this shit happened quickly on two twos
Drinking and smoking some cookie in here until I cannot move
She wanna fuck me raw but I dont want pussy I want brain
Some of these girls so trife they dont want connection they want fame

blU (jabarionthebeat x david)

lyrics:

That's all the fuck you said to me is 
K
Tell me, should I come a different day
U busy so am I but I could wait
I got stops along the way that I could make
Something bout let's go our separate ways
Wish that you could tell me to my face
I don't got my jersey on today 
So why you always tryna fuckin' play?

And when the rain falls down she still asking me to open up
But im too busy on my own with all this growing up
Back of the bus on my hands I been throwing up
So I cant hit u back right now
Maybe it was something else
I could barely hold myself
Let alone reach out
Snow White
Winter nights
Morning rain
And frostbite
Were born we love and then we die
But I believe there’s more to life
Every single k, alright n that’s fine
I could feel that something wouldn’t sit right
I reach into my mouth to find my own words
Girl id guard u with my life Im like ur soldier

K
That's all the fuck you said to me is 
K
Tell me, should I come a different day
U busy so am I but I could wait
I got stops along the way that I could make
Something bout let's go our separate ways
Wish that you could tell me to my face
I don't got my jersey on today 
So why you always tryna fuckin' play?

k2 (jabarionthebeat x deephartt)

Stop waiting for a good thing when god is presenting them right in front of you and you're just being too lazy to work for it. Get up. Chase that dream. Stop wasting time. Don't be like me. (Lyrics down below)

Check out the wonderful person who made this song possible
Instagram : @midsummer_94
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Art by Jaakko Pallasvuo
http://jaakkopallasvuo.com/

Lyrics:
I was sitting there
Drinking all my sorrows away
Don’t care about the next day
It don’t matter to me
Cause if I woke up I would do it over again
It was a bad habit but I was losing my win 
I had my towel ready
Call it a TKO Growing mad
Changing fast Then my mental broke
This life will make you choke
I know it’s hard to grow 
But I can tell you that it’s better just to grow
Than mold So don’t you stay in the dark
Don’t get too cold
Turn them rocks at your feet into gold
Be your own best friend Take a second to live
Then get up go out Try to make it again 
And I know that it’s difficult Don’t be so cynical
Pessimistic tendencies
Twist and turn realities Until you’re nothing but a seed
Now you’re craving water
Cause you’re roots are nothing but a dream
It’s a sad case
When them kids break
And they think fate
Is a real thing Cause they’re whole lives
Was a hard time
And it seemed that
There’d never be a day that wouldn’t reek In a sea
Of deceptive things 
I stay praying for em
I want them all to shine
But it’s up to them if they wanna ride the grind
It’s a crazy rail
It’s still for the frail
Don’t be worried if you fail
There’s still honey there A lesson to be learned To help you gain what’s earned There’s several different possibilities Mysteries Find what’s in the Evergreen Chase a dream
Make it all reality Love yourself Keep it cool don’t flaunt the wealth
Lest it be a lesson or a message Coming to you from his presence Could be walking on a path
To a crash for some cash
So keep your head up Or that doubt will turn to fear
It’ll keep ya mind suppressed And you may never reveal What’s behind those opportunities That’s shining in your face Cause I’m guilty of my preaching Don’t you try to take my place We don’t have to be the same
It’s a simple word exchange And if it hits a single soul
Then the message will retain
Yes god 

Was steady waiting Waiting for my tomorrow But nothing will come
If I lay in the sun And pretend that I’m okay
Said no more waiting Waiting for my tomorrow I gotta believe Stay growing like tress
Find the lord I’ll be okay 
Was steady waiting Waiting for my tomorrow But nothing will come
If I lay in the sun And pretend that I’m okay
I’ll be okay

waiting for tomorrow (prod. by midsummer)

BRAND NEW SINGLE TITLED "LONER" BY iON LIL GUT !
LONER VIDEO OUT NOW : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wswcg2UkK_o
PRODUCED BY : iOF

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iON- LONER (Prod. iOF)

lyrics
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i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

all i ever might be

new video for "highschool" out now! https://youtu.be/W00tTrHoaCo

highschool

thank you so much

lyrics:

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

i was, chillin, waiting for you to call back
dbz on the flatscreen all that

and you know just what you mean to me
every time i wake i'm down to give you all my energy

people sayin that i'm next up
i just passed these rappers autopilot in my tesla

and i get real low when the sun don't shine
so you know that ima get real high

and i could rap
till my heart collapse
i won't ever heal
i keep drinking writing songs so i can see if i can feel

i remember how your silhouette danced in the moonlight
fireflies and love in the air by the poolside

yeah i'm a lover not a cool guy
i miss kissin in the mood light
i think the whiskey had us tipsy
would you text me if you miss me girl i'll love you till my heart dies

they say its all in your head
its all in yr mind
we keep thinkin that we're broken we could change on a dime

and i ain't ever felt the same unless i'm rollin it up
i spark the J then take the L because i'm missin yr touch

and i keep wishing on the stars
i can't see 'em are there any left?
portland's real polluted 
or i'm dreaming, or i'm really dead

i turn the lights down low when i'm thinking of her
i'm thinkin wishin on the stars can't hurt

moonlight

CHORUS (Snøw & Powfu)
tears are falling
always crying
you keep calling
love is dying

i’ve been stalling
i’ve been trying
i can see our
love is dying

SNOW
i know that you’ve been calling
ignoring you is best for me
dont tell me you think i believe
anything you’d have to say
anything
anything
you’d have to say

POWFU
never gave me love
never gave me what i needed
saw me falling down
but then you chose to leave me bleeding
wonder why i hate you
girl i got too many reasons
all over the map got emotions like the seasons

SNOW
dont say i
dont say i didn’t try
so many restless nights i
hearing you cry your mind
i swear you love to fight

COZYBOY
i swear you love to fight
you love to cry
you never give it up
in the middle of the night
you love to be right
you dont care to even try
you love to be right
so i gotta say goodbye

spotify

love is dying (Snøw, Powfu, & cøzybøy)

stare at all the pictures on the wall
crack that whippet then I fall
fade to bliss then stand up tall
might take another trip out to the mall
blow that cash on Saint Laurent
spark that joint then lay dormant like
wake up from my slumber
then I stumble out the door
each day it blends it never it ends, I stopped keeping that score
my ego pleading nose is bleeding I just need some more
that glass I'm gonna pour till my body hit the floor
~
I don't really know how to get back
I just lose control and I go mad
present is the only thing that matters that don't mean to get so fucked up you cannot see the shatters in the glass
time is moving fast
your actions in the present shape your future fuck the past
I write out on computers all these letters just to last
now just take a look at me I'm rapping so damn fast

Woah
I know
I cannot fuck with 9-5
this music shit best fly up high
in that space ship
20,000 miles in the sky
lets just face it 
I don't really wanna fucking  try
light that blunt, hit yes I'm thinking that I'm going blind
in this maze bitch and you gotta find that golden line
find your place quick, just before you run out of your time

just rewind that
and you'll find that
every fucking second wasted of your time man
every single kiss and every single touch man
it's all temporary.
back in February
had a thought about just running from this sanctuary
had that knife against my jugular
thought about it, kinda hurts
ultimately I don't know what stopped me but I'm glad I'm cursed

I don't really know how to get back
I just lose control and I go mad
present is the only thing that matters that don't mean to get so fucked up you cannot see the shatters in the glass
time is moving fast
your actions in the present shape your future fuck the past
I write out on computers all these letters just to last
now just take a look at me I'm rapping so damn fast

fuck that shit I gotta hit slow
ya'll be missing every note
I be on another time frame
flip the fucking beat onto it's toes
when I'm feeling blue I know
pink can help me write some more flame

lost inside my mental and I know
I've been losing all control
and these flows just help to numb pain
yes i'm sure you know just how it goes 
gotta fill the void in full
and Ignore all of the time waste

Losing Control II [prod. pink]

fun while it lasted.


if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
get knocked down try again, get so nervous that I up chuck
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

You know I have no self control no need to fabricate the truth
then we can talk about the good times and all the evil things you do
Made a world full of your bullshit tried to fill my head with lies
so when I tell you that I’m leaving it should come as no surprise

no surprise, why’d i try? just to end up here again
fooled me once, fooled me twice, fooled around with all your friends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
Get knocked down and try again, but get so nervous that I up chuck 
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

maybe i could learn to skate 
or play guitar to compensate
for all the little secrets that i keep
cause my dreams warned, be on the ball.
i took advantage of it all 
she was my girl, lights in my world, my everything.
then life said sike, why’d you try? 
just to end up here again?
fooled you once fooled you twice, please don’t tell me it ends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

lame

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

October 2021

Zach Klosterman